CHAPTER 14:Never agian, no, never agian.
IMPORTANT!!!!!!!!!!! words in ***Are lyrics taken from the song "Ur a god" by Vertical Horizon"***
"My wonderful students, young witches and wizards I have yet, another announcement for you all. Now that we approach the third week fo November, I feel It is time you shoudl began to prepare yourselves. I daresay, you wont find this bit of news nearly as horrible as the last announcement, btu you never know perhapes some of you may not be too thrilled. I, myself, am happy to inform you that-"---LAST CHAPTER ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "-This year we will be conducting a Yule Ball on Christmas night. The Yule Ball, is usually associated with the Triwizard tournament, however this year, under the less than admirable circumstances of the wizarding world, we feel that is is crucial that students from all houses, backgrounds, and belief systems can join together and enjoy this night. Everyone house and year is invited. Prehapes you will come out of it all the richer with a new sense of open mindness, and even if you don't it will give you all a chance to show off the dress robes you were required to buy this year and find a nice dance partner. Now, lets eat!"
A chatter broke out imediatly in the great hall.
"This is awesome!" Haven giggled tossing back a sheath of curly, golden blonde hair.
"Its okay." I said thinking of my pretty red dress robes.
"Wanna be my date Lily?" James asked grinning, and ruffling his hair with one hand.
"Um, lets discuss is when its less than a month away." I said awkwardly.
"Oh, well, Okay." James shrugged, but looked a little disppointed. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"I just don't know who to go with! I mean, TONS of boys have asked me and I just don't know who to say yes to!" Haven sighed two weeks later in Divination class.
"Jeez Haven, go with your mirror, you spend more time with it, then anyone else." Lo sneers.
"Haha." Haven grumbles sarcastically.
"And I think you like your mirror more than any guy." Lo added thougthfully.
"Yeah, well if you looked like me, you'd spend a lot of time with your mirror too!" Haven shot at Lo, defensivly.
"If I looked like you, I'd spend a lot of time with a paper bag over my head." Lo grinned. Even Lark laughed, while Haven blushed and relocted her self to another table with Lark following after her, trying to surpress undenailble laughter.
"Good one, Lo." I smiled. Haven truley was beautiful, but a little blow to her inflated ego, wouldn't do any harm.
"Ya, aren't I clever?" Lo smiled.
"I think so." Remus threw his arms aroud Lo's stomach and sat next to her.
"God people, can't we cut the PDA's?" Sirius complained as he and james plopped down next to me.
"Get over it Black." Lo snaps kissing Remus on the cheek. Sirius dealt out one of the tarot cards we were supposed to be reading.
"I can see something!" Sirius yells suddenly jumping up.
"What is it Padfoot?" James asked grinning.
"Remus and Lo are gonna go to the Yule Ball together...who would have known?" Sirius said dramatically.
"I wonder what gave him that impression?" I asked James sarcasticaslly as Lo cuddles closer to Remus.
"Hmmm... I haven't got a clue." James replied softly so only I could hear. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "My dress robes are pink!" Haven said later that night in the girls dorm. She held a long light pink dress robe in front of her.
"Mine are Purple!" Lark grinned taking out her purple robes that looked simlar to Haven's.
"Black. Mine are Black." Lo said taking out sleeveless black dress robes.
"Dark red." I pulled out my robes that were so dark red they almost looked purple.
"They're very pretty Lily, just like you. Aww, aren't you bloody perfect?" Bernadette grinned suddenly, her normally soft feautres distorted into a snide smile, that didn't suit her at all.
"What do you want Shadow?" Lo asked rasing her eyebrows. Bernadette kept smiling, before taking her wand.
"Crucio." She hissed and the common room was filled with Lo's screams. Bernadette raised her wand seconds later.
"Go ahead Ping, have me arrested." Bernadette sat down on the bed looking eager.
"I'D RATHER KILL YOU!" She jumped up, on unsteady feet, as Haven and I held her back.
"I'd love to see you try." Bernadette stood and faced us her eyes narrowed with contempt.
"The dark lord will kill you all." She huffed leaving the room abrputly.
"I hate her." Lo said her face red and blotchy. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ A month later the December winds blew harshly across the now snowey Hogwarts grounds. Three weeks until the Yule Ball, and until Christmas. Hatred still burned inside of me for Bernadette, though I wasted no time trying to talk to her. Haven, Lark and me still hadn't decided on a date for winter ball. As I walked to breakfast I still had no idea how I felt about James. I only knew I couldn't stop thinking about him. Every conversation I'd try and have, his face wouold pop up. I resented him, as I much as I liked him. I was going crazy. I sat down next to Lo at the Gryffindor table, the enchanted ceiling was swiriling gray as a light snow fell.
"Hey Lily." Lo said brightly as she munched on her porridge.
"Lily, I was wondering if you made up your mind about going with me to the Yule Ball?" James said suddenly.
"I don't really know exactly..." I said uncomfortably.
