Shinigami's Bible: Learning the ways of Death

Chapter 5: Entering dreams

I stood at the front door covered in dirt and my hair was soaked thoroughly with the past three months horrors of sleeping on the street. It was raining much to my surprise considering it's nearing February, but that was why I was wet. I smelled and the rain wasn't serving as a great shower, I hated smelling. When I was young I use to get made fun of and got into fights because of it. I sent quite a few kids to the hospital in elementary school. The reason they made fun of me was because one: I didn't have nice clothes like them and two: the plumbing in our house wasn't that great and only two people a day could shower, which meant only Mom and Dad got to use it. Mom did attempt to at least make us look somewhat presentable. Usually she would fill a huge pot with cold water and set it on the stove to boil, then she would take a rag and wipe down our faces, arms, and neck. As far as hair went as long as you didn't have lice there was nothing to worry about. We still live in the same house.....we've never moved, but at least the plumbing works now and everyone can shower. I would hate to see what would happen if we still had the same problem's that we did back then.

Just to delay my knocking on the door more I take the few small steps to the window to my left and look inside. There he is sitting quietly in a chair in front of a warm fire, which is kissing the wood while it hisses in pleasure from the heated contact between them. He looks so relaxed and comfy I have no idea what he's reading it must be good if he's still reading it though. Now I can see the title of the book "The Secrets of What Really Happened During WWI" I guess he's more of a history reading kind of guy.

I really have to stop delaying eventually he's going to notice someone looking through his window. Now all I have to do is knock on his door and not run away, don't run away.

For a second I'm not sure if he even heard me knocking, but then I saw him "slyly" peeking though his window and well I waved at him. His eyes went wide as he realized who it was, the weird gay boy who tried to kill himself for the benefit of his family. God I must look so terrible standing outside like this because when he opened his door he gave me this look that just screamed. "Dear lord have mercy on your sad soul."

"Duo where hav....where have you been?" asked Trowa as he let me into his humble home.

"Out." it was simple and true.

"I know that, but where? I called your house when you didn't show up for your appointment and your mother said you were gone, had been for days." He got me a towel as he spoke.

"I've been wondering the streets since I left actually, did a few things here and there for money, but noting like selling drugs or anything."

If I remember correctly after about three days without food the point in which the pain in your stomach seems to be the only thing filling it, I got a bit desperate for money and did the deed. It's not like I hadn't done it before besides the money I got lasted me two weeks, I had managed to make it stretch quite a bit. Lucky for me I never really had much of an appetite to begin with; I usually gave most of my food to my youngest sibling. After a few minutes of uncomfortable silence he told me that I could go and use his shower, he gave me a set of clothes I could wear.

As I stepped into the bathroom and locked the door I took a good look at the relatively small room. The sink was right across from the toilet which stood about half a foot away from the tub to its left. There was a metal wired looking shelf drilled into the wall there was also a small one also drilled into the tub wall, which was lined with tile. I also notice the bottom half of the bathroom was wood and the top half was a regular white wall and in between the two right above the sink was three pieces of tile. I feel bad because I did something out of habit I put the clothes and towels down on the shelf above the toilet and opened the small door to beneath the sink to see what he had, closed the door, and opened the three small compartments next to it still connected to the sink. Next I opened the bathroom cabinet and looked at his green toothbrush sitting neatly next to the toothpaste and floss on the bottom shelf on the next one band-aids, antiseptic, and baking soda? On the top shelf was some Advil, aspirin, and antidepressants. I guess everybody has problems nowadays, I wonder if he prescribes them to himself?

I finished my shower and was wearing clothes that were one size too big and still managed to hang off me. I was sitting on Trowa's sofa as he brought me some tea to drink and relax more.

"So Duo are you going to go back home anytime soon?" I didn't want to face my family, for some reason I felt like I abandoned them.

"Not really." more one syllable words.

"Why'd you come here, if you don't mind me asking?" not really.

"I remember you saying once that if I ever wanted to talk to you outside of the office it would be fine. You didn't give me an address so I looked you up in the phone book." I feel stupid for coming here now.

"Oh." I wonder if he's trying to dissect my brain right now.

"Look this was a bad idea I'll just leave and bring you back your clothes later." I need to get out.

"Duo just stay." I can't help but wonder if he ever yells.

"This was a mistake I need to leave." I want out, I never even thought of the fact that he might contact my mother. I can't face her right now I'm too screwed up at the moment.

"You coming here was a good idea Duo."

"Why?" I need him to give me a reason.

"By coming here you realized that no one, not even you can be alone forever. People need to be there for each other Duo or else they just end up doing stupid things." the guy doesn't seem the type to just pull that line out of a book. It sounds more like he knows how much it hurts to be a victim of society or maybe himself.

I can't take it when the lights are out and no ones here

A/N: Ah yes

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