Through the Ice.
Chapter 2: Seeing a difference
The cold sweat barely trickles down my temples as I try and regain my composure. 'What happened' I think. 'Ok.I was at the beach.with Quistis.then.a kiss?!?' My eyes widen as I had remembered and savored that very moment. Then what? I sigh in a defeated tone as something makes a loud noise somewhere in my room. My cold glance looked toward the bathroom door, and there was Quistis. Hyne.what the hell was that? I look in surprise as she is totally different. Her hair is wet and let down caressing her face once again, and she wasn't in her usual attire. My eyes fixed on her, as my cheeks seemed to be stained by a pink cloud, and even more only because she knelt down next to me. She was giggling. She was wearing a dress, one that fit her figure more beautiful that it would never be let out into words, nor could I make them. I stare at her, she's gorgeous. Her slim arms were showing bare with a light blue dress that went to her lower thighs. Her pale legs were shown until her boots hid them away when they were about knee level. She smiled at me, and then sat next to me on the bed. I propped myself on each elbow but she, by then, had laid her gentle hands on my shoulders and pushed me back down.
"You blacked out last night...you need some rest so just relax.." She said in a loving tone, this time even seeing passion in her eyes as she looked at me. I tried to speak opening my mouth, but her finger traced along my lips pausing in the middle. "Shh.don't worry." She smiled softly yet again. I couldn't do anything but stare at her. I never figured out this feeling I felt when I was with her. Maybe it was love, or maybe it was something else. How did she feel.obviously she ha felt the same tom but is she just as scared as I am? Maybe, but between each other, that's our silent romance. I sigh deeply as I lay back, content. I laugh in the inside. Content. What is the meaning of that word? Is it just being comfortable? Or simply happy? That's another world mystery that I'd never know.
I close my eyes and try to relax. Too many thoughts.why am I doing this to myself.I try to take deep breaths. It doesn't help. I'm so lost and confused, that if had to tell someone my problem I just wouldn't be able to explain. Do I love her..or lust her? Would it feel awkward if we were together? Or would everything be fine? At that very moment a rush of warmth hit my body. I open my solemn eyes to find her, Quistis, laying and cuddling next to me. The stain on my cheeks gets a crimson color as she kisses my cheek softly, maybe even passionately. I look at her, maybe confused, or maybe just possibly blank. She smiles softly and holds my cheek with her hand. "You're safe.." That was our last words. Then silence came into the atmosphere and there we slept her figure in my arms, both with a smile on our faces. I actually didn't dream, I don't remember much of what I thought, but I think that I had found what the meaning and feeling of being content really stood for..
A perfect sleep, content without a worry in the world, until now..my thought and peace was shattered as a bang came to my dorm room's door. I sat up in surprise, waking the sleeping princess by my side; she sat up looking at me. "What's wrong?" she looked at me terribly worried. My gaze couldn't leave the door. I knew who it was..and what he wanted. I felt like I wanted to hide, in a dark place where I'd never be seen or thought of ever again. I wanted to vanish from existence. I shrink in my composure. Quistis frowned then got up hearing for a sound. The banging on my door resumed more forceful. It sounded like the wall would just give and fall, maybe just like me..I close my eyes, this cant be happening.A moment later the banging had stopped, and just so did my heart as the fear built up inside me, impulses within my veins as I finally gather the strength to try and open my eyes. I failed. It seems that my body wasn't functioning with my mind. And yet I try again. To my avail my try was a success. I open my clouded eyes to see the door creaked open with a tall blonde man glancing at me, his eyes piercing with a look half between sorrow and betrayal. I wince just merely at the sight. His eyes and mine, looking and gazing at each other with suck intensity you wouldn't believe, once rivals, then lovers, now possibly mere enemies. I slowly pace myself to stand up, but never inching away toward the bed as something had stopped me. Quistis. What was she doing? I stood there confused of what she could do, but I'd knew it be something, so I stood there, my body controlling itself to stay back. It took everything I had not to cry, to give myself and my emotions. I couldn't do that. The last thing I need is for an enemy to know a weakness.but.does that mean that Seifer was officially a rival again? Maybe eve more, possibly a mere enemy? An enemy that do anything in his path just to hurt me and everything that surrounded me? It's just like before. Like during the sorceress wars. I remember it clearly now. I close my eyes in remembrance, but to my knowledge my eyes came right back into his glance. The next thing I knew Quistis had her chance, and she wasn't about to leave anything out.
She approached him slowly; his face now left mine, and with a smirk, moved onto her. He lifted his brow at her. What was he up to? I feel myself wince. I curse my body inside. 'Don't let him get to you..you're safe'..I don't know how many times I repeated that in my head but when I realized I was unaffected the verbal conflicts had started.
"You have a lot of nerve Seifer!!" she glared at him, maybe anticipating what he would say.
