Shinigami's Bible: Learning the ways of Death
Chpt 2: Resurrecting souls
I could hear the door open slowly, if my memory served me well I should be in a hospital right now. Laying in a bed in an overly clean room with an I.V. stuck into my arm, well that's comforting. Needless to say my plan backfired, instead of collecting insurance money, my mother was collecting bills. I definitely feel like shit now. Scary thing was I can't believe I actually went through with it. Never in my wildest dreams had I ever thought to kill myself, but I guess the thought of my family suffering got to me. I did what I thought had to be done to provide them with a better life, although now I'm just costing them more money. I can't ever do anything right, I'm just a foolish teenager lying in a bed. The soft cotton blankets on top of me were removed. For a second I thought they were just going to change them. Instead I felt something cold against my skin, not knowing what it was is what made me open my eyes. Before me I saw a man in a white coat with one of those stethoscope things that they use to I think listen to your heart beat. This honestly in my opinion was a stupid thing to do considering that I was hooked up to a heart monitor. The guy's a psycho not a doctor. I close my eyes before he notices I'm conscious, but sadly I fell asleep which wasn't altogether bad. I was just hoping to hear my mothers' voice. I hate not knowing what's going on in my surroundings especially when I'm not awake. I didn't like doctors either they made me feel awkward always poking, prodding, telling you to stick out your tongue to check for who knows what, and constantly giving you shots claming that you needed it only to catch something else a week later. Obviously I didn't trust them I can't and I won't.
"Duo if you can hear me I just want you to know that no matter what happens I'm always here for you" well that was undeniably my only friend, Wufei. Where the hell was my boyfriend? Didn't he care that I just attempted suicide? Granted I didn't figure on making it out alive, but still it hurts.
"Do you know him?" ok I don't know who that was, but that was a dumb question to ask.
"No, I'm just sitting here because they ran out of chairs in the waiting room." oh sarcasm, I had no idea I was rubbing off on the guy and suddenly....I feel bad.
I honestly find it odd how people adapt to their friends personality. Especially when the personality of that friend changes. When you first meet someone, that person is usually shy, even after a year of knowing that person; you still don't know them that well. Nobody ever will there are things that people hide in order to protect themselves. I've always been one of those people, but I've never been able to even to that well. Not being able to do the one thing to keep them safe. Will someone please tell me what kind of person can't even do that well? I don't know Wufei that great and he'll never know me, because I'll never give him the chance to.
"Sorry that was a stupid question wasn't it? I just came to check up on him that's all." it's a nurse I just know it. I heard the door slowly open in front of her as the soft taps of her shoes echoed down the hall before the door was completely closed.
"Duo your mom told me to tell you sorry she couldn't be here right now, she had to stay home and watch your brothers and sisters." he paused for a brief moment possibly trying to come up with a better topic to talk about to a supposed unconscious friend "honestly Duo, if you were having problems why didn't you come to me? You know I'm always willing too help. I feel like were not really friends because I wasn't there when you needed me the most. Or maybe you just don't trust me enough to be of any use, I'm so sorry Duo, forgive me for not being a better person." Wufei really is a good friend.
"I didn't want to get you down with my problem that's all." I really didn't feel like talking, but I didn't want my only friend to blame himself for my mistakes and neglecting to inform him of my emotional mishaps.
"Duo you're awake!" and then he did what every person does when an unconscious human wakes up "Doctor come quick Duo's awake!" he called the doctor like a cat would jump up if you screamed at it while it was sleeping. Like as if he was afraid I would suddenly fall back into a comatose state if he didn't act fast enough.
"Ah Mr. Maxwell I see that you really are with us this time." what did he mean by that?
"Huh?"
"Oh nothing the only important thing right now is that you're awake." that's only because he's getting paid, hell he'd get paid either way, meaning even if I die. But I'm pretty sure that's called malpractice or something of the sort. "Now I'm gonna ask you a few questions and run a few tests just to make sure you're fit to leave the hospital on your own."
I can see Wufei standing at the doorway with this worried expression on his face and know that I won't be able to answer any of the questions with him standing there. Not that I want to keep anything from him I just don't want to burden him in any way, shape, or form. But then again he'll probably end up thinking it's his fault that I can't talk in front of him. 'Wufei it's not that I can't trust you I'm just afraid you wont like the real me.'
"Mr. Maxwell?"
"Yes?"
"I'll need to do this in private without your friend present because some of the questions I will be asking will fall under the personal category." The doctor turns his head in Wufei's direction who in turn nods his head and leaves the room closing the door behind him.
"I'll answer whatever questions you want, as long as I am able to go home as soon as possible." I could hear the years of frustration in my voice come out in one breath, and I haven't even been on this earth that long to have acquired that many years, just seventeen going on eighteen.
"Why'd you do it?" he asked in a calm low voice, the kind you use right before you're about to cry and somehow I felt that's how he usually spoke to people.
"Truth be told I honestly don't want to talk about it and frankly I don't have to."
"True....if you don't mind I suggested to your mother that you go see a therapist."
"No, it's too expensive"
"You wouldn't have to worry about that, I'm willing to pay for it till your eighteenth birthday."
"What's in it for you?" sometimes I'm too quick to judge people, it's just a bad habit of mine.
"Nothing but knowing that I'm helping someone, plus my wife use to help anyone she could, when the opportunity showed itself that is."
"What happened to her?" I found myself asking before I even registered it in my mind.
"She passed away, old age."
"Oh.....I'm sorry"
"Don't worry I'm ok, right now all I want you to do is go see him. He's actually the son of a friend of mine; he just got out of college and needs the business. Will you at least think about it?"
I thought about it for five minutes and decided that it couldn't hurt to try. Even if I was a bit uncomfortable about the idea of someone else knowing my problems. Then again that's what the man's paid for. Listening to others problems and helping them get through it, or at least that's what I've heard.
"I'll do it."
"That's wonderful I'm sure Dr. Barton will be happy to get to know you." The days spent in the hospital were slow and long, but with Wufei there it didn't seem that bad. And when my best friend wasn't there Mother was right next to me, comforting me till I fell asleep. Finally my lover showed up lettermen's jacket and all, he plays baseball, not that it's important. He crawled up onto the bed and lay down next to me, holding me till we both fell asleep. A nurse came three hours later to wake us up; I still didn't understand why I was still there. Perhaps they were afraid that if they let me go too soon that I might try it again. But who could think about suicide when they were looking at the most beautiful blue eyes in the world. Before Heero left to go home the doctor came in and said that I'd be able to go home the next day. Maybe life didn't have to be so hollow after all.
God entrusted my soul with the greater goodness of my body now all I have to do is live.
A/N: Sorry it took so long I got sick it was horrible I had a temperature of 101.8 not good. But at least I'm better now. This is my promise to you, the next time I update I'll post the next two chpts. Now PLEASE REVIEW THE FIC!!
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