Inside out
warning: woah... weird. pov. language.
disclaimer: When i dominated the world, that's is when they belong to me. And solely me! World domination baby~!
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When desperate situations call for desperates measures.
Have i ever told you how i fear blood? Yes. I have phobia of it. They revoke memories i can't afford to remember. I hated the way they are soiling my clothes now. I hated it. I wanted to wash them away with tears i can't even produce. Mostly, i wanted to scream, i wanted to run away from all these.
I can't, can i?
A mission's at stake, Heero's just on the other side of the base and Wufei's just a few steps behind me. While all these thoughts were running through my head, the mission was falling swiftly into place. It was like i was functioning out of my body, viewing it from somewhere near but nowhere touching. I saw my own hands fumbling with the explosives and setting them into their locations while finishing off people hindering our way. More blood staining my hands, clothes and hair. Get them off me, won't somebody?
Can't help these feelings taking over me.
I felt hands tugging at mine, pulling me out of the place, so fast, i could barely keep up with my wobbly legs. I couldn't think. I wanted to get away quickly. This speed wasn't enough. I overtook Wufei soon and became the one pulling him out. I could have heard him curse in chinese, but it was irrelevant. We were getting out, we would be away from all these very soon.
Won't we?
We crash-landed in front of the feets of our gundams, breathless but finally away. I heard Wufei mumbling something about escaping from the base before the base explode as i move my body into the cockpit of my gundam. The base exploded just as we got into our gundams. Heero did it again, didn't he? That infallible bastard. Don't let him know i called him that. Perhaps, i hated him. Like how i hated blood. You could never tell if i hadn't told, could you?
And i won't say it another time.
He reminded me of people i couldn't afford to remember. Those that had gone or died. But everytime he was around, he just drove me to get closer to him. He smelled of danger and promises of death i could never shrug off. If there's only one thing that could kill me, i believed it's him. I wanted to stay near him. Just to trifle with the depths of his danger. That would be one of the reasons i am keeping him as a friend despite hating him inside out.
Ain't it ironic?
It kept me moving so far, hadn't it? Good or bad, hadn't seemed like they ever mattered to me. The base was gone in an instant. Heero joined us on our return a while later. I called out to him over the intercom and teased him about killing us if we hadn't ran out in time. He scowled and called me an idoit. Ha. Ain't he useful? I can always count on he to keep my balance. My sanity. With his promises of danger.
There's a void in my mind.
It blocked my mind of my every single mission. I couldn't recall doing any of the things that had been done. And my mind could only clear when i return from my mission. Weird? I guessed so. Which part of me was normal to start with? I have no idea on that too. When we closed up on somewhere safe, somewhere away from our enemies, i wondered slightly why my landing wasn't as easy as always. Was my gundam malfunctioning now? Before i could realise what was happening, i crash-landed the second time.
And it hurted this time too.
More on the face, actually. Heero punched my face as soon as i climbed out of my gundam, or crawl, whatever you wanted to call it. I heard him called me an idoit again. Told ya', he keeps my sanity in check. He caught Wufei's eye for a moment and stormed back to the safehouse. Then, Wufei pulled my right arm over his shoulder and half dragged me back in as well. I think i might had injured my left arm and took a hit on the head somewhere back. Somewhere i couldn't recall a thing at all... And my concious couldn't last anymore.
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a/n: wahaha... finally completed... only two more chappies to go~ Pardon my grammer, pardon my horrendous writing. The bad taste will wash away very soon. Sou ne, Duo-kun~?
warning: woah... weird. pov. language.
disclaimer: When i dominated the world, that's is when they belong to me. And solely me! World domination baby~!
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When desperate situations call for desperates measures.
Have i ever told you how i fear blood? Yes. I have phobia of it. They revoke memories i can't afford to remember. I hated the way they are soiling my clothes now. I hated it. I wanted to wash them away with tears i can't even produce. Mostly, i wanted to scream, i wanted to run away from all these.
I can't, can i?
A mission's at stake, Heero's just on the other side of the base and Wufei's just a few steps behind me. While all these thoughts were running through my head, the mission was falling swiftly into place. It was like i was functioning out of my body, viewing it from somewhere near but nowhere touching. I saw my own hands fumbling with the explosives and setting them into their locations while finishing off people hindering our way. More blood staining my hands, clothes and hair. Get them off me, won't somebody?
Can't help these feelings taking over me.
I felt hands tugging at mine, pulling me out of the place, so fast, i could barely keep up with my wobbly legs. I couldn't think. I wanted to get away quickly. This speed wasn't enough. I overtook Wufei soon and became the one pulling him out. I could have heard him curse in chinese, but it was irrelevant. We were getting out, we would be away from all these very soon.
Won't we?
We crash-landed in front of the feets of our gundams, breathless but finally away. I heard Wufei mumbling something about escaping from the base before the base explode as i move my body into the cockpit of my gundam. The base exploded just as we got into our gundams. Heero did it again, didn't he? That infallible bastard. Don't let him know i called him that. Perhaps, i hated him. Like how i hated blood. You could never tell if i hadn't told, could you?
And i won't say it another time.
He reminded me of people i couldn't afford to remember. Those that had gone or died. But everytime he was around, he just drove me to get closer to him. He smelled of danger and promises of death i could never shrug off. If there's only one thing that could kill me, i believed it's him. I wanted to stay near him. Just to trifle with the depths of his danger. That would be one of the reasons i am keeping him as a friend despite hating him inside out.
Ain't it ironic?
It kept me moving so far, hadn't it? Good or bad, hadn't seemed like they ever mattered to me. The base was gone in an instant. Heero joined us on our return a while later. I called out to him over the intercom and teased him about killing us if we hadn't ran out in time. He scowled and called me an idoit. Ha. Ain't he useful? I can always count on he to keep my balance. My sanity. With his promises of danger.
There's a void in my mind.
It blocked my mind of my every single mission. I couldn't recall doing any of the things that had been done. And my mind could only clear when i return from my mission. Weird? I guessed so. Which part of me was normal to start with? I have no idea on that too. When we closed up on somewhere safe, somewhere away from our enemies, i wondered slightly why my landing wasn't as easy as always. Was my gundam malfunctioning now? Before i could realise what was happening, i crash-landed the second time.
And it hurted this time too.
More on the face, actually. Heero punched my face as soon as i climbed out of my gundam, or crawl, whatever you wanted to call it. I heard him called me an idoit again. Told ya', he keeps my sanity in check. He caught Wufei's eye for a moment and stormed back to the safehouse. Then, Wufei pulled my right arm over his shoulder and half dragged me back in as well. I think i might had injured my left arm and took a hit on the head somewhere back. Somewhere i couldn't recall a thing at all... And my concious couldn't last anymore.
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a/n: wahaha... finally completed... only two more chappies to go~ Pardon my grammer, pardon my horrendous writing. The bad taste will wash away very soon. Sou ne, Duo-kun~?