Disclaimer: I do Not own Inuyasha, there are u freakn happy? I mean you made me cry admitting that statement! O well i may not own Inuyasha, or his totally HOT brother *cries* but SESSHOMARU owns me. Yep that's right, I am Sesshomaru's and NO1 else's :P BUT... I DO own Kanan, Mae Hiten, and Hiro... they're my own ppl. hehehehe.... Ok im done lol.

AN: under the pain of death I figured I should post this before the masses hunted me down and severed my head from my body. HEY don't get n-e ideas u lunatics. lol. laterz

Blood Dreams

By: DarkAngel of Fyre

chapter 6

Previously-

As I was lying there I started to drift off into sleep myself. It seemed that all was right, now that I was lying next to her. This feeling both humbled and appalled me. But for the moment, I was content to lay there and sleep. That is..... until the dream came again.

I slowly withdraw my blade and watch as your face contorts with pain, pain that I had caused. You fall to the floor, onto your knees, tears in your eyes, and then, you opened your mouth to speak and that was the end. The blood spurted forth from your mouth instead of your last words. That last light slowly extinguished in your eyes and the only thing that I could think was.... Kagome... what have I done?

And the Heaven's opened and the sky weeped as never before. And man tried to wash away their sin. And not even the unshed tears of God could forgive what they had done.......

I awoke from that dream with a start. I felt something warm against me, and when I looked down, it was to see Kagome's sleeping face. I was still bothered by that nightmare, it never changed I always ended up killing her. But why? Right then at that moment I couldn't think about it. I was too serene. Being next to her like this seemed to instill a sort of inner peace. I laid my head back down beside hers and listened to her breathing. She was breathing normally, and she was no longer burning with fever. She was indeed very warm, but that was only because of my added warmth. No matter how much I wanted to stay I knew that I had to go before she woke up, and I also knew that Mae would be coming to check on her. When I was about to get up, I realized that I was being held back. She was holding a bit of my hair in her fist. She tried to snuggle closer when I moved, and I had to smile at that. But then She called out my half brothers name in her sleep, and that killed the mood altogether. But as she said it, there seemed to be a sadness in her voice. Then she said the key to the whole dream. " Inuyasha... Im not her....... Im not.... Im not Kikyou....... I hate you!" I placed my hand upon her cheek as understanding washed over me. As my hand was on her cheek she muttered something else so quiet that I almost didn't hear.. "Sesshomaru......" and that was all she muttered.

I untangled my hair from her fist and left the room.

On my way out I ran into Mae and Kanan.

"Good morning milord" they said in unison

"Good morning, Mae... Kanan. Watch her well today, for I will be attending to a few matters with Jaken. I will return later tonight."

" Yes milord" Once again in unison. With that I turned in search of my servant, so we could set out on our journey.

Kagome-

I heard noises around me. There were too of them. Both were women . One was tending to my leg. My leg... that's right... it was broken in that fight. Where am i? I slowly opened my eyes to see Kanan and another woman standing over me talking to each other in quiet voices as if trying not to wake me.

"K-K-Kanan?" I seemed to have startled the two out of their deep concentration.

"Kagome-sama..... you are awake thank Kami"

"Where am I?" You are back in the castle Kagome-sama."

"Well I figured that , but I meant "where" am I. This isn't my quarters."

" Why milady, you are in Sesshomaru-sama's quarters. He brought you here after your fight yesterday. You gave us all quite a scare. I mean to think the master stayed with you all night........" she started to trail off.

" Where is Sesshomaru now?" I asked wearily.

" He is away with Jaken on business. He said that he would return tonight."

"Who is this?" I asked referring to the other women standing next to Kanan

" This is the Doctor Kagome-sama. Her name is Mae."

"Hello milady. You need your rest, Go back to sleep and we will wake you later on."

I didn't need much more then that. Within a few seconds, I was once again in blissful unconsciousness.

