Lost Memories Chapter 3: A Talk Between Friends
A few weeks later.
" Hey Faye what are you doing?" Spike yelled into Faye's bedroom, "You have been in there all day what are you doing in there?"
"Looking," Faye replied softly as if she were in a trance.
"Looking for what?" Spike asked.
"My past," Faye replied.
"Huh?" Spike said confused, "What do you mean your past?"
"I'm trying to find out about my past."
"Why?" Spike asked.
"Because I need to know, I need to know who I am," Faye told him.
"Well why are you looking there I don't think you will find your past on a book shelf that has no books on it" Spike said with a little laugh, "Why do you need to know it? Don't you know it already? You should you lived it."
"I lived it but I don't remember it," Faye said.
"Why not?" Spike asked again, "Can you tell me?" Spike asked and walked over to the window so he could look out while Faye told him her story.
"Ok," Faye said and began to tell him everything about the crash, the doctor, her name she told him everything.
"I see," Spike said when she had finished, "It's not that bad" he said and turned around, he saw her crying, "It will be fine," Spike said with sympathy for his friend. "So why did you decide to become a bounty hunter?" he asked.
"Because when I did, when I was fighting all I thought about was getting the bounty I didn't think about anything but getting the person I was after so."
"So," Spike said cutting Faye off, "You where able to forget about the pain, just like me."
"Just like you? What do you mean Spike?" Faye asked trying to stop herself from crying.
"I have done some horrible things, things you couldn't even imagine but I don't forget about them by fighting they are the reason I do fight I fight because if I do that I may make things better maybe not better for me but somewhere someone is getting help, all those years ago I thought I could do everything by myself that I didn't need anyone's help I could do it all, but when Julia, when they took Julia and I was all alone. All I wanted was someone to help me but no one did I was alone. I fight because someone is getting help just like I so badly wanted they are getting help and that is why I fight that is why I am a cowboy," Spike said.
"Oh Spike," Faye replied, "There is one other reason I'm a cowboy it is because of the doctor he said something I did might make my memory come back so I decided to become one because cowboys gets lots on information on lots of different people and things. I thought or more like I was sure I would find someone or something from my past."
"What do you want most from your past?" Spike asked.
"My family," Faye replied, "I need to know someone loved me."
"Well you may have lost your memory but you never lost your family."
"What?" Faye asked, "I don't understand.
"Well you love them right?" Spike asked.
"Yes very much," Faye said.
"Then you didn't lose them," Spike replied, "They are in your heart not just your mind."
"They are?" Faye asked.
"If you love them they are," Spike told her, "And I know you will remember and find them someday even if it isn't till after you have died you will find them."
"But how can I," she asked.
"You will I'm sure of it," Spike said with a serious but sad look on his face. "Even if they are dead you will meet them someday, just like I know I will meet Julia again someday."
"Who is Julia?" Faye asked.
"The only person I ever loved the first person I ever trusted, she was stolen from me, now she is nothing but a memory, but I know I will see her again because she is in my heart just like your family is in your heart. You see these people, they are in our hearts they are our love, our hope, our joy. They are everything, everything except lost memories."
"Thank you Spike," Faye said, "Now I know the truth I know I will see them again and when I do I know my memory will come back. I know I will find them and they are not just lost memories they are my family, there everything not lost people, and most of all not lost memories. Wow Spike I never knew you could talk about things like that."
"Well don't get used to it and don't tell Jet I don't want him or anyone else to think I've gone soft I'm still the same Spike everyone thinks I am," Spike said and left the room so Faye could go to sleep.
"He's right, goodnight mom, goodnight, dad and goodnight anyone else who is in my family I love you so much I know your watching over me now don't worry I'll come back to you someday," She said to herself as she drifted off to sleep.
A few weeks later.
" Hey Faye what are you doing?" Spike yelled into Faye's bedroom, "You have been in there all day what are you doing in there?"
"Looking," Faye replied softly as if she were in a trance.
"Looking for what?" Spike asked.
"My past," Faye replied.
"Huh?" Spike said confused, "What do you mean your past?"
"I'm trying to find out about my past."
"Why?" Spike asked.
"Because I need to know, I need to know who I am," Faye told him.
"Well why are you looking there I don't think you will find your past on a book shelf that has no books on it" Spike said with a little laugh, "Why do you need to know it? Don't you know it already? You should you lived it."
"I lived it but I don't remember it," Faye said.
"Why not?" Spike asked again, "Can you tell me?" Spike asked and walked over to the window so he could look out while Faye told him her story.
"Ok," Faye said and began to tell him everything about the crash, the doctor, her name she told him everything.
"I see," Spike said when she had finished, "It's not that bad" he said and turned around, he saw her crying, "It will be fine," Spike said with sympathy for his friend. "So why did you decide to become a bounty hunter?" he asked.
"Because when I did, when I was fighting all I thought about was getting the bounty I didn't think about anything but getting the person I was after so."
"So," Spike said cutting Faye off, "You where able to forget about the pain, just like me."
"Just like you? What do you mean Spike?" Faye asked trying to stop herself from crying.
"I have done some horrible things, things you couldn't even imagine but I don't forget about them by fighting they are the reason I do fight I fight because if I do that I may make things better maybe not better for me but somewhere someone is getting help, all those years ago I thought I could do everything by myself that I didn't need anyone's help I could do it all, but when Julia, when they took Julia and I was all alone. All I wanted was someone to help me but no one did I was alone. I fight because someone is getting help just like I so badly wanted they are getting help and that is why I fight that is why I am a cowboy," Spike said.
"Oh Spike," Faye replied, "There is one other reason I'm a cowboy it is because of the doctor he said something I did might make my memory come back so I decided to become one because cowboys gets lots on information on lots of different people and things. I thought or more like I was sure I would find someone or something from my past."
"What do you want most from your past?" Spike asked.
"My family," Faye replied, "I need to know someone loved me."
"Well you may have lost your memory but you never lost your family."
"What?" Faye asked, "I don't understand.
"Well you love them right?" Spike asked.
"Yes very much," Faye said.
"Then you didn't lose them," Spike replied, "They are in your heart not just your mind."
"They are?" Faye asked.
"If you love them they are," Spike told her, "And I know you will remember and find them someday even if it isn't till after you have died you will find them."
"But how can I," she asked.
"You will I'm sure of it," Spike said with a serious but sad look on his face. "Even if they are dead you will meet them someday, just like I know I will meet Julia again someday."
"Who is Julia?" Faye asked.
"The only person I ever loved the first person I ever trusted, she was stolen from me, now she is nothing but a memory, but I know I will see her again because she is in my heart just like your family is in your heart. You see these people, they are in our hearts they are our love, our hope, our joy. They are everything, everything except lost memories."
"Thank you Spike," Faye said, "Now I know the truth I know I will see them again and when I do I know my memory will come back. I know I will find them and they are not just lost memories they are my family, there everything not lost people, and most of all not lost memories. Wow Spike I never knew you could talk about things like that."
"Well don't get used to it and don't tell Jet I don't want him or anyone else to think I've gone soft I'm still the same Spike everyone thinks I am," Spike said and left the room so Faye could go to sleep.
"He's right, goodnight mom, goodnight, dad and goodnight anyone else who is in my family I love you so much I know your watching over me now don't worry I'll come back to you someday," She said to herself as she drifted off to sleep.