***********************************************************************CHAPT ER 12: THE PRODUCT OF LOVE *********************************************************************** "I hate Bernadette." Lo seethed at dinner. Bernadette was sitting at the Slytherin table, her back towards us. "I wonder how Remus is doing." I wondered sadly, staring at the full moon in the sky, reflected by the enchanted ceiling. "He is used to it." Sirius said quickly, a saddened look in his eyes. "Yeah." James agreed, but shoved food in his mouth, as an excuse to stop talking. "Oh shit." Haven grumbled. "What?" Lark asked looking around. "Them." Haven whispered pointing at Snape, Lestrange, Nott, Avery, Bellatrix and... "Hello Bernadette." Lo said her voice dangerous and spiteful. "Good evening to ya." She sneered. My best friend, just sneered at me... "Aww where is that hidoeus little pale boy, that always hangs around?" Bellatrix asked. "If you are refering to Lupin, and I am sure, you are since he is the hideous pale boy, I believe he went home to his 'mommy'. He gets horrible homesickness." "Ohh Snivelly, you have crossed the line." Sirius's eyes flashed and he jumped up in a second his wand jammed agianst Snape's throat. "Give me a friggin reason and your dead." Sirius hissed in his ear. "Get him off me!" Snape begged his friends. "We are not risking detention for you! What are we hufflepuffs?" Bellatrix rolled here eyes, snapped her fingers and lead her friends bacvk to her table. "GET OFF OF HIM SIRIUS BLACK." McGonagall called from her staff table, makiing a move to get up, as Sirius jumped off of Snape sliding his wand back into his robes, his eyes still flashing, glowing with a livid fire. "You wanna know what happens to Remus every month, you nosy, disgusting git?" Sirius said hs face inches from Snape's. "I bet he goes home to shag with his 'Mommy" Snape growled. Sirius leaned even closer. WE couldn't hear what he said, but Snape's eyes crinkled into a snide smile and when Sirius sat back down, his face was set with savage satisfaction. "What the hell did you tell him?" Lo asked anxiously. "I told him-" Snape had dashed out of the great hall. "You told him what?" James gulped tyring to keep his tone calm. "I told him how to get into the whomping willow." Sirius grinned. "I told him how to find, a fully grown werewolf because that sorry basterd is going to get what he deserves, to be torn apart to ity, bity peices of slime." Sirius was breathing heavy, the fire hadn't died from his dark eyes. 'YOU IDIOT! WE ARE GOING TO GET EXPELLED! AND WHAT ABOUT REMUS, HOW IS THIS GOING TO AFFECT HIM YOU SELFISH BAD TEMPERD LITTLE PRAT?" James yelled so loudly the entire hall seemed to stop talking, James bolted out the door after Snape. "I reckon you should't have done that Black." Lo said patting Sirius on the back. Sirius smiled. "I hope Remus kills him." He said and went back to eating. "You don't mean that?" I asked. "How much do ya wanna bet?" Sirius ran his hand through his hair. "I'll just take your word for it." I suddenly realized that James was risking his life for Remus and Sirius, and more surprusingly, Snape. I grinned. "Why the are you smiling?" Lo asked, her brow furrowed. "Because James is so brave." I said shutting my eyes and picturing, James bursting in the place where Remus transforms, and fighting off the werefwolrf with his wand grabbing Snape and running as fast as he can, sweat shining on his face, glasses slightly ascue, but his expression would be determined and serious, just like when he catches the snitch. Hhe would save Snape and out run Remus...He was a hero...My hero. "UH Lily hello? Dinner is over." Lo was waving her hand in front of my face, "OH!" I jumped up, blushing. "Sorry." I smiled. "HE COULD BE DEAD! THEY ALL COULD BE!" Peter burst into sobs, Sirius rolled his eyes. "Get a grip, will you?" Sirius snapped as we went up to the entrance hall. Peter sniffed and shot Sirius a dirty look as we left the great hall. "He isn't dead?" I asked Sirius trying not to sound anxious. Sirius went pale. "No." He gulped. "Could he be?" Lo asked sharply. Sirius simply shrugged. "Lets go do homework." Lark suggested. "Yeah, lets go do homework." I reapeated my voice sounding hollow. We went to through the portrait and sat on chairs, taking out books and quills and staring at the same line in the book, waiting for