By: Ami
Beta Reader: kitsune-oni
-- One Day Miracle --Chapter 4 of 5 – Fake Denial
Some of you might get freaked out later, so I'll repeat it to you: Happy ending guaranteed.
Greetings to the reviewers:
Saiyuki G-H-S-G
Thanks for waiting! ^^ Mou, I tried to email you to tell you that I had uploaded the third chapter, but I failed because your mailbox was too full. ^^;; I'm sorry. *bows down*
GinRyuu-chan-sama
Daijoubu desu! Until now, I don't dare to write any lemons too. ^^ I'm just too young for writing the xxx stuffs (although actually I DO read the xxx stuffs XD) I'll read more and more until I can finally write one good lemon. I'm trying! XD Anyway, I'm curious about your name. Where did GinRyuu come from? It's such a unique name I think…
Miracle*me
Ooh~! I'm sooooooooo sorry, it seems that I'll have to disappoint my dedication in this chapter!! (But who knows what'll happen in the next one? XD) Thanks for keep reading. I'm very very very happy that my dedication keeps watching me! ^____^
Hanae da Firefly
Mou, Hanae-chan! XD I thought I was a cruel for treating Gojyo like that, but now I know that you're even meanier than me~! XD XD Let's see… what will Gojyo do if Hakkai has been really a pedophile? Maybe he'll ask Gokuu to return him to his childhood-self! XD Thanks for reading, pal! *glomp*
On3
Waiii~! I love being bear-hugged! ^w^ Thankie~! Don't worry about your hentai mental illusion! Hentai is healthy! XD XD XD (The author is actually suffering the same hentai-ness) XD XD XD Hey, when will you write again? I can't wait to read your fics! Come on, gal!
Iapetus
Oh noooooo~!!!! The world can't be against you!!! *hugs* Which reminded me that I had a hard class this morning. I suffered a horrible PMS in the middle of Biology! Thanks~! I'm trying not to rush with their relationships (it's REALLY hard… *sighs*). I think I have been playing too much with Gojyo and Hakkai! XD I just won't let them get together easily! Once more, thanks! You have been such a nice reader, creative reviewer and a best friend.
katie
Hello, Katie-san! Thanks for reading! ^^ As I said, I alerted you, right? I'm sooooo glad that someone reads my fic seriously. And yes, I'll alert you too for the next chapter. Thanks, gal!
Hakkai-san
Oh my! Hakkai-san is back! *glomps* Thanks for keep reading, gal! I love you for everything! ^^ Thanks for making the rules! Please continue! You can make it a very looooooooooong list and it will never bore me! XD Honto! Or shall I display it here?
maboroshi16
Mabo-chan~! *glomp* Thank you! I love your fics although sometimes I forget the number behind your name. XD Keep writing please! It means a LOT to my brain!
Genjo Sanzo 1
=_=;;; The fics removals sucks. I really hate them for doing that. I don't know why too and they didn't give me a clear explanation. I have given up on it. QQ Anyway, thank you very much for asking. I really appreciate your sympathy. ^^
Lazeralk
Thanks a lot! ^^ You can always believe me to treat Sanzou well. I'll not spoil the ending. XP But you can see the very first statement above *points up* XD Fluff hurts nobody! ^__^
Star-chan
Mou, Star-chan~! Of course I'm not that heartless! Come here, please! You're so cute that I really really really want to hug you now~! *huggies*
Nan
Are you all right now? ^^ If you need someone to talk with, I'm available!
Bakazaru Boi
Thanks, Bakazaru Boi-san~! *hugs* Sigh~! Are you an angel of something? Your review always comes just in the fittest time! QQ Thanks for ALWAYS brightening my day! Thank you thank you thank you thank you very much~!
Chibi Unleashed
Waii~! Thank you! ^w^ What would I do without someone like you! Sure thing! I won't let you wait too long!
Dedicated to: All my readers and kind reviewers.
Specially dedicated to:
miracle*me for giving me inspiration to write this fic. *Hug* you're so inspiring! ^w^
DISCLAIMER : Look up… yep… and see my name… it's not Minekura Kazuya, ne? XD
Here we go…
"Sigh… I told you to take the medicine regularly, Genjo-san." The doctor narrowed his eyes at the cold blonde guy in front him. "Your condition will get worse if you're so stubborn."
"What do you think I am trying to do?" Sanzou tried to keep his voice neutral, although his heart was at its emotional peak now. "Do you think I wanna die? Do you think I wanna throw my life away? I just don't wanna spend the rest of my life taking those fucking pills and coming here for a check up!"
