HERE IT IS! The next chapter! Sorry it took me so long to get this up, my life's been really hectic lately. But anyways here it is I hope you all enjoy it. I stayed up until 1:00AM Typing this for all of you! (Feel loved!) But I am sorry that it took so absolutely long to get this Chapter out. I'll try my hardest to get the next one out quicker. Also, I might be changing this chapter and uploading a new chapter four later because I'm not really happy with this one but we'll see how things go. Anyways, ENJOY!
Disclaimer: Okay, you should know this by now. NO I DON'T OWN INUYASHA! But I do own Kijinyoko....
Serenita ^_~
Chapter Four: Shatter
Kagome stared at the Indigo haired girl in front of her with shock.
"What...what did you just say?"
"I said that I can't reverse the spell, only you can reverse it." Kagome stared at her confused and irritated.
"I...I...don't understand...how..." Kijinyoko smiled slightly.
"For the reincarnation of a miko you are very naïve. You are what the Hanyou is dreaming about, and whatever he fears the most about happening has to do with you. You have to go into his dreams and fix whatever damage has been done. Whatever he has dreamt he believes has happened. And I can say for fact that you have already died twice..." She stopped looking down at Inuyasha momentarily. His body twitch suddenly before he started to curl up into a fetal position, his body shaking more violently. "...sorry, three times. And if something isn't done soon, his soul will shatter, and there is nothing that can be done after that happens." Kagome stared at her, taking all her words in. Kijinyoko held her gaze. "I understand that it must be very hard to trust me after knowing I did this. But remember, I was tricked just as you were, and I could have chosen not to help you at all but leave the Hanyou to die."
"But what if this is just part of the trick to get rid of me and Inuyasha? How can I trust you?" Kijinyoko sighed.
"You can't, there's nothing I can say that can make you trust me, except..." She looked up her eyes meeting Kagome's. "...If...if I am lying...if something happens that's not supposed to...you can kill me...I won't resist." Something in her eyes let Kagome know that she was telling the truth. Kagome nodded.
"What do I have to do? How do I save him?" Kijinyoko sighed, finally sitting herself down on the ground.
"I don't know what you'll see in there. If the spell's far enough along...he could be empty...gone...it wouldn't be him, just an empty shell...that's the final stage of the spell. If it's the second stage he would be...not himself, frightened, alone, and dark, it would be very dark. Seeing by the way he's reacting that's just where he is. But he'll be hard to talk to, it will be very hard for him to believe anything and you would seem an illusion to him. You have to make him believe that you're real, you're alive and that you care for him. That whatever nightmare he had, whatever horrible thing he was forced to witness and believe to be true, that it never happened. How to do that, well...you will have to figure that one out on your own." Kagome felt with every word that Kijinyoko spoke a horrible weight press down upon her. Realization flooded through her and panic seized her. She might not be able to save him... it could already be too late. Inuyasha...could be gone...forever. The horrible thought shook her and only Kijinyoko's voice brought her back to reality. "Are you ready?" Kagome's surprised eyes met hers. She nodded slowly, gulping as she did. Her throat went dry which made her answer sound raspy.
"Ye-Yes...."
"Get close to him. Wrap your arms around him, try to touch him as much as you can, it will make the connection stronger." Kagome nodded, walking over to Inuyasha's shaking form. She knelt beside him and laid down next to him, wrapping her arms around his broad chest tightly, trying to still his shaking. Kagome felt a small blush appear on her face. She was so close to Inuyasha...his thighs were touching hers, her chest against his, his lips bare inches from her face. She shook her head. This was no time to get embarrassed. She had to save him...she had to... "Now...close your eyes and concentrate on him, it will help your minds connect and locate each other." Kagome closed her eyes as she heard Kijinyoko start to chant and images of Inuyasha filled her mind. The flew through her like a movie, everything that they had ever been through flashed through her mind. She felt tears form behind her closed eyelids. She had to save Inuyasha...she couldn't live without him...after everything...Kagome felt her mind become drowsy and the sounds of the world fell away. As unconsciousness overtook her one though remained imminent, the thought of losing Inuyasha...forever...
Inuyasha huddled himself together as Images of Kagome flashed in front of his eyes like a movie. Images of Kagome dying, Kagome leaving him, Kagome hating him, Kagome...Kagome...Kagome...Everything was real. This was all real. It all happened. He was alone....all alone... Inuyasha shook and buried his head into his knees like a child would. He waited for the pain to end, embracing the darkness that surrounded him.
Kagome felt herself swirling in a pool of unforgiving darkness that was consuming her entire being. She was lost, alone, and without a clue of how to escape. The darkness was potent, sickening and cold. Her thought was on how to escape it, how to fight the looming threat that was trying to destroy her. She felt as if she was drowning. Lost and confused, unable to think and only feeling fear.
