Okay apparently I've made a few mistakes..Elliot's wife is Kathy, and his
eldest daughter is Maureen.My bad lol.Thanks to SVU obsessed for pointing
that out to me.
Lexy walked into class just as the bell rang. She kept her head down, still noticing the stairs her classmates and teacher were giving her. Not that she could blame them. She hadn't even wanted to come to school, but Cale had made her with threats of sever punishment. She figured she was better off dealing with school than with Cale.
Lexy took her normal seat and waited for the morning announcements to come on. She glared at the boy who was sitting in front of her. He had black hair with blue streaks, which matched his blue eyes. He had turned around to stare at her.
"Got a problem?"
"What happened to you?" He asked.
"None of your business." She spat.
"Why won't you talk to me?"
"I told you before Gavin we're not friends anymore."
He turned back around without answering. Her teacher began talking but she wasn't paying attention. School was the least of her concerns right now. Lexy was in excruciating pain. She would probably have been put on pain killers, but Cale had taken her back to the hospital to take care of the paperwork, telling the doctor that Lexy didn't need any medication in the process.
Lexy pulled out her journal. It had several writings and drawings on the cover, warning that if anyone opened it they would face no less than an excruciating death. She flipped it open, paging through her many poems, until she came to an empty page.
He took from me my soul Every ounce of dignity That ever made me whole He took away my passion The thing that made me strive He took the fire That made me feel alive A brush of lips Touch of skin Bile rising I never gave in He wouldn't stop The tears I cry My only wish Was that to die Now I walk A rotting corpse Inside I'm dead This world I stalk He took I was Shattered it in pieces The nightmare before me Never ever ceases This secret I keep Never dwelling Only when I sleep Am I reminded of living
"Lexy,"
Startled, she slammed her book shut and looked up. Her home room teacher, Mrs. Long was standing over her. Her blonde hair was pulled back in a pony tail, showing just a hint of gray at her temples. Her brow was furrowed together and concern shown in her blue eyes.
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to frighten you," She said sincerely. "I thought we could talk in the hall."
Lexy nodded and grabbed her things. She never left them anywhere alone. Too many wandering hands lay in a classroom. The two of them walked out in the hallway, while the rest of the class listened to the announcements.
Mrs. Long crossed her arms over her chest. "Are you feeling well?"
"Why wouldn't I be?" Lexy snapped.
"The detectives were here yesterday asking about you."
"WHAT?" She half yelled. She couldn't believe that they had taken so far as to come to her school. If Cale found out he was going to kill her.
"They told me what happened Lexy." Mrs. Long reached out to put a hand on Lexy's shoulder, but the dark haired girl moved away.
"They don't know what happened and neither do you!"
"Maybe I should call your father."
"NO!" Lexy yelled. If Mrs. Long called Cale she knew there would be hell to pay in more ways than one.
She looked over at the window and saw her classmates head were turned towards them.
Lexy took a deep breath and replied in a lower voice, "Look Mrs. Long, really I'm fine. It was just a misunderstanding. The detectives didn't know the whole story and they realized they were mistaken. There's no reason to call Cale."
Mrs. Long looked at the girl skeptically. "I'll tell you what, let's go give Detectives Benson and Stabler a call from the office."
Lexy didn't know what to do. She was going to get into trouble no matter what she did. She didn't want to face Cale, not right now. She needed time to recuperate first. Before Mrs. Long could react Lexy took off down the hall.
"LEXY!" She ran after her, but adrenaline was pumping through the younger girls veins. She knew if she stayed she was going to get into trouble and despite her pain that was motivation enough to get her moving.
She had to get away, go somewhere that she would be safe. She knew the perfect place.
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Gavin watched as the two detectives walked into the school building. He should have been in second period, but he wasn't stupid. He knew something had happened with Lexy and despite how she felt, he still cared about her. Gavin had to know what was going on.
He walked over to his locker, which by luck was a few feet from where the detectives and Mrs. Long were standing.
"Mr. Porter shouldn't you be in class?" His homeroom teacher asked.
"Yes Mrs. Long, but I forgot my book."
