A/N: So this chapter is here, and the story will end in between 1-3 chapter deciding if I want to be nice and have Snape and Herm have a happy ending since this is a WIKTT story, or If I want to do what I really want to do and have a sad ending with a sequel which I already have plans for.. Email me or give me a review with your choice of a thought out evil ending or a sappy nice ending...
Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter. Get over it, and leave me alone.
To: Tiffany, Damn girl your conducting stinks... I hope our director doesn't let you conduct again!
Breating In Lightning
Chapter 8: Let The Whole Thing Pass Me By
Tiredly, she fell onto the couch at her new flat room. She had a steady job now thanks to Dumbledore getting her admitted in the Auror training program since she refused to teach for him, and she split the rent with Harry and Ron. They all needed some time together.
It was the day after the party, and luckily it was the weekend so they didn't have training. Tonight was going to be another exciting night for her. Harry, Ron, and herself were getting admitted into the Order. She didn't know if they were trying to be inconsiderate to what she was going through or if they were simply trying to get her mind off things.
Harry was out with Damien while Ron was just sitting there with her reading a magazine, "Mione?" He asked her smiling a bit.
"Yes Ron?" She asked her other best friend, smiling slightly. With just a word, any member of the Weasley family could make you smile.
"How about a game of Wizard's chess?" He asked her not waiting for an answer before summoning his sets. She smiled at him again as he started on his way to beating her.
After a surprisingly long time, Ron won. There they were again, nothing to talk about, pressure in the air. Harry arriving with baby Damien finally seemed to break the silence.
"Harry do you mind watching Damien for me? I have to go talk to Remus and Severus." Before they had a chance to question her about Snape, she had disapperated.
She had to talk to him today. She fiddled with her ring as she approached Remus' classroom. It was a short way away from school started and professors had to be there a month away. She knocked on his door. She heard a muffled "Come in" before she cautiously entered the office.
"If you're looking to talk to Severus, his quarters are on the second floor. I would, however, check his office first." He expected why she was there and was waiting for her to confirm it. Today was going to be a long day.
"Thank you Remus. I'll be off then." She stated blankly as she looked down at her feet on the way out. A long day indeed. 'Time to face the music.' She thought to herself as she hurried down to his door. After what seemed like an incredibly short time, she arrived.
She entered the office without even knocking. He looked up at her for a few minutes without an expression on his face, "Severus?" She asked him as she took a seat that wasn't offered.
"Miss Granger?" He questioned her, not quite sure if she was the same person who he married under such short notice, the same person who he fell in love with then disappeared.
"Severus. I haven't seen you in such a long time." She whispered to him playing with her wedding ring again. He noticed it, and it confirmed his suspicions.
"Mina. What happened? Why did you leave? Why didn't you tell me? I was worried. Merlin only knows how many nights I grieved over your supposed death." He started at her expecting her to answer.
"I had to leave... After I had our son..." She paused to look at his face. His usually emotionless face showed so much happiness, grief, everything that it looked like it could burst at any give second.
"You were not pregnant." Severus stated as if it was a fact that she had stupidly forgotten. She wasn't stupid, but there was no way. They used to spell. He still remembered that night since it was definitely one of the best ones of his life.
"No, Severus. You and I thought that I wasn't. Dumbledore fed me some bit about fate intervening with your spell. Rubbish. If I hadn't doubted his mind then I would have thought he did it himself." Hermione stated bitterly.
"Old fool." Severus agreed with her, "So what of this child of mine. I never saw you afterwards so did you leave? You don't quite look pregnant."
"I've had him. Harry is watching him right now." Hermione said softly. She was quite frankly surprised that he wasn't shouting and throwing things at her.
"Well then come on. I have a right to see my child don't I?" Severus grabbed her and started up corridors to outside of Hogwarts.
"Severus I really am sorry. I never meant to hurt any of you. It was Dumbledore's idea. After I had our child, he just sent me on my way." She told Severus as they hurriedly walked out the doors of Hogwarts.
