Chap. 4: "My Last Breath"
Author's note: I'm really not going to say what's in this chapter. I know by the end of it you'll probably hate me really badly. I'm sorry guys, Hey don't scroll down! Just kidding. I hope you enjoy this story. I really hope you do.
Sakura sat in one of the parlors and stared out the window. It had been a month since she found out that Syaoran had lied about everything to her. Her family was throwing a party for her since, as she was due off to college in two days. Suppressing a sigh, she looked at the dark sky wondering what he was doing at this very moment. "Can you believe it?" a girl in her room said to the others.
"I don't believe. I mean girls like us simply don't talk to guys who aren't rich. It's so odd" another put in looking in the mirror at her lovely evening dress. "Remember that gardener who fell in love with Sakura," They laughed and that got Sakura's instant attention.
"Yeah I can remember the horrified expression on her face when he confessed to her and ask her out on a date" the room filled instantly with peels laughter. Sakura's face paled and she swallowed hard. She remembered the day when it happened, the gardener had been a really good friend and he taught her a lot in gardening. The day when he asked her out she laughed in his face, and simply said no then told him why. 'It wouldn't work. I mean what do you have to offer me? How would you give me all this?' were her exact words.
"Sakura, are you okay?" Ai Ling inquired seeing her face. Sakura snapped out of her thoughts, her heart was racing, and she swallowed hard.
"I'm fine," she whispered holding back tears. He had been right, if she had known that he wasn't like her she wouldn't have even considered talking to him. She was foolish, she hadn't even thought about his side of the story and how he felt. "No, no I'm not" she cried heading for the door. Her friends look at her wondering what had gotten into her.
Sakura headed straight for the door, "Mistress. Where are you going?" the butler gasped seeing her walk through the door in her pale pink evening gown.
"Get the car now" she ordered wanting to leave the place she was at, it was her home but right now it didn't feel that way. Kenji appeared at the door and looked at her with a confused expression.
"Where are you going Sakura?" he asked walking through the door. She couldn't leave because they had an announcement to make. Sakura turned to look at him, "Why are you crying?" he inquired stopping in front of her when the limo pulled up.
"I was wrong," she answered wiping her face gently. "I love him more than life itself. And I pushed him away because I was foolish" He frowned knowing who she was talking about. Sakura opened the limo door when it stopped. "I have to go to him"
"No" Kenji objected but she didn't listen to him. "Sakura!" he shouted when the limo pulled off. Growling he stalked inside the house to look for her aunt and uncle.
It took them a while to find the orphanage Syaoran had been talking about. When they finally pulled into the old neighborhood she saw that there was some kind of party going on inside the house. Swallowing her fears she looked at her shaking hands, "I wouldn't blame him if he were to ignore me" she found herself whispering in fear.
People outside the two story house people looked at the black limo that pulled up. The butler got out and opened the door. Holding out his hand Sakura took it and allowed him to help her out. The sky was dark, and the scent of rain traveled on the winds. "Do you want me to go with you?" he inquired seeing her look around.
"No. I'm fine" she smiled picking up her dress. Walking to the gate she opened it, ignoring the squeaking sound it made. She felt a little nervous feeling everyone's eyes on her and hearing soft whispering. "Good night" she said softly to a woman who walked through the door. The woman looked her over wondering what she was doing in their part of the neighborhood.
"Night. Can I help?" Sakura shifted letting her dress fall to the dusty ground.
"Yes. Is Li Syaoran here?" she inquired looking down briefly. The woman could see that she had been crying and wondered what had happened.
"Come I'll take you to Yelen" Sakura shook her head and followed the lady into the house. There were children all over the place Sakura couldn't hide her shock. This was where Syaoran lived? No wonder he didn't want to take her to it. He was too proud to tell her where it was that he came from. "Come" they walked into the kitchen that was packed with woman cooking. When her presence was noticed everything stopped. "Yelen. This girl is here inquiring about Syaoran"
Yelen froze; she turned slightly and looked at the young beauty in front of her. She knew instantly that she was the girl her Syaoran had fallen in love with. "What do you want?" she inquired making Sakura wince.
"I would like to talk to Syaoran if that's possible" Sakura answered knowing that she knew what had happened between them.
"He's not here" Sakura gave her a lost look.
