Another Author's note, even though I promised I would stop doing them. I
lie a lot, get over it.
GREETINGS, vast horde of cheering readers! *Crickets* Umm, I'm really, really sorry!
Over the past few months since I've updated this story I have gotten what we in the business refer to as a ***load of reviews asking for more, and it made me wanna cry, because I love you guys. Really. I do. The one, and only, reason I got HALF this far in this story, and in fact the one and only reason that it's not still a one-shot, is because people just like you (in fact, umm, YOU) sent me reviews and asked me to.
Am I a sucker for attention and praise? Yes! But at least I'm up front about it!
The reasons that the chapters have stopped-but wait, first let me thank all of you out their for breaking my heart every couple of weeks even after the chapters stopped by sending me mail, the vast majority of which told me to 'get better soon, dammit!'. That really did mean a lot, it's nice to be begged for. On to that reason!
The reason has nothing to do with me being sick, I got over that several days BEFORE the last chapter went up. It also has nothing to do with:
Me being grounded (again)
Me getting terrible, TERRIBLE grades (but acing the pre SAT and midterms!)
Me no-longer-going-out-with (but not technically breaking up I think) with gf
Me getting hooked on writing Gundam Wing
Me (as part of grounding) not being allowed to touch computers except for academic purposes (I'm supposed to be writing an essay right now)
Or even me *ahem* doing a bit of soul-searching about how godamn much Yaoi I write (me being male, but that's the end of the sentence, and I'm shutting up now).
NO, dear, loyal, faithful readers, the reason I stopped is that:
I HATE THIS STORY. Deeply. Viscerally. It reads (to me) like crap, it's no fun AT ALL to write, and it EMBODIES several characteristics that I detest in fanfiction. It has self insertion, it has long, obnoxious author's notes (well, it was annoying to write lots of chapter, so I filled up my word count with A/Ns!), it has pathetic (again, to me) plot, it has crappy characters, it's filled with terrible half-baked ideas, and I really do just dislike it more than I can possibly SPIT from my mouth in words. Plus it's a high school fic, and so blatantly self-serving it makes me want to cry. Again (I already cried because of the kind reviews, but I drink a lot to keep the ol' tear ducts full).
And, me being as lazy as I am, I stopped. There're maybe three hundred words of the next (FINAL btw, no matter what ANYONE says) chapter sitting in the master document on my computer, but none of them were any good last I checked, and leaving them alone for a while seems a dubious way to help.
So, I've got some choices. I really do want to finish this story, but it hurts like hell to put out. I will try, I promise, but I DON'T promise any results, the only reason it's still online is because I would feel bad if I took down all those reviews.
For you, the readers, who I still love by the way, there are four choices. You could flame me (PLEASE DO! WE COULD BECOME TOTAL PALS JUST BECAUSE WE SHARE A HATRED FOR THIS STORY!!!), you could close this window in your browser and never come back, you could try to shame me into writing with more kind reviews (that WOULD make me feel guilty, I already feel bad for putting you through all this just for a story I hate), or you can contact me with an MP3 file of 'Kiss kara hajimaru' from Steel Angel Kurumi (I promised some people that I'd write them anything if they find me that godamn song. Zaboun Tenshi from Neon Genesis Evangelion will also do).
So, a final, big thank-you to all you people who reviewed and loved on me and begged for more, even though I was a slow updater, a whiny-ass wimp, and a pathetic author. You guys really are incredible, and if at all possible I will try and finish this fic, but the genre really isn't for me. I'm all about the NC-17 GW Yaoi now (Oooh, I'm a dirty boy.). Now I need to go actually finish the essay for English, as it is due yesterday. Saiyonara, I honestly do hope I'll be able to replace this with an actual chapter soon.
Thank you one last time.even if we disagree violently on the definition of fanfiction worth the kinda attention some of you lavished on me, I may yet become a real, serious writer, and send you all a cut of the first book just for being so effin encouraging. But it's unlikely, so don't hold yer breath.
Your whiny-ass, hack-writing, hentaiyarou, baka, ahou, wan be dan self inserting author,
Jack
P.S. And on a final note, the might Serari-chan may or may not be able to scan in some fanart she did for this story (Sorry all you other people, but this makes her my favorite of all my reviewers *glomp*), if she ever manages to afford a scanner (I'd buy her one, but I'm flat broke) I'll include a link to it. Ja, ne!
lie a lot, get over it.
