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Nate was woken by CD squirming and kicking and repeating "NO" & "Get Away" & "Help". He knew this was the first of many nightmares to come. "CD, sweetie wake up, you're having a nightmare." He told her keeping as calming of a tone as he could in his voice. He rubbed her back trying to help her back from 'nightmare land' as she had nicknamed it when she was a teenager. She woke up and after catching her breath she rolled back into his arms and looked up at him "Nate.he was back, I felt him and saw him and could smell him." She whispered clinging to him afraid her rapist would come back. "You're safe CD, he's not here, I'm never going to let anyone hurt you again, I promise." he told her. "Nate, I'm so scared of going through this again, I don't know if I can make it sweetie." "You can do this CD and I'll be here all the way if you want me to, have faith in us and yourself." "Thank You, right now I really need you." "I'm right here." He replied. "Nate, how would you feel about going down to the division in the morning?" "Are you going to work?" "No, I have to look at mug books for awhile." She told him "Then sure I'm right there wit you." "thanks, do you know if Jin is going to be there.tomorrow or well today?" "No, sorry I don't why?" "Well when we were at the hospital I kinda murmured something to myself about not wanting to go thorough this again and she kinda heard." CD informed him "That really stinks sweetie, are you ok with her knowing?" Nate questioned. "I'm not sure, I mean it had to come out sometime and if I would have told anyone it probably would have been Jinny anyway." She replied and snuggled even deeper into Nate's arms, seeking comfort from somewhere she didn't know. "Its your choice if you want to tell her more but you have my support either way." "thanks I think I wanna talk to her today, I need to get this out or it is going to make this that much harder." She told him. "I don't mean to sound controlling but do you think the division is the best place?" he questioned. "No, I was thinking about asking her if she wanted to come over after work for awhile cuze I really need to be with friends right now, why don't you see if Jack wants to go out for awhile, you seem like you need a break and Jin will be with me and I'll be safe."
"If you're ok with it and Jin and Jack are free then its all good, you wanna try and go back to sleep?"
"Yah lets try, I don't know though." She replied and then allowed herself to try and drift to sleep thinking as happy of thoughts as she could to try and deter the nightmares. She drifted off into a deep sleep. Nightmares came and went though the night. She left Nate sleep to be alone with her memories both from when she was 15 and new memories from that night trying to process everything that had happened in the last ten hours and al the memories of when hse was 15 it had brought back.
Nate was woken by CD squirming and kicking and repeating "NO" & "Get Away" & "Help". He knew this was the first of many nightmares to come. "CD, sweetie wake up, you're having a nightmare." He told her keeping as calming of a tone as he could in his voice. He rubbed her back trying to help her back from 'nightmare land' as she had nicknamed it when she was a teenager. She woke up and after catching her breath she rolled back into his arms and looked up at him "Nate.he was back, I felt him and saw him and could smell him." She whispered clinging to him afraid her rapist would come back. "You're safe CD, he's not here, I'm never going to let anyone hurt you again, I promise." he told her. "Nate, I'm so scared of going through this again, I don't know if I can make it sweetie." "You can do this CD and I'll be here all the way if you want me to, have faith in us and yourself." "Thank You, right now I really need you." "I'm right here." He replied. "Nate, how would you feel about going down to the division in the morning?" "Are you going to work?" "No, I have to look at mug books for awhile." She told him "Then sure I'm right there wit you." "thanks, do you know if Jin is going to be there.tomorrow or well today?" "No, sorry I don't why?" "Well when we were at the hospital I kinda murmured something to myself about not wanting to go thorough this again and she kinda heard." CD informed him "That really stinks sweetie, are you ok with her knowing?" Nate questioned. "I'm not sure, I mean it had to come out sometime and if I would have told anyone it probably would have been Jinny anyway." She replied and snuggled even deeper into Nate's arms, seeking comfort from somewhere she didn't know. "Its your choice if you want to tell her more but you have my support either way." "thanks I think I wanna talk to her today, I need to get this out or it is going to make this that much harder." She told him. "I don't mean to sound controlling but do you think the division is the best place?" he questioned. "No, I was thinking about asking her if she wanted to come over after work for awhile cuze I really need to be with friends right now, why don't you see if Jack wants to go out for awhile, you seem like you need a break and Jin will be with me and I'll be safe."
"If you're ok with it and Jin and Jack are free then its all good, you wanna try and go back to sleep?"
"Yah lets try, I don't know though." She replied and then allowed herself to try and drift to sleep thinking as happy of thoughts as she could to try and deter the nightmares. She drifted off into a deep sleep. Nightmares came and went though the night. She left Nate sleep to be alone with her memories both from when she was 15 and new memories from that night trying to process everything that had happened in the last ten hours and al the memories of when hse was 15 it had brought back.