"Can I wait until he returns?" she asked not wanting to leave. She didn't want to return home and face her family for leaving the party that was in her honor.
"You'd be wasting your time"
"Please, I need to talk to him. He told me I could find him here" she begged on the verge of tears. She wanted nothing more than to beg his forgiveness, and ask him to take her back. She was wrong, she had been so very wrong.
"He's not here and won't be coming back" Yelen shouted making everyone including Sakura jump. A woman went to open her mouth but the look Yelen shot her, it instantly snapped shut.
"What do you mean?"
"Girl he waited for you for a month!" Yelen spoke in a stern voice. "You didn't come so he left. He just left us without any notice" Sakura's heart jumped to her throat and she shook her head in disbelief. "He left three days ago"
"No. He wouldn't leave, he told me he would be here. I need to speak with him" she begged walking towards Yelen. "You must know someone who might know where he went" Yelen looked at her devastated face and shook her head.
"I don't. He didn't tell me anything other than that he would send me letters. I'm sorry, you waited too long" she whispered. Sakura couldn't hold back tears any longer, falling unto a chair in the kitchen she cried.
"I want to tell him that I was wrong. I want him to know it, I love him and I was wrong" she cried as if confessing. She hugged herself ignoring the worried looks she was getting from everyone in the room. "Please, I need him" Yelen looked down not knowing what to do. "I was foolish, so very foolish"
"I'm sorry" Yelen spoke bending to her level. "It's best that you return to your home. This isn't a place for you. He's not here, and won't ever be coming back," she explained in a grave tone. She was trying to hold back her tears as well. She steeled her heart at the sound of Sakura's heart wrenching cries. She was protecting Syaoran from ever getting hurt; she cared deeply for him and wouldn't allow anyone to hurt him.
"He was my home" Sakura whispered feeling numb all over. She pushed him away, and when she realized her mistake it was too late. "Come back to me" she cried as if he could hear her wails.
Celina…
Where the hell is she?" she hissed walking to stand in the hall with Kenji and Han. Hearing a car pull up they got ready knowing that it was Sakura. When she walked through the door, she allowed her dress to fall to the floor. "Where have you been?" she asked right off not caring about the look on Sakura's face.
"No where" she answered in a flat tone. "I've been nowhere," she whispered walking towards them because they were in front of the stairs. "Let me through"
"No we were deathly worried about you" Kenji spoke taking her hands. "What happened?" he inquired making her look at him with red eyes.
"I waited too long. He left me, he left and I don't know where he went," she cried falling into his arms. "I don't know where he went, what am I to do?" she wailed when he hugged her tightly. He smiled knowing that she was going to come to him easily; she was his now that Li was out of the way.
"It's going to be okay" he soothed looking at the smiles on Celina and Han's faces. Their victory was finally here. "I'm here and I'll never leave" but all this words were empty. None made it to Sakura because she was lost in her own grief…
Six years…(A big gap I know!)
"What are you talking about?" Sakura asked shaking her head in disbelief. "Uncle, look at me dammit" she practically screamed balling her fists. "What did you do?" she cried in vain falling to the chair in grief. "How could you?" she looked at him, she was now twenty-four years.
"Listen to me" Han spat glaring coldly at her. "Why do you think I was trying to get you to marry Kenji all those years ago? The company is in stake, I needed someway to save it" Sakura looked at him but she didn't cry. She had lost the ability to cry many years ago on that faithful night.
"You're trying to sell me again. How could you allow my father's company to fall in such dept, how could you?" she asked in a pained tone. She was scared; tax collectors would hunt her down for payment. "And you tell me this when you sign it over to me" she whispered heart broken.
"I'm sorry" Han whispered running his hand through his hair. "I'm sorry" Sakura got up from the chair she was sitting on.
"Have you asked Kenji for help?" she inquired softly wondering what he would have said when faced with their problem.
"He won't help. He can't even get you out of debt, he wants to buy Kay Corp" Han replied but Sakura wouldn't allow it.
"What's our other option?" she inquired softly playing with the chain around her neck. Han swallowed knowing that she wasn't going to like what he had to say. "What's the other option?" she asked him getting irritated.
"The other option is getting a major company to merge with us" he answered in a soft tone. He didn't want this to happen to them. If they lost the company they would all be out of a place to live. He had thought Sakura would have married Kenji but she had refused to marry him years ago.