"I understand how you feel. You have been doing this for 5 years. I can understand that you are sick of this," the doctor replied calmly. "But your body is as fragile as glass now. You MUST take those FUCKING pills and come here for a check up." He looked at the young man sternly. "I am responsible for your life. So please be considerate and follow my advice."
Sanzou didn't answer. Instead, he got on his feet and walked out of the room.
The doctor sighed and placed a hand on his forehead. He was used to Sanzou's foul mouth. It hadn't mattered as much in the beginning. But now he just felt sad to see his patient getting weaker and weaker… as if waiting for death. It's not that he hadn't been trying his best. He had. He wanted. But he couldn't.
"………How long will he survive, Doctor?" his nurse asked.
"…6 months… at the most… if he takes the pills and comes here regularly for check ups like I told him to …" The doctor buried his face between his arms. "…This is the hardest part… of being a doctor…"
***
"Sanzou! Okaeri!" Gokuu ran to the front door to greet his master. No. Sanzou hadn't say 'Tadaima'. He never did. But thanks to Gokuu's wonderful hearing, he had already heard Sanzou's footsteps a few seconds before Sanzou had reached the doorknob. "Ne, where have you been? I have been waiting for you! Hakkai came to cook lunch for us. He told me to eat first but I wanted to eat with you so—"
"URUSAI!"
Gokuu felt a loud thud in his heart at the loud snarl. This time Sanzou hadn't hit him like he usually did… but it saddened Gokuu more than usual. Something had happened, he decided.
Without another word, Sanzou took off his jacket and marched directly to his room.
"W—wait! Sanzou!" Gokuu decided to try again. Probably Sanzou was just in a bad mood, as usual. But he had been living with the grumpy blonde for about two weeks, and Sanzou had never acted like this before; no matter how much chaos Gokuu had caused in his house.
"What's wrong with you? What did I do wrong again? Ne, Sanzou…." Gokuu tugged on Sanzou's sleeve.
"Get off," Sanzou flatly commanded as he pushed the boy away.
"But you're acting strange!" Gokuu stubbornly kept clinging on to Sanzou's sleeve. "Ne, Sanzou! Tell me! What's wrong? Just say a wish and I'll make it come true! Come on! Don't keep the problem to yourself!"
Sanzou was stunned at Gokuu's remark.
"I came here to return your favor. And I'll make your every wish come true."
//A wish…// Sanzou looked at the boy. //Maybe… he can help me… escape from this cureless illness…//
"How's that?" Gokuu's eyes shimmered happily. "Come on. Make a wish. It has been almost two weeks. You mustn't waste this chance!"
Sanzou's face softened to the innocent face. Somehow Gokuu's words had made him feel much better…
"I almost forgot." He picked Gokuu by collar and threw him on to the sofa before joining him. "Let's see what you can do."
"Great!" Gokuu yelled out happily; that his master had finally smiled again.
"You told me that you'd make my every wish come true, right?" Sanzou looked at the boy playfully. "Let's start from a simple one."
"Uhn!" Gokuu looked at him with curious golden eyes.
"I'm tired like hell now. I want a nice long dreamless sleep until tomorrow. And I don't want to be interrupted by ANYTHING. " Sanzou said. "Can you?"
"Sure!" Gokuu grinned. "When would you want to start?"
"Right now," Sanzou replied.
"OK." Gokuu smiled meaningfully. "Now look into my eyes."
Sanzou frowned and did as Gokuu told him to.
And in the next second, he had fallen into the brunette's arms, sleeping as soundly as a baby.
"Sleep tight…" Gokuu brushed some blonde strands off the beautiful face, smiling gracefully. "Sanzou…"
***
Sanzou blinked and looked at his watch for the nth time.
This was UNBELIEVABLE!
He had slept for 16 HOURS and hadn't been woken up by ANYTHING! Wow! This was a GREAT record! He had never felt this good in the morning. Well… don't blame him for his usual permanent grumpy state. Usually he had only 5 hours sleep at night. So… what to blame? But since today he had slept 3 times the usual, probably his mood would be lightened up 3 times the usual too.
//The saru can do it…// Sanzou couldn't help smiling. //He can really make my wishes come true.//
With the thought, he got dressed as quickly as he could before rushing downstairs to look for Gokuu.
//Maybe he can really help me.// Sanzou thought blissfully. //He can help me… out of this misery.//
His footsteps got faster.
"Gokuu!" He yelled out the name impatiently. "Where are you?"
Nobody answered.