"Just say 'yes' and be done with it Lily. Honestly you can be such a pain in my arse." Lo snorted.
"Uh, Haven, do you wanna go with me?" Sirius asked casually eyeing her shiney hiar and full lips.
"Sure, I'd love to!" Haven grinned.
"Lark, would you like to be my date?" Peter asked fumbeling with the table cloth and not meeting Lark's face at all.
"I'd be honored!" Lark blushed and I was secretly grateful for Sirius and Peter for shifting the attention away from me and James.
"Ugh, you people make me sick sometimes." Lo said
"Why?" Haven asked annoyed.
"Your just so cute! All paired up, our whole group, its like adorable!" Lo said in a mock breathy voice.
"Your not the only one who is allowed to have a date." Haven said glaring at Lo.
"I realize that, Hart, but seriously I feel like we should all get married and star in a muggle sitcom, its diusgusting." Lo snapped.
"Lo, Calm down." I said comfortingly
"Yeah, whatever." Lo rolled her eyes.
"Get over it Ping, what is it your time of the month or soemthing?" Sirius asked rolling his eyes back at her.
"Fuck you, Black." Lo jumped up and left the great hall.
"I'll go talk to her." Remus said chasing after his girlfriend.
"You were a little to harsh with her Sirius." I said agitated.
"She was being a complete bitch!" He retorted.
"You weren't helping!" I shot back.
"All of you shut up. Jeez." James said frowning. He wasn't in the greatest mood either, as Gryffindor had only beaten Slytherin by 40 points in Quiddich the previous weekend.
"Fine." I tossed my hair over my should and went to find Lo and Remus.
"Lo?" I called when I got into the hallway. All I heard was silence.
"Lo?" I yelled agian as I walked down the corrider, the faces in the painting s gave me reproving looks as I shouted for my friend.
"Lily!" Remus ran up to me, his face pale.
"Whats wrong? Where's Lo?" I asked startled by the look on his face.
"Follow me!" He grabbed my hand and dragged me down another corrider.
"Lo, whats wrong?" I asked softly seeing my best friend curled up in a heap sobbing. She looked up at me through bloodshot eyes, her face soaked with fresh tears. Her dark eyes looked like glass as more tears fell from them.
"What's wrong?" I asked agian feeling a chill creep up my spine.
"Callisto.." She began, then shook her head.
"What about her?" I asked stroking Lo's hair in an effort to clam her down.
"Is she hurt?" Remus asked.
"I wish." Lo hissed
"Is she-" But I couldn't bring myself to ask the question "Is she like Bernadette" I didn't want to know the answer.
"She is with THEM! The god damned Slytherins!" She said whipping tears from her eyes furiously.
"Its okay honey!" I tried to hug her, she tried to push me away. I stepped away feeling hurt, until she stood up and threw her arms around me.
"Lo, she will come around." Remus assured her.
"Oh really?" Lo asked breaking away from me, immeasureable anger etched on her face.
"If she has plans on 'Coming around' I don't give a damn! She is sick! Twisted! Her and Bernadette and Bellatrix are best friends now! She is dating Snape, she makes me bloody sick and I hope I never hear from her agian. I LOVED HER! I fucking loved her." Lo sunk back into me, as her voice died and gave way to more sobbing. I need to pay more attention to my friends whenever they start acting differnt. I couldn't believe I had let this go unnoticed...just like when Bernadette's brother died. I began to cry too. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Christmas eve wasn't as happy an occasion as it had been in the past. My head swam with memories of last year's Christmas. When Lo's sister didn't even go to Hogwarts, when Bernadette was still my best friend. When no one was fighting and I wasn't forced to make a decision about James when I didn;t trust anyone. I had made a decision to go dateless to the yule ball. No one ever died from going stag. James, and the seventh year Ravenclaw who had asked me, would get over it.
The common room was adorned with boughs of Holly and small patches of mistle toat lined the ceiling. Lo and Remus has choosen seats under mistle toe and were spending the night playing exploding snape and kissing each other. Sirius seemed almost embarrsed to eb around Haven and he and James (Who was also going dateless) sat in the corner throwing things at first years. Lark and Peter sat on opposite sides of the room too, but kept glancing at each other and giggiling.
I had gifts for everyone in the care of one of the school's Owls, who wouold deliever their preseants once they were asleep. I sipped my hot coco, which was provided for all the inhabitants of the common room that night. James and Sirius began to sing alterd versions of Christamas carols, where the lyrics involved insulting Slytherins. Exhasuated of all the festive cheer, I drank the last of my hot chocolate and retreated to the dorm, falling alseep at once. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~""Time to wake up Lily!" Lo grinned throwing balled up wrapping paper at me. I threw the covers over my head and smield widley at the pile of presants resting at the foot of my bed.
"I unwrapped yours first." Lo grinned agian holding up the diary I had gotten her. It was black, with the gryffindor crest embedded on it.
"Like it?" I asked.