"Well you have a lot of friends can't one of them help us out?" Sakura inquired rubbing her temples. Her long copper locks were pulled back in a tight bun, and she was dressed in a business suit.
"They've all said no" she held back the urge to groan hearing that leaves his lips.
"What can we do?" Han rubbed his eyes walking over to the window. Looking outside he sighed and looked down. "Well?"
"The only company I haven't asked as yet is Li Corp," he answered getting her attention but not because of the company but the name. She closed her eyes momentarily remembering the man she had lost so many years ago.
"You haven't any history with them right?" Han shook his head that he did. "What kind?" walking over to his desk he looked down at something. "Well stop wasting time. You dragged me from school to do what?"
"Two men run Li Corp" he started off. "Two brothers, one married but the other is single. The most wanted bachelor, they run the number company and have enough resources to help Kay Corp out of dept"
"Will they be willing?" Sakura asked getting up from where she was sitting.
"That's all up to you" he held out a magazine for her. "Look at this and tell me what it means" he spoke in a sad tone. Shaking her head she walked over to him and took the magazine, "I have a meeting with the younger brother tonight. The older might not be there, I'm not sure" Sakura didn't hear a word he said because her eyes were glue to the magazine.
"No" she whispered shaking her head. She had been gone from Tokyo so long for traveling and schooling that she hadn't been keeping up with news. The only thing she knew was that Ai Ling and Kenji had married a year ago.
"Yes. The CEO of the company is Li Xiao Lang or Syaoran as you called him" Han spoke making Sakura's eyes burn. She couldn't believe after all these years he comes back into her life. He looked at her pained face, and knew that he had caused most of it.
"Impossible" she whispered shaking her head. "It can't be him," she denied dropping the magazine. Staring at it lying at her feet she looked into his eyes, those same burning amber eyes. The ones she loved to gaze in when she was eighteen, the ones that made her body quiver with need. "How?" she inquired holding back tears.
"When he left all those years ago supposedly his father brought him back to Hong Kong. He was the bastard son of Li Lian, the owner of Li Corp. From since then, he's been building the company along with his brother" Han explained briefly seeing her devastated expression. A cruel laugh escaped her trembling lips.
"How ironic that we have to ask the same orphan you took away from me for help!" she barked before walking out of the room. "I'll meet with him but I'm doing this to save my father's company" she hissed before the door slammed shut.
Later…
"Are you sure you can do this for me?" a man asked over the phone.
"Yes I said yes. Stop asking dammit" the other replied in a cold tone earning a laugh from the other side. "You owe me" he spoke in a calmer tone.
"I know but Tomoyo needs me here. I'll fly in tomorrow. Father has already gone over the contract, he likes but wants us to meet the owner before flying her to Hong Kong" the man explained when the other walked into the elevator and pressed the top floor.
"Right. It was a fair contract, I think it would be good to just buy the damned thing" he looked at himself in the mirror. He had on beige slacks and a soft green shirt; he didn't feel the need to dress up for such a simple meeting.
"They won't sell" was the response. "Anyways he'll be there waiting for you. I have to go, I'll be in tomorrow morning"
"Alright" he hung up when the doors opened. Walking down the hall he sighed knowing that he could spend his night with more enjoyable activities.
Sakura looked out the window of the high rise and sighed. The restaurant she was in was amazingly beautiful but her insides were in turmoil. Touching the glass she looked down, she had worn a more than modest black dress and her hair was pulled back in a tight bun. The door opened to the private area, "I was looking for a man I must have the wrong room" a masculine voice spoke as she turned around.
Sakura gasped looking at the man in front of her. Syaoran couldn't believe what he was seeing; he looked at the woman in front of him. She was dressed like an old woman, and her hair was pulled back into a bun. "The meeting"
A frown touched his lips looking at the woman that had hurt him more than anyone in his life. Remembering her rejection made his already stone heart turn to concrete, "Kay Corp? Kinomoto Corporation?" he asked knowing that he should have read the blasted contract and paid attention when his father was talking about it.
"Yes" she stumbled over her words a bit when he walked into the room. "I was expecting your brother" she spoke getting a hold of herself. When he looked at her she felt a shill run through her spine.
"I'm here in his place. Let's get down to business," he practically barked pulling out his chair when the waiter walked into the room.
