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Chapter Two A Girl's thoughts
I wake up to you shaking my shoulders so gently I feel as if a angel is waking me up. But then again I call you my angel, I open my eyes to meet with golden amber ones. You seem so tough on the out but your eyes show all of your emotion and feelings you dare not admit. Once you see I'm awake you quickly leave to wake the others, our moment of gazing in each other's eyes ended to soon.
I get up to meet the blue clouds and inhale the fresh air I don't get when I'm at home. Nor do I get such beauty it makes me wonder why we threw such nature away. Your forest in my time no longer exist what was there has now vanished. Smoke and deadly air fill the once fresh and gorgeous beauty. The clouds float by like my life had done so far. I look to see you leap in the God tree with such grace.
A I feel my eyes sadden and my heart fall as you once again leap in the very tree that your former love pinned you to. Does this tree remind you that much of her, how could you a love a tree to that which kept you prisoner for fifty years? How could you love her when she didn't even trust you?
She's not even loyal to you and yet you run to her when your heartbreaks and you soul down. How many times do I wish you'd run to me and if you did I would welcome you with open arms. Even if it was about her I'd I listen like a good friend. Yep that's all I am to you a friend. I stood by you when you chose her over me I stood by when you threw me in the well for safety. I went to my lengths to be with you because I love you and my heart will let no other in.
It amazes me how someone so rude so unkind and yet deep within is loving and gentle and warm and such love I don't understand. How could you be made for me you call me all things except my name. You dare not have me as friend? Am I really just a shard detector? Do I have no meaning in your life but that? Have I gained any trust from you. You resist to let someone in but her as if she is the only who cares about you.
You treat yourself so badly by letting pain and hurt get to you, yet on the out you cover it up with mask on your face and say you don't care what they say. But I see you walk slowly behind the others deep in thought and inside it's tearing you alive isn't it?
You act like you don't care the way you treat people and make them feel. But deep within yourself you don't mean it. We pass trees on this journey I hope never ends because that would mean leaving you. And my heart burns at the very thought, I made a promise to you and I promise to keep it for all time.
Once I heard you ask yourself who could love a filthy hanyo a nobody one who is lower than dirt. My mind raged with thoughts one about all. I LOVE YOU was all I wanted to say to say that you mattered that you weren't a filthy hanyou you the exact opposite your beautiful you're my defender my lover. I'm content to love in silence content to watch you be my friend. Content to love you from afar and in my heart my world revolves around you.
Times when I say I want to go I home I really don't I just want to you to come for me so that I want come by myself and that gives me a little hope that you care. I see the way he walks talks, and acts. I'm selfish I know to want something I can't have to have someone who wouldn't have me back. To have a obsession yet it's desire will never be full filled. Often I think of what will happen once I complete my task of the Shikon No Tama. Will the well seal itself never to let me return to you again, will all be well? Will you give up the idea of becoming a full demon?
Thoughts like that are constantly on my mind and the biggest thought of all will you let me stay by you side when this all over and will you go to hell with Kikyo? Please say not to question and yes to question one. I can't bare the thought having you out of my life it burns my every being my whole can't withstand it.
I see how you debate on who you love more and it always ends up the same. Kikyo she's number one in your life first thing on you list an I am just second best to you. Never good enough yet good to be around. I always feel like your toying with my heart and giving it little bits of what it wants and then you tear it all back and give it to someone else. You don't seem to see how bad it hurts me.
Many times I wonder what it would be like to be Kikyo to be the one you love so much and are willing to die for. That is my thought would you love me the same. Moments when you look into my eyes I know you see her not I. Inuyasha it breaks my heart to see that you see her that I'm just her reflection just her reincarnation and nothing more. You love her and you could never be mine. My heart aches and longs and yearns for your affection. But I'll never have it.
Do you keep me alive because of her soul her face her body that are now somewhat mine? She is a woman I'm a child a couple years from now with you look at me with the same love? Will you give up on having her and have me instead. Will you love me for me one day or will I always be her reflection her shadow.