'Inuyasha!' She thought, her mind screaming to the only sanctuary she knew. The darkness then retreated, pulling away from her soul and let her do as she willed. Inuyasha! She was looking for Inuyasha! She had forgotten. The darkness had consumed her so quickly her true purpose was ripped from her conscious. She then realized she was floating, descending to somewhere unknown. Her feet touched a hard surface and her body settled down gently. She looked around, seeing only darkness, until a dull light shined on a huddled figure, leaning against some unknown support. She started towards it, and as she realized that the figure was Inuyasha she ran towards it.
"INUYASHA!" She called, her heart suddenly light. She neared him quickly but stopped in front of him when she noticed his body was rocking forward and back quickly. "Inu...Inuyasha...?"
"No...Go Away!" He shouted suddenly. Kagome stepped back, shocked by his suddenly outburst.
"...Inuyasha..."
"Not real...not there...fake... not there...not there...lies...lies...hate...not there...hate..." Kagome stared at him disbelieving. This couldn't be Inuyasha...this wasn't the Inuyasha that she knew. But somewhere inside her, she knew it was him. He was hurt and broken...this was Inuyasha when he was vulnerable and scared and he was bared to her. But he wasn't making any sense to her. She took a few steps forward towards him.
"What is it? What's not there, Inuyasha?" Inuyasha stopped rocking for a few moments, before he continued again.
"Kagome...Kagome not there...Kagome died...Kagome gone...Kagome hates Inuyasha..." Kagome froze. Hate him? He thought she hated him? She closed the distance between them and kneeled in front of him. His eyes stared past her, as if she wasn't there.
"I don't hate you Inuyasha, and I'm right here. I'm not dead, I'm not gone, I'm right here...see...?" She slowly lifted her hand and touched his arm. He stopped rocking and his body stiffened, as if he was touched by ice. He sucked in breath quickly, confused and surprised by her. His eyes flicked to her once momentarily, before returning to stare past her. It was progress. "Inuyasha...whatever you saw, was lies...I'm not dead, I never died. And I never could hate you, Inuyasha, ever, I need you Inuyasha, so I could never hate you." Inuyasha ripped his arm away from her.
"NO! No one needs me! No one wants me! I am just a stupid mongrel! No one could love a Hanyou! You said so! You said so..." Inuyasha shrunk down, shaking again. Kagome's hand flew to her mouth as fresh tears filled her eyes. Seeing him like this, was unbearable. What horrible things had been filled in his head? He thought she said that? He though she could actually ever say anything like that to him? That she could ever truly believe that? She reached out and placed her hands on Inuyasha's face turning to towards her to meet her eyes, and stopping his shaking at once. His eyes met her, stunned.
"Never think that, Inuyasha, never. I need you and I would never say that. I need you Inuyasha, I love you, do you understand me? I LOVE YOU!" She yelled, her tears streaming down her face. His eyes widened.
"You...Kagome...You...you love me?" He asked softly, still unsure. Kagome nodded, smiling through her tears.
"Inuyasha, whatever you saw, whatever happened to you, it was an illusion, a lie. It never really happened." Inuyasha was silent, still looking at her intently.
"How do I know you're not a lie? How do I know that it never really happened? How do I know that you're really here, that you never left me?" Kagome looked at him, his eyes hopeful and yet scared. He was lost, and she need to find him, find the Inuyasha she really knew and loved. Kagome then leaned forward, with Inuyasha's face still held gently in her hands, and gave him the sweetest most purest kiss ever given, full of her love for him. His eyes opened wide, and understanding flooded through him. This was different, this had to be true, this had to be real. She was here, and she loved him! He quickly flung his arms around her and held her to him tightly.
"Inuyasha!" She exclaimed happily, flinging her arms around him.
"Kagome...I..." She shook her head, placing a finger over his lips.
"Shhh...not now...I'll see you soon, just close your eyes and hold me." Inuyasha nodded smiling, and closed his eyes holding Kagome to him tightly. It was then at the perfect and most peaceful moment that Inuyasha finally left his dream.
Inuyasha's eyes opened quickly, taking in the world around him. He heard the happy cries of Sango and Miroku who hugged each other, happy of the outcome but then quickly realized what they were doing and pulled away from each other quickly both in blush. Inuyasha realized the there was something holding onto him tightly in his arms. He looked down and saw Kagome, lying next to him, her face peaceful. He smiled, sitting up, and shook her to wake her, thinking she was still waking from his dream.
"Kagome...hey Kagome...wake up..." He said shaking her. But, she didn't move, she didn't stir, her eyes didn't open. "Kagome...? Hey...Kagome...wake up..." Inuyasha continued, his voice now a little more worried. "Kagome...? Wake up...Kagome..." Inuyasha froze, his eyes wide, a horrible thought striking him suddenly. Could she had sacrificed herself to save him? He shook his head. It couldn't be true, it couldn't be...she was right here...right here... But she wasn't waking, she wasn't stirring. It was as if she was...