"Thank you" Sakura said when the man pulled out her chair. She sat across from Syaoran; she could feel that he wasn't the same man she knew six years ago.
"Would you like to order now?" the man inquired holding menus for them.
"This won't take long. Leave us" Syaoran said in a voice that made the man jump. Sakura looked at the man in pity. "Why should our company risk merging with yours Kinomoto, what does it have to offer?" he spoke in a business like tone.
"It can offer a lot. We've got experiments that no other company has, our people are the best," she answered but she didn't know for sure. She hadn't been involved in the company for a long time. She was saying this from all the reports she'd read before coming to this meeting. "If you merge with Kay Corp you'll be getting one of the best companies in Tokyo"
"That's why it's on the verge of bankruptcy?" he inquired with a bored tone. Sakura almost growled at his insult. Not bothering to look at him, she took in a deep breath.
"It's that way because of poor management. Under the right management Kay Corp can become as successful as it was in the past few years" she spoke telling the truth. "You're company was once interested in us. We're offering now" she wasn't going to let her raging emotions clog her mind from what she wanted to accomplish.
Syaoran knew that his father wanted to get the merger under way but he didn't see why they should. They didn't need Kay Corp; there were other companies in better shape than them who they could merge with. He sighed knowing that he shouldn't let his personal feelings get in the way of making money. "My father will need you to fly to Hong Kong in two days to go over in detail about the company. He hasn't agreed upon this decision, and I still have to make mine" he spoke getting up from where he was sitting.
Sakura followed suit, this was probably the hardest thing she had ever had to do in her entire life. Her legs felt like they were going to give out beneath her any second. "Very well" she said simply looking at his face. His face was void; there was no expression on it. It was scary because the past Syaoran was forever smiling.
"Good" he walked towards the door. She watched him leave before she collapsed in the chair. Resting her head on the table she took in a deep breath. It was like he didn't even know who she was.
"How can I get through this?" she whispered before pushing herself up slowly. Getting her bag, she walked towards the door. Exiting she looked around the restaurant before heading towards the elevator.
Luck wasn't on her side because he was still there waiting for it. Right when she arrive it opened, they stepped on together. Syaoran couldn't bear to be in the same elevator as her, he felt sick in his stomach when he thought of her.
She watched as the numbers slowly switched. She was dying for escape, to get away from him before she asked him why he left. Before she told him how she went to look for him at the orphanage and he wasn't there.
After an eternity they finally reached the bottom. When the doors opened she was the first to walk off. They walked outside together, Syaoran a few inches behind her. He looked at the woman in front of him wondering what had happened to her. He remembered how she used to dress so beautifully when they were together. "Don't think of such things," he hissed shaking his head.
When he finally walked through the door, his limo was already there waiting for him. He had called it while he waited for the elevator. He looked Sakura who crossed the street heading towards the parking lot. "Goodnight sir" the driver said opening the door. He didn't reply, he got in and the door closed. "Where to?" the man inquired in a soft tone.
"Hotel" he answered making the man shakes his head. He rested against the seat and tried not to think about the woman he had just encountered. The one woman he had wanted more than anything so many years ago but hadn't been able to have. Now he wanted nothing to do with her, he despised her.
Sakura…
She looked up from her desk when Han walked into the room. She had spent most of the day inside her father's office going over the company's history. "What do you want?" she asked him in a brief tone.
"Tonight there's a party at the Honda's. They invited you since as they haven't seen you in a long time" he answered knowing that she was pissed with him. He didn't even know what happened at the meeting last night.
"I'm not going" she replied waving him out. "I have work to do. I'm not about to sit down and allow my father's hard work to go down the drain. He worked too hard to build this company along with my grandfather and his father" she spoke in a hard voice. Han looked at her sitting behind the desk, she wasn't like her age at all, and he had ruined her.
"If you don't go they'll take it as an insult. You run Kay Corp now. Don't make enemies of people you will work with in the future," Han warned turning on his heels. Sakura sighed knowing that he was telling the truth there.
"There's so much" she whispered closing her eyes. There was so much work she had to go over, so much that she couldn't keep track. What had Han been doing? He had been slandering her father's money for years. "God why is this happening to me?" she whispered wanting an answer but she got none.