"Of course." Lo hugged me breifly and then opened her next parcel. I opened Lo's gift first and found a golden chain with "Lily" written on a charm that dangeled from it. "Lily" Cganged from red to blue to green to purple every half a minute. Next I opened a box of Bernie Bott's every flavor beans and Chocolate frogs from Lark. Haven got me a Book entitled "The Big Book of Witches and Wizards Fairy Tales"
"You guys are the best." I said to my three best friends. Sirius got me a bracelette that had "Lily Loves James" engraved on it. I laugehd and rolled my eyes beofre putting the bracelette in my trunk. My parents had sent me more muggle clothes and fresh parchment and quills. Two more gifts lay on my floor as I picked up the first one and it was from, unsurprisingly, James. I was fully expecting a snitch, and got ready to grab it as I unwrapped the box.
Instead of a snitch their was a small note and a draw string velvet bag which wouldn't stop moving. "Dear Lily,
I know you probabley were expecting a snitch, but I thought I would be more imaginative. There are two things in the velvet bag. One is a snitch...I couldn't resist. The way I have such a hard time catching it, the way I care about it more than the damn thing knows, and its undescribable beauty and grace, reminds me of you. I also bought you Faerie dust. Sprinkle it around.
Yours forever if you want me, James"
I opened the bag a little and sure enough the snitch propelled itself out covered in a fine layer of light green, silver, sky blue and light pink dust that flew off the snitch, turned gold and hoverd in the air sparkling like a jewel before it slowly drifted to the gound,.
"Wow, he REALLY likes you." Lo said smiling. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I had forgotton to open the second presant, as Lo, Lark and Haven hustled me out of the dorm for breakfast. James stood at the bottom of the stairs his hazel eyes lighting up when he saw me.
"Hey Lily." He grinned and offered me his arm.
"We're just going to breakfast James, I don't need and escort" I grinned.
"Aw Lilz, don'tcha see? Jimmy here, wants to be your escort." Sirius teased.
"Don't ever call me Lilz." I shuddered.
"And I'll wring your lovle neck padfoot ol' bud, if you EVER call me 'Jimmy' agian." James smiled.
"Allrighty Jamsie Kins, no need to get your broomsticks in a knot, I was just joking with ya." Sirius said and slid down the railiing of the stair case as we entered the greathall for breakfast.
"So are we going to the ball tonight as dates?" James asked trying to malke his voice sound un concerned with my reply.
"Um, actaully I thought I'd just go stag. You know.... alone. It would be better for me." I said turing away from him to pour myself pumpkin juice.
***I've got to be honest, I think you know.***
"Oh, well uh....thats cool then. I don't mind, we can still hang out." He said with a very forced smile.
***We're covered in lies and that's okay.***
"Great I knew you'd understand." I smiled gobbling down the rest of my breakfast and retreating to the common room. The common room had a sense of Christmas cheer that I tried to absorb. I couldn't help feeling as though I had done something wrong.
***There is somewhere beyond this, I know!*** ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The ball seemed to be a lot of trouble, I thought as I carefully painted glitter around my eyes. Haven entered the dorm from the bathroom. She looked unbelievable.
"Do you have any veela blood?" Lark asked in awe of her best friend.
"I'm muggle born, so I don't even know what a veela is. Does that answer your question?" Haven said absentmindedly attaching diamoind earings in front of her mirror.
"Well, you look amazing, is what Lark is trying to convey." Lo said sulkily staring at Haven.
"You look great too, Lo!" I said quickly, and it wasn't a lie. She looked gorgeous.
"So do you." Lo said a small note of envey in her voice, which I tried to ignore. I added a coat of light pink lipstick and added some emerald earings to complete my ensemble
"Ready to go downstairs your guys?" Lark asked, not looking even slightly pretty in comparision to the rest of us.
"Ya, lets go." I agreed leading the way into the common room. James stared at me unblimingly his eyes fixed with admiration and annoyance. He left before I culd even get down the staircase.
***I hope I can find the words to say-***
"Shall we go, ma cherie?" Sirius asked Haven grinning at her.
"Of course, my dear." Haven said linking arms with him. Lo and Remus walked out of the protairt hole hand-in-hand and Peter and Lark followed. The walked to the Yule Ball seemed to take an incredably amount of time, being dateless.
"Hey James!" I called to him merrily as we entered the great hall.
"Hi." He said rather stiffly and turned around.
"Wanna dance?" I asked him as a song started up.
"Not really, maybe later." He said sitting down to eat dinner.
***Never again no, no never agian***
"Uh, okay." I said blushing and sat next to Lark and Peter who had chosen to eat dinner before dancing.
"Come on Lily, Dance!" Lo said smiling brightly.
"No, thats okay." I shot a quick glance at James. who was looking determindly away from me.
"James, why wont you dance with me?" I asked feeling hurt as Lo walked back to Remus.
"I'm not good enough to be your date." He said sharply.
*** 'Cause you're a God, and I am not***
"What?" I asked shocked.
"Well, why did you turn me down then?" he demanded.