"I understand that, Hermione. I can't however, forgive you for not telling me then. You should have told me. It would have made things quite a bit easier on me." He told her.
Her lip quivered as he replied, "I understand that we will have to work on it, Severus. For our son's sake. I myself don't feel like it is a good idea to be anything more than friends at the moment. If I was in your position I would be more than just a little angry."
"Oh believe me, Hermione, it took quite a bit of self restraint for myself not to start cursing you. Am I right in guessing that no one knows of me being the father?" He asked her as they approached the gate.
"I've told Blaise. Harry and Ron don't know, although I think Harry has a clue." They stopped outside the gates, "Hang onto me since you don't know where the flat is." He grasped her shoulder as she concentrated on Godric's Hollow.
~*~*~*~*~*
"Harry?" Hermione asked as she un-warded the doors. She heard Damien laughing in the Harry's bedroom. The laugh came closer so she assumed Harry was coming closer.
"I'm coming with Damien!" He yelled as he opened the door to see Hermione with their potion's master. He shot Hermione a questioning look before returning the glare that Snape was sending his way.
"Damien Zabini?" He asked her as she nodded, "You named my son after my best friend?"
Harry did a double take on what he just heard. If Ron was still here, he would have started cursing Snape and accused him of raping Hermione or something of that sort, "Pass that by me again please."
"Oh." Hermione said noticing that he was standing there. After she took the baby from him, she just lost track of everything else, "Erm... Severus is the father?" She shrugged the reply off questioningly as she handed Severus the child who seemed to be able to tell who its father was.
"Close your mouth Potter, it's very unbecoming of a young auror." Severus sneered as he examined the baby as if it was a potion that wasn't tested to see if it would kill someone. A death potion in a baby perhaps?
Harry just frowned at Snape fingering what seemed to be his wand in his robe sleeve, "I'll be in my room. Call me if you need anything Hermione." Harry fingered his wand pointedly. She frowned at him while Severus just sneered. Harry knew Snape was a member of the order and that he had saved him countless times, but he still could be a muffin, and Harry wasn't afraid to help his friend out since he wasn't Snape's student anymore.
"I really suppose Potter could do something to me." Severus mocked when Harry was in his room. Hermione just stood silently as Severus stopped examining the child and handed it back to her.
"He's not a three foot long essay on the Goblin Rebellion of 1824, Severus. You could actually get a little closer and maybe play with him." Hermione smiled at Damien as he reached out for his father.
"I suppose I should. Have you named a godfather yet?" Severus asked as he refused to let happiness of this child flood him.
"I have accordingly although he doesn't know it yet. Damien Zabini is the perfect person of course." She told him obviously.
"Let's go." He took the baby and went out the front door. She looked at him furiously, "Zabini of course." With that he apperated with their child in his hands.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~~*
"We are admitting into our circle, three of the bravest young adults I have yet to see." Dumbledore began looking at the three with a smile on his face, "Fighting against Voldemort since they were but young first years," Not one person in the order flinched when Dumbledore said Voldemort, "They have found things that have taken me some 110 years to discover. Who has an objection with these three brave heroic figures joining our fight for peace against Voldemort?" Dumbledore dared anyone to say anything. Out of the back of her eye, Hermione saw Snape take a long swig of the fire whiskey.
"Welcome to the order." Remus spoke happily after Albus bound their hands to some kind of a torch. Hermione looked at Remus then worriedly at Dumbledore who seemed to be even crazier than usual.
'Who objects? This isn't a marriage ceremony you old fool. Hopefully.' Hermione mused to herself. Since they were underage they never got to witness Fred and George's ceremony. 'Ceremony. Maybe they are trying to marry me off.' Hermione thought as she looked to Dumbledore.
Dumbledore took the torch and slid it down to where the fire was hitting the rope that bound their wrists, "The order is a precious group that fights for freedom. By burning this symbol into your skin you show no betrayal." Dumbledore spoke seriously.
