Chapter Twenty-Seven: Rebirth
A/N: Yet again, I do not own J.K. Rowling's marvelous story and characters. The only character I own is Rhane (pronounced 'Rain'.The story's a bit twisted, to warn you-and kinda long. Or at least, it will be. I hope. lol^_^ Please review, and if you must criticize, do it CONSTRUCTIVELY, k? Nothing like, 'oh, Snape's ICKY, no girl would ever go after him.' Or anything like that, k? K. ^_^ Disturbed is very inspiring, too...^_____^ Oh, yes, and in this fic, Draco isn't exactly EVIL, per say.just very, very disturbed, twisted, obsessed and sadistic. ^_^. ^_^'^_^YES it's disturbing, and YES it'll probably get worse.^_^' Please don't review and tell me I'm sick or anything for any of these chapters- after all, it would seem quite silly to have Draco be sadistic and all and not try anything like that on Rhane, you know. Besides, if you've gotten this far, you must not really mind disturbingness. ^_^ Oh, and all poems in these stories, I wrote. (My Creative Writing teacher tells me my poetry is 'gothic'..) ^_^ O_o Whee, I love writing about characters with MPD!! ((Multiple Personality Disorder))^__________^Sorry if this format sucks,I'm on my grandmom's comp.:cheers:I'm back at last!^_^; I'm sorry it took so long.I was very depressed for a bit, much more than usual.but I've managed to bury it mostly now, so.back to writing.^_^;
****************************************************************** THANKS EVERYONE WHO HAS REVIEWED, I'LL ACKNOWLEDGE YOU INDIVIDUALLY IN THE NEXT CHAPTER OR SO!!!! THANK YOU ALL SOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!^_____________^YOUR SUPPORT MEANS SO MUCH!^_^ ESPECIALLY SINCE I MADE YOU ALL WAIT!!!!!
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'Never does the pain end, Even with the tears and the blood- Even with the cries and the despair- It consumes all and kills the soul.
I did not realize anything, I still do not understand what I am feeling- So lost and without any hope of anything turning out right- I feel the pain devour me.
Never does the pain end, Even with the release of emotions- Even with the will to see you happy- It destroys my being and leaves me hollow.
I thought I could just let you go, That I would be alright, That I could hide the agony inside my mind- I was wrong.
And now the pain will never go away, You are gone from my grasp- I let go to let you live a life without the misery I inflict- But you still haunt me and I know it will never end, Even as I become nothing because you were my everything.'
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Draco sat atop the green satin coverlet on his bed, arms curled round his drawn-up knees, staring out the window nearest him at the full moon. As he watched the skies, all bright against the inky velvet night sky, the Slytherin felt a cold tear splash down his smooth cheek. Slowly, almost without intent, Draco rubbed the tear into the skin until it was gone. Without warning, he threw his head into his knees, letting his silver- blonde hair hide his face from the path of moonlight that was guided towards him by the little window.
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Rhane lay awake in her bed. She had been trying to sleep for hours, but had found herself incapable of it-only able to toss and turn-and wonder. Wonder why she felt so broken now, why she suddenly felt-attached somehow-to Draco Malfoy, who had once been her hated, feared archenemy, as well as abusive stalker.
"Why do I feel this way? I don't understand. I should only love one person- ONE person! It makes no sense, no sense at all! I cannot love him, it is insane to think this way!" the Gryffindor whispered to herself, staring into the darkness that her own hands covering her eyes created.
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The moonlight alit on another face, as well. Eggshell-white skin gleamed whiter in the moonlight and the shadows created on the delicate features were blacker than the darkest of evil hearts. Strands of ink seemed to fall across the face-wayward hair that had nowhere else to go. Dark purple eyes stared up from the garden at the silver orb overhead. One slim hand was clutched to his head, his long, tapered fingers covering one of his eyes.
"What have I done wrong? I tried so very hard-everything girls like, I supplied her with. Presents, thoughtful and expensive, salvation, dark romance-What more could she want?! She could not possibly want Draco. Not HIM over me. NEVER. So WHO?! There must be someone. I will find him out, and then-then I will destroy him, somehow, from being anywhere near this competition." His voice was soft yet held an edge that cut through the misty shroud of the still night.
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The dawn hit the closed eyes of Rhane with blinding intensity. Squeezing her eyes to keep them shut, the Gryffindor girl slowly managed to climb from bed, stretch, and adjust to the fact that it was morning. Sighing, she began to dress and go through her usual routine. Finally, Rhane grabbed her books and notebook, and headed out of the Common Room. As she exited, she saw the retreating back that had become so familiar to her lately.