James, or McGonagall telling us their had been an accident. A half and hour passed.,then an hour and a magical voice echoed throughout the school. "Ulyssus Avery, Bellatrix Black, Sirius Black, Lily Evans, Rodophlus Lestrange, Peter Pettigrew, Lo Ping, Bernadette Shadow and Andrew Nott, please report to the headmasters office." I couldn't move. Lo put an arm around me. I saw Bernadette who looked puzzeled stand up and leave without a glance at us. Sirius and Peter stood waiting for Lo and I at the door, and we walked in silence through the halls, stopping in front of two stone gargoyles. I had lost all sense of where I was, I could only think one thing 'Please don't let James be dead,. Please don't let James be dead, Please don't let James be dead, Please don't let James be dead...' "Welcome." Professor McGonagall and the Slytherins arrived, the Slytherins looked perplexed with the Gryffindors somber faces, and had no clue why they were here, did they not realize their friend could be dead too? The gargoyles suddenly jumped aside I walked like a robot up the stairs behind Lo. "You are all here because your friends were involved insomthing that could have resulted in their death." Dumbledorr spoke seriosuly, but I wasn't listening. James was leaning agaisnt the wall, flushed and tired, but alive. "What happened?" Bellatrix inquired raising her eyebrows at the headmaster. "Well Ms. Black, I am afriad I cannot give you the details, however you owe Mr. Potter a thank you for saving Mr. Snape's life. "I would die before I thanked Potter." Bellatrix said glaring. "So would I!" Snape turned to Potter and spit on him. James smiled. "I saved your life, because your pathetic and weak and too stupid and nosy to avoid sticky incedents." James said still breathing heavy. "LIAR! I WAS TRICKED BECAUSE HIS FRIEND-" "THAT IS ENOUGH SEVERUS!" Dumbledorr roared. "Mr. Snape you will keep this secret or be expelled is that understood?" Dumbledorr did not have his usual twinkle in his blue eyes. "Yes professor." Sape grunted moodily. "Good, I called you all here to inform you that your friends are indeed, okay and Mr. Potter will be receiving a special services award for immersuable bravery. And Mr. Black, may I remind you that murder is the product of hate, and murders are also the product of hate or neglect. May you be more than a product of hate, and rise above all that has driven you thus far. You may all go." Dumbledor said and turned away from us all. "Well, did you not hear your headmaster? Your dismissed." Professor McGonagall said walking around the desk to talk to Dunmbledor, and in a single-file line we exited the office. "James!" I squealed and threw my arms around him. "Are you proud of me Lily?" he asked. I kissed him on the cheek. "Is that a yes?" he grinned and kissed me on the forehead. "Aaaah isn't it sweet?" Bellatrix said sarcastically. "At least someone wants to kiss Lily, you hag." Peter spoke up, Sirius smiled approvingly. "You think no one wants to kiss me?" Bellatrix laughed tossing her dark hair from her face. "Listen, you fat little muggle, Every boy in the Slytherin house wanst to kiss me. Do you know why? I'm beautiful and I don't take an shit from gits like you." She waved her wand and a wart appeared on the tip of Peter's nose. "Now, don't ever talk to me like that agian." Bellatrix grinned. "I hate you." Sirius said looking at Bellatrix and Snape. "Thats the nicest thing you have ever said to me." Bellatrix smirked snapping her fingers leading her friends away with her. "See you at breakfast Bernadette." She called behind her shoulder. "Hope you all rot in hell!" Snape smiled oily before leaving with his friends. "Next time, tell Bellatrix how to find Remus as a werewolf. I wont bother trying to save her." James joked sliding his hand into mine. "Why did you save Snivellus?" Sirius pouted. "I don't want you or Remus to get expelled. Do you ever think before you do things padfoot?" James asked. "Nope." Sirius slapped James on the arm in a brotherly fashion. "God your an idiot." James laughed. "So are you." Sirius teased. "We all are, can we stop with the flirting." Lo asked. "Flirintg with padfoot?" James doubled over laughing. "I think she knows about our realtionship, pumpkin pie." Sirius said dramatically. "She just can't know, love muffin!" James looked aghast. "Oh dear, darling, I am afriad we were too obvious." Sirius grinned, that was too much for all of us. I could hardly believe and hour ago I thought James might have been dead. My James was too tough to die. My hero was to perfect to ever die. