{ Okay.. Well, this was an rp (though edited) held between Nakame (not a penname) and me. Everyone is pretty much way out of character, and nothing really matches up with the show or even really makes much sense. But it was fun to write anyway ^^;; So I decided to post it, to have it saved up here, because I'm rather fond of it. Oh, and to save some confusion, Naraku seems to have been conveniently left out of this fic Oo; Inu/Kag }
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to be with you
Chapter 1 - hanyou
By Jamethiel1 and Nakame
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Hoisting the overloaded backpack over the well's edge, Kagome then appeared from its depths, panting heavily from her efforts. That's what I get for putting off my studying.. now I've got to cart around every book I own! Her back was already complaining. Now sitting upon the well and trying to catch her breath, the raven-haired human glanced around. Wasn't Inuyasha here to yell at her? Well, she was early for once, it was just a little disappointing not to have the hanyou eagerly fussing over her absence. Though perhaps it was for the best; at least this way any fights would be put off until later. Standing, Kagome lifted her immensely heavy backpack and slung it over her shoulders, groaning as she did so. Then she began heading towards the village, hoping her friends would be there.
Inuyasha was waiting in a nearby tree, dropping to the earth as she appeared from the well's depths. "Why are you early, Kagome? This is the first time," he commented, eyeing her before turning. "Now, let's go."
"What? Is it bad that I'm early?" she demanded, irritated slightly since she was surprised by his sudden appearance. "And go? Go where?"
"To get the remaining jewel shards, stupid baka," he whispers.
Though he whispered, she still made out the gist of it. Slowly counting to ten, Kagome failed in holding in her anger. "Inuyasha.. Sit!" she yelled.
"What did you do that for, wench!?"
"I wouldn't be insulting me right now, unless you want another one!" she huffed, "And it was for being so rude! You should learn some manners. Seriously, I don't know why I even bother returning here!"
Standing once he could, Inuyasha continued walking without saying a word.
When he started walking away from her, she gaped openly. "And where are you going!?" she demanded, sounding so much like the hanyou himself.
"To find the jewel shards," he repeated, though no longer whispered.
Standing firmly where she was for a moment, she fumed. Then she shrugged and sighed, and jogged to catch up, struggling with her backpack the whole time.
Inuyasha just continued to ignore her.
She continued to fume.. why wouldn't he speak to her? Why wouldn't he even acknowledge her presence? This was not like him. Finally she had had enough. "INUYASHA! What is your problem!? Half the time you're yelling at me for being late, and now you won't even speak to me when I'm early! What do I have to do to please you?" had that last really been spoken out loud? She glanced at the ground, flushed slightly, hoping he didn't take note to the odd framing of words.
"No, I'm not mad at you or anything, Kagome," he smirked, "I'm just thinking."
New past-time? she found herself nearly saying, but somehow swallowed the retort before she did. Inuyasha was undeserving of her wrath right now, and that was a rare event. "Well.. will you at least carry my backpack..? It's killing me.. please?"
Inuyasha grab the pack and continued walking, not even a pause in his stride.
As he took the pack, Kagome stared, surprised yet again. She had been expecting at least a 'Feh' to accompany that. She was a bit worried about him, though she wasn't sure if she should be or not. "Um.. Inuyasha? What are you thinking about?" she asked meekly, glancing downward again. 'Probably Kikyou..' she thought.
"It's just a lot of stuff that deals with me, and if your thinking so, it isn't Kikyou."
"I thought no such thing!" Kagome snapped, lying. She would never admit to thinking such thoughts. Then she sighed, and just walked in silence for a moment, no more questions or accusations forming in her mind.
They continued walking throughout the day, Inuyasha in the lead as Kagome trailed behind, trying to figure out what was bothering the hanyou. Inuyasha suddenly stopped at a clearing as the sun was setting, and laid Kagome's stuff down.
"Thank you.." she said meekly, realizing she hadn't said it before, and feeling badly.
"Feh," he jumped in a tree and sat there, saying nothing more.
She watched him jump into the tree and sighed, there was seriously something wrong with him today. Digging through her pack, she found what she had been searching for and pulled it out. "What some ramen?" she asked him, knowing he couldn't refuse.
He didn't disappoint her. Leaping down from the tree, the hanyou waited impatiently as she got a fire started and cooked the soup. As soon as it was thoroughly cooked, Inuyasha grabbed some and ate it as fast as he could, then immediately regretted it as he fanned his mouth and chanted, "Hot hot hot!"