'Now it's turning from wedding ceremony to what I suppose a Deatheater ceremony is like. We might as well have some kind of a dark mark binding us to Dumbledore. Next thing you know we'll be killing Muggles. Mad idiot.' Hermione shook her head slightly and looked at him in mild disgust.
Harry and Ron had obviously made some kind of acknowledgment so it was her turn, "Keep going you mad fool." That's what Hermione wanted to say but settled for something more minor, "Yes damn it!" That was enough for Severus to snicker and everyone else to frown.
"Fawkes?" Dumbledore called, ignoring Hermione's comment. The phoenix flew over to the torch and dropped four tears into the flame. Every member of the order that was alive looked at the flame which grew and spread all around the room forming some kind of a barrier. Dumbledore dropped his grip on the torch, and in the center of the room fire came together to burn the binding rope. Fawkes erupted in a loud screech, and a small phoenix symbol appeared on Ron's ankle since he was the only one that was not wearing robes. Hermione and Harry lifted their robes to see a small blue phoenix on their ankles.
Everyone applauded and cheered loudly except for a few select people like Moody and Snape. They all went to the dining room to have their meals. Hermione frowned at the permanent embedment that marked her flesh.
'Gods. Now I'm stuck with this for only Merlin knows how long.' Hermione's frown deepened as she went into the dining room where she could hear Damien screaming loudly at being passed around as if he were an object. 'He's going to be quite a handful having part of Severus's genes.' Hermione slightly smirked at the thought.
She took a seat next to Harry where he smiled at her. He looked at the baby and smirked at her. She just shook her head and smiled slightly. 'I know Harry. I feel for my child too.' Hermione thought when Severus took a seat next to her after he rescued their child from hearing one more word in a baby voice.
"He'll be in Slytherin, this one." Severus mused as everyone started to carry on a conversation. Hermione snorted loudly. No child of hers was going to be a Slytherin, "And I suppose you think he will be a nosy little Gryffindor?" Hermione snorted again. Quite frankly, she expected her son to be a Ravenclaw.
~*~*~*~*~*~~
"Blaise?" Hermione called out to make sure she was in the right place. While she had gotten the address from Harry, she still wanted to make sure she was in the right place.
"Yes?" He walked into his living room, and his face darkened, "It's you." He stated dully.
"Just listen to me please. While I was in the past, I did a lot of thinking. I made friends, got to know your parents, I even got to try the dating pool. I guess I was feeling lonely so I went to the first sign of comfort: Seeing Sirius alive.
"We went out for a while after he caught me with a picture of you. I told him all about the future, which I did end up making him believe that I was lying, but I went out with him and I realized that like Harry, I only cared about him in a platonic way. Everything after that was just physical attraction. I loved you. I was just too, too, too..."
"Stupid? Sick? Mentally handicapped?" He jumped in. She ignored him and went on.
"Naïve to see it. I'm really sorry that it took me so long to figure that out. I was wondering if we could at least be friends, and maybe more as we go on."
"What about Snape?" Blaise asked still not looking at her.
"I did love him. We do have a son together. He still has a place in my heart, but so do you." She answered honestly hoping that he wasn't going to take any of this the wrong way.
"Hermione. I'd love it if we could be friends or more.." He smirked the traditional smirk as he leaned in to kiss her.
Everything was going... Better.
A/N: Sorry to everyone who is dissapointed. I could have done better, but I was just so depressed about Andy but I'm getting better. I still wanna beat his butt for doing drugs, but oh well...
TELL ME IF YOU WANT A HAPPY ENDING OR NOT!!!
Trapt
"Echo"
[Chorus:]
Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why
So I'll run away with you by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride,
(Asking why)
I think about your face
And how I fall into your eyes
The outline that I trace
Around the one that I call mine
Time that called for space
Unclear where you drew the line
I don't need to solve this case
And I don't need to look behind
[Chorus]
Do I expect to change, the past I hold inside,
with all the words I say,
repeating over in my mind,
somethings you can't erase, no matter how hard you try,
an exit to escape is all there is left to find.