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "I am not the prodict of hate!" Sirius suddenly yelped at breakfast the next day. Lo snorted into her orange juice. "Little slow are we, hun? You were called the product of hate yesterday."Lo laughed. "Bellatrix, that is the product of hate. No one ever loved the bitch and so she hates everything. Can you blame her parents for not loving her? She's horrible." Sirius said watching his cousin pick lazily at her toast staring at the ceiling from the Slytherin table. "Everyone should be loved by their parents, even gits like Bellatrix." I gave Sirius an reproving look. "Not Bellatrix." Lo disagreed. "Yes, Bellatrix. Maybe if she was the product of LOVE then-" But no one heard listened because they were laughing too hard. "The product of love?" Sirius chocked . "You should be a motovationtal speaker or write greeting cards or somthing." James grinned when he finally stoped laughing. "Thanks, James." I smiled. "Lily is our product of love, because since everyone loves her, she loves everyone." Lo bantered. "awwww! Lily is MY product of love! You hear that none of you can have her! She is MY product of love!" James hugged me, I giggled. "Oh my god, This is gonna make me hurl, why would anyone want to be romanitc? Who invented this romantic, fluffy trash." Lo groaned. "Your the same way around your werewolf." Sirius reminded her. "Shut up, Black." Lo snapped. "I think Lo is the product of anger." Sirius said shaking his head sadly. "And your the product of sarcasm." Haven flashed a grin at him. Remus entered the great hall. "And there is our product of the moon." James waved Remus over. "And wittle Jamsie kins is Lily's product of love." Sirius said. "If you ever call me 'wittle Jamsie kins agian." James waved his wand threateningly. "Hey guys." Remus sat down next to Lo, and imediatly slid his hand into hers. "Do you remember what happened?" Sirius asked nervously. "What? Do you mean Snape seeing me, and James grabbing him and running from me? Nah, I can't remember." Remus muttered sarcastically. "Sorry about telling Snape where to find you...He um kinda pissed me off." Sirius avoided Remus's eyes. "I figured as much. No harm done Padfoot, old friend." Remus smiled. "Oh! Its a beautiful moment!" Haven exclaimed. "Let's go to class, your all the product of love and this happiness is giving me the urge to curse you all into fruit bats." Lo complained. "Okie dokie! Don't be such a prat though, be happier Lo! be a product of love like me and Lilz." James advised. "I hate you Potter." Lo chuckeled. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "Its Halloween get up! All if you! We are supposed to go to Hogsmeade in an hour!" Haven pulled apart the curtains. "Damn it, it can't be morning all ready. I hate morning." Lo whined pulled her pillow over her face. "You will be spending the day with Remus." Lark reminded her. The pillow was thrown across the room and Lo was on her feet in a second. "Lets get ready. Rise and shine!" Lo smiled, then smacked her self. "Don't EVER let me be that god damned perky ever agian." she said shaking her head. Bernadette rolled out of bed yawning. Lo walked by her "accidently" dropping her hair brush on Bernadette's head, and grabbed it back without a word. "Be more careful, you scum." Bernadette rubbed her head. "Who the hell do you think you are?" Lo whipped around her dark eyes glinting dangerously in the automn sunlight streaming in through the windows. Bernadette stood up, she was shorter than Lo, but looked just as fierce, glaring through narrowed ominous gray eyes. "Don't you ever talk to me like that agian you traitoring bitch." Lo slapped Bernadette across the face. "Your on the losing side Ping!" Bernadette shouted. "YOUR ON THE LOSING SIDE, NOT US! SO GO BACK TO YOUR SLYTHERIN FRIENDS SO YOU CAN DIE A COWARD! SO YOU CAN DIE AS BELLATRIX'S LAPDOG!" Lo screamed. "I would rather be Bellatrix's lapdog than your friend!" Bernadette yelled back, tears falling down her face. "I would rather die than be your friend." Lo hissed, "Good! I hope you do die!" "I hope you starve to death in Azkaban." "I hope the Dark Lord makes you suffer."