//Ch. Where the hell is he?// Sanzou scanned the whole living room—and soon spotted his pet's sleeping form on the sofa. He smirked at the angelic sleeping face in front of him. //Bakazaru. He'll definitely catch a cold… sleeping with those thin clothes…// Sanzou picked one blanket from his room and covered it on the heretic's body. Responding the sudden warmth, Gokuu clutched on to the blanket, settling in his position softly.
Sanzou smiled softly at the sleeping form before deciding to get himself a breakfast and directly go to school. Suddenly… he felt VERY hungry…
***
"Good morning, Sanzou." Hakkai's smiling face greeted him cheerfully. "How was the test yesterday?"
"Ch." Sanzou didn't answer. Of course as usual, for him, the test was just too easy. JUST FOR HIM. I need to emphasize it. *cough* *cough*
"I'm sure that you'll get first place again." Hakkai chuckled.
"…Don't act stupid, runner-up." Sanzou slightly smiled at the remark.
"Well… I don't think I'll be the runner-up this time, Sanzou…" Suddenly Hakkai was showing him a very wicked mischievous grin. "SOMEONE worked really hard to surpass you in this annual test… right? M-a-s-t-e-r S-a-n-z-o-u-s-a-m-a?"
Sanzou turned slightly pink at the sly statement. How could have he forgotten about the NICE deal he had made? But wait—how could Hakkai know about that?
"Well, if you're wondering how could I know…" Hakkai, as usual, was being as You-Don't-Have-Speak-I-Have-Understood. "Well…"
FLASHBACK
Midnight
Sunday, one week ago
PING PONG~!
PING PONG~!
Hakkai stirred awake.
Who was that? Couldn't he see what time it was?
Sighing heavily, he climbed out of his bed and went to the door before pushing the interphone's button. "Who is it?"
"…It—It's me."
Hakkai blinked and blinked again.
He knew that voice.
With a smile, he opened the door. "Welcome… Goku."
***
"I apologize. I must have disturbed your sleep… But I am simply frustrated now." Goku bowed his head down. "I was very confused and stressed out. Then I thought of you. So I came here."
"Ah, sou ka." Hakkai gave the smaller boy a big Teddy Bear glass of chocolate milk, before sweat dropping and quickly taking back the glass. "Sorry. Umm… I just mistook you for Gokuu. Uh… because you look like him a lot---err-- I mean—" Hakkai sweat dropped more. //Goddess… I slipped my tongue…//
"Wai! You're so kind, Hakkai! How could you know that I really like chocolate?!" Goku's eyes shimmered to the drink. "May I drink this?"
"S---sure." Hakkai passed the glass to Goku.
"Wow! This glass is really cute too!" Goku emptied the glass in one gulp. "Ah~ I'm better now~ thanks, Hakkai!"
Hakkai chuckled. "You're welcome."
"Anyway… the reason why I came…" Goku wiped away the stain of chocolate around his mouth with his sleeve. "I need you to tutor me for the annual exams."
"What?" Hakkai couldn't believe his own ears. Studying was the VERY last thing Son Goku would like to do—even a few hours before annual exams!
"Yeah… for some reasons… I need to study hard this time…" Goku looked very nervous. "Umm… it's about my life. It's very important. But for sure… I must surpass Sanzou this time."
Hakkai was struck dumb.
Surpass… Sanzou?
…Almost impossible.
"But, why---"
"I'll tell you the reason, but don't tell anybody else." Goku whispered quietly, although he knew that there're just the two of them in the flat. "If I can't surpass him, I will have to be his slave. QQ Can you imagine that?"
Hakkai was now fighting the urge to laugh his head off, and it resulted in a strange strangled sound. Sanzou had made a deal like that to Goku? Wow! Gokuu had been really successful today!
"That's why, for a week until the exams, I'll study hard." Goku said with a serious expression. "Hakkai-san! Please tutor me!"
"OK… sure…" Hakkai grinned. "But, Goku… wouldn't you just LOVE being the loser this time?"
Goku turned brilliant red at the remark. "Well… I… uh…"
"Ah, I see. You wanna be on top?"
"Hakkai~!"
"Hai, hai… sorry. Now, let's start the lesson, shall we?" Hakkai stood up and returned with his bag. "Let's start with Chemistry."
FLASHBACK – END
Sanzou snorted at the story and sat in his desk quietly.
"Then… don't you want to hear the rest?" Hakkai teased.
"Whatever," Sanzou replied coldly, although his heart was screaming: YES! YES! YESSSSSS!!!! I WANNA HEAR IT!!!!! PLEASE TELL ME!!!!!
But then, putting that sentence in to Sanzou-sama's mouth would be too OOC, don't you think so…? XD
"For the last 7 days, he studied very hard. And I DO think that there's a possibility that he might surpass you." Hakkai added with a smile.