Kagome chuckled; perhaps he was acting more normal than she had previously thought. His appetite hadn't suffered, anyway. "Maybe that'll teach you not to wolf down your food so fast!" she teased.
Inuyasha grabbed a water bottle from where it jutted from Kagome's pack, and gulped it down, sighing with relief.
"You big baby," she taunted, grinning at his actions. Then she set upon her own food, eating it leisurely so she wouldn't repeat his mistake.
Inuyasha sat nearby and watched until she was done, then started laughing.
"What's so funny?" she wanted to know, raising a brow slightly as she set aside her food, finished.
Inuyasha smirked, "You've got food all over you, did you know that?"
"I what!?" she exclaimed, smearing an arm against her mouth and wiping of her school shirt. "Where, did I get it?" she asked, standing.
"I don't know, you were the one eating it," Inuyasha replied, smirk not leaving his face.
She quirked a brow and had 'sit' on the tip of her tongue as she realized there hadn't been any food on her, then sighed and spared him this time. "I least I have decent table manners," she retorted. "Now.. have you seen the others?"
"No. I've haven't seen them since you left," he replied.
"We'll find them eventually. What have you been doing while I was gone, Inuyasha?" she asked. Sango and Miroku would tell her how Inuyasha was usually moping around when she was in her own time, but she wasn't sure she believed them.
"Waiting for you, Kagome," he answered immediately.
She jumped slightly at his response, flushed, and then mentally slapped herself. Of course he didn't mean it like that, as much as she'd like to believe it. No, he just meant they couldn't go off after jewel shards when she was in her own time. "Sorry to keep you from shard hunting for so long," she said. She had been gone a while, having multiple tests all lined up.
"That's okay, I was waiting for you, so I was keeping myself busy."
Regarding him, she smiled despite herself. "Miss me?" she asked him innocently, chuckling at the question and what she could guess his answer would be.
"Yes I did, Kagome," he smiled, looking serious.
Now she did stare, openly. He had never admitted such to her before, not really. Actually, his usual answer was "Feh," as she had expected it to be then. "I missed you too, Inuyasha," she spoke, smiling. Then she glanced around, suddenly embarrassed. "Eh.. where to now?" she asked, not really thinking, just trying to get the conversation diverted from its current course.
"Well, it's a new moon tonight, so I'll be human. All we can do is stay at camp until I turn back," he responded.
She blinked, numerous times. The new moon was tonight!? How could she have forgotten? A slight smile appeared on her features before she could stop it, then she tried to put on a serious face, knowing how Inuyasha despised his human form. "You're right; I forgot, sorry."
"I hate being half-breed, damn this," he muttered.
She watched him a moment, heart aching for him. He must have had such a hard life, being as he was.. "I like you as a hanyou, Inuyasha," she said, trying to comfort him though didn't think her opinion really counted for much. "And as a human."
"Yeah, and I like you as a human as well," he replied, raising a brow.
She laughed at this, smiling in good humor, her former bad mood having vanished some time during their conversation. "Yeah, I wouldn't have me any other way. Though it is good to know you like me," she teased, settling down at the foot of a tree, leaning upon it.
Inuyasha chuckled at the first of her reply, glancing away slightly at the second.
Kagome looked up at the sky to determine where the sun was now; wondering how long until sunset. "I just hope for an uneventful night; it seems every time you turn human some demon is just waiting to attack," she sighed. "Not that demons ever wait to attack, but you know what I mean."
Watching the sun slowly settle below the horizon, Kagome's gaze drifted instead to Inuyasha, whose hair was already starting to shed its silver coloring. She held her breath, always fascinated by the scene of his transformation. She didn't know why he hated being human so much; she rather enjoyed the nights he turned human. He seemed so much kinder somehow. She guessed it was the emotions he wasn't used to. Of course, rough words and behavior stuck to him no matter what the form. A smile appeared on her lips at this thought.
Inuyasha waited until was transformed, before he sat by a tree looking up at the seemingly absent moon.
Standing, Kagome moved over closer to the hanyou-now-human. She sat there, nearer yet not too close, and looked once again upon his monthly form. "It's not so bad, is it?" she asked, considering him with a slightly tilted head, resting her chin upon her drawn up knees.
"No, it's not that bad," he muttered rather agreeably, leaning upon the tree, waiting for the sun's return.
She sighed and moved over to her pack, removing her sleeping bag and laying it upon the earth. She laid within its folds even as she looked to Inuyasha. "Aren't you going to sleep?" she asked. He always felt he had to be on guard, and that feeling only intensified when he was human. She wished he could relax for once.