"Get the hell out of my face." Lo grabbed her robes, threw them on and stormed out of the dorm. I finished brushing my teeth and went up to Bernadette. "What do you want?" she snapped. "I don't want you to go to Azkaban, or suffer or die. I just want you to realize your mistake before you or anyone else gets hurt." I said in a small voice. "I don't need you to worry about whether I made a mistake or not, mudblood." she said blinking away more tears. "Fine." My voice was icy. "I want nothing else to do with you, ever." I left the dorm and just before I shut the door I felt someone hold me back. "Wait for us Lily?" Haven asked pointing to her and Lark. I blinked, confused "Some people are stil on your side." She winked. "Sure, I'll wait for you." I smiled. "You people make me sick." Bernadette left the dorm. "Gods what made her such a bitch?" Haven asked. "Fear, I suppose." I said sadly. "Okay I'm ready!" Haven grinned at her reflection in the mirror. "Great, lets go." I bounded down the stairs. "Well, well,well someone FINALLY decided to wake up." James teased as we left the portrait hole together. "So, I bet you could hardly sleep last night, the excitment of being in my fabulous company kept you up, right?" James asked. Lo snickered. "Come on Jamsie kins, you know that YOU were the one having trouble sleeping." I joked. "You know me too well, my product of love." He wraped his hand in mine. "No, I don't know you well enough," I said. "Well then let us get to know each other better." he smiled. "STOP IT! S-T-O-P I-T! YOU TWO SOUND LIKE YOU BELONG IN A FRIGGIN ROMANCE NOVEL!" Lo shouted frustrated. "Don't mind Lo, its her time of the month." I teased. "Why do I bother with you people?" Lo asked. "Because you love us." I piped. "Yes, Lo we are your honey buns." Sirius pinched her cheek. "Don't EVER do that agian." Lo glared. I laughed as we continued out past the gates, into the village. "So what are we doing first?" Sirius asked rubbing his hands together. "Let's go to zonkos." James lead the way down the street as the rest of us hurried to catch up with him. His glasses glinted in the ocober sunlight, he reminded me of a greek god for a second. "Lily, um why are you staring at James?" Lo asked smiling. "I wasn't." I lied quickly. "Yoiur blushing. oooo Lily has a crush." Lo teased. "Oh shut up." I laughed. "Ya, Ping lay off. We already know about Lily's undying affection for Jamsie Kins." Sirius said. "Undying affection? Sounds like a soap opra." I said thoughtfully. "A soap opra? What?" Sirius asked laughing. "I know what you mean Lily." Haven chortled. "I don't. What is a soap opra?" Lo asked. "Its a muggle thing." I said quickly. "All righty." James laughed and put his arm around mine. "ATTENTION EVERYONE PLEASE REPORT BACK TO HOGWARTS IMEDIATLY, FURTHER INSTRUCTIONS WILL BE ISSUED LATER" The voice of Professor Dunmbledoor boomed throughout the village amoung screams. "Whats going on?" I asked frightened. "What the hell?" Sirius asked taken aback. The sun seemed to have disapeared behind the clouds, the abiance was tense and anxious.

"Why are we standing here? Come on! James grabbed my hand and began to have drag me with him as we ran to the gates. "What could have happened." I panted trying to keep up with James as the rest of our friends jogged behind us. "Its not good, whatever it is." He said frowning. "No really?" Sirius yelled sarcastically from a few feet back. I felt as nervous as I had when James had chased Snape into the whomping willow. What else could have happened to inflict such panic and terror. We entered the gates to Hogwarts Professor Flitiwck was standing there. "Go to your dorms imediatly." He sqeaked hasitly. My heart raced and pounded liudly on my rib cage as I ran acorss the grounds hardly feeling the jabbing cramp in my side of the cold air stinging my lungs. "I thinkI jst realized what happened." James gasped and turned around. A scream of pure horror escaped my ips but I didn't hear the sound. I was paralyzed with fear as I saw what stood in front of us. A body lay slumped on the foor, serval other sutdend ran away and a teacher came racing us the steps. I shut my eyes still screaming. This had to be a nightmare. But it wasn't, it was all too real.

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