"No...NO! KAGOME!"
Disclaimer: Okay, you should know this by now. NO I DON'T OWN INUYASHA! But I do own Kijinyoko....
Serenita ^_~
Chapter Four: Shatter
Kagome stared at the Indigo haired girl in front of her with shock.
"What...what did you just say?"
"I said that I can't reverse the spell, only you can reverse it." Kagome stared at her confused and irritated.
"I...I...don't understand...how..." Kijinyoko smiled slightly.
"For the reincarnation of a miko you are very naïve. You are what the Hanyou is dreaming about, and whatever he fears the most about happening has to do with you. You have to go into his dreams and fix whatever damage has been done. Whatever he has dreamt he believes has happened. And I can say for fact that you have already died twice..." She stopped looking down at Inuyasha momentarily. His body twitch suddenly before he started to curl up into a fetal position, his body shaking more violently. "...sorry, three times. And if something isn't done soon, his soul will shatter, and there is nothing that can be done after that happens." Kagome stared at her, taking all her words in. Kijinyoko held her gaze. "I understand that it must be very hard to trust me after knowing I did this. But remember, I was tricked just as you were, and I could have chosen not to help you at all but leave the Hanyou to die."
"But what if this is just part of the trick to get rid of me and Inuyasha? How can I trust you?" Kijinyoko sighed.
"You can't, there's nothing I can say that can make you trust me, except..." She looked up her eyes meeting Kagome's. "...If...if I am lying...if something happens that's not supposed to...you can kill me...I won't resist." Something in her eyes let Kagome know that she was telling the truth. Kagome nodded.
"What do I have to do? How do I save him?" Kijinyoko sighed, finally sitting herself down on the ground.
"I don't know what you'll see in there. If the spell's far enough along...he could be empty...gone...it wouldn't be him, just an empty shell...that's the final stage of the spell. If it's the second stage he would be...not himself, frightened, alone, and dark, it would be very dark. Seeing by the way he's reacting that's just where he is. But he'll be hard to talk to, it will be very hard for him to believe anything and you would seem an illusion to him. You have to make him believe that you're real, you're alive and that you care for him. That whatever nightmare he had, whatever horrible thing he was forced to witness and believe to be true, that it never happened. How to do that, well...you will have to figure that one out on your own." Kagome felt with every word that Kijinyoko spoke a horrible weight press down upon her. Realization flooded through her and panic seized her. She might not be able to save him... it could already be too late. Inuyasha...could be gone...forever. The horrible thought shook her and only Kijinyoko's voice brought her back to reality. "Are you ready?" Kagome's surprised eyes met hers. She nodded slowly, gulping as she did. Her throat went dry which made her answer sound raspy.
"Ye-Yes...."
"Get close to him. Wrap your arms around him, try to touch him as much as you can, it will make the connection stronger." Kagome nodded, walking over to Inuyasha's shaking form. She knelt beside him and laid down next to him, wrapping her arms around his broad chest tightly, trying to still his shaking. Kagome felt a small blush appear on her face. She was so close to Inuyasha...his thighs were touching hers, her chest against his, his lips bare inches from her face. She shook her head. This was no time to get embarrassed. She had to save him...she had to... "Now...close your eyes and concentrate on him, it will help your minds connect and locate each other." Kagome closed her eyes as she heard Kijinyoko start to chant and images of Inuyasha filled her mind. The flew through her like a movie, everything that they had ever been through flashed through her mind. She felt tears form behind her closed eyelids. She had to save Inuyasha...she couldn't live without him...after everything...Kagome felt her mind become drowsy and the sounds of the world fell away. As unconsciousness overtook her one though remained imminent, the thought of losing Inuyasha...forever...
Inuyasha huddled himself together as Images of Kagome flashed in front of his eyes like a movie. Images of Kagome dying, Kagome leaving him, Kagome hating him, Kagome...Kagome...Kagome...Everything was real. This was all real. It all happened. He was alone....all alone... Inuyasha shook and buried his head into his knees like a child would. He waited for the pain to end, embracing the darkness that surrounded him.
Kagome felt herself swirling in a pool of unforgiving darkness that was consuming her entire being. She was lost, alone, and without a clue of how to escape. The darkness was potent, sickening and cold. Her thought was on how to escape it, how to fight the looming threat that was trying to destroy her. She felt as if she was drowning. Lost and confused, unable to think and only feeling fear.