[x2]
Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why
So I'll run away with you by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride,
Until this echo in my mind
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo can subside
Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter. Get over it, and leave me alone.
To: Tiffany, Damn girl your conducting stinks... I hope our director doesn't let you conduct again!
Breating In Lightning
Chapter 8: Let The Whole Thing Pass Me By
Tiredly, she fell onto the couch at her new flat room. She had a steady job now thanks to Dumbledore getting her admitted in the Auror training program since she refused to teach for him, and she split the rent with Harry and Ron. They all needed some time together.
It was the day after the party, and luckily it was the weekend so they didn't have training. Tonight was going to be another exciting night for her. Harry, Ron, and herself were getting admitted into the Order. She didn't know if they were trying to be inconsiderate to what she was going through or if they were simply trying to get her mind off things.
Harry was out with Damien while Ron was just sitting there with her reading a magazine, "Mione?" He asked her smiling a bit.
"Yes Ron?" She asked her other best friend, smiling slightly. With just a word, any member of the Weasley family could make you smile.
"How about a game of Wizard's chess?" He asked her not waiting for an answer before summoning his sets. She smiled at him again as he started on his way to beating her.
After a surprisingly long time, Ron won. There they were again, nothing to talk about, pressure in the air. Harry arriving with baby Damien finally seemed to break the silence.
"Harry do you mind watching Damien for me? I have to go talk to Remus and Severus." Before they had a chance to question her about Snape, she had disapperated.
She had to talk to him today. She fiddled with her ring as she approached Remus' classroom. It was a short way away from school started and professors had to be there a month away. She knocked on his door. She heard a muffled "Come in" before she cautiously entered the office.
"If you're looking to talk to Severus, his quarters are on the second floor. I would, however, check his office first." He expected why she was there and was waiting for her to confirm it. Today was going to be a long day.
"Thank you Remus. I'll be off then." She stated blankly as she looked down at her feet on the way out. A long day indeed. 'Time to face the music.' She thought to herself as she hurried down to his door. After what seemed like an incredibly short time, she arrived.
She entered the office without even knocking. He looked up at her for a few minutes without an expression on his face, "Severus?" She asked him as she took a seat that wasn't offered.
"Miss Granger?" He questioned her, not quite sure if she was the same person who he married under such short notice, the same person who he fell in love with then disappeared.
"Severus. I haven't seen you in such a long time." She whispered to him playing with her wedding ring again. He noticed it, and it confirmed his suspicions.
"Mina. What happened? Why did you leave? Why didn't you tell me? I was worried. Merlin only knows how many nights I grieved over your supposed death." He started at her expecting her to answer.
"I had to leave... After I had our son..." She paused to look at his face. His usually emotionless face showed so much happiness, grief, everything that it looked like it could burst at any give second.
"You were not pregnant." Severus stated as if it was a fact that she had stupidly forgotten. She wasn't stupid, but there was no way. They used to spell. He still remembered that night since it was definitely one of the best ones of his life.
"No, Severus. You and I thought that I wasn't. Dumbledore fed me some bit about fate intervening with your spell. Rubbish. If I hadn't doubted his mind then I would have thought he did it himself." Hermione stated bitterly.
"Old fool." Severus agreed with her, "So what of this child of mine. I never saw you afterwards so did you leave? You don't quite look pregnant."
"I've had him. Harry is watching him right now." Hermione said softly. She was quite frankly surprised that he wasn't shouting and throwing things at her.
"Well then come on. I have a right to see my child don't I?" Severus grabbed her and started up corridors to outside of Hogwarts.
"Severus I really am sorry. I never meant to hurt any of you. It was Dumbledore's idea. After I had our child, he just sent me on my way." She told Severus as they hurriedly walked out the doors of Hogwarts.
"I understand that, Hermione. I can't however, forgive you for not telling me then. You should have told me. It would have made things quite a bit easier on me." He told her.