When I next awoke, it was to a wonderful smell. Kanan was standing next to my bed with food. FOOD!! Glorious food! I tried to sit up but I was weak. I felt a little pathetic. But Kanan just smiled and helped me sit up and placed a pillow behind my head and helped me eat my wonderful stew.

" Eat up Kagome-sama you need to recover your strength."

" Yes I agree." The voice made both Kanan and me jump.

"Milord"

"Kanan.... and how is the patient?"

" Doing well milord."

" What doe Mae say?"

" She says she needs rest and food, and NO lectures."

The last part made me chuckle a bit, but then I thought of the lecture that I was going to get and the humor of it was gone.

" That will be all Kanan. I will stay with her for a bit. I will call you when you are needed."

" Yes milord." and with a low bow she left the room, leaving Sesshomaru Lord of the Western Lands and me alone.

He walked over to the foot of the bed, and I was preparing myself for a very stern lecture, so I was very surprised when I didn't get one.

" How are you feeling?" he asked

" Much better thank you. I- I wanted to thank you."

" Me? For what?"

" Well Kanan said that you had stayed her with me and I wanted to thank you for that. I hope I didn't say anything delirious." I said completely joking around.

" Not too much " was his only response. When he said this I was completely shocked. O god what had I said?!!?!?

He came over and sat on the edge of the bed. The food was still in my lap, and he looked down at it.

" You should eat."

I began to eat a little bit and we sat there in silence, when all the sudden he said something that I swore I almost choked over.

" I know why you were in those woods that day. I know that Inu yasha said something to you. Am I right?"

It took me a moment to answer, but when I did there were tears in my eyes.

" I was...... stupid. I thought that maybe he could care for me. I thought that maybe there was a way that him and me......" I took a deep breathe and continued on.

" He.... HE called me Kikyou. He's still in love with her and wont let her go... ever. No matter what I do..." I started to break down. The tears were running down my cheeks and there seemed to be nothing that could stop him. I felt a warm hand on my face starting to wipe away my tears, and I looked up to see Sesshomaru staring at me with the most intense eyes.

" He's a fool." And then once again he kissed me.

It was a bit different then before, this time it wasn't like he was conflicted. It took me a minute to realize what was going on, but when I did, I shocked myself by kissing him back. I started to run my hands into his long silver hair and his hands were on my face, holding me to him. Slowly, as if the separation was going to kill him, he released my face and was looking down upon me. The intense look in his eyes was starting to make me shake again, only it wasn't out of fear or cold. It was something else. Something that struck something at the bottom of my heart. When he looked away from me, there was a look in his eyes, sadness? what's happening to me? what is this that I am feeling? When he turned back he had the same usual composed look.

" These lands are dangerous for a human. You must swear that you will never try to leave again, unless in the company of Kanan Mae or myself." I sat there on the bed still in a brief shock and I guess he noticed .

" Is that understood?"

" Y-Yes."

"Good. The last time you almost got yourself killed. I will not allow that to happen... You are too valuable to my plan."

With that he took his leave, leaving me there to consider his words. " Is that understood?"" Y-Yes." "Good. The last time you almost got yourself killed. I will not allow that to happen... You are too valuable to my plan." His PLAN? That's what he was so worried about? His stupid plan against Naraku?!?!?! That Jerk! He's...... He's worse the Inuyasha. And with that I began to cry again.

Sesshomaru-

Damn it! I did it again! I told you that you would. SHUT UP! You know nothing. On the contrary.. I know everything! You have fallen for this foolish human. Nay you are infatuated with her. Shut Up. That's ridiculous! Is it now?..........

I had just left Kagome in my quarters, and I was standing outside of the door when I heard her begin to cry again. Great going genius! Now look at what you've done. Why should I care? You really are stupid aren't you. What did I do? Well hmmm..... let me see..... How about "Good. The last time you almost got yourself killed. I will not allow that to happen... You are too valuable to my plan." Could THAT possibly have anything to do with it? God Did I really have to sound THAT arrogant?!?!? Valuable to my plan? I'm such an idiot.

" Something troubling you milord?" I opened my eyes and came off from leaning on the door.