'Inuyasha!' She thought, her mind screaming to the only sanctuary she knew. The darkness then retreated, pulling away from her soul and let her do as she willed. Inuyasha! She was looking for Inuyasha! She had forgotten. The darkness had consumed her so quickly her true purpose was ripped from her conscious. She then realized she was floating, descending to somewhere unknown. Her feet touched a hard surface and her body settled down gently. She looked around, seeing only darkness, until a dull light shined on a huddled figure, leaning against some unknown support. She started towards it, and as she realized that the figure was Inuyasha she ran towards it.
"INUYASHA!" She called, her heart suddenly light. She neared him quickly but stopped in front of him when she noticed his body was rocking forward and back quickly. "Inu...Inuyasha...?"
"No...Go Away!" He shouted suddenly. Kagome stepped back, shocked by his suddenly outburst.
"...Inuyasha..."
"Not real...not there...fake... not there...not there...lies...lies...hate...not there...hate..." Kagome stared at him disbelieving. This couldn't be Inuyasha...this wasn't the Inuyasha that she knew. But somewhere inside her, she knew it was him. He was hurt and broken...this was Inuyasha when he was vulnerable and scared and he was bared to her. But he wasn't making any sense to her. She took a few steps forward towards him.
"What is it? What's not there, Inuyasha?" Inuyasha stopped rocking for a few moments, before he continued again.
"Kagome...Kagome not there...Kagome died...Kagome gone...Kagome hates Inuyasha..." Kagome froze. Hate him? He thought she hated him? She closed the distance between them and kneeled in front of him. His eyes stared past her, as if she wasn't there.
"I don't hate you Inuyasha, and I'm right here. I'm not dead, I'm not gone, I'm right here...see...?" She slowly lifted her hand and touched his arm. He stopped rocking and his body stiffened, as if he was touched by ice. He sucked in breath quickly, confused and surprised by her. His eyes flicked to her once momentarily, before returning to stare past her. It was progress. "Inuyasha...whatever you saw, was lies...I'm not dead, I never died. And I never could hate you, Inuyasha, ever, I need you Inuyasha, so I could never hate you." Inuyasha ripped his arm away from her.
"NO! No one needs me! No one wants me! I am just a stupid mongrel! No one could love a Hanyou! You said so! You said so..." Inuyasha shrunk down, shaking again. Kagome's hand flew to her mouth as fresh tears filled her eyes. Seeing him like this, was unbearable. What horrible things had been filled in his head? He thought she said that? He though she could actually ever say anything like that to him? That she could ever truly believe that? She reached out and placed her hands on Inuyasha's face turning to towards her to meet her eyes, and stopping his shaking at once. His eyes met her, stunned.
"Never think that, Inuyasha, never. I need you and I would never say that. I need you Inuyasha, I love you, do you understand me? I LOVE YOU!" She yelled, her tears streaming down her face. His eyes widened.
"You...Kagome...You...you love me?" He asked softly, still unsure. Kagome nodded, smiling through her tears.
"Inuyasha, whatever you saw, whatever happened to you, it was an illusion, a lie. It never really happened." Inuyasha was silent, still looking at her intently.
"How do I know you're not a lie? How do I know that it never really happened? How do I know that you're really here, that you never left me?" Kagome looked at him, his eyes hopeful and yet scared. He was lost, and she need to find him, find the Inuyasha she really knew and loved. Kagome then leaned forward, with Inuyasha's face still held gently in her hands, and gave him the sweetest most purest kiss ever given, full of her love for him. His eyes opened wide, and understanding flooded through him. This was different, this had to be true, this had to be real. She was here, and she loved him! He quickly flung his arms around her and held her to him tightly.
"Inuyasha!" She exclaimed happily, flinging her arms around him.
"Kagome...I..." She shook her head, placing a finger over his lips.
"Shhh...not now...I'll see you soon, just close your eyes and hold me." Inuyasha nodded smiling, and closed his eyes holding Kagome to him tightly. It was then at the perfect and most peaceful moment that Inuyasha finally left his dream.
Inuyasha's eyes opened quickly, taking in the world around him. He heard the happy cries of Sango and Miroku who hugged each other, happy of the outcome but then quickly realized what they were doing and pulled away from each other quickly both in blush. Inuyasha realized the there was something holding onto him tightly in his arms. He looked down and saw Kagome, lying next to him, her face peaceful. He smiled, sitting up, and shook her to wake her, thinking she was still waking from his dream.
"Kagome...hey Kagome...wake up..." He said shaking her. But, she didn't move, she didn't stir, her eyes didn't open. "Kagome...? Hey...Kagome...wake up..." Inuyasha continued, his voice now a little more worried. "Kagome...? Wake up...Kagome..." Inuyasha froze, his eyes wide, a horrible thought striking him suddenly. Could she had sacrificed herself to save him? He shook his head. It couldn't be true, it couldn't be...she was right here...right here... But she wasn't waking, she wasn't stirring. It was as if she was...
"No...NO! KAGOME!"