Disclaimer::: The lyrics used in this chappie are from "Loser" by 3 Doors
Down.....I do not claim them in any way, shape, or form.....
Hey everybody! I'm sorry it took me so long to get this updated but I had to write out three chapters for you....I hope you feel they are worth the wait...As you can probably tell by the name of the chappie..this will empathsize Jack's feelings and thoughts in the two weeks following the end of the last chapter.....yadda yadda...blah blah blah....Here we go!!!! Weeee!!!!!.......
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Loser in Shining Armor......
Breathe in right away
Nothing seems to fill this place
I need this everytime
So take your lies get off my case
"Hey, Jack, ya okay? Ya haven't said anythin' since we got here," said Blink with concern filling his voice as they sat at Tibby's.
Jack looked up from his untouched meal. "I'se fine, Kid."
"Ya ain't acting like yer fine," stated Blink.
"I am fine, Kid. Lay off!," Jack grounded out.
Blink raised his hands in self defense. "Whatever you say Jacky-boy." Blink stood and left, not wanting to deal with Jack any longer.
So Jack sat alone at lunch for the third day in a row. He didn't mind though. In all actuality, it is what he preferred right now. He hated the questions. Sure, they did it because they cared but he didn't want to talk about another failure in his love life. First, Sarah left him and now he lost Mattie.
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Someday I will find
A love that flows through me like this
This will fall away
This will fall away
A week had passed since she had first come and told him she was staying in Brooklyn. He couldn't believe she chose Oscar over him. A DELANCEY, for crying out loud, over Jack THE COWBOY Kelly. It seemed d*** near impossible.
However, no matter how impossible it seemed, it had still happened. "Who needs a b**** like dat anyways?," he hissed as he pushed his way down the crowded streets of Manhattan.
Lately, Jack's depression had turned to blatant anger. The older newsies tried once in a while to talk to him but were always pushed away. The younger newsies wouldn't even stay in the same room with him unless it was to sleep.
Jack tried telling himself he didn't need her but deep down he knew that he still cared for her and that he missed her. Such information just made him angrier. He pushed through the crowds without even attempting to sell his papers.
"Uf...," came a feminine voice as he roughly pushed past.
"Sorry," he mumbled.
"I should hope you would apologize after the treatment you just gave me," scolded the green-eyed blonde.
"Look lady, I said I was sorry. D***, don't get yer panties in a twist," retorted Jack.
"You should not use such foul language in front of a lady," she reprimanded.
"I'll say whatever I d*** well please." Jack glared at her. *She's very pretty when she's offended,* a voice in his head whispered. Jack shook his head at the thought. Turning abruptly, he stalked away from the strnger.
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This is getting old
I can't break these chains that I hold
My body's growing cold
There's nothing left of this mind or my soul
A few days later, Jack's anger had mellowed. He could think of nothing else but the pain he was feeling. He hated it. He wanted her out of his mind. Nothing seemed to work. He even tried talking to KidBlink but it wasn't enough. Nobody seemed to understand what he was going through.
Addiction needs a pacifier
The buzz of this poison is taking me higher
This will fall away
This will fall away
*How could she do this to me? She led me on and .....why should I care? What's so special about her? She's just another girl. A girl with a bad temper. She was always fighting with someone. She was so cute when she was angry, though. She always spoke her mind. But she wants Oscar,* thought Jack. "Not me. I hate what she did, but most of all I hate her.*
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You're getting closer
To pushing me off of life's little edge
Cause I'm a loser and sooner or later you know I'll be dead
You're getting closer
You're holding the rope and I'm taking the fall
Cause I'm a loser
Mattie had been gone for a little over two weeks now and Jack was finally over her. He could've cared less if he ever saw her again. He didn't need her. He was happy again.
All of the newsies were relieved to have their leader back even though some were skeptical about whether he really was over Mattie or not. It seemed as though he was but every so often his mind seemed to drift away and he looked hurt and upset.
The rain was beginning to fall on the semi-crowded streets of Manhattan. Jack was selling with Blink today despite the rain. He had come to depend on Blink since the whole thing with Mattie had happened and Blink was content to be there to support his friend and leader.
Suddenly Jack stopped in mid-stride, his eyes focused on something ahead of them. Blink followed his gaze to where Oscar stood in the rain with none other than Mattie.
"S***," Jack yelled as he turned away from the scene.
"Jack, ya okay?," asked Blink, concerned.
Jack began to rub his stinging eyes with the palms of his hands. "I was so sure of it. I was so sure I was over her. Dammit all to h***! I'm such a f***ing loser!" Jack took off down the street. Blink stood there amazed. He knew he wouldn't be able to catch up with Jack so he watched him go.
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Poor Jack! I know exactly what it feels like to think you're over someone and then suddenly, with one glance at them, you realize you aren't. I hope you all enjoyed this chapter and I hope I fit it to the song well enough. Please REVIEW....and then go on to the next chapter!!!!
