If Only
Authors Note- Okay, here it is, the last chapter! Sorry it took so long, but January seemed to be where a big load of things came in order. There might be a sequel, I'm still debating on it, we'll see on the feedback, hehe. In the mean time, enjoy this chapter and thank you again for all the reviews, it really meant a lot.
Chapter Thirteen- Ending on Lucky Thirteen
It was basic reflects to jump over the hood of a stopped car and only concentrate on being where she was. Laying on the pavement, looking rather calm, yet confused. If it wasn't for the blood secreting from all over her body, no one would have been able to tell what had happened. A crowd had formed around her, but only Ryan knelt next to her.
" Ryan.".
But he immediately snapped, " no, don't move, don't speak. Someone called nine one one, you'll be find".
She softly shook her head, or at least that's how it looked, " not" was all that she said.
But he wasn't ready to agree, he didn't want to, " yes it will be, I don't have to go back to California, I can stay here, I will. And we can figure this out- together".
Marissa's crystal blue eyes had turned to a paler shade of blue, and reflected daylight as they became coated with tears, " take Lilly with you" she paused to breathe, " my mom's name is on the will, but you have to fight for her. I want her to be with you".
Sirens erupted into the air, changing his minds train of thought, " listen, the paramedics are coming, see, you're going to be okay".
He already knew she wasn't going to make it, the problem was admitting it. People always knew the moments before their death, she already knew it, he just didn't want to say it. At that moment, as they were staring in each others eyes, waiting, he thought it was his fault. Had he not planned to leave, Lillian wouldn't have felt threatened, and they wouldn't have had any reason to run outside. But that's not what happened.
Marissa's hand was ice cold when it clasped around his wrist, pulling his face closer to hers. " Promise me you wont let my mom get anywhere near Lilly, at least now she'll know who her father is" a stray tear rolled down her cheek, " please, just promise".
Ryan nodded, without realizing that what he was doing so, " I promise".
She smiled, and he could see flashing lights in the very corner of his eye, " I've had nine lives throughout life, and I think this was the last one. It's said in all the movies, and I'm saying it now, I love you".
He bent down and gently kissed her cheek, " I love you too".
Ryan kept his chin on her shoulder, even when he heard the roaring engine of the ambulance a mere seven feet away. He finally sat up, knowing he couldn't stay there forever. Her eyes were now closed, he placed a hand on her chest felt that it was no longer rising.
It was impossible to hold back the tears that were streaming down her face. Without looking back at her body, he took a deep breath and gazed back to the sidewalk. Lillian stood like a statue on the sidewalk, holding on to a crying Seth's leg, staring right back at him with her now pale eyes.
Despite what was now gone, Ryan had to remember what was still there. His daughter, and with her mother dead, he was the only one left for her.
The only one.
The End
Authors Note- Okay, here it is, the last chapter! Sorry it took so long, but January seemed to be where a big load of things came in order. There might be a sequel, I'm still debating on it, we'll see on the feedback, hehe. In the mean time, enjoy this chapter and thank you again for all the reviews, it really meant a lot.
Chapter Thirteen- Ending on Lucky Thirteen
It was basic reflects to jump over the hood of a stopped car and only concentrate on being where she was. Laying on the pavement, looking rather calm, yet confused. If it wasn't for the blood secreting from all over her body, no one would have been able to tell what had happened. A crowd had formed around her, but only Ryan knelt next to her.
" Ryan.".
But he immediately snapped, " no, don't move, don't speak. Someone called nine one one, you'll be find".
She softly shook her head, or at least that's how it looked, " not" was all that she said.
But he wasn't ready to agree, he didn't want to, " yes it will be, I don't have to go back to California, I can stay here, I will. And we can figure this out- together".
Marissa's crystal blue eyes had turned to a paler shade of blue, and reflected daylight as they became coated with tears, " take Lilly with you" she paused to breathe, " my mom's name is on the will, but you have to fight for her. I want her to be with you".
Sirens erupted into the air, changing his minds train of thought, " listen, the paramedics are coming, see, you're going to be okay".
He already knew she wasn't going to make it, the problem was admitting it. People always knew the moments before their death, she already knew it, he just didn't want to say it. At that moment, as they were staring in each others eyes, waiting, he thought it was his fault. Had he not planned to leave, Lillian wouldn't have felt threatened, and they wouldn't have had any reason to run outside. But that's not what happened.
Marissa's hand was ice cold when it clasped around his wrist, pulling his face closer to hers. " Promise me you wont let my mom get anywhere near Lilly, at least now she'll know who her father is" a stray tear rolled down her cheek, " please, just promise".
Ryan nodded, without realizing that what he was doing so, " I promise".
She smiled, and he could see flashing lights in the very corner of his eye, " I've had nine lives throughout life, and I think this was the last one. It's said in all the movies, and I'm saying it now, I love you".
He bent down and gently kissed her cheek, " I love you too".
Ryan kept his chin on her shoulder, even when he heard the roaring engine of the ambulance a mere seven feet away. He finally sat up, knowing he couldn't stay there forever. Her eyes were now closed, he placed a hand on her chest felt that it was no longer rising.
It was impossible to hold back the tears that were streaming down her face. Without looking back at her body, he took a deep breath and gazed back to the sidewalk. Lillian stood like a statue on the sidewalk, holding on to a crying Seth's leg, staring right back at him with her now pale eyes.
Despite what was now gone, Ryan had to remember what was still there. His daughter, and with her mother dead, he was the only one left for her.
The only one.
The End