"Ch. You've gotta be kidding." Sanzou smirked.
"Oh, don't underestimate me, Sanzou. I'm a VERY good teacher. Although I can never win against you, I'm sure that my student can," Hakkai announced.
"You're wasting your time. There's no way the brainless monkey can do it," Sanzou snorted. "…Unless a miracle happens."
And Hakkai smiled. "Miracles DO happen."
"…You bet."
***
Sanzou opened the door while wondering where Gokuu could be. //He isn't home.// He decided. Because usually Gokuu would always run to greet him before he would reach the doorknob. //Where the hell is he? Wandering alone to Hakkai's flat again? Ch. And he said that he would make my every wish come true…// Sanzou took off his jacket and hang it before directly entering the living room.
And Sanzou was struck dumb.
Gokuu hadn't gone anywhere. He was still sleeping on the sofa in the same position where Sanzou had left him in the morning.
"What's eating at him?" Sanzou approached the boy and kicked him off the sofa. "Oi, saru! Wake up! It's almost evening! Are you planning to sleep your day off?"
"Ite… Sanzou… sleepy…" Gokuu slowly opened his eyes and lazily sat on the floor.
Sanzou sighed and went to the kitchen. Gokuu hadn't eaten the lunch he had prepared. Without another word, he went back inside the living room and sat on the sofa. "Why are you so tired?" he asked quietly. "…Does it have to do with my wish yesterday?"
"Hn… nan demo nai…" Gokuu rested his head on Sanzou's leg. "It's OK…"
"Don't 'it's OK' me." Sanzou picked him by collar and placed him on the sofa, beside him. As he let his collar go, Gokuu went back limp and fell on Sanzou's lap. "What's going on here, saru?"
"……It's just the effect… just a small effect…" Gokuu answered, still closing his eyes. "…Actually I'm not a fairy in Cinderella tale, Sanzou… I cannot make things disappear… just like that… I can't… My ability is… removing it… in to myself…"
"Removing?" Sanzou widened his lavender eyes.
"Yes…" Gokuu answered weakly. "…Just like yesterday… I… removed your insomnia… in to myself… so you could sleep… very well… but then… I couldn't sleep all the night to replace you… that's why… I'm very sleepy now, Sanzou… ZzzzzzzzZzZzzz… lemme… ZzZzzz… sleep… today… ZzzzZzZ… I'll be… back to normal… tomorrow… zZzzzZZZzzZzz…"
Sanzou fell silent.
Resting his head on the sofa, he closed his eyes softly and his lips curved in to an ironic smirk.
"…I see…" He whispered softly. "…Miracles… don't exist…"
The image of his parents and his doctor's words returned.
"……………………………………………………fuck."
***
1. GENJO SANZO -- 800
Goku widened his eyes in terror at the scoreboard. He had lost! He had lost against Sanzou! Sanzou was still the top-scorer!
"No way…" He shook his head in disbelief. "I studied really hard… but I---I still couldn't beat him!"
"Yes, of course you can never win." Hakkai appeared behind him, smiling sarcastically. "I told you not to hope too much, huh?"
"But, Hakkai—what should I do now?" Goku frantically clutched at Hakkai's clothes. "Please tell me!"
Hakkai shook his head. "Gomen ne, Goku. I'm afraid you can't do anything to escape now. Men won't take back his words. Remember?"
Goku turned really teary. "But—"
"OK, slave. Stop clinging to the other guy," the piercing baritone voice snarled.
"S—Sanzou---" Goku widened his eyes in terror as the blonde guy grabbed him by the collar and pulled him in to his arms.
"I'll treat you REAL good. Don't be afraid." Sanzou smiled wickedly.
"N—No—" Goku almost cried. "S—Sanzou---I love you—but---I---I'm still afraid! "
"Afraid? Of what?"
Suddenly they were in Sanzou's room.
"Are you afraid of me?" Sanzou pushed the boy down on to his bed before joining him, trapping the boy between his body and the soft bed. "I'm not going to hurt you… well… it's going to be hurt a bit… but later… you'll feel a great pleasure…" He hissed in to the trembling boy's ear. "Come on, Goku… my slave… shall we start?"
"W---wait---Sanzou---please wait! I---I'm not ready---Please wait!" Goku struggled against the guy's strong arms, blushing furiously.
"Goku…"
"Please wait, Sanzou… I'm really scared…"
"Goku…"
"Wait…"
"Goku…"
"I'm not ready… yet…"
"Goku…"
"No…"
"Goku…"
"No…"
"For Buddha's sake, Goku! Wake up! It's almost 8 o'clock! You'll be late!"