"Quistis I--" he was suddenly cut off by a huge smack across his face. Quistis back-handed him, her fury now noticeable.
"You have no excuses Seifer, you're not wanted here.Squall's safe and he isn't up for you're mistreatment again." Her glare was maybe more worse than mine. "You should be ashamed." she paused as her eyes filled with tears.
I couldn't take it. My 2 best friends..maybe 2 people I had loved or still very well do love, falling apart in front of me. I gathered the strength that I had and held my dear instructor as I slowly transferred a solid glare at my rival. He stared back, his jade eyes cutting my glare. Yet, I see something I didn't before. His eyes, they weren't filled with anger. I must have been to scared to notice. But for that long moment as I held a weeping princess in my arms, I had seen sympathy. In my former lover's eyes, they filled with sympathetic looks and pain from deep inside. What was this feeling inside me? I close my eyes. This is a dream.I open my eyes.no...he's still there. Quistis slowly regains her composure and stares at the both of us possibly not knowing what to do. I feel like falling. My whole body is shaking, and they both seem to notice.
"Squall...I'm..I--" he, yet again was cut off, non other by Quistis herself. He had tried to touch me, reaching his pale hands to grasp my shoulder, but Quistis was protecting me. Why? Could they notice that I was shaking? My insides turn. Seifer wouldn't dare to hurt me again..would he? I look back into his eyes, he does look safe..then without thinking I did something I'd never thought I'd do again. My pale cold hands touched Seifer's rugged face. He looked horrible. He had bags under his eyes and his skin was pale, even much more paler than mine..For a moment I may have felt sympathy for him and maybe even for myself. It was sad what he had become. I would admit this; I wanted to be back in his arms. I will admit that I had longed for him, maybe that's why I went to the beach often... That's where we confessed our love, maybe I was waiting for him to come back. I look down removing my hands from his face and they retreat to my pockets. I couldn't look at him anymore. I loved him...but....he.. I feel the tears well up inside. Why wont you go away...I cant take this.....I look up and find his expression totally confused. Maybe from my actions, then I placed a look on Quistis. She stared in maybe a confused state as well. The next moments which seemed forever took place in silence. The each of us looking at each other as if for an answer that couldn't be heard. But yet..our silence said everything..
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Thanks to the people that commented before I really appreciated it. And yes Rajin and Fujin will be placed within this story. Reviews are appreciated and thanks for reading!! Chapter 3 will be updated as soon as possible.
The cold sweat barely trickles down my temples as I try and regain my composure. 'What happened' I think. 'Ok.I was at the beach.with Quistis.then.a kiss?!?' My eyes widen as I had remembered and savored that very moment. Then what? I sigh in a defeated tone as something makes a loud noise somewhere in my room. My cold glance looked toward the bathroom door, and there was Quistis. Hyne.what the hell was that? I look in surprise as she is totally different. Her hair is wet and let down caressing her face once again, and she wasn't in her usual attire. My eyes fixed on her, as my cheeks seemed to be stained by a pink cloud, and even more only because she knelt down next to me. She was giggling. She was wearing a dress, one that fit her figure more beautiful that it would never be let out into words, nor could I make them. I stare at her, she's gorgeous. Her slim arms were showing bare with a light blue dress that went to her lower thighs. Her pale legs were shown until her boots hid them away when they were about knee level. She smiled at me, and then sat next to me on the bed. I propped myself on each elbow but she, by then, had laid her gentle hands on my shoulders and pushed me back down.
"You blacked out last night...you need some rest so just relax.." She said in a loving tone, this time even seeing passion in her eyes as she looked at me. I tried to speak opening my mouth, but her finger traced along my lips pausing in the middle. "Shh.don't worry." She smiled softly yet again. I couldn't do anything but stare at her. I never figured out this feeling I felt when I was with her. Maybe it was love, or maybe it was something else. How did she feel.obviously she ha felt the same tom but is she just as scared as I am? Maybe, but between each other, that's our silent romance. I sigh deeply as I lay back, content. I laugh in the inside. Content. What is the meaning of that word? Is it just being comfortable? Or simply happy? That's another world mystery that I'd never know.
I close my eyes and try to relax. Too many thoughts.why am I doing this to myself.I try to take deep breaths. It doesn't help. I'm so lost and confused, that if had to tell someone my problem I just wouldn't be able to explain. Do I love her..or lust her? Would it feel awkward if we were together? Or would everything be fine? At that very moment a rush of warmth hit my body. I open my solemn eyes to find her, Quistis, laying and cuddling next to me. The stain on my cheeks gets a crimson color as she kisses my cheek softly, maybe even passionately. I look at her, maybe confused, or maybe just possibly blank. She smiles softly and holds my cheek with her hand. "You're safe.." That was our last words. Then silence came into the atmosphere and there we slept her figure in my arms, both with a smile on our faces. I actually didn't dream, I don't remember much of what I thought, but I think that I had found what the meaning and feeling of being content really stood for..