"Draco! Wait, please!" Although part of her screamed 'What ARE you DOING?!?,' the rest of her wanted to take away the broken look in Draco's eyes-as well as the broken feeling in her own heart that she could not explain.
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Slowly, Draco turned. Rhane heard herself gasp at the haunted, pained look in the Slytherin's eyes. The torture in his silvery eyes seemed so great, so deep, that Rhane could not stop herself. Before she realized, she was next to him, her hand touching his cheek. He turned away, without a word, but was stopped short suddenly, his eyes widening with shock and a little confusion.
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Rhane held Draco close to her, her head against his back, for only a few moments, but it seemed as if eternity came and went, as if something had frozen everything. Within a space of a moment, however, she had released him, and felt the flush rising to her face, inching its way towards outward expression of her humiliation.
"Please-I may not love you-but I know I can help you. You benefit not at all while alone in your misery, not with the kind of family-er-pain-you have. Please don't try to tune me out because you think you need to let me go completely, or because you're afraid you will keep treating me the way you have."
Then, Draco spoke, his voice cracking slightly with emotion. "AFRAID I WILL? I KNOW I will, because I cannot help it. Think about THAT before you ask that I not try to 'tune you out,' Rhane." With one swift motion, he seemed to surge with strength, and shoved her into the nearest wall, face split-seconds from hers, odd look in his eyes. He lowered his mouth onto hers and viciously kissed her, biting sometimes and sometimes simply enjoying the taste of her blood. When he pulled back, he clutched his head.
"I'm sorry-but that's just-the way I am. I cannot help-."
"I know." Rhane's voice trembled slightly as she spoke, but slowly began to gain confidence. "But I don't care-NOT that I don't MIND-but I can handle it, as long as I can help you. And I believe I CAN help you. It may take time-but-."
Draco nodded. "Alright. And I promise I will-try to stop myself. But I'm not making any guarantees, I know I won't be able to do something like holding myself back forever. But as long as that's understood-."
Rhane gave one nod and attempted a smile.
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Draco felt himself smile inside, though the smile did not let out bright enough rays to burn through the mists of chaos and confusion inside his mind. Perhaps things would change-even just a little. Perhaps not, but-at least there was HOPE, even though it was merely a tiny speck, almost too small to see at all.
OOC: Well, there you are!! Hope it was alright, I know it wasn't my best- sorry it's short.^_^;
A/N: Yet again, I do not own J.K. Rowling's marvelous story and characters. The only character I own is Rhane (pronounced 'Rain'.The story's a bit twisted, to warn you-and kinda long. Or at least, it will be. I hope. lol^_^ Please review, and if you must criticize, do it CONSTRUCTIVELY, k? Nothing like, 'oh, Snape's ICKY, no girl would ever go after him.' Or anything like that, k? K. ^_^ Disturbed is very inspiring, too...^_____^ Oh, yes, and in this fic, Draco isn't exactly EVIL, per say.just very, very disturbed, twisted, obsessed and sadistic. ^_^. ^_^'^_^YES it's disturbing, and YES it'll probably get worse.^_^' Please don't review and tell me I'm sick or anything for any of these chapters- after all, it would seem quite silly to have Draco be sadistic and all and not try anything like that on Rhane, you know. Besides, if you've gotten this far, you must not really mind disturbingness. ^_^ Oh, and all poems in these stories, I wrote. (My Creative Writing teacher tells me my poetry is 'gothic'..) ^_^ O_o Whee, I love writing about characters with MPD!! ((Multiple Personality Disorder))^__________^Sorry if this format sucks,I'm on my grandmom's comp.:cheers:I'm back at last!^_^; I'm sorry it took so long.I was very depressed for a bit, much more than usual.but I've managed to bury it mostly now, so.back to writing.^_^;
****************************************************************** THANKS EVERYONE WHO HAS REVIEWED, I'LL ACKNOWLEDGE YOU INDIVIDUALLY IN THE NEXT CHAPTER OR SO!!!! THANK YOU ALL SOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!^_____________^YOUR SUPPORT MEANS SO MUCH!^_^ ESPECIALLY SINCE I MADE YOU ALL WAIT!!!!!
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'Never does the pain end, Even with the tears and the blood- Even with the cries and the despair- It consumes all and kills the soul.
I did not realize anything, I still do not understand what I am feeling- So lost and without any hope of anything turning out right- I feel the pain devour me.
Never does the pain end, Even with the release of emotions- Even with the will to see you happy- It destroys my being and leaves me hollow.
I thought I could just let you go, That I would be alright, That I could hide the agony inside my mind- I was wrong.