"I don't know!" I said trying not to shout. ***And I just thought that you would know-***
"Well that's not a very good reason to break someones bloody heart!" He yelled.
***That you're a God, and I am not***
"I never wanted to hurt you James." I said softly.
"Uh-huh I'm sure." He stood up.
"Where are you going?" I asked in almost a whisper.
"None of your buisness." he said back.
***And I just thought I'd let you go.***
"Fine" I said so quietly I knew I was the only one who heard.
"Nice dress robes Lily, very flattering." Lark said trying to sound cheerful.
"Thanks Lark." I tried to look like I was in a good mood.
"So what are you ladies ordering to eat?" Peter asked smacking his lips at the menu.
"Pork chops!" Lark exclaimed and they appeared on her plate.
"I'll have Duck L'orange." I said watching the magnificent dish appear.
"Veal Parmeason!" Petere said excitedly and dug into his food as it rested on his plate. I waited almost ten minutes before James retruend to his seat.
"I was hoping you'd come back soon." I said trying to sound happy.
"Like you care." James said rolling his eyes.
***And I've been unable to put you down.***
"I really never meant to hurt you." I said honestly.
***I'm still learning things, I oought to know by now***
"Just forget it." He said clenching his fists.
"I;m forgiven?" I asked taken aback.
"Whatever." he said shrugging and picking up his menu.
***Its under the table so, I need something more to show somehow.***
"So what are your going to get?" I asked James trying to start a conversation. I was dumbfounded I cared so much about James not being mad at me, after I hadn't gone to the dance with him. I just couldn't loose him, I couldn't...
"Prime rib." He said and smield as it magically apperated to his plate.
"Cool, huh?" I asked casually.
"Oh yes, Brillant." He said with a hint of sarcasm.
***Never agian no, no never agian.***
"Hey!" Lo grinned at us, as she and Remus sat next to me.
"Having fun?" Remus asked us all. James snorted.
"Of course." Lark said dreamily as Peter[put a chubby arm around her bony shoulders.
"Good." Remus said warmly while he and Lark ordered garlic chicken.
"I don't even want to think abotu what your breath is gonna smell like." James teased Remus who winked at James.
"Your brushing your teeth before we kiss." Lo said kissing him breafly on the cheek beofre eating her chicken.
"How do you know we're gonna kiss?" Remus joked.
"I'm a seer." Lo said in a mystical voice.
"Of course you are." Remus said laughing. I waited about 20 minutes before our plates were cleared.
"Wanna dance now, James?" I asked nervously.
"Let me digest my food, and then maybe." he said sipping his pumpkin butter beer.
***'Cause you're a God and I am not, and I just thought that you would know.***
"Oh, well okay I should digest my food too!" I said.
"Yep." James put his head down in his arms looking as though he were trying to sleep. He looked so cute, with his hair almost neater than usual and his glasses askew as he tried to look tired and asleep.
***You're a God and I am not.***
Twently minutes passes James looked asleep still.
***And I just thought-***
A boy from Ravenclaw walked to our table. He was in our year and his name was Cadel Goldstien.
"Wanna dance Lily?" He asked holding out his hand to me. I glanced at James who was still looking asleep.
***And I just thought I'd you go.***
"Yeah, sure." I left the table behind me and a slow song played as I leaned onto Cadel.
"So how has your night been Lily? Who is your date?" He whispered in my ear.
"I decided to go stag. My night has been okay." I was lying about my night being okay.
"I wanted to go stag too. Am I making your night any better?" He smiled.
"Of course." I returned the smile. The song ended as we danced through three more. I looked at James who was looking at me.
"Um Cadel?"
"Yeah Lily?" He asked.
"There is someone else I kinda wanted to dancw with." I said shyly.
"I understand. Thanks for brightening my night." He smiled and walked off.
"James?" I said walking back to where I had been seated.
***I;ve got to be honest, I think you know.***
"I really was asleep earlier if thats what you want to know." He said.
***We're covered in lies, and that's okay.***
"Um, not exactly." I said smiling at his obvious lie. He smiled too and my heartr skipped a beat, I hated feeling so much for the guy I turned down in the first place.
***There's somewhere beyond this, I know***
"Um, do you wanna-"
***But I hope I can find the words to say-***
"Yeah." James said before I even finished my sentence.
"I was being a git before." James held my hand as we danced.
***Never agian no, never agian***
"I know you were." I smiled.
"Can you forgive me?" He asked giving me puppy-dog eyes.
"Of course." I said as we kissed and the rest fot eh night dissolved. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~AN: SORRY IM A TID BIT LATE!!! I really love you guys (My readers). The last few weeks I have had: a Good Charolette concert, Homecoming, time with my friends, tons of school work, and bronchitis (sp?) well, what I'm trying to say is Thanks for all your reviews and being v. faithful readers. NOW REVIEW. I went through all that and still put together a chapter and I NEED YOUR INPUT SO REVIEW!!! I need reviews or I will stop spending so much time for you all.