Her lip quivered as he replied, "I understand that we will have to work on it, Severus. For our son's sake. I myself don't feel like it is a good idea to be anything more than friends at the moment. If I was in your position I would be more than just a little angry."
"Oh believe me, Hermione, it took quite a bit of self restraint for myself not to start cursing you. Am I right in guessing that no one knows of me being the father?" He asked her as they approached the gate.
"I've told Blaise. Harry and Ron don't know, although I think Harry has a clue." They stopped outside the gates, "Hang onto me since you don't know where the flat is." He grasped her shoulder as she concentrated on Godric's Hollow.
~*~*~*~*~*
"Harry?" Hermione asked as she un-warded the doors. She heard Damien laughing in the Harry's bedroom. The laugh came closer so she assumed Harry was coming closer.
"I'm coming with Damien!" He yelled as he opened the door to see Hermione with their potion's master. He shot Hermione a questioning look before returning the glare that Snape was sending his way.
"Damien Zabini?" He asked her as she nodded, "You named my son after my best friend?"
Harry did a double take on what he just heard. If Ron was still here, he would have started cursing Snape and accused him of raping Hermione or something of that sort, "Pass that by me again please."
"Oh." Hermione said noticing that he was standing there. After she took the baby from him, she just lost track of everything else, "Erm... Severus is the father?" She shrugged the reply off questioningly as she handed Severus the child who seemed to be able to tell who its father was.
"Close your mouth Potter, it's very unbecoming of a young auror." Severus sneered as he examined the baby as if it was a potion that wasn't tested to see if it would kill someone. A death potion in a baby perhaps?
Harry just frowned at Snape fingering what seemed to be his wand in his robe sleeve, "I'll be in my room. Call me if you need anything Hermione." Harry fingered his wand pointedly. She frowned at him while Severus just sneered. Harry knew Snape was a member of the order and that he had saved him countless times, but he still could be a muffin, and Harry wasn't afraid to help his friend out since he wasn't Snape's student anymore.
"I really suppose Potter could do something to me." Severus mocked when Harry was in his room. Hermione just stood silently as Severus stopped examining the child and handed it back to her.
"He's not a three foot long essay on the Goblin Rebellion of 1824, Severus. You could actually get a little closer and maybe play with him." Hermione smiled at Damien as he reached out for his father.
"I suppose I should. Have you named a godfather yet?" Severus asked as he refused to let happiness of this child flood him.
"I have accordingly although he doesn't know it yet. Damien Zabini is the perfect person of course." She told him obviously.
"Let's go." He took the baby and went out the front door. She looked at him furiously, "Zabini of course." With that he apperated with their child in his hands.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~~*
"We are admitting into our circle, three of the bravest young adults I have yet to see." Dumbledore began looking at the three with a smile on his face, "Fighting against Voldemort since they were but young first years," Not one person in the order flinched when Dumbledore said Voldemort, "They have found things that have taken me some 110 years to discover. Who has an objection with these three brave heroic figures joining our fight for peace against Voldemort?" Dumbledore dared anyone to say anything. Out of the back of her eye, Hermione saw Snape take a long swig of the fire whiskey.
"Welcome to the order." Remus spoke happily after Albus bound their hands to some kind of a torch. Hermione looked at Remus then worriedly at Dumbledore who seemed to be even crazier than usual.
'Who objects? This isn't a marriage ceremony you old fool. Hopefully.' Hermione mused to herself. Since they were underage they never got to witness Fred and George's ceremony. 'Ceremony. Maybe they are trying to marry me off.' Hermione thought as she looked to Dumbledore.
Dumbledore took the torch and slid it down to where the fire was hitting the rope that bound their wrists, "The order is a precious group that fights for freedom. By burning this symbol into your skin you show no betrayal." Dumbledore spoke seriously.
'Now it's turning from wedding ceremony to what I suppose a Deatheater ceremony is like. We might as well have some kind of a dark mark binding us to Dumbledore. Next thing you know we'll be killing Muggles. Mad idiot.' Hermione shook her head slightly and looked at him in mild disgust.