Getting up from the desk, she walked towards the door. Heading up the stairs to her room, she dragged her feet. When she walked into her room, she looked at the bed and felt like crying. It was the same bed that she had given herself to him. "Why did I have to loose you?" she whispered feeling a great ache in her heart.
"Ma'am, is something the matter?" Rose asked from behind her. Sakura looked at her helper and shook her head.
"No. Get a dress out for tonight. Plain black please" she told the older woman pulling her hair out as she walked towards the bathroom; she closed the door and turned the shower on. Stripping down her clothing, she sighed glancing at herself in the mirror. "You have to do this for your family" she whispered knowing that she had to be strong. This was something she was going to have to get used to. She was going to make appearances to familiarize herself with people in this industry.
Syaoran….
He walked through the double doors of the Honda mansion. He remembered the last time he walked through them, it had been six years ago. The night he had taken her, the very night he knew he loved her more than life itself. "Goodnight Mr. Li" the butler greeted. He acknowledge his presence as he walked into the large living area that led to the ballroom in the back.
He walked past people who remembered him while others wanted to know who he was. Looking around, he hated how familiar it was to him. This was the power he had wanted six years ago. He wanted to be like them so that he could be with her in peace. Unfortunately he hadn't gotten that, and he was glad because he got to see how she really cared for him. "Li, it's good to see you again" Paul Honda greeted walking in his direction.
"Likewise Paul" he grinned shaking the man's hand. He was the only one who had treated him like a person of the same class.
"Come I want to introduce you to some colleagues of mine" he said when they walked off. Syaoran ignored the flirtatious looks he got from the female population. Looking ahead, he saw the same men he had met the night he escorted Sakura to this very party. "I know all of you remember Li?"
"Certainly" they said murmuring amongst themselves. Syaoran looked at the new face in the group, and felt his jaw tighten. Horaki Kenji stared him obviously surprised to have him in the same group.
"Well now Li" Kenji said to the man in front of him. "It's been a long time hasn't it?" he muttered looking him over. Kenji stared him down remembering how he had ruined he and Sakura's relationship.
"Not long enough" Syaoran replied easily holding back the urge to strangle the man in front of him. Paul and the men obviously felt the tension and it was just about to get worst when he saw Han and Sakura heading in their direction.
"Han" Paul said in a strained tone. He knew now that it hadn't been a good idea to invite both Li and the Kinomoto's. Syaoran turned slightly only to have his cold amber eyes land on Sakura's face. He was surprised to see that she still dressed like an old woman. What had happened to her vigor for life? "Sakura, well isn't this a surprise. How has life been treating you?" he asked making her look away from Syaoran.
"Fair" she answered in a soft, polite tone. "It's wonderful to see you again Honda. I've been gone for far too long"
"Certainly have" Paul smiled warmly wondering what had happened to Syaoran and Sakura's relationship. "Why this young lady vanished from Tokyo about six years ago. I think this the first time I've seen her since" he joked making Sakura smiled softly.
"Had to get away," she answered simply. "I'm home now. It's time that I took my place in my father's company" she glanced at Kenji was she said those words. His eyes hadn't left her since she had arrived. Syaoran on the other hand hadn't glanced at her since. "If you'll excuse me" she inclined her head and walked away. She couldn't endure being in his presence.
"She's not one to stay anywhere for long" Han said watching her leave. He looked at Syaoran but couldn't hold his icy glare.
"Excuse me for a moment" Syaoran said to the men present. They watched him walk off in the opposite direction.
Sakura stepped unto the balcony and inhaled deeply. Placing a shaky hand on the railing she closed her eyes. She couldn't do this she couldn't work with him. There was no way she was going to be able to stand his presence. "I can't do this father," she whispered in a broken tone.
The man she loved more than life looked right through her. She didn't exist to him, "What did I do to deserve this?" she asked in a pleading tone. "What?" she didn't see the person standing behind her.
"Don't you think it's a bit late to be begging for forgiveness?" came the terse remark. She gasps spinning around. She stared into his icy, emotionless eyes and felt a shill run through her body.
"It's never too late" she said finding her voice. They stood there, under the moonlight and stared into each other eyes. Syaoran looked her over; she looked like the woman he had loved yet there was a bid change about her.
"Why?" he asked surprising her. "Why didn't you believe me?" she was surprised and utterly shocked by his question. Of all the things to ask her, it had to be this.