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IMPORTANT!!!!!!!!!!! words in ***Are lyrics taken from the song "Ur a god" by Vertical Horizon"***
"My wonderful students, young witches and wizards I have yet, another announcement for you all. Now that we approach the third week fo November, I feel It is time you shoudl began to prepare yourselves. I daresay, you wont find this bit of news nearly as horrible as the last announcement, btu you never know perhapes some of you may not be too thrilled. I, myself, am happy to inform you that-"---LAST CHAPTER ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "-This year we will be conducting a Yule Ball on Christmas night. The Yule Ball, is usually associated with the Triwizard tournament, however this year, under the less than admirable circumstances of the wizarding world, we feel that is is crucial that students from all houses, backgrounds, and belief systems can join together and enjoy this night. Everyone house and year is invited. Prehapes you will come out of it all the richer with a new sense of open mindness, and even if you don't it will give you all a chance to show off the dress robes you were required to buy this year and find a nice dance partner. Now, lets eat!"
A chatter broke out imediatly in the great hall.
"This is awesome!" Haven giggled tossing back a sheath of curly, golden blonde hair.
"Its okay." I said thinking of my pretty red dress robes.
"Wanna be my date Lily?" James asked grinning, and ruffling his hair with one hand.
"Um, lets discuss is when its less than a month away." I said awkwardly.
"Oh, well, Okay." James shrugged, but looked a little disppointed. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"I just don't know who to go with! I mean, TONS of boys have asked me and I just don't know who to say yes to!" Haven sighed two weeks later in Divination class.
"Jeez Haven, go with your mirror, you spend more time with it, then anyone else." Lo sneers.
"Haha." Haven grumbles sarcastically.
"And I think you like your mirror more than any guy." Lo added thougthfully.
"Yeah, well if you looked like me, you'd spend a lot of time with your mirror too!" Haven shot at Lo, defensivly.
"If I looked like you, I'd spend a lot of time with a paper bag over my head." Lo grinned. Even Lark laughed, while Haven blushed and relocted her self to another table with Lark following after her, trying to surpress undenailble laughter.
"Good one, Lo." I smiled. Haven truley was beautiful, but a little blow to her inflated ego, wouldn't do any harm.
"Ya, aren't I clever?" Lo smiled.
"I think so." Remus threw his arms aroud Lo's stomach and sat next to her.
"God people, can't we cut the PDA's?" Sirius complained as he and james plopped down next to me.
"Get over it Black." Lo snaps kissing Remus on the cheek. Sirius dealt out one of the tarot cards we were supposed to be reading.
"I can see something!" Sirius yells suddenly jumping up.
"What is it Padfoot?" James asked grinning.
"Remus and Lo are gonna go to the Yule Ball together...who would have known?" Sirius said dramatically.
"I wonder what gave him that impression?" I asked James sarcasticaslly as Lo cuddles closer to Remus.
"Hmmm... I haven't got a clue." James replied softly so only I could hear. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "My dress robes are pink!" Haven said later that night in the girls dorm. She held a long light pink dress robe in front of her.
"Mine are Purple!" Lark grinned taking out her purple robes that looked simlar to Haven's.
"Black. Mine are Black." Lo said taking out sleeveless black dress robes.
"Dark red." I pulled out my robes that were so dark red they almost looked purple.
"They're very pretty Lily, just like you. Aww, aren't you bloody perfect?" Bernadette grinned suddenly, her normally soft feautres distorted into a snide smile, that didn't suit her at all.
"What do you want Shadow?" Lo asked rasing her eyebrows. Bernadette kept smiling, before taking her wand.
"Crucio." She hissed and the common room was filled with Lo's screams. Bernadette raised her wand seconds later.
"Go ahead Ping, have me arrested." Bernadette sat down on the bed looking eager.
"I'D RATHER KILL YOU!" She jumped up, on unsteady feet, as Haven and I held her back.
"I'd love to see you try." Bernadette stood and faced us her eyes narrowed with contempt.
"The dark lord will kill you all." She huffed leaving the room abrputly.
"I hate her." Lo said her face red and blotchy. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ A month later the December winds blew harshly across the now snowey Hogwarts grounds. Three weeks until the Yule Ball, and until Christmas. Hatred still burned inside of me for Bernadette, though I wasted no time trying to talk to her. Haven, Lark and me still hadn't decided on a date for winter ball. As I walked to breakfast I still had no idea how I felt about James. I only knew I couldn't stop thinking about him. Every conversation I'd try and have, his face wouold pop up. I resented him, as I much as I liked him. I was going crazy. I sat down next to Lo at the Gryffindor table, the enchanted ceiling was swiriling gray as a light snow fell.
"Hey Lily." Lo said brightly as she munched on her porridge.
"Lily, I was wondering if you made up your mind about going with me to the Yule Ball?" James said suddenly.
"I don't really know exactly..." I said uncomfortably.
"Just say 'yes' and be done with it Lily. Honestly you can be such a pain in my arse." Lo snorted.