And Goku jerked awake, sweaty and extremely tired. "What—"
"Hurry up! Move your ass and go to school!" His mother frowned at him. "You'll soon become a 3rd grader, but you're still so lazy."
"S—sorry, Mom." Goku sheepishly got on his feet and walked in to the bathroom to get dressed.
***
"Hi, Goku!"
"Oh! Hakkai!" Goku turned his face to the smiling brunette. "Good morning."
"Good morning." Hakkai greeted back. "How do you feel about your luck today?"
"Luck?" Goku blinked confusedly.
"Poor boy. Don't tell me that you have forgotten that today the scoreboard will be up." Hakkai chuckled cheerfully.
And Goku turned purple.
"Are you ready to be Sanzou-sama's slave?"
***
TOP 100
1. GENJO SANZOU (A) – 800
2. CHO HAKKAI (A) – 789
3. SON GOKU (E) – 770
Goku went limp in front of the scoreboard. Cold sweat made its way down from his forehead.
//QQ I'm now… officially… Sanzou's slave!//
"Ah… Goku…" Hakkai appeared behind him, just like in his dream. "Too bad."
"H---Hakkai—" Goku grabbed the boy by sleeves. "What should I do now? Must I really become Sanzou's slave? Hakkai~ QQ"
"What can I do, Goku…" Hakkai smiled. "Men won't take back his words."
//Just like in my dream…// Goku couldn't stop shivering. And when he turned around…
"SS—Ssss—San---"
Sanzou looked at the scoreboard with an impassive expression, then turned his head to face the trembling boy beside him. "About our earlier agreement…"
//Oh no oh no oh no oh no oh noooooo~!!!! I'll really become his slave now~!!!! I can't escape~!!!!!//
"…I take back my word."
With that statement, the cold blonde turned his back on Goku and walked away, leaving both brunettes with wide eyes, heavily shocked.
"W—wait, Sanzou!" Goku ran to catch him up. "What do you mean by that?"
"Get off, saru." Sanzou narrowed one eye peevishly at him. "You don't have to be my slave. Isn't it clear enough?"
"B---bb-b-but---"
"One saru is enough. I have no intention of bringing home one more chaos-maker." Sanzou coldly slapped the tanned hand away and started walking away.
//Sanzou…// Goku's sight blurred along with Sanzou's quickened pace.
And everything went black.
***
"Lack of sleep," the doctor explained, "and stress."
"Ah, sou ka," Hakkai mumbled.
"Ch. That's what you'll get for thinking too much about the bloody iceman." Gojyo leaned one hand on Goku's stomach. "How's your awakening, little monkey?"
Goku blinked before realizing his situation.
"Get off! I'm going to puke!" Goku shoved the redhead away.
"Oops… no puking here." Gojyo quickly moved away.
"How do you feel?" Hakkai sat on the bed and brushed Goku's shoulder gently. "Are you still dizzy?"
Goku shook his head weakly. "…Did I collapse?"
"Yup." Hakkai smiled.
"You must be grateful that I, the Almighty Gojyo-sama, spared some energy to carry you here," Gojyo grumbled. "Useless saru."
"Urusai, red-cockroach!" Goku glared at him. Now… now… look, Sanzou… what kind of attitudes have you infected to the two innocent sarus?
"Nani?! We barely know each other! How dare you calling me like that!" Gojyo fought back.
"Ah! Right! Goku doesn't know about Gojyo yet!" Hakkai cheerfully remarked, bringing up a sunny background around them. "Then, make introductions! Come on! Come on! ^_^"
Both Gojyo and Goku sweat dropped before unwillingly shaking each other's hand and introducing themselves.
"Yoroshiku *pinch* onegaishimasu *twitch*." # # # # #
"Great!" Hakkai clapped his hands cheerfully. "Now Goku… I'd like to have a word with you. Gojyo, go out."
"Hakkai~!" Gojyo's eyes went teary. "How could you do this to me?! I have apologized and I even carried the saru for you!"
"Urusai." Here he was… one more victim of Sanzou-sama's infamous 'urusai' virus. "I haven't forgiven you yet and I DIDN'T ask you to pick him. I could always carry him by myself. Do you think I'm weak? Now move away because I'd like to have a private conversation with Goku."
Along with clouds, floating-fire and goose bumps, Gojyo walked out of the room.
"Now, Goku…"
Goku widened his eyes at the sudden sadness in Hakkai's face.
"Maybe… you're disappointed with Sanzou now…" Hakkai started. "Actually I hesitated to tell you about this before… I know I'm selfish… it will make you sad… but I don't want you to hate Sanzou after that…"
Golden eyes widened.