The feeling kills and eats at me bit by bit, knowing that every where I go I now see her face not my own. Tears well up in my eyes though I hold them back and dare not cry. Kikyo never cries she did she never will, it amazes how she pushes down emotion so well and yet she shows kindness to all but you and I. Kikyo was strong you say and I'm weak is your theory, what if I made mine as well. Kikyo had courage I have nothing she beautiful I'm ugly . She masters in archery I master as second best. Will cupid ever shoot an arrow of love towards you so that you may love me instead. I bite my tongue from saying all the things I want said. I swallow my words in my throat but they won't go down. Every time I'm around him my knees buckle my legs try so hard no to give out to his beauty.
His long silver hair that reminds me of the of silk as it shines though so invisible.
His golden eyes that seem to remind me of the golden sky in the evening and the honey that you all swirl into one. His complexion that remind me of a perfect looking angel.
His cute doggy ears that make anything but fearful. His strong hands that protect me from danger. Every part of him I love and always will. Even if I finish this alive and I go home and he has Kikyo. The memory of his face will forever burn in my heart, mind, soul, and life for all eternity.
Nights when I'm in the future I expect to wake up and find all of this dream to find that he wasn't real. And the scares me and yet I want to be true. Then I wouldn't have this heart ache I wouldn't have the craving to have him as mine alone. But then I would never see him again and my world would crash. Because deep within me I know he's real I know that I couldn't live without him. Inuyasha please don't leave me. My heart won't take no for answer though my mouth will force words out that say it's okay leave me if you want.
We stop to rest for the night and I feel Shippo's warmth against me as he curls in to my chest. Oh how I wish I could do the same to you Inuyasha to feel you strong arms lock around me to feel my world in perfect harmony to see that everything will be alright. I want to say I love you but the words won't come out. I want to feel your lips on mine but only dreams will allow me this.
To feel your hands on my body not just in protection but in love. To feel you warm chest to snuggle next to your built body. To have you gaze at me lovingly. But again only dreams can bring me this.
Chapter Two A Girl's thoughts
I wake up to you shaking my shoulders so gently I feel as if a angel is waking me up. But then again I call you my angel, I open my eyes to meet with golden amber ones. You seem so tough on the out but your eyes show all of your emotion and feelings you dare not admit. Once you see I'm awake you quickly leave to wake the others, our moment of gazing in each other's eyes ended to soon.
I get up to meet the blue clouds and inhale the fresh air I don't get when I'm at home. Nor do I get such beauty it makes me wonder why we threw such nature away. Your forest in my time no longer exist what was there has now vanished. Smoke and deadly air fill the once fresh and gorgeous beauty. The clouds float by like my life had done so far. I look to see you leap in the God tree with such grace.
A I feel my eyes sadden and my heart fall as you once again leap in the very tree that your former love pinned you to. Does this tree remind you that much of her, how could you a love a tree to that which kept you prisoner for fifty years? How could you love her when she didn't even trust you?
She's not even loyal to you and yet you run to her when your heartbreaks and you soul down. How many times do I wish you'd run to me and if you did I would welcome you with open arms. Even if it was about her I'd I listen like a good friend. Yep that's all I am to you a friend. I stood by you when you chose her over me I stood by when you threw me in the well for safety. I went to my lengths to be with you because I love you and my heart will let no other in.
It amazes me how someone so rude so unkind and yet deep within is loving and gentle and warm and such love I don't understand. How could you be made for me you call me all things except my name. You dare not have me as friend? Am I really just a shard detector? Do I have no meaning in your life but that? Have I gained any trust from you. You resist to let someone in but her as if she is the only who cares about you.
You treat yourself so badly by letting pain and hurt get to you, yet on the out you cover it up with mask on your face and say you don't care what they say. But I see you walk slowly behind the others deep in thought and inside it's tearing you alive isn't it?
You act like you don't care the way you treat people and make them feel. But deep within yourself you don't mean it. We pass trees on this journey I hope never ends because that would mean leaving you. And my heart burns at the very thought, I made a promise to you and I promise to keep it for all time.