"Uh, Haven, do you wanna go with me?" Sirius asked casually eyeing her shiney hiar and full lips.
"Sure, I'd love to!" Haven grinned.
"Lark, would you like to be my date?" Peter asked fumbeling with the table cloth and not meeting Lark's face at all.
"I'd be honored!" Lark blushed and I was secretly grateful for Sirius and Peter for shifting the attention away from me and James.
"Ugh, you people make me sick sometimes." Lo said
"Why?" Haven asked annoyed.
"Your just so cute! All paired up, our whole group, its like adorable!" Lo said in a mock breathy voice.
"Your not the only one who is allowed to have a date." Haven said glaring at Lo.
"I realize that, Hart, but seriously I feel like we should all get married and star in a muggle sitcom, its diusgusting." Lo snapped.
"Lo, Calm down." I said comfortingly
"Yeah, whatever." Lo rolled her eyes.
"Get over it Ping, what is it your time of the month or soemthing?" Sirius asked rolling his eyes back at her.
"Fuck you, Black." Lo jumped up and left the great hall.
"I'll go talk to her." Remus said chasing after his girlfriend.
"You were a little to harsh with her Sirius." I said agitated.
"She was being a complete bitch!" He retorted.
"You weren't helping!" I shot back.
"All of you shut up. Jeez." James said frowning. He wasn't in the greatest mood either, as Gryffindor had only beaten Slytherin by 40 points in Quiddich the previous weekend.
"Fine." I tossed my hair over my should and went to find Lo and Remus.
"Lo?" I called when I got into the hallway. All I heard was silence.
"Lo?" I yelled agian as I walked down the corrider, the faces in the painting s gave me reproving looks as I shouted for my friend.
"Lily!" Remus ran up to me, his face pale.
"Whats wrong? Where's Lo?" I asked startled by the look on his face.
"Follow me!" He grabbed my hand and dragged me down another corrider.
"Lo, whats wrong?" I asked softly seeing my best friend curled up in a heap sobbing. She looked up at me through bloodshot eyes, her face soaked with fresh tears. Her dark eyes looked like glass as more tears fell from them.
"What's wrong?" I asked agian feeling a chill creep up my spine.
"Callisto.." She began, then shook her head.
"What about her?" I asked stroking Lo's hair in an effort to clam her down.
"Is she hurt?" Remus asked.
"I wish." Lo hissed
"Is she-" But I couldn't bring myself to ask the question "Is she like Bernadette" I didn't want to know the answer.
"She is with THEM! The god damned Slytherins!" She said whipping tears from her eyes furiously.
"Its okay honey!" I tried to hug her, she tried to push me away. I stepped away feeling hurt, until she stood up and threw her arms around me.
"Lo, she will come around." Remus assured her.
"Oh really?" Lo asked breaking away from me, immeasureable anger etched on her face.
"If she has plans on 'Coming around' I don't give a damn! She is sick! Twisted! Her and Bernadette and Bellatrix are best friends now! She is dating Snape, she makes me bloody sick and I hope I never hear from her agian. I LOVED HER! I fucking loved her." Lo sunk back into me, as her voice died and gave way to more sobbing. I need to pay more attention to my friends whenever they start acting differnt. I couldn't believe I had let this go unnoticed...just like when Bernadette's brother died. I began to cry too. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Christmas eve wasn't as happy an occasion as it had been in the past. My head swam with memories of last year's Christmas. When Lo's sister didn't even go to Hogwarts, when Bernadette was still my best friend. When no one was fighting and I wasn't forced to make a decision about James when I didn;t trust anyone. I had made a decision to go dateless to the yule ball. No one ever died from going stag. James, and the seventh year Ravenclaw who had asked me, would get over it.
The common room was adorned with boughs of Holly and small patches of mistle toat lined the ceiling. Lo and Remus has choosen seats under mistle toe and were spending the night playing exploding snape and kissing each other. Sirius seemed almost embarrsed to eb around Haven and he and James (Who was also going dateless) sat in the corner throwing things at first years. Lark and Peter sat on opposite sides of the room too, but kept glancing at each other and giggiling.
I had gifts for everyone in the care of one of the school's Owls, who wouold deliever their preseants once they were asleep. I sipped my hot coco, which was provided for all the inhabitants of the common room that night. James and Sirius began to sing alterd versions of Christamas carols, where the lyrics involved insulting Slytherins. Exhasuated of all the festive cheer, I drank the last of my hot chocolate and retreated to the dorm, falling alseep at once. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~""Time to wake up Lily!" Lo grinned throwing balled up wrapping paper at me. I threw the covers over my head and smield widley at the pile of presants resting at the foot of my bed.
"I unwrapped yours first." Lo grinned agian holding up the diary I had gotten her. It was black, with the gryffindor crest embedded on it.
"Like it?" I asked.