Gavin was normally good about being on time to class, so Mrs. Long didn't give him any further hassles and turned back to the detectives.
"She took off when I confronted her and for the state she's in she was running pretty fast."
"Do you know where she might have gone?" Olivia asked.
Mrs. Long shook her head. "I'm sorry, but I wasn't very close to her. She mostly kept to herself."
"Do you have any idea why she took off?" Elliot asked.
"I told her I was going to call her stepfather to make sure everything was all right, but she didn't want me to. She said everything had been a misunderstanding, so I said we should call the two of you to make sure everything was fine."
Gavin listened with a close ear as he sifted through his locker, pretending to look for the book that was already in his bag. He didn't know what happened to Lexy, but whatever it was it sounded bad.
"Did she have any friends at all?" Olivia questioned. "Anyone who might know where she went?"
Gavin shut his locker and turned to back to class.
"Mr. Porter," Mrs. Long called to him. He stopped and turned around. He had been trying to escape them before his teacher had thought about him.
"You and Lexy Walker are close aren't you?"
Gavin felt himself shift his weight as the two detectives turned towards him. "We used to be, but ever since her mom died she's been pushing me away." He knew where Lexy was, but obviously for some reason she didn't want to be found.
"What's your first name kid?" Elliot asked walking up to him.
"Gavin."
"Do you know why she was pushing you away? Were there any differences after her mom died?"
He shrugged. "Not really, she just seemed to hate the world." It was a lie, but they didn't have to know that."
"Look Gavin, it's really important for you to tell us the truth. Lexy might be in some trouble and we can't help her unless we know the whole story."
Gavin raised an eyebrow. "What kind of trouble." If they wanted info they were going to have to give info.
Olivia walked over to them. "Serious trouble that could get her seriously hurt, maybe even dead, so whatever you know, you need to tell us. We only want to help."
Gavin weighed his options. He knew where Lexy was, he could go and help her himself if she'd let him, but what if it was too much for him to handle? He didn't want Lexy to end up dead. She was probably going to be pissed as all hell at him, but at least she'll be alive to hate him.
He sighed. "After Lexy's mom died I noticed she had more and more bruises on her."
"Why didn't anyone report it?" Elliot asked turning to the teacher.
"I didn't know," Mrs. Long defended herself.
"No one did," Gavin interrupted. "No one except me. Lexy is in the habit of wearing baggy clothes and long sleeved shirts. They were never on her face. The only reason I noticed them was because we used to blade together a lot."
"Blade?" Olivia asked.
"Roller blade," He explained. "But it was aggressive so you could take massive falls and walk away with bruises. One time Lexy burned really hard on her side. I went to look at it, but the bruise wasn't just on her side. They covered her back."
"So why didn't you tell anyone?" Elliot asked.
"Because she made me promise not to and I did, but then there were more and more bruises and the more I confronted her about them, the more she pulled away from me." He sighed and looked down. "I didn't want her to hate me."
Olivia and Elliot exchanged a knowing glance. Loving someone often interfered with keeping them safe. Some people were just too afraid of the person hating them that they didn't realize the person could very well wind up dead.
Elliot crossed his arms over his chest. "Gavin do you know where she is?"
He nodded. "She's gonna hate me for this one."
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An hour later Olivia and Elliot pulled up to a skate park. It was specially designed for rollerbladers and skateboarders, so that rather than tearing up the streets, they have a place where they won't get in trouble for it.
They got out of the car and looked around. There weren't many people there.
"You don't really think she's skating do you?" Olivia asked.
"With her injuries I hope not, but Gavin said that wouldn't matter. She'd skate no matter what."
The two of them walked farther into the park, looking for any sign of Lexy. Gavin had been true to his word. They watched as Lexy, in full gear, started on the ramp, not doing tricks that neither Olivia nor Elliot had a name for.
"I guess he was right," Olivia stated as they ran over to her.
Lexy did a back flip but didn't pull it in time. She cursed herself as she slid down the ramp on her knees. She looked up and saw the two of them standing next to the ramp. She sighed and took off her helmet.
"Apparently you talked to Gavin," She said as she stood up and skated over to them.