***
Gokuu looked at his master from outside the door, obviously worried. He really wanted to enter the room, jump on the bed and comfort Sanzou with all the things he could do, but Sanzou had snarled at him at the first try. Well… who's going to be stupid enough to take the second? Especially with The Almighty Genjo Sanzou-sama in 'THIS' kind of mood?
"What's happening to him…" Gokuu bowed his head down. "Is he angry with me? What did I do this time?"
Getting tired after the earlier incident—that he had removed Sanzou's insomnia in to his body, he decided to sit while thinking.
//I have called Hakkai… and he didn't pick it…// Gokuu folded his arms around his knees, burying his head on them tiredly. //…Konzen… how I wish that you were here at a time like this…// A teardrop fell from his cheek, falling gracefully on to the wooden floor.
Violet eyes witnessed it all.
***
Goku's mother was cooking cheerfully in the kitchen. One of Goku's friends had just informed her that Goku had got the 3rd place on the scoreboard, and so she was really happy. She had even cooked red rice to celebrate this with her dear son and her husband.
"…Tadaima."
"Ah! Okaeri-nasai!" She rushed to the front door and smiled widely at her gloomy son. "I have cooked a lot of food for you! Come on! Do you want to eat first?"
Unexpectedly, Goku passed her with an impassive face. "…No."
She frowned and pouted.
"I think I like my former son better."
***
"You've gotta be kidding!" Gojyo widened his red eyes at the brunette. "You mean---that bloody foul-mouthed ice blondie—is suffering from a cureless illness?!"
Hakkai nodded.
"No way." Gojyo breathed heavily. "He doesn't look like an ill person at all—I didn't mean about his attitudes."
"Gojyo! It isn't a time for joke! I'm serious! Sanzou's illness is incurable and he might die anytime!" Hakkai frowned. "That's why I have been planning to get Sanzou and Goku together as soon as possible… I was thinking that at least he must get Goku before he dies."
Gojyo put a hand under his chin and smiled. "Isn't it selfish?"
Hakkai widened his eyes before smiling again. "It is."
"What if I said that I supported Goku?"
"………Saa na…"
And Gojyo smiled. "It seems that there's a bit of me in your heart."
Hakkai widened his emerald eyes as Gojyo leaned forward to plant a kiss on the other guy's lips.
"Hakkai, I love you. Will you be my boyfriend?"
***
//Cureless illness…// Goku buried his head on to the pillow. //Sanzou… how can I help you?//
***
When Gokuu opened his eyes, he was in Sanzou's bed, covered with warm blankets and nice pillows.
Blinking in confusion, he sat up and quickly scanned the whole room for his master's presence.
"Sanzou?!" He called out. "Sanzou?! Where are you?!"
No answer.
Getting more and more worried, he jumped off the bed and ran downstairs. And the scene in front of him startled him out of his wits.
"S---SANZOU!"
***
"W---what?" Hakkai blushed deeply. "What did you---"
"I love you." Gojyo emphasized. "I wanna kiss you, I wanna hold your hand, I wanna hug you, I wanna support you, I wanna make you smile, I wanna… be your boyfriend."
Hakkai took a deep breath.
"You—"
*SLAP*
"Ouch!" Gojyo held his cheek. "Hakkai—why did you—"
"Don't kiss me so suddenly like that! You treated me like a doll! If you want to kiss me, you must ask for permission first! I'm not a whore!" Hakkai snarled. Glasses sparkled wickedly.
"Y—yes! I'm sorry!" Gojyo bowed his head deeply. //Oh shit! Now he has rejected me! I guess the situation wasn't right… oh fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Why am I so stupid?! I should have waited a bit longer! Oh damn! Now he'll really hate me! I must apologize---must---//
"But about the proposal…" suddenly the brunette smiled. "I… accept it."
Gojyo was struck dumb.
"R—really?"
"Uhn." Hakkai nodded happily. "Actually… I love you too, Gojyo. Though you're a helpless stupid, playboy, overly confident, naughty, troublesome and insensitive…"
"Oi, oi… can we skip those parts?" Gojyo sweat dropped.
"But I still think that you're cute." Hakkai continued. "But I also that you'll get out of those bad habits someday. Especially the 'playboy' part."
"Y—yes! Sure!" Gojyo's eyes shimmered. "Then… it means that… we're officially lovers now?"
"Right." Hakkai grinned. "But wait---no groping and kissing until I permit you to."
"Oh no~!" Gojyo moaned. "Please, Hakkai~!"