"Of course." Lo hugged me breifly and then opened her next parcel. I opened Lo's gift first and found a golden chain with "Lily" written on a charm that dangeled from it. "Lily" Cganged from red to blue to green to purple every half a minute. Next I opened a box of Bernie Bott's every flavor beans and Chocolate frogs from Lark. Haven got me a Book entitled "The Big Book of Witches and Wizards Fairy Tales"
"You guys are the best." I said to my three best friends. Sirius got me a bracelette that had "Lily Loves James" engraved on it. I laugehd and rolled my eyes beofre putting the bracelette in my trunk. My parents had sent me more muggle clothes and fresh parchment and quills. Two more gifts lay on my floor as I picked up the first one and it was from, unsurprisingly, James. I was fully expecting a snitch, and got ready to grab it as I unwrapped the box.
Instead of a snitch their was a small note and a draw string velvet bag which wouldn't stop moving. "Dear Lily,
I know you probabley were expecting a snitch, but I thought I would be more imaginative. There are two things in the velvet bag. One is a snitch...I couldn't resist. The way I have such a hard time catching it, the way I care about it more than the damn thing knows, and its undescribable beauty and grace, reminds me of you. I also bought you Faerie dust. Sprinkle it around.
Yours forever if you want me, James"
I opened the bag a little and sure enough the snitch propelled itself out covered in a fine layer of light green, silver, sky blue and light pink dust that flew off the snitch, turned gold and hoverd in the air sparkling like a jewel before it slowly drifted to the gound,.
"Wow, he REALLY likes you." Lo said smiling. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I had forgotton to open the second presant, as Lo, Lark and Haven hustled me out of the dorm for breakfast. James stood at the bottom of the stairs his hazel eyes lighting up when he saw me.
"Hey Lily." He grinned and offered me his arm.
"We're just going to breakfast James, I don't need and escort" I grinned.
"Aw Lilz, don'tcha see? Jimmy here, wants to be your escort." Sirius teased.
"Don't ever call me Lilz." I shuddered.
"And I'll wring your lovle neck padfoot ol' bud, if you EVER call me 'Jimmy' agian." James smiled.
"Allrighty Jamsie Kins, no need to get your broomsticks in a knot, I was just joking with ya." Sirius said and slid down the railiing of the stair case as we entered the greathall for breakfast.
"So are we going to the ball tonight as dates?" James asked trying to malke his voice sound un concerned with my reply.
"Um, actaully I thought I'd just go stag. You know.... alone. It would be better for me." I said turing away from him to pour myself pumpkin juice.
***I've got to be honest, I think you know.***
"Oh, well uh....thats cool then. I don't mind, we can still hang out." He said with a very forced smile.
***We're covered in lies and that's okay.***
"Great I knew you'd understand." I smiled gobbling down the rest of my breakfast and retreating to the common room. The common room had a sense of Christmas cheer that I tried to absorb. I couldn't help feeling as though I had done something wrong.
***There is somewhere beyond this, I know!*** ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The ball seemed to be a lot of trouble, I thought as I carefully painted glitter around my eyes. Haven entered the dorm from the bathroom. She looked unbelievable.
"Do you have any veela blood?" Lark asked in awe of her best friend.
"I'm muggle born, so I don't even know what a veela is. Does that answer your question?" Haven said absentmindedly attaching diamoind earings in front of her mirror.
"Well, you look amazing, is what Lark is trying to convey." Lo said sulkily staring at Haven.
"You look great too, Lo!" I said quickly, and it wasn't a lie. She looked gorgeous.
"So do you." Lo said a small note of envey in her voice, which I tried to ignore. I added a coat of light pink lipstick and added some emerald earings to complete my ensemble
"Ready to go downstairs your guys?" Lark asked, not looking even slightly pretty in comparision to the rest of us.
"Ya, lets go." I agreed leading the way into the common room. James stared at me unblimingly his eyes fixed with admiration and annoyance. He left before I culd even get down the staircase.
***I hope I can find the words to say-***
"Shall we go, ma cherie?" Sirius asked Haven grinning at her.
"Of course, my dear." Haven said linking arms with him. Lo and Remus walked out of the protairt hole hand-in-hand and Peter and Lark followed. The walked to the Yule Ball seemed to take an incredably amount of time, being dateless.
"Hey James!" I called to him merrily as we entered the great hall.
"Hi." He said rather stiffly and turned around.
"Wanna dance?" I asked him as a song started up.
"Not really, maybe later." He said sitting down to eat dinner.
***Never again no, no never agian***
"Uh, okay." I said blushing and sat next to Lark and Peter who had chosen to eat dinner before dancing.
"Come on Lily, Dance!" Lo said smiling brightly.
"No, thats okay." I shot a quick glance at James. who was looking determindly away from me.
"James, why wont you dance with me?" I asked feeling hurt as Lo walked back to Remus.
"I'm not good enough to be your date." He said sharply.
*** 'Cause you're a God, and I am not***
"What?" I asked shocked.
"Well, why did you turn me down then?" he demanded.