"He just wants to make sure your all right Lexy," Olivia told her.
"I'm fine," She seethed sitting down on a bench near by.
"That was some pretty awesome stuff you were doing out there," Elliot told her. "But do you think you should be doing it with your injuries."
Lexy ripped over elbow pads. "I know what I can handle. I wasn't doing anything that extreme. A few grinds, a flip or two. Nothing that'll kill me."
Elliot sat next to her as she started unlacing her skates. "Maybe that's exactly what you want to do."
Lexy glared up at him. "What are you talking about? If I wanted to be dead I would have killed myself by now."
"I'm not so sure. Maybe you're too afraid, so you're waiting for Cale to do it for you."
She shook her head and ripped her skates off. "You have no idea what you're talking about." Lexy stuffed her skates into the bag that was on the table and pulled out a pair of sneakers.
"We know Cale's hurting you Lexy," Olivia told her. "We just need you to tell us and we can get you away from him for good."
"So I can what, live in a foster home?" She seethed as she grabbed her stuff and stood up. "No thanks."
Lexy took a step and stumbled. Elliot and Olivia were on either side grabbing her.
"I'm fine!" She pulled away from them. "Just a dizzy spell."
"How can you do that stuff while you're hurt so bad?" Elliot asked. "What are you on pain meds?"
"I wish, but no."
"Then why do it?" Olivia asked. "Why put yourself in so much pain?"
Lexy laughed. "You think this is painful? She walked over and got in Olivia's face. The two were about the same height so they were practically nose to nose. "You want to know why?"
Olivia nodded. "I do this because of the pain. I do it because of the pain, the anger, and every other emotion I have that boils inside of me. I do it because it takes all of that away and if only for an hour each day, I'm free from the hell I live in. It's not pain, Detective, it's more than pleasurable."
"Lexy wait," Elliot called as she turned to walk away.
She looked back at him. "If you tell us the truth, maybe we can release you from your hell permanently."
"I don't need or want your help Elliot."
He sighed. "You still have my number right?"
Lexy nodded.
"The offer still stands, you can call me anytime you need me."
Lexy didn't respond. She just walked away.
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Lexy walked into class just as the bell rang. She kept her head down, still noticing the stairs her classmates and teacher were giving her. Not that she could blame them. She hadn't even wanted to come to school, but Cale had made her with threats of sever punishment. She figured she was better off dealing with school than with Cale.
Lexy took her normal seat and waited for the morning announcements to come on. She glared at the boy who was sitting in front of her. He had black hair with blue streaks, which matched his blue eyes. He had turned around to stare at her.
"Got a problem?"
"What happened to you?" He asked.
"None of your business." She spat.
"Why won't you talk to me?"
"I told you before Gavin we're not friends anymore."
He turned back around without answering. Her teacher began talking but she wasn't paying attention. School was the least of her concerns right now. Lexy was in excruciating pain. She would probably have been put on pain killers, but Cale had taken her back to the hospital to take care of the paperwork, telling the doctor that Lexy didn't need any medication in the process.
Lexy pulled out her journal. It had several writings and drawings on the cover, warning that if anyone opened it they would face no less than an excruciating death. She flipped it open, paging through her many poems, until she came to an empty page.
He took from me my soul Every ounce of dignity That ever made me whole He took away my passion The thing that made me strive He took the fire That made me feel alive A brush of lips Touch of skin Bile rising I never gave in He wouldn't stop The tears I cry My only wish Was that to die Now I walk A rotting corpse Inside I'm dead This world I stalk He took I was Shattered it in pieces The nightmare before me Never ever ceases This secret I keep Never dwelling Only when I sleep Am I reminded of living
"Lexy,"
Startled, she slammed her book shut and looked up. Her home room teacher, Mrs. Long was standing over her. Her blonde hair was pulled back in a pony tail, showing just a hint of gray at her temples. Her brow was furrowed together and concern shown in her blue eyes.
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to frighten you," She said sincerely. "I thought we could talk in the hall."
Lexy nodded and grabbed her things. She never left them anywhere alone. Too many wandering hands lay in a classroom. The two of them walked out in the hallway, while the rest of the class listened to the announcements.