"Although you're now my boyfriend, I still need to make sure that you're loyal. Until I have thought you so, you mustn't do anything." Hakkai smiled wickedly. "Deal?"
Gojyo groaned. "Fine."
"Good." Hakkai smiled happily. "And now—"
"Hakkai! Please help Sanzou!" Suddenly Gokuu appeared in the space between them. "He—he—he tried to kill himself!"
"WHAT?!"
***
Amethyst eyes stirred open.
White.
Where was he?
Heaven?
Unfortunately… no. # #
It was a ceiling.
Then it must mean that…
He was still alive?
"Sanzou!"
Golden eyes watched him. Fear and relief were painted in his eyes.
"Sanzou! Thanks God you're awake! I was sooooooooo worried!" Gokuu gripped the man's shirt and pressed his face on Sanzou's chest. "Why did you do that? Why? Why? Why, Sanzou? Why? What did I do wrong, Sanzou? What? Please tell me! If you hate me, you'd better kill me than killing yourself! Sanzou no baka! Baka! Baka! Baka! Baka! Baka~!!!! I hate you! How could you do this?!!" T_T
"Urusai, saru… you'll make me deaf…" Sanzou muttered huskily. "What time is it?"
"Is it a time for that?! I need an explanation!" Gokuu frowned.
"…Later." Sanzou got up and cursed as the pain stung from his injured wrist. The wrist he had cut himself to end his life. Judging from the neat bandage, it seemed that Hakkai had come.
"Hakkai and Gojyo went to school a few minutes ago. They told me to take care of you." Gokuu explained. "And from now on, I'll follow you no matter what you'll do to me! I won't leave you alone and I'll always keep an eye on you!! Be prepared, Genjo Sanzou! I won't let you do that kind of thing again!"
"Will you also follow me to the bathroom?" Sanzou smirked.
"Y—yes! Of course!" The boy turned red.
"Ch. Do what you like." Sanzou shoved the blanket away. "It's morning. I must go to school."
"No!" Gokuu held him by waist. "Don't go. Just stay here. You still need rest."
"Let me go, saru. I'm OK now. It's just a small scratch and—"
"Stop pretending, Sanzou."
Sanzou stopped at his track as the heretic started sobbing. And soon, his back was soaking wet and warm of Gokuu's tears.
"Hakkai has told me everything." He buried his face deeply on Sanzou's back, tightening his arms around the blonde's waist. "…Why didn't you tell me about it sooner, Sanzou?"
"…About what?"
"I told you! Stop pretending, damn it!" Gokuu snarled. "I know about your illness! Now I know that one-day without pills can cause your death! I know it! So stop being so stubborn and accept it!"
Sanzou didn't answer. Instead, he turned to face the boy and kneeled down. "What are you crying your eyes out for?"
"I--- *sob* I'm crying for you, idiot! *sob* *sob* You're really a stupid! *sob* You-- *sob* You called me *sob* stupid *sob* But actually *sob* you're much more stupid than me! *sob* *sob* You're heartless! *sob* Heartless bastard! *sob* You may hit me! You may curse me! You may kill me but just stop torturing yourself!" Gokuu brushed the tears off with his sleeve.
"Now… who is the baka one?" Sanzou took a tissue and brushed it gently on Gokuu's cheeks. "Bakazaru. I told you not to wipe your face with your sleeve. It costs me money to clean, you know."
"B—but— you--"
"Listen. I promise I won't do that again." Sanzou looked at him gently. "I just lost control a few hours ago. I apologize."
Gokuu slowly formed a smile and nodded. "Promise!"
"Good." Sanzou placed a hand on the chocolate locks. "Now I'll cook breakfast for us, then I'll sleep like you said."
"Great! I want tuna sandwich and apple juice, Sanzou!" Gokuu yelled happily.
And Sanzou smiled. "…Ch. Bakazaru."
***
"Sanzou tried to kill himself?!" Goku widened his golden eyes. "You've gotta be joking!"
"Sorry, Goku. But that's the truth." Hakkai sighed deeply. "Luckily, Gokuu contacted us right in time, so we could save him."
Staring at the silent brunette, Hakkai continued. "…Now… what you'll do, Goku? After hearing this…"
Goku lowered his head. "…I… have thought about the things you told me… yesterday…" He bit his lower lip before continuing. "I… won't go."
***
Gokuu was sitting beside Sanzou's bed. Regularly, he would put a hand on Sanzou's forehead to make sure that his fever wasn't getting high. Sanzou seemed to be sleeping very soundly.
Gokuu smiled at the serene scene in front of him. Although he was very harsh and bitchy when he was awake, his sleeping face was very cute!