"I don't know!" I said trying not to shout. ***And I just thought that you would know-***
"Well that's not a very good reason to break someones bloody heart!" He yelled.
***That you're a God, and I am not***
"I never wanted to hurt you James." I said softly.
"Uh-huh I'm sure." He stood up.
"Where are you going?" I asked in almost a whisper.
"None of your buisness." he said back.
***And I just thought I'd let you go.***
"Fine" I said so quietly I knew I was the only one who heard.
"Nice dress robes Lily, very flattering." Lark said trying to sound cheerful.
"Thanks Lark." I tried to look like I was in a good mood.
"So what are you ladies ordering to eat?" Peter asked smacking his lips at the menu.
"Pork chops!" Lark exclaimed and they appeared on her plate.
"I'll have Duck L'orange." I said watching the magnificent dish appear.
"Veal Parmeason!" Petere said excitedly and dug into his food as it rested on his plate. I waited almost ten minutes before James retruend to his seat.
"I was hoping you'd come back soon." I said trying to sound happy.
"Like you care." James said rolling his eyes.
***And I've been unable to put you down.***
"I really never meant to hurt you." I said honestly.
***I'm still learning things, I oought to know by now***
"Just forget it." He said clenching his fists.
"I;m forgiven?" I asked taken aback.
"Whatever." he said shrugging and picking up his menu.
***Its under the table so, I need something more to show somehow.***
"So what are your going to get?" I asked James trying to start a conversation. I was dumbfounded I cared so much about James not being mad at me, after I hadn't gone to the dance with him. I just couldn't loose him, I couldn't...
"Prime rib." He said and smield as it magically apperated to his plate.
"Cool, huh?" I asked casually.
"Oh yes, Brillant." He said with a hint of sarcasm.
***Never agian no, no never agian.***
"Hey!" Lo grinned at us, as she and Remus sat next to me.
"Having fun?" Remus asked us all. James snorted.
"Of course." Lark said dreamily as Peter[put a chubby arm around her bony shoulders.
"Good." Remus said warmly while he and Lark ordered garlic chicken.
"I don't even want to think abotu what your breath is gonna smell like." James teased Remus who winked at James.
"Your brushing your teeth before we kiss." Lo said kissing him breafly on the cheek beofre eating her chicken.
"How do you know we're gonna kiss?" Remus joked.
"I'm a seer." Lo said in a mystical voice.
"Of course you are." Remus said laughing. I waited about 20 minutes before our plates were cleared.
"Wanna dance now, James?" I asked nervously.
"Let me digest my food, and then maybe." he said sipping his pumpkin butter beer.
***'Cause you're a God and I am not, and I just thought that you would know.***
"Oh, well okay I should digest my food too!" I said.
"Yep." James put his head down in his arms looking as though he were trying to sleep. He looked so cute, with his hair almost neater than usual and his glasses askew as he tried to look tired and asleep.
***You're a God and I am not.***
Twently minutes passes James looked asleep still.
***And I just thought-***
A boy from Ravenclaw walked to our table. He was in our year and his name was Cadel Goldstien.
"Wanna dance Lily?" He asked holding out his hand to me. I glanced at James who was still looking asleep.
***And I just thought I'd you go.***
"Yeah, sure." I left the table behind me and a slow song played as I leaned onto Cadel.
"So how has your night been Lily? Who is your date?" He whispered in my ear.
"I decided to go stag. My night has been okay." I was lying about my night being okay.
"I wanted to go stag too. Am I making your night any better?" He smiled.
"Of course." I returned the smile. The song ended as we danced through three more. I looked at James who was looking at me.
"Um Cadel?"
"Yeah Lily?" He asked.
"There is someone else I kinda wanted to dancw with." I said shyly.
"I understand. Thanks for brightening my night." He smiled and walked off.
"James?" I said walking back to where I had been seated.
***I;ve got to be honest, I think you know.***
"I really was asleep earlier if thats what you want to know." He said.
***We're covered in lies, and that's okay.***
"Um, not exactly." I said smiling at his obvious lie. He smiled too and my heartr skipped a beat, I hated feeling so much for the guy I turned down in the first place.
***There's somewhere beyond this, I know***
"Um, do you wanna-"
***But I hope I can find the words to say-***
"Yeah." James said before I even finished my sentence.
"I was being a git before." James held my hand as we danced.
***Never agian no, never agian***
"I know you were." I smiled.
"Can you forgive me?" He asked giving me puppy-dog eyes.
"Of course." I said as we kissed and the rest fot eh night dissolved. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~AN: SORRY IM A TID BIT LATE!!! I really love you guys (My readers). The last few weeks I have had: a Good Charolette concert, Homecoming, time with my friends, tons of school work, and bronchitis (sp?) well, what I'm trying to say is Thanks for all your reviews and being v. faithful readers. NOW REVIEW. I went through all that and still put together a chapter and I NEED YOUR INPUT SO REVIEW!!! I need reviews or I will stop spending so much time for you all.
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