A perfect sleep, content without a worry in the world, until now..my thought and peace was shattered as a bang came to my dorm room's door. I sat up in surprise, waking the sleeping princess by my side; she sat up looking at me. "What's wrong?" she looked at me terribly worried. My gaze couldn't leave the door. I knew who it was..and what he wanted. I felt like I wanted to hide, in a dark place where I'd never be seen or thought of ever again. I wanted to vanish from existence. I shrink in my composure. Quistis frowned then got up hearing for a sound. The banging on my door resumed more forceful. It sounded like the wall would just give and fall, maybe just like me..I close my eyes, this cant be happening.A moment later the banging had stopped, and just so did my heart as the fear built up inside me, impulses within my veins as I finally gather the strength to try and open my eyes. I failed. It seems that my body wasn't functioning with my mind. And yet I try again. To my avail my try was a success. I open my clouded eyes to see the door creaked open with a tall blonde man glancing at me, his eyes piercing with a look half between sorrow and betrayal. I wince just merely at the sight. His eyes and mine, looking and gazing at each other with suck intensity you wouldn't believe, once rivals, then lovers, now possibly mere enemies. I slowly pace myself to stand up, but never inching away toward the bed as something had stopped me. Quistis. What was she doing? I stood there confused of what she could do, but I'd knew it be something, so I stood there, my body controlling itself to stay back. It took everything I had not to cry, to give myself and my emotions. I couldn't do that. The last thing I need is for an enemy to know a weakness.but.does that mean that Seifer was officially a rival again? Maybe eve more, possibly a mere enemy? An enemy that do anything in his path just to hurt me and everything that surrounded me? It's just like before. Like during the sorceress wars. I remember it clearly now. I close my eyes in remembrance, but to my knowledge my eyes came right back into his glance. The next thing I knew Quistis had her chance, and she wasn't about to leave anything out.
She approached him slowly; his face now left mine, and with a smirk, moved onto her. He lifted his brow at her. What was he up to? I feel myself wince. I curse my body inside. 'Don't let him get to you..you're safe'..I don't know how many times I repeated that in my head but when I realized I was unaffected the verbal conflicts had started.
"You have a lot of nerve Seifer!!" she glared at him, maybe anticipating what he would say.
"Quistis I--" he was suddenly cut off by a huge smack across his face. Quistis back-handed him, her fury now noticeable.
"You have no excuses Seifer, you're not wanted here.Squall's safe and he isn't up for you're mistreatment again." Her glare was maybe more worse than mine. "You should be ashamed." she paused as her eyes filled with tears.
I couldn't take it. My 2 best friends..maybe 2 people I had loved or still very well do love, falling apart in front of me. I gathered the strength that I had and held my dear instructor as I slowly transferred a solid glare at my rival. He stared back, his jade eyes cutting my glare. Yet, I see something I didn't before. His eyes, they weren't filled with anger. I must have been to scared to notice. But for that long moment as I held a weeping princess in my arms, I had seen sympathy. In my former lover's eyes, they filled with sympathetic looks and pain from deep inside. What was this feeling inside me? I close my eyes. This is a dream.I open my eyes.no...he's still there. Quistis slowly regains her composure and stares at the both of us possibly not knowing what to do. I feel like falling. My whole body is shaking, and they both seem to notice.
"Squall...I'm..I--" he, yet again was cut off, non other by Quistis herself. He had tried to touch me, reaching his pale hands to grasp my shoulder, but Quistis was protecting me. Why? Could they notice that I was shaking? My insides turn. Seifer wouldn't dare to hurt me again..would he? I look back into his eyes, he does look safe..then without thinking I did something I'd never thought I'd do again. My pale cold hands touched Seifer's rugged face. He looked horrible. He had bags under his eyes and his skin was pale, even much more paler than mine..For a moment I may have felt sympathy for him and maybe even for myself. It was sad what he had become. I would admit this; I wanted to be back in his arms. I will admit that I had longed for him, maybe that's why I went to the beach often... That's where we confessed our love, maybe I was waiting for him to come back. I look down removing my hands from his face and they retreat to my pockets. I couldn't look at him anymore. I loved him...but....he.. I feel the tears well up inside. Why wont you go away...I cant take this.....I look up and find his expression totally confused. Maybe from my actions, then I placed a look on Quistis. She stared in maybe a confused state as well. The next moments which seemed forever took place in silence. The each of us looking at each other as if for an answer that couldn't be heard. But yet..our silence said everything..
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Thanks to the people that commented before I really appreciated it. And yes Rajin and Fujin will be placed within this story. Reviews are appreciated and thanks for reading!! Chapter 3 will be updated as soon as possible.