"I was blinded by your betrayal," she answered in a pained tone. "I was stupid. And when I realized my mistake it was too late" she saw his frown disappear only to be replaced by sadness. She wanted to reach out and touch him but held herself. "I came to you but you were gone, I had waited too long"
"You came?" he whispered in disbelief. She could see doubt in his eyes, "Why didn't you search for me?"
"I hadn't anyway to" she cried desperately. "I lost you. And I lived with knowing that it was my fault for the past six years" Syaoran stared into her eyes as if reading them. He walked towards her and she steeled herself to the spot she stood in.
"Sakura" he whispered in a voice that made Sakura's heart break. He reached out and touched her cheek, her body shivered at his touch. And tears sprung to her eyes when he crushed her body to his in a tight hug. "God I love you" she started to shake from her sobs hearing those words leave his mouth.
"I love you too. I thought you would have hated me," she cried in his arms, holding unto him for dear life. She felt like she was a new person just to have him hold unto her, she felt alive again.
"Come let's get out of here," he whispered in a sweet, charming tone. She shook her head and stepped back. Reaching up, he wiped her tears away. "Don't cry," he whispered, 'at least not yet' he thought pressing a kiss to her lips.
The next day…
They left the party together though none cared. He had taken her to his hotel room, and there they bask in their love for each other. Sakura moved in ways she prayed would show him how much she loved him. And she cried out from passion when he drove into her swiftly, the words 'I love you' floating off her lips.
Now she slowly awoke, she winced from the light coming through the balcony doors. Looking around, she wondered where Syaoran had gone. "Syaoran?" she called sitting up in bed. She moved her legs but they felt sore. She hadn't been with a man in six years; he was the first and last person she had made love with.
Last night on the balcony seemed like a dream to her. Wrapping the sheets around her, she walked through the door. When she came to the living room, she smiled seeing Syaoran standing in front of the balcony doors. "Morning" she called, she saw him stiffen hearing her voice.
Slowly he turned; the look in his eyes chilled her body. "Morning" his voice was unbearably cold. He walked over to a chair and picked up her dress. Looking at her, he tossed it fiercely towards her. "Did you enjoy last night?" he bit out making her jump.
"What's the matter?" she asked worriedly picking up her dress. Something deep down told her she shouldn't have asked such a question. Looking into his eyes, she slipped into her dress. A cruel laugh left his lips.
"Matter? Tell me do you sleep with every one of your clients?" he bit out shocking her to the core.
"What are you talking about?" she cried indignantly glaring at him. She couldn't believe he would say such a thing to her.
"I know you want to get into my company but you didn't have to sleep with me to achieve that" he answered, Sakura paled. Last night had been nothing but a joke. He had been playing with her, even while he took her body.
"You used me," she whispered feeling tears threaten to spill. "You used me!" she shouted though it didn't faze him. He didn't feel anything for her, nothing from since those years ago.
"Used? Tell me do I fuck better now that I'm rich?" he cried brusquely. Sakura's heart broke knowing that had lied and used her. She let her feeling for him cloud her thoughts and better judgment.
"No. I thought you had forgiven me? You are the only man I've ever allowed to touch me. The only man I've ever loved and the only to hurt me so badly" she screamed feeling dead inside. His heart told him he had gone too far but he didn't listen.
"If you loved me you would have gone after me but you didn't. You couldn't love a poor man," he hollered making her jump visibly. Her body shook with horrible sobs as she stared at him. She didn't want to believe this was happening.
"I could and I did" she answered raising her chin. "I died seeing you again and when you told me you loved me I lived. But now you've hurt me so badly that I wish for death" she spoke in a firm tone. "How could you do this?" she asked him turning she walked off heading in a trance towards the door. "Hear this Li, I didn't sleep with you because of your company. I did because I loved. I want nothing from you" with those last painful words she walked through the door without any shoes.
He watched her go in silence a frown touched his lips. He didn't feel the satisfaction he thought he would hurting her. Glancing at the table, he noticed she forgot her purse. Not wanting to ever see her again, he picked it up and walked towards the door.
When Sakura walked off the elevator people in the lobby stared her. She was a mess, a disaster. They whispered and pointed at her but she didn't notice. She was too lost in her own world; she had lost he heart and now her father's company.