Mrs. Long crossed her arms over her chest. "Are you feeling well?"
"Why wouldn't I be?" Lexy snapped.
"The detectives were here yesterday asking about you."
"WHAT?" She half yelled. She couldn't believe that they had taken so far as to come to her school. If Cale found out he was going to kill her.
"They told me what happened Lexy." Mrs. Long reached out to put a hand on Lexy's shoulder, but the dark haired girl moved away.
"They don't know what happened and neither do you!"
"Maybe I should call your father."
"NO!" Lexy yelled. If Mrs. Long called Cale she knew there would be hell to pay in more ways than one.
She looked over at the window and saw her classmates head were turned towards them.
Lexy took a deep breath and replied in a lower voice, "Look Mrs. Long, really I'm fine. It was just a misunderstanding. The detectives didn't know the whole story and they realized they were mistaken. There's no reason to call Cale."
Mrs. Long looked at the girl skeptically. "I'll tell you what, let's go give Detectives Benson and Stabler a call from the office."
Lexy didn't know what to do. She was going to get into trouble no matter what she did. She didn't want to face Cale, not right now. She needed time to recuperate first. Before Mrs. Long could react Lexy took off down the hall.
"LEXY!" She ran after her, but adrenaline was pumping through the younger girls veins. She knew if she stayed she was going to get into trouble and despite her pain that was motivation enough to get her moving.
She had to get away, go somewhere that she would be safe. She knew the perfect place.
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Gavin watched as the two detectives walked into the school building. He should have been in second period, but he wasn't stupid. He knew something had happened with Lexy and despite how she felt, he still cared about her. Gavin had to know what was going on.
He walked over to his locker, which by luck was a few feet from where the detectives and Mrs. Long were standing.
"Mr. Porter shouldn't you be in class?" His homeroom teacher asked.
"Yes Mrs. Long, but I forgot my book."
Gavin was normally good about being on time to class, so Mrs. Long didn't give him any further hassles and turned back to the detectives.
"She took off when I confronted her and for the state she's in she was running pretty fast."
"Do you know where she might have gone?" Olivia asked.
Mrs. Long shook her head. "I'm sorry, but I wasn't very close to her. She mostly kept to herself."
"Do you have any idea why she took off?" Elliot asked.
"I told her I was going to call her stepfather to make sure everything was all right, but she didn't want me to. She said everything had been a misunderstanding, so I said we should call the two of you to make sure everything was fine."
Gavin listened with a close ear as he sifted through his locker, pretending to look for the book that was already in his bag. He didn't know what happened to Lexy, but whatever it was it sounded bad.
"Did she have any friends at all?" Olivia questioned. "Anyone who might know where she went?"
Gavin shut his locker and turned to back to class.
"Mr. Porter," Mrs. Long called to him. He stopped and turned around. He had been trying to escape them before his teacher had thought about him.
"You and Lexy Walker are close aren't you?"
Gavin felt himself shift his weight as the two detectives turned towards him. "We used to be, but ever since her mom died she's been pushing me away." He knew where Lexy was, but obviously for some reason she didn't want to be found.
"What's your first name kid?" Elliot asked walking up to him.
"Gavin."
"Do you know why she was pushing you away? Were there any differences after her mom died?"
He shrugged. "Not really, she just seemed to hate the world." It was a lie, but they didn't have to know that."
"Look Gavin, it's really important for you to tell us the truth. Lexy might be in some trouble and we can't help her unless we know the whole story."
Gavin raised an eyebrow. "What kind of trouble." If they wanted info they were going to have to give info.
Olivia walked over to them. "Serious trouble that could get her seriously hurt, maybe even dead, so whatever you know, you need to tell us. We only want to help."
Gavin weighed his options. He knew where Lexy was, he could go and help her himself if she'd let him, but what if it was too much for him to handle? He didn't want Lexy to end up dead. She was probably going to be pissed as all hell at him, but at least she'll be alive to hate him.
He sighed. "After Lexy's mom died I noticed she had more and more bruises on her."