" It's nothing Kanan." I said with a very slight sigh.

" Are you sure milord? Is there nothing that I can do?"

" Tend to Kagome... that is all I ask of you at the moment."

" Yes milord." And with that I started to walk away as she entered the door, but stayed by the door for a few minutes to hear the discussion between the two women.

Kanan- " Kagome-sama, are you all right?"

Kagome seemed to be a little startled but she answered with a quiet yes.

Kanan- " Is there anything that I can do for you?"

Kagome- " Kanan?"

Kanan- " Yes milady?"

Kagome- " Why are you so loyal to Sesshomaru? I mean you are a full yokai, what do you stay here and serve such a jerk like him."

To hear her describe me as a jerk hurt a bit, but I knew Kanan's story very well and decided to leave it to her to explain.

Kanan's Story-

" Well Kagome- sama when I was young, I was very reckless. I lived day by day. I had no real way of surviving. I was only about 9 or 10 at the time. I thought that by joining a band of thieves and hiding my identity would help me. The band that I joined was ruled by a ruthless and despicable man, but the men followed him. Whether it was from fear or respect, I guess I will never know. The man's name was Hiro. Hiro had taken over the band when he was young. His father had been the leader before him and had died early. It was said that after that Hiro's heart grew cold and he became the monster that I knew him as. I really didn't want to be there, but if I tried to leave I knew that they would try to kill me. When I turned 12 the men started to notice me more as a woman then as a child, but they knew better then to come near me, for I was under the protection of Hiten, Hiro's second in command. Hiten was the one who trained me how to use a sword, and I had come to see him as an Older brother. One day we went on a raid, and Hiten had been injured by a samurai. I had been able to get him into the bushes and wait until the battle ceased. When I had pulled him into the bushes, I tore my sleeve off to stop the bleeding that was coming from the gash in his stomach. There I sat and waited for nightfall to come, so that Hiten and me could make it back to the camp so he could get the aid that he needed. He was a large man, and I was still very small, but with my added yokai strength, I was able to drag him back. The other men informed Hiro that Hiten and me were back, and when he saw me carrying Hiten, he smacked me onto the ground. " Damn Bitch, he was hurt because of you wasn't he! He's always sacrificing himself for you.... Always." The venom in his voice was unbearable and I thought that I was going to cry. It was true that Hiten had in the past gotten injured because of me, but this time it hadn't been that way. And I knew that if I even tried to contradict what Hiro had said I would surly die. So I just sat there next to Hiten and bowed my head in submission. Then I felt a hand upon my own and when I looked down, Hiten was looking up at me, and he had a warm smile on his face. " Don't worry Kan" his usual nickname for me, " it will all be all right. " I started to really cry then. " Kan, I will always be with you. From the first day that you came to this camp, I knew that you were different, I knew that there was something special about you, and that I had to protect you. This place is not for you Kan. You must leave, before you suffer the same fate as me. I love you Kan, and I will always be with you." As he said these last few words, I could tell that they were difficult to say, especially with the coughing of blood. " No... No.. Hiten Hiten." I tried to shake him awake, to tell him that I also loved him, that I couldn't go on with out him. That I was scared of being with out him. I sat there with my head on his chest crying as I felt my heart shatter, for the one who was so dear to me. My mentor, my brother, my love, my heart and soul. I felt lost without him."

Kanan had paused in telling her story, and when I looked up I saw the tears in her eyes. " How silly.... it has been 400 years, and every time I think of him I cry." " It's not silly Kanan, and if you don't want to finish the story, I will understand completely." "None sense... I will continue just give me a second...."

When she composed her self, she went on with the story.

" Now where was I? O yes I-I did feel lost without him, and I just kept thinking back to his words, that I was meant for something else, and that I had to get away. A week had passed and the men wouldn't look, nor talk to me. They thought that I was a curse.