GREETINGS, vast horde of cheering readers! *Crickets* Umm, I'm really, really sorry!
Over the past few months since I've updated this story I have gotten what we in the business refer to as a ***load of reviews asking for more, and it made me wanna cry, because I love you guys. Really. I do. The one, and only, reason I got HALF this far in this story, and in fact the one and only reason that it's not still a one-shot, is because people just like you (in fact, umm, YOU) sent me reviews and asked me to.
Am I a sucker for attention and praise? Yes! But at least I'm up front about it!
The reasons that the chapters have stopped-but wait, first let me thank all of you out their for breaking my heart every couple of weeks even after the chapters stopped by sending me mail, the vast majority of which told me to 'get better soon, dammit!'. That really did mean a lot, it's nice to be begged for. On to that reason!
The reason has nothing to do with me being sick, I got over that several days BEFORE the last chapter went up. It also has nothing to do with:
Me being grounded (again)
Me getting terrible, TERRIBLE grades (but acing the pre SAT and midterms!)
Me no-longer-going-out-with (but not technically breaking up I think) with gf
Me getting hooked on writing Gundam Wing
Me (as part of grounding) not being allowed to touch computers except for academic purposes (I'm supposed to be writing an essay right now)
Or even me *ahem* doing a bit of soul-searching about how godamn much Yaoi I write (me being male, but that's the end of the sentence, and I'm shutting up now).
NO, dear, loyal, faithful readers, the reason I stopped is that:
I HATE THIS STORY. Deeply. Viscerally. It reads (to me) like crap, it's no fun AT ALL to write, and it EMBODIES several characteristics that I detest in fanfiction. It has self insertion, it has long, obnoxious author's notes (well, it was annoying to write lots of chapter, so I filled up my word count with A/Ns!), it has pathetic (again, to me) plot, it has crappy characters, it's filled with terrible half-baked ideas, and I really do just dislike it more than I can possibly SPIT from my mouth in words. Plus it's a high school fic, and so blatantly self-serving it makes me want to cry. Again (I already cried because of the kind reviews, but I drink a lot to keep the ol' tear ducts full).
And, me being as lazy as I am, I stopped. There're maybe three hundred words of the next (FINAL btw, no matter what ANYONE says) chapter sitting in the master document on my computer, but none of them were any good last I checked, and leaving them alone for a while seems a dubious way to help.
So, I've got some choices. I really do want to finish this story, but it hurts like hell to put out. I will try, I promise, but I DON'T promise any results, the only reason it's still online is because I would feel bad if I took down all those reviews.
For you, the readers, who I still love by the way, there are four choices. You could flame me (PLEASE DO! WE COULD BECOME TOTAL PALS JUST BECAUSE WE SHARE A HATRED FOR THIS STORY!!!), you could close this window in your browser and never come back, you could try to shame me into writing with more kind reviews (that WOULD make me feel guilty, I already feel bad for putting you through all this just for a story I hate), or you can contact me with an MP3 file of 'Kiss kara hajimaru' from Steel Angel Kurumi (I promised some people that I'd write them anything if they find me that godamn song. Zaboun Tenshi from Neon Genesis Evangelion will also do).
So, a final, big thank-you to all you people who reviewed and loved on me and begged for more, even though I was a slow updater, a whiny-ass wimp, and a pathetic author. You guys really are incredible, and if at all possible I will try and finish this fic, but the genre really isn't for me. I'm all about the NC-17 GW Yaoi now (Oooh, I'm a dirty boy.). Now I need to go actually finish the essay for English, as it is due yesterday. Saiyonara, I honestly do hope I'll be able to replace this with an actual chapter soon.
Thank you one last time.even if we disagree violently on the definition of fanfiction worth the kinda attention some of you lavished on me, I may yet become a real, serious writer, and send you all a cut of the first book just for being so effin encouraging. But it's unlikely, so don't hold yer breath.
Your whiny-ass, hack-writing, hentaiyarou, baka, ahou, wan be dan self inserting author,
Jack
P.S. And on a final note, the might Serari-chan may or may not be able to scan in some fanart she did for this story (Sorry all you other people, but this makes her my favorite of all my reviewers *glomp*), if she ever manages to afford a scanner (I'd buy her one, but I'm flat broke) I'll include a link to it. Ja, ne!