Once I heard you ask yourself who could love a filthy hanyo a nobody one who is lower than dirt. My mind raged with thoughts one about all. I LOVE YOU was all I wanted to say to say that you mattered that you weren't a filthy hanyou you the exact opposite your beautiful you're my defender my lover. I'm content to love in silence content to watch you be my friend. Content to love you from afar and in my heart my world revolves around you.
Times when I say I want to go I home I really don't I just want to you to come for me so that I want come by myself and that gives me a little hope that you care. I see the way he walks talks, and acts. I'm selfish I know to want something I can't have to have someone who wouldn't have me back. To have a obsession yet it's desire will never be full filled. Often I think of what will happen once I complete my task of the Shikon No Tama. Will the well seal itself never to let me return to you again, will all be well? Will you give up the idea of becoming a full demon?
Thoughts like that are constantly on my mind and the biggest thought of all will you let me stay by you side when this all over and will you go to hell with Kikyo? Please say not to question and yes to question one. I can't bare the thought having you out of my life it burns my every being my whole can't withstand it.
I see how you debate on who you love more and it always ends up the same. Kikyo she's number one in your life first thing on you list an I am just second best to you. Never good enough yet good to be around. I always feel like your toying with my heart and giving it little bits of what it wants and then you tear it all back and give it to someone else. You don't seem to see how bad it hurts me.
Many times I wonder what it would be like to be Kikyo to be the one you love so much and are willing to die for. That is my thought would you love me the same. Moments when you look into my eyes I know you see her not I. Inuyasha it breaks my heart to see that you see her that I'm just her reflection just her reincarnation and nothing more. You love her and you could never be mine. My heart aches and longs and yearns for your affection. But I'll never have it.
Do you keep me alive because of her soul her face her body that are now somewhat mine? She is a woman I'm a child a couple years from now with you look at me with the same love? Will you give up on having her and have me instead. Will you love me for me one day or will I always be her reflection her shadow.
The feeling kills and eats at me bit by bit, knowing that every where I go I now see her face not my own. Tears well up in my eyes though I hold them back and dare not cry. Kikyo never cries she did she never will, it amazes how she pushes down emotion so well and yet she shows kindness to all but you and I. Kikyo was strong you say and I'm weak is your theory, what if I made mine as well. Kikyo had courage I have nothing she beautiful I'm ugly . She masters in archery I master as second best. Will cupid ever shoot an arrow of love towards you so that you may love me instead. I bite my tongue from saying all the things I want said. I swallow my words in my throat but they won't go down. Every time I'm around him my knees buckle my legs try so hard no to give out to his beauty.
His long silver hair that reminds me of the of silk as it shines though so invisible.
His golden eyes that seem to remind me of the golden sky in the evening and the honey that you all swirl into one. His complexion that remind me of a perfect looking angel.
His cute doggy ears that make anything but fearful. His strong hands that protect me from danger. Every part of him I love and always will. Even if I finish this alive and I go home and he has Kikyo. The memory of his face will forever burn in my heart, mind, soul, and life for all eternity.
Nights when I'm in the future I expect to wake up and find all of this dream to find that he wasn't real. And the scares me and yet I want to be true. Then I wouldn't have this heart ache I wouldn't have the craving to have him as mine alone. But then I would never see him again and my world would crash. Because deep within me I know he's real I know that I couldn't live without him. Inuyasha please don't leave me. My heart won't take no for answer though my mouth will force words out that say it's okay leave me if you want.
We stop to rest for the night and I feel Shippo's warmth against me as he curls in to my chest. Oh how I wish I could do the same to you Inuyasha to feel you strong arms lock around me to feel my world in perfect harmony to see that everything will be alright. I want to say I love you but the words won't come out. I want to feel your lips on mine but only dreams will allow me this.
To feel your hands on my body not just in protection but in love. To feel you warm chest to snuggle next to your built body. To have you gaze at me lovingly. But again only dreams can bring me this.