I was called into Hiro's tent, and I figured that it was for a lecture and another screaming fit that he was so prone to having that past week, but I was wrong. When I walked in, Hiro was standing by the small table that was in there. He was very disheveled, and very drunk. He had his back towards me, but from where I stood, I could smell the liquor. He didn't say anything, so I decided that I should be that fires to speak. " You called me Hiro." I asked. He didn't reply at first, he just turned around. He had a sick smirk on his face, and he started to approach me slowly. " Yes Kan I did." I picked up on the fact that he called me the nickname that ONLY Hiten had called me, and the sarcastic way that he said it. " What did you call me here for Hiro?" I asked him.

" I just wanted to known how it feels to know that you just killed someone that you loved."

"You really are a sick bastard aren't you Hiro. Hiten was your friend and this is how you treat his death."

He took another step closer to me, and another step, until he was finally in my face breathing down upon me.

" He always did like you best, although I never knew why. I still don't see what he saw in you." He went and put his hand on my shoulder and moved lower, but I smacked his hand away, and took a step back.

" I'm leaving now." I stated, and he didn't like that.

" you're not going anywhere."

" You have no control over me Hiro."

" I am still the leader of this band little girl." He had approached me again and held my chin hard in his grasp when he said that.

I pulled my face away from him. " Not anymore Hiro, I'm leaving this band."

"Then you will die." he angrily stated

" No I wont."

And that was when I left the thief band.

I had been on the road for about 2 months on my own, and I had only a little trouble. I was living by my sword, like Hiten had taught me. I was staying to the woods during the day and traveling the road at night. One day I was attacked in the woods, and had been forced to take to the road. I ran fast, but because I had not been used to my yokai abilities and had never really used speed before, the horsemen caught up to me pretty fast. I knew that I couldn't' fight them all off, But I figured that if I died an honorable death, that maybe I would be able to see Hiten again. So I withdrew my sword and began to fight the 100 horsemen. I was able to knock down about 30, but I was still a young girl, and all these men we older and stronger then I was. One of the men knocked me to the ground and had a sword pointed at my throat. I knew that I was going to die, whether or not I was a girl or not, it did not matter to these men, they were trained killers. So I closed my eyes and waited for the sword to come swinging down. The blow never came though, but there was a loud clash right in front of me. When I opened my eyes, it was to a tall young man with long silver hair standing in front of me with sword drawn, blocking the blow that had been meant for me. The technique that the young man used was flawless and precise. Every blow that he dealt was a fatal one and two, sometimes four or five at a time would drop. I could only watch in fascination as the man fought off all those men. When all the fighting was over the man turned to me. He had a passive look on his face, but you could tell that he was powerful and highly respected. It was then that I noticed that he was a yokai.

"Can you walk?" He asked me in an equally passive voice.

" Y-Yes... Thank you."

" Good" He turned around and started to walk away.

" Wait" I cried after him "Where are you going? Who are you."

"My name is Sesshomaru, and I am going this way. If you wish to come then do so, it is your choice." and with that he started to walk again.

I followed him, for he intrigued me. I later discovered that he was the Lord of the Western Lands and I knew that it was my duty to serve him. He taught me how to control my power, and about being a yokai. He has always been very good to me, and I like to think that he puts a lot of trust into me. I have never once failed him in a task that he has set for me, and I don't begin to either. So now you know my story. You know that I came here by choice, and you now know that the Lord isn't as bad as you think. Give him time. You will see."

She left after that to leave me to think. Wow who would have thought.... I mean I know that everyone has his or her tales, but Kanan's is so painful, and she seems so happy too. you know that I came here by choice, and you now know that the Lord isn't as bad as you think. Give him time. You will see."

" Give him time. You will see." Maybe she was right. HA Sure He was nice to her because she was a yokai and that's it! Im Human remember. He hates Humans. Plus he's still a jerk!

With a sigh I started to drift off to sleep, where I wouldn't be reminded of the pain I was feeling, both physically and mentally.

Just as she went to sleep the door opened and something slipped into the room.

AN? Sorry this is all I have for now. Ill try to update ASAP, Hope you like. PLz review. My freinds will give me the reviews. Luv yas