~Molly
Hey everybody! I'm sorry it took me so long to get this updated but I had to write out three chapters for you....I hope you feel they are worth the wait...As you can probably tell by the name of the chappie..this will empathsize Jack's feelings and thoughts in the two weeks following the end of the last chapter.....yadda yadda...blah blah blah....Here we go!!!! Weeee!!!!!.......
~***~***~***~***~***~***~***~***~***~***~
Loser in Shining Armor......
Breathe in right away
Nothing seems to fill this place
I need this everytime
So take your lies get off my case
"Hey, Jack, ya okay? Ya haven't said anythin' since we got here," said Blink with concern filling his voice as they sat at Tibby's.
Jack looked up from his untouched meal. "I'se fine, Kid."
"Ya ain't acting like yer fine," stated Blink.
"I am fine, Kid. Lay off!," Jack grounded out.
Blink raised his hands in self defense. "Whatever you say Jacky-boy." Blink stood and left, not wanting to deal with Jack any longer.
So Jack sat alone at lunch for the third day in a row. He didn't mind though. In all actuality, it is what he preferred right now. He hated the questions. Sure, they did it because they cared but he didn't want to talk about another failure in his love life. First, Sarah left him and now he lost Mattie.
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Someday I will find
A love that flows through me like this
This will fall away
This will fall away
A week had passed since she had first come and told him she was staying in Brooklyn. He couldn't believe she chose Oscar over him. A DELANCEY, for crying out loud, over Jack THE COWBOY Kelly. It seemed d*** near impossible.
However, no matter how impossible it seemed, it had still happened. "Who needs a b**** like dat anyways?," he hissed as he pushed his way down the crowded streets of Manhattan.
Lately, Jack's depression had turned to blatant anger. The older newsies tried once in a while to talk to him but were always pushed away. The younger newsies wouldn't even stay in the same room with him unless it was to sleep.
Jack tried telling himself he didn't need her but deep down he knew that he still cared for her and that he missed her. Such information just made him angrier. He pushed through the crowds without even attempting to sell his papers.
"Uf...," came a feminine voice as he roughly pushed past.
"Sorry," he mumbled.
"I should hope you would apologize after the treatment you just gave me," scolded the green-eyed blonde.
"Look lady, I said I was sorry. D***, don't get yer panties in a twist," retorted Jack.
"You should not use such foul language in front of a lady," she reprimanded.
"I'll say whatever I d*** well please." Jack glared at her. *She's very pretty when she's offended,* a voice in his head whispered. Jack shook his head at the thought. Turning abruptly, he stalked away from the strnger.
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This is getting old
I can't break these chains that I hold
My body's growing cold
There's nothing left of this mind or my soul
A few days later, Jack's anger had mellowed. He could think of nothing else but the pain he was feeling. He hated it. He wanted her out of his mind. Nothing seemed to work. He even tried talking to KidBlink but it wasn't enough. Nobody seemed to understand what he was going through.
Addiction needs a pacifier
The buzz of this poison is taking me higher
This will fall away
This will fall away
*How could she do this to me? She led me on and .....why should I care? What's so special about her? She's just another girl. A girl with a bad temper. She was always fighting with someone. She was so cute when she was angry, though. She always spoke her mind. But she wants Oscar,* thought Jack. "Not me. I hate what she did, but most of all I hate her.*
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You're getting closer
To pushing me off of life's little edge
Cause I'm a loser and sooner or later you know I'll be dead
You're getting closer
You're holding the rope and I'm taking the fall
Cause I'm a loser
Mattie had been gone for a little over two weeks now and Jack was finally over her. He could've cared less if he ever saw her again. He didn't need her. He was happy again.
All of the newsies were relieved to have their leader back even though some were skeptical about whether he really was over Mattie or not. It seemed as though he was but every so often his mind seemed to drift away and he looked hurt and upset.
The rain was beginning to fall on the semi-crowded streets of Manhattan. Jack was selling with Blink today despite the rain. He had come to depend on Blink since the whole thing with Mattie had happened and Blink was content to be there to support his friend and leader.
Suddenly Jack stopped in mid-stride, his eyes focused on something ahead of them. Blink followed his gaze to where Oscar stood in the rain with none other than Mattie.
"S***," Jack yelled as he turned away from the scene.
"Jack, ya okay?," asked Blink, concerned.
Jack began to rub his stinging eyes with the palms of his hands. "I was so sure of it. I was so sure I was over her. Dammit all to h***! I'm such a f***ing loser!" Jack took off down the street. Blink stood there amazed. He knew he wouldn't be able to catch up with Jack so he watched him go.
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Poor Jack! I know exactly what it feels like to think you're over someone and then suddenly, with one glance at them, you realize you aren't. I hope you all enjoyed this chapter and I hope I fit it to the song well enough. Please REVIEW....and then go on to the next chapter!!!!
~Molly