"Why didn't anyone report it?" Elliot asked turning to the teacher.
"I didn't know," Mrs. Long defended herself.
"No one did," Gavin interrupted. "No one except me. Lexy is in the habit of wearing baggy clothes and long sleeved shirts. They were never on her face. The only reason I noticed them was because we used to blade together a lot."
"Blade?" Olivia asked.
"Roller blade," He explained. "But it was aggressive so you could take massive falls and walk away with bruises. One time Lexy burned really hard on her side. I went to look at it, but the bruise wasn't just on her side. They covered her back."
"So why didn't you tell anyone?" Elliot asked.
"Because she made me promise not to and I did, but then there were more and more bruises and the more I confronted her about them, the more she pulled away from me." He sighed and looked down. "I didn't want her to hate me."
Olivia and Elliot exchanged a knowing glance. Loving someone often interfered with keeping them safe. Some people were just too afraid of the person hating them that they didn't realize the person could very well wind up dead.
Elliot crossed his arms over his chest. "Gavin do you know where she is?"
He nodded. "She's gonna hate me for this one."
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An hour later Olivia and Elliot pulled up to a skate park. It was specially designed for rollerbladers and skateboarders, so that rather than tearing up the streets, they have a place where they won't get in trouble for it.
They got out of the car and looked around. There weren't many people there.
"You don't really think she's skating do you?" Olivia asked.
"With her injuries I hope not, but Gavin said that wouldn't matter. She'd skate no matter what."
The two of them walked farther into the park, looking for any sign of Lexy. Gavin had been true to his word. They watched as Lexy, in full gear, started on the ramp, not doing tricks that neither Olivia nor Elliot had a name for.
"I guess he was right," Olivia stated as they ran over to her.
Lexy did a back flip but didn't pull it in time. She cursed herself as she slid down the ramp on her knees. She looked up and saw the two of them standing next to the ramp. She sighed and took off her helmet.
"Apparently you talked to Gavin," She said as she stood up and skated over to them.
"He just wants to make sure your all right Lexy," Olivia told her.
"I'm fine," She seethed sitting down on a bench near by.
"That was some pretty awesome stuff you were doing out there," Elliot told her. "But do you think you should be doing it with your injuries."
Lexy ripped over elbow pads. "I know what I can handle. I wasn't doing anything that extreme. A few grinds, a flip or two. Nothing that'll kill me."
Elliot sat next to her as she started unlacing her skates. "Maybe that's exactly what you want to do."
Lexy glared up at him. "What are you talking about? If I wanted to be dead I would have killed myself by now."
"I'm not so sure. Maybe you're too afraid, so you're waiting for Cale to do it for you."
She shook her head and ripped her skates off. "You have no idea what you're talking about." Lexy stuffed her skates into the bag that was on the table and pulled out a pair of sneakers.
"We know Cale's hurting you Lexy," Olivia told her. "We just need you to tell us and we can get you away from him for good."
"So I can what, live in a foster home?" She seethed as she grabbed her stuff and stood up. "No thanks."
Lexy took a step and stumbled. Elliot and Olivia were on either side grabbing her.
"I'm fine!" She pulled away from them. "Just a dizzy spell."
"How can you do that stuff while you're hurt so bad?" Elliot asked. "What are you on pain meds?"
"I wish, but no."
"Then why do it?" Olivia asked. "Why put yourself in so much pain?"
Lexy laughed. "You think this is painful? She walked over and got in Olivia's face. The two were about the same height so they were practically nose to nose. "You want to know why?"
Olivia nodded. "I do this because of the pain. I do it because of the pain, the anger, and every other emotion I have that boils inside of me. I do it because it takes all of that away and if only for an hour each day, I'm free from the hell I live in. It's not pain, Detective, it's more than pleasurable."
"Lexy wait," Elliot called as she turned to walk away.
She looked back at him. "If you tell us the truth, maybe we can release you from your hell permanently."
"I don't need or want your help Elliot."
He sighed. "You still have my number right?"
Lexy nodded.
"The offer still stands, you can call me anytime you need me."
Lexy didn't respond. She just walked away.
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