Chapter Three Raven's POV

Raven's POV: (About The Gathering (Julio Dinero and Punk) As they are all standing in the ring after Ravens has asked for the cage match against Abyss and the Red Shirts. The match is real and did take place on Dec. 17, 2003 on NWA-TNA. You can check out NWA-TNA at www.nwatna.com) Though it sucked and I refuse to use the real ending in this story.

Oh Damn it Raven what the hell. Well I guess that now I have really gone and done it. I can't believe that those words came out of my mouth. My fucking mouth it wasn't what my mind had planned on saying. But damned if I did not just open my mouth and those words poured out I didn't even know that I was going to say them. I really can not believe that I just asked for a fucking cage match with the Red Shirt Security and Abyss against myself and the Gathering. But I did then I turned to Julio and Punk giving them the choice and the chance to betray me. Julio looked so surprised at me as if I had grown three heads or wings. And then he starts shaking his head yes so hard that I am afraid that it is going to fall off his shoulders. And well then Punk just starts to jump up and down yelling things at them. So there is Julio's and my true love jumping up and down like he has ants in his damn pants. Or maybe he is being shocked with volts of electricity and just can't stand still. And he is yelling about how he knew I would change my mind. That we were always meant to take them all down and out as a team. And he is yelling at the Red Shirts and Abyss telling them that their days are now numbered. Numbered to seven days because my destiny will be fulfilled soon. I can not help it but I have to grin over at him. And damn it I really wish that I hadn't. I mean it's hard enough not to let them see into my heart when we are alone. But now I know that if anyone looked closely enough that they would see that I love these two with every thing that I am made up of. I know that I have got to turn away from Punk before I can't control myself for another second. Because if that happens I will be over there next to him hugging him. Or even worst making out with him in the center of the ring. Or something else that would make us all feel good. Man wouldn't the fans love that especially those fan fiction writers. So I do almost something just as dumb. I look over a Julio the Punkster quiet love and mine. And instead of just standing there silently like he normally would he is grinning at Punk with this most earth shattering hot smile that makes it hard for me to breath. Not that I can blame him after all we don't call Punk our baby explosion for nothing. And he does look so cute when he is all happy and excited. And then damn it Julio turns that sweet and sexy hot smile of his on me. I can't help but to moan a little. I can feel myself melt just as I hear Punk tell me that they won't let me down. Not like they did last week or earlier tonight. Not that they let me down in any way and later I will have to make sure that they know that. Then he goes on to tell me that Boss as he is always calling me I can count on them. I know that they feel that this is also along with setting them free was a way for me to test them. That this was to make sure that they were loyal to me and that I could trust them. And yes in some ways I guess that it was just that. But even more so I was testing myself. To see if I can let my baby birds leave the nest and to leave me. To fly free on their own and to come back to me if they chose. See the Birdman, Raven never needed anyone. Well that was till he let Julio Dinero and CM Punk into his life. Now if they only knew that the thoughts of being without them sent terror through my whole fucking body. Weather it was in the ring or in my life I need them there. More then they might even need me. I know with everything that I am I need them. I claim to them that my destiny is the most important thing to me. What a fucking lie that is because nothing is more important to me then they are. I know that I don't say it like they do but I love them. Damn just saying it in my head has scared the hell out of me. I try to show them in small ways that I do love them. Hell that is why I quit drinking and doing the pills that I knew they hated me doing. Because as I look into their eyes as I do right now just before flipping out of the ring I see their love for me. And the trust that they have for me also shows in their eyes right now. A trust that I give back to them two completely but am to afraid to tell them that I do in words. Trust that is something that I have not given in a long time to anyone. Not since giving it to Stevie and the other who betrayed me shortly after getting what they wanted from me. My love, a love that I gave to them all openly and without protecting my heart in the process of giving it. And because of them the love that I could not give openly at to the Gathering as freely as I would have liked too. I flipped out of the ring and then wait till they flip their hot bodies and damn if they aren't hot out to the floor. I then can't help it I just had to touch them. So I guess in many ways that I can not control it even if I wanted too. I stepped in between them and throw an arm around both their necks quickly giving them both a hug. I squeeze them tightly and quickly. I smile and laugh under my breath because by doing this I have surprised them both. I then just as quick walk away and on up the ramp. I leave them to stare at my back. Oh hell whom I'm I kidding I know that for a fact that they are both watching my ass. I get to the top and turn around to see that they have an arm around each other's necks and are standing there smiling. I wonder if I'm not going to have to go back down the ramp to get them moving. No guess not because suddenly they are both rushing up the ramp without letting go of each other. Which is making me so hot that I can't help but to groan. Thank god no one can hear it. When they get to the top I can't help but to step back in between them. I think it must be the love that I have for them plus maybe the love that my baby birds have for me. I quickly grab their hands and pull them through the curtain to the back area. And then I can't control myself I have to have the two of them in my arms. I pull them in and kiss them both in one of the hottest three way kisses we have ever had. By the time we pull apart I am so hot and pressing against my kilt that I am sure everyone can see how badly I need them and right now. We all are breathing hand and the look of lust and want in their eyes almost makes me pull them back in for another kiss. But instead we grab hands and quickly make out way back to the Lair. A room I had picked so that we could have a space of our own. A place that we could get lost in each other completely. A place that I am glad doesn't have ears or eyes. Because if it did... And now Julio is grinning and Punk is vibrating he is so turned in to our wants and needs. Our Love. A love that we need and want to give to each other so bad that we would die if we could not. I love that I am willing to give when I never thought that I would. Love...damn just that word sends shivers up and down my body. Some thing that I will show both my babies birds just as soon as we get back to the Ravens Lair. That is if they will let their Birdman. Though I know in my heart that they will let me show them as I also know that they will show me too.

Author Notes: I have decide that the first 3 chapter or the POV of this story will be the prelude to the story which will have some POV but also a story. I have also decided with the help of my Raven, CM Punk and Julio Dinero muses that I am changing the course of History. This story will not have the Gathering-betraying Raven but will have the ending of the cage match be that of what it should have been. If you don't want the Gathering to stay with Raven then Read my other Raven and the Gathering story as that one has the betrayal. But even that one I refuse to let go without a reason. It called Once again I lead myself to this betrayal. Like always please if you took the time to read it please Review it. Even if you think that it suck.

Thanks,

Cat Lea

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