And now the pain will never go away, You are gone from my grasp- I let go to let you live a life without the misery I inflict- But you still haunt me and I know it will never end, Even as I become nothing because you were my everything.'
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Draco sat atop the green satin coverlet on his bed, arms curled round his drawn-up knees, staring out the window nearest him at the full moon. As he watched the skies, all bright against the inky velvet night sky, the Slytherin felt a cold tear splash down his smooth cheek. Slowly, almost without intent, Draco rubbed the tear into the skin until it was gone. Without warning, he threw his head into his knees, letting his silver- blonde hair hide his face from the path of moonlight that was guided towards him by the little window.
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Rhane lay awake in her bed. She had been trying to sleep for hours, but had found herself incapable of it-only able to toss and turn-and wonder. Wonder why she felt so broken now, why she suddenly felt-attached somehow-to Draco Malfoy, who had once been her hated, feared archenemy, as well as abusive stalker.
"Why do I feel this way? I don't understand. I should only love one person- ONE person! It makes no sense, no sense at all! I cannot love him, it is insane to think this way!" the Gryffindor whispered to herself, staring into the darkness that her own hands covering her eyes created.
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The moonlight alit on another face, as well. Eggshell-white skin gleamed whiter in the moonlight and the shadows created on the delicate features were blacker than the darkest of evil hearts. Strands of ink seemed to fall across the face-wayward hair that had nowhere else to go. Dark purple eyes stared up from the garden at the silver orb overhead. One slim hand was clutched to his head, his long, tapered fingers covering one of his eyes.
"What have I done wrong? I tried so very hard-everything girls like, I supplied her with. Presents, thoughtful and expensive, salvation, dark romance-What more could she want?! She could not possibly want Draco. Not HIM over me. NEVER. So WHO?! There must be someone. I will find him out, and then-then I will destroy him, somehow, from being anywhere near this competition." His voice was soft yet held an edge that cut through the misty shroud of the still night.
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The dawn hit the closed eyes of Rhane with blinding intensity. Squeezing her eyes to keep them shut, the Gryffindor girl slowly managed to climb from bed, stretch, and adjust to the fact that it was morning. Sighing, she began to dress and go through her usual routine. Finally, Rhane grabbed her books and notebook, and headed out of the Common Room. As she exited, she saw the retreating back that had become so familiar to her lately.
"Draco! Wait, please!" Although part of her screamed 'What ARE you DOING?!?,' the rest of her wanted to take away the broken look in Draco's eyes-as well as the broken feeling in her own heart that she could not explain.
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Slowly, Draco turned. Rhane heard herself gasp at the haunted, pained look in the Slytherin's eyes. The torture in his silvery eyes seemed so great, so deep, that Rhane could not stop herself. Before she realized, she was next to him, her hand touching his cheek. He turned away, without a word, but was stopped short suddenly, his eyes widening with shock and a little confusion.
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Rhane held Draco close to her, her head against his back, for only a few moments, but it seemed as if eternity came and went, as if something had frozen everything. Within a space of a moment, however, she had released him, and felt the flush rising to her face, inching its way towards outward expression of her humiliation.
"Please-I may not love you-but I know I can help you. You benefit not at all while alone in your misery, not with the kind of family-er-pain-you have. Please don't try to tune me out because you think you need to let me go completely, or because you're afraid you will keep treating me the way you have."
Then, Draco spoke, his voice cracking slightly with emotion. "AFRAID I WILL? I KNOW I will, because I cannot help it. Think about THAT before you ask that I not try to 'tune you out,' Rhane." With one swift motion, he seemed to surge with strength, and shoved her into the nearest wall, face split-seconds from hers, odd look in his eyes. He lowered his mouth onto hers and viciously kissed her, biting sometimes and sometimes simply enjoying the taste of her blood. When he pulled back, he clutched his head.
"I'm sorry-but that's just-the way I am. I cannot help-."
"I know." Rhane's voice trembled slightly as she spoke, but slowly began to gain confidence. "But I don't care-NOT that I don't MIND-but I can handle it, as long as I can help you. And I believe I CAN help you. It may take time-but-."
Draco nodded. "Alright. And I promise I will-try to stop myself. But I'm not making any guarantees, I know I won't be able to do something like holding myself back forever. But as long as that's understood-."
Rhane gave one nod and attempted a smile.
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Draco felt himself smile inside, though the smile did not let out bright enough rays to burn through the mists of chaos and confusion inside his mind. Perhaps things would change-even just a little. Perhaps not, but-at least there was HOPE, even though it was merely a tiny speck, almost too small to see at all.
OOC: Well, there you are!! Hope it was alright, I know it wasn't my best- sorry it's short.^_^;