Harry and Ron had obviously made some kind of acknowledgment so it was her turn, "Keep going you mad fool." That's what Hermione wanted to say but settled for something more minor, "Yes damn it!" That was enough for Severus to snicker and everyone else to frown.
"Fawkes?" Dumbledore called, ignoring Hermione's comment. The phoenix flew over to the torch and dropped four tears into the flame. Every member of the order that was alive looked at the flame which grew and spread all around the room forming some kind of a barrier. Dumbledore dropped his grip on the torch, and in the center of the room fire came together to burn the binding rope. Fawkes erupted in a loud screech, and a small phoenix symbol appeared on Ron's ankle since he was the only one that was not wearing robes. Hermione and Harry lifted their robes to see a small blue phoenix on their ankles.
Everyone applauded and cheered loudly except for a few select people like Moody and Snape. They all went to the dining room to have their meals. Hermione frowned at the permanent embedment that marked her flesh.
'Gods. Now I'm stuck with this for only Merlin knows how long.' Hermione's frown deepened as she went into the dining room where she could hear Damien screaming loudly at being passed around as if he were an object. 'He's going to be quite a handful having part of Severus's genes.' Hermione slightly smirked at the thought.
She took a seat next to Harry where he smiled at her. He looked at the baby and smirked at her. She just shook her head and smiled slightly. 'I know Harry. I feel for my child too.' Hermione thought when Severus took a seat next to her after he rescued their child from hearing one more word in a baby voice.
"He'll be in Slytherin, this one." Severus mused as everyone started to carry on a conversation. Hermione snorted loudly. No child of hers was going to be a Slytherin, "And I suppose you think he will be a nosy little Gryffindor?" Hermione snorted again. Quite frankly, she expected her son to be a Ravenclaw.
~*~*~*~*~*~~
"Blaise?" Hermione called out to make sure she was in the right place. While she had gotten the address from Harry, she still wanted to make sure she was in the right place.
"Yes?" He walked into his living room, and his face darkened, "It's you." He stated dully.
"Just listen to me please. While I was in the past, I did a lot of thinking. I made friends, got to know your parents, I even got to try the dating pool. I guess I was feeling lonely so I went to the first sign of comfort: Seeing Sirius alive.
"We went out for a while after he caught me with a picture of you. I told him all about the future, which I did end up making him believe that I was lying, but I went out with him and I realized that like Harry, I only cared about him in a platonic way. Everything after that was just physical attraction. I loved you. I was just too, too, too..."
"Stupid? Sick? Mentally handicapped?" He jumped in. She ignored him and went on.
"Naïve to see it. I'm really sorry that it took me so long to figure that out. I was wondering if we could at least be friends, and maybe more as we go on."
"What about Snape?" Blaise asked still not looking at her.
"I did love him. We do have a son together. He still has a place in my heart, but so do you." She answered honestly hoping that he wasn't going to take any of this the wrong way.
"Hermione. I'd love it if we could be friends or more.." He smirked the traditional smirk as he leaned in to kiss her.
Everything was going... Better.
A/N: Sorry to everyone who is dissapointed. I could have done better, but I was just so depressed about Andy but I'm getting better. I still wanna beat his butt for doing drugs, but oh well...
TELL ME IF YOU WANT A HAPPY ENDING OR NOT!!!
Trapt
"Echo"
[Chorus:]
Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why
So I'll run away with you by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride,
(Asking why)
I think about your face
And how I fall into your eyes
The outline that I trace
Around the one that I call mine
Time that called for space
Unclear where you drew the line
I don't need to solve this case
And I don't need to look behind
[Chorus]
Do I expect to change, the past I hold inside,
with all the words I say,
repeating over in my mind,
somethings you can't erase, no matter how hard you try,
an exit to escape is all there is left to find.
[x2]
Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why
So I'll run away with you by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride,
Until this echo in my mind
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo can subside