"No, I'm not going to sleep, you should though. I'll tell you to wake up in the morning and everything," he replied, and stood, walking a little ways.
She frowned slightly at his response. He really should sleep; his human form could not take all the abuse his hanyou form could. Inuyasha either didn't seem to realize this, or didn't care. But she sunk deeper into the sleeping bag, fighting sleep as her eyelids kept fluttering.
Inuyasha continues to walk around the clearing, mind still concentrated on what it had been for a while. After what seemed an eternity, Inuyasha finally decided to ask her. Glancing at the sky, he saw it was nearly morning so it would be okay to wake Kagome. He went over to her and gently shook her, waiting for her to rouse before voicing his question, "Kagome.. do you want to be like me, a hanyou, or remain human?"
Her eyes widened slightly at his question, then she laughed lightly, figuring he was joking with her. "Wh-what are you talking about, Inuyasha?" she asked, voice shaking despite her thoughts. "I.. that's not even possible; why ask something like that?"
"Because I'm having second thoughts about the shards.. If I turn full demon, there's no guarantee that I'll be able to control myself. Not even to protect you; I might even kill you," he lowered his head after he spoke, not meeting her gaze.
She shivered inwardly at his words. She had seen what happened when his youkai blood took over, and she was terrified of him in such a state. But.. if that's what he wanted.. how could she dissuade him from it? It seemed, however, that he was frightened by the prospect of his youkai blood as well, at least for her safety. Smiling slightly, she answered, "Inuyasha.. I'll admit I much prefer you as hanyou then youkai, but I'll stay by you no matter your choice. But.. I still don't understand why you asked if I would like to become half-demon.."
"Because I'll kill you if I turn full demon, and if you turn half you'll be able to protect yourself," he replied.
Now she eyed him a bit warily. How was she supposed to respond to such? She had never considered such a thing.. wasn't sure she wanted to. And could he even feel for her as a full demon? But.. if he did choose to become a youkai, she did want to stay with him.. "How is that even possible?" she asked, voice quiet.
"It's possible," was his only answer.
She watched him closely, shaking slightly in her unease. If she turned half-demon.. she would never be able to return home. But if she didn't and Inuyasha turned into a full demon.. she would either die or have to leave him forever. Shutting her eyes tightly, she fought tears as she replied, "If you decide to turn into a youkai, Inuyasha.. then yes, I want to become a hanyou.."
"Good," he responded, and she could hear the relief in his voice. "Let's go get the remaining shards."
She swallowed, not opening her eyes until she felt she had her tears under control. "But you're still human, Inuyasha," she reminded him, smiling wryly. "You sure you want to go now?"
"Yes, let's go. The sun's coming up anyway," he turns back and garbs her hand, smiling.
His smile seemed infectious, for she found herself returning it despite herself. Laughing softly, she allowed him to help her up. "Okay, okay, I'm coming," she replied, trying not to think upon what would happen when they found the shards.
"How many shards do we need?" he asked her.
Looking upon the jewel, she then turned to Inuyasha again. "About three, I believe.." she answered, "but I could be wrong."
"Okay, come on then. That shouldn't take long."
She nodded, small smile not leaving her face. "I'm coming," she said, and started walking. She glanced around, but was unable to see any gleam from the shard. "Where do we start looking?" she asked.
"Anywhere, you pick," he replied.
She blinked in mild surprise, then nodded, smile spreading. Glancing around, she picked a point that seemed right, pointing the direction to Inuyasha. "That way!" she chose.
"Okay, that way it is."
As they traveled in search of the remaining few jewel shards, Kagome's thoughts were concentrated around what Inuyasha had asked. She had no idea how her life would change once she became a hanyou and Inuyasha a youkai, but somehow it seemed it would be for the worse. "Inuyasha," she spoke to get his attention, "Is this what you want? Me to become a hanyou, I mean."
Inuyasha said nothing for a moment, before finally replying, "I don't want to kill you when I'm a youkai, okay? If I turn into one, I'll kill you and I don't want that to happen."
So he was fairly certain he was going to become a youkai.. Might as well resign myself to the fact, she thought, heart clenching. But will he even remember me, really? Or will he be like he is when his youkai blood takes over, just out for the thrill of a slaughter? She shuddered at the thought, and took a step nearer to the hanyou. N-No.. I'm sure things will work out. Even if that means.. me becoming a hanyou..
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End of Chapter 1
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{ Will he become a youkai, will she become a hanyou? Read on to find out! ^^;; }