//He looks like Konzen…// Gokuu decided. //……probably that's why I have been clinging on him until now… to pretend that Konzen is still alive… somewhere…//
Tears started to flow away from the golden pool.
//Konzen…// Gokuu started to sob again. //Konzen… I miss you… I miss you very much…//
PING PONG~!
"Ah—" Gokuu quickly brushed his tears and ran to the door.
"Err… good afternoon, Gokuu…" The figure in front of him smiled. "…I came to pay Sanzou a visit."
And Gokuu smiled widely. "Sure!"
***
"How's your talk with the monkey boy?" Gojyo asked as his lover entered the almost empty classroom. "What did he say?"
Hakkai sighed and sat beside Gojyo. "…It's all right."
"All right?" Gojyo raised an eyebrow. "What's RIGHT?"
"The talk. You asked about it, didn't you?" Hakkai replied with a smile. "It seems that Sanzou… has found a perfect one."
***
"Goku-nii-chan… you surely… have heard about that too, right?" Gokuu asked nervously at the slightly bigger boy in front him.
Goku nodded. "From Hakkai."
"Me too." Gokuu sighed. "…He's never told me about that."
Goku lifted his head up and stared at Sanzou's sleeping face lovingly. "…He's just… too stubborn."
"Right…" Gokuu nodded. "…Not mentioning that he's also mean, harsh, foul-mouthed…"
"Insensitive, heartless, cold, cruel, introvert…"
"Selfish, bad-tempered, always hits me with any available papers around…"
"Sly, lacking of romantic cells, too high-prided, anti-social…"
Goku and Gokuu stared at each other and grinned, mentally agreeing with each other.
"So many bad things…" Goku smiled. "But he's also drop-dead gorgeous and very smart."
"He's also a good cook," Gokuu added cheerfully. "And sometimes he's very kind to me!"
"I have never met someone like him before." Goku's gaze drifted back to the blonde. "He's very special to me."
"Does it mean that you love him, Goku-nii-chan?" Gokuu excitedly asked. "Do you love him?"
Goku turned slightly red. "I—I—"
"Even after knowing his condition like this… do you still love him?" Gokuu looked at him sharply. "Are you still willing to keep him a company… even with the risk that he might—die anytime…?"
Goku smiled lovingly. "Hakkai also asked me the same thing."
"Then?"
"The answer is also the same." Goku replied with a very sure tone. "I won't go away from him. I'll cling to him until the very last second. That's my vow."
***
"---And then, Goku-nii-chan left before you woke up! You're late, Sanzou! If only you were up an hour earlier, you might have seen him by now!"
"Urusai, saru. Quit talking about saru two!" Sanzou grunted while chewing his food slowly. //Goku was here? Ch. I hope I didn't rave anything out…// Seems that he had had another 'wet' dream. ^^;;
"Meanie." Gokuu stuck his tongue out.
"Ch." Sanzou finished his plate and took the morning newspaper he hadn't read. "It's your turn to wash the dishes."
"Ah, right." Gokuu blinked and collected the plates on the table before picking it to the washtub. "…………………ne, Sanzou?" he called, his hands still busy with the dirty plates.
"Hn?" Sanzou didn't turn away from the newspaper.
"…………………Uh… about the………sickness………"
Sanzou's eyes were still on the newspaper, but the words seemed have stopped making sense to him.
"I… I can cure you if you want." Gokuu bit his lower lip hesitantly. "I…… if you want me to cure you… I'll do it. Because you're my master… and…"
In the next second, Gokuu had been dragged to face the piercing lavender eyes.
"Sanzou?"
"If I want you to cure me, I would have asked it earlier," Sanzou spoke in a flat tone. "I'm your master, so you'd better shut up and follow my every order. Now wash the plates then go to sleep. Understood?"
Gokuu nervously nodded and did as his master had said. //Sanzou… why…//
"I cannot make things disappear just like that… I can't… My ability is to remove it in to myself."
"I removed your insomnia in to myself so you could sleep very well. But then, I couldn't sleep all night to replace you. That's why I'm very sleepy now."
Sanzou removed his glasses and put a hand to cover his forehead.
//Aren't I a heartless selfish bastard?// Lavender eyes gazed at the boy who was washing the plates. //Now what's happened to me… I can't sacrifice him for myself… I… just… can't.//
"I'll sleep now, Sanzou. You'd better take a rest too." Gokuu smiled before walking away.
//…Fuck.//
***
~TBC~
The next chapter will be the last one. ^___^ I'll do my best for the ending.
Next Update: (May be…) January 23rd 2004