Hold on to me love. You know I can't stay long.No one should have to live with such pain. She walked through the doors that opened to allow her passage. She reached up and wiped her tears away. The people on the sidewalk glanced at her, and the doorman called out but it was all a blur…
All I wanted to say was I love you —
And I'm not afraid.
Syaoran walked off the elevator and looked around the lobby for her. He scowled tightening the hold he had on her purse. Walking towards the door, he looked at the man who ran through the doors. "Somebody call an ambulance!" he shouted, it echoed through the lobby getting peoples attention. "A woman's been hit by a car!"
Can you hear me?
Can you feel me in your arms?
Hearing those words he thought nothing of it, she wasn't stupid enough to walk into the road. Then he remembered the way she left his room. Picking up speed, he ran through the doors. People surrounded the sidewalk, and he stared at the red car in the middle of it. All around him were frantic whispers. "She didn't even stop" some one said but he didn't know who.
Holding my last breath—
safe inside myself—Are all my thoughts of you.
"Yeah the doorman tried to stop her but she shrugged him off" another continued, Syaoran moved slowly through them. When he finally reached the front, he couldn't see her because men surrounded the body.
Sweet ruptured light—
It ends here tonight
"No" he whispered seeing her bare feet sticking out. He tightened the hold he had on her purse and made his way across the snow-covered ground. His heartbeat picked up, his pulse quickening. His breaths seem to come in short intakes but he cared not.
I'll miss the winter— A world of fragile things"Hey you have to hold on" a man spoke to her, trying to keep her in the world of the living. He moved them out of the way.
Look for me in the white forest Hiding in a hollow tree (come find me"Oh my god" were the words that left his mouth though he couldn't remember moving them. He dropped at her side; Sakura's lifeless eyes stared weakly into his. "Sakura" she smiled painfully at him tears falling down the side of her face.
I know you hear me. I can taste it in your tears.
Holding my last breath—
"I didn't see her, she came out of nowhere!" a man yelled frantically behind him. "I didn't see her" he broke down looking away from her form. "I didn't"
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
"Syaoran!" she cried when he took a hold of her hand. "I'm sorry" she cried feeling pain rush through her body. "I did, I did come after you. It was just too late" she coughed horribly breaking off her sentence. His heart broke, here she was in pain and she was still trying to make him see. Sweet ruptured light. It ends here tonight"Shhh" he soothed trying to get her to stop talking. "I believe you" he whispered in a sincere tone placing a kiss on her hand. For the first time since he had returned he saw his Sakura return.
Closing your eyes to disappear.
You pray your dreams will leave you here
"I still want to tell you" she choked gasping for air. He had to get her to stop talking, "I love you. I love you so much, I died when I lost you" he wanted her to stop talking but she continued to spill her heart to him. "Do you believe me?" the words were barely above a whisper.
But still you awake and know the truth—No one's there
"I do" she smiled gently; the smile vanished when she winced in pain. "I love you. Do you hear me" he stated in a pained tone. "Sakura, open your eyes dammit" he ordered when she closed them. Slowly they opened, glazed emerald poles stared into his broken ones.
Say good night. Don't be afraid
Calling me, calling as you fade into the black… "I believe you" she whispered lovingly. "I believe you" were the last words she whispered as her eyes slid shut. Syaoran didn't notice he didn't want to believe.Say goodnight, holding my last breath. (Don't be afraid)
Safe inside myself (calling me, calling me)
Are all my thoughts of you…
"You hold on, the ambulance is almost here," he whispered gently caressing her clammy hand. The people around him looked away in shame, "Just hold on," he continued feeling tears stream down his cheeks. "You hear me?" He continued to talk, and a sob escaped his lips. "Sakura!"
Sweet ruptured light, it ends here tonightHolding may last breath. Safe inside myself—
He picked her body up, and hugged her tightly to his chest. The warmth of her blood soaked through the fabric, touching his flesh. "Godplease" he cried rocking her back and forth. "Please" he cried blocking out the world around himNo, no" he whispered in denial. She couldn't be gone, not when he knew the truth. Not when he knew he was wrong, not now… Are all my thoughts of you— Not ever…Song by: Evanescence (my last breath)
Author's note: Hey. Another sad story! I know you guys hate me right now. I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Hey review and tell me what you think. I was kindda going to put a happy ending but my love life sucks right now. Blame my boyfriend for giving me mood swings!