Revelation
warning: refer to chapter 4
disclaimer: nope. they don't (belong to me). sad, isn't it?
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They are a weird pair. If you ever work with them like me, you know what i mean.
I didn't know if it was a good thing to separate them like this. They are friends afterall. They just hate to admit it. (Yes, even in their hearts.)
Damn Duo. Stupid Heero.
Yeah, yeah. I know. Contrary to popular beliefs, i call people by their first names. At least, in my mind, i do.
The latest mission had not been smooth. Duo had no idea the amount of the
MS they were sending to deal with us were *that* large. He miscaculated and paid a price for it. He had his shoulders bruised and leg dislocated. And a damaged gundam. At least he's alive. And flamingly pissed.
At Heero, no less.
Sad for him, cos' Duo's what you call a petty person. He's vengeful and remembers every little thing you did him wrong. Doesn't make he any bad a person. Just... *interesting* to have around. He always says forgetting is different from forgiving. He can forgive, but never forgets.
Which reminds me of that time i had a little disagreement with him. It was about our mission plans, my plan was approved by the rest, instead of his. Feeling betrayed(whatever he thinks is betrayal in his sense), he blatantly spilled coffee over my desk. Thankfully, i had nothing but just my reading glasses on it. He continued his menace, till i apologised and he called it a truce.
Is it *that* funny about me apologising? Well, i could not let him continue disrupting my life. You should have seen what he did! It got worse every next time. (Dignity has nothing to do with it! I was desperate!)
You are right. I hated Duo then. Until he sought me out after that particular mission to apologise for his stupid actions. He admitted my plan was better after all, he was just being a pighead. Okay, so i added the pighead part myself. Point was, his child-like sincerity touched me. (Don't you dare laugh.) He was being stubborn, all right, but just because, he had no else way to... live.
That day, we talked a lot. About our past, about our present, about our future.
I told him about my colony, i told him about my dreams. Hell, i even told about my marriage.
In return, he told me about his past life on streets, his colony and his dreams.
We both lost a lot in our lives. Only we had different ways of expressing it.
That was when i understood his fears, his fierce notion to get back at anyone for anything. How his life make him that way. If he gets something good, he will have to pay badly for it. If he doesn't fight back when he's bullied, he will lose. He will die.
We became good friends soon after. Even Trowa nearly choked on his coffee when we went on a decent chat during dinner.
Heero, however, is on an entirly different level.
I don't claim to understand him that well. We had a few missions together and all i know was, they all went well. We are a little similar in character so we work well together, i supposed. Just that, he, let's say, has no clue when it comes to interacting with people. I claim not to be decent at socializing. Leave Quatre for that. But i do know about a thing or two when it comes to communicating with people i *want* to.
Let's say... If Duo is an innocent child, Heero would be an idoit.
On another note, if Duo is a vengeful child, Heero would be the innocent child. (Yes, both of them look like children to me since they act like one.)
He could be living in his own world for all i know.
He takes thing literally, and hardly knows how to react to new situations. He never think twice before saying anything and don't even realise any action of his will actually affect any other person on an emotional level. Futhermore, he has this guilty complex thing in him. It makes him emotionally vulnerable. Even more so than Quatre.
I am suspecting Duo knows these.
Thus, the more he won't be excused from his wilful behaviour to Heero. No matter how much that punch hurted him. Maybe i should have told him how guilty Heero's face had been when he looked at me after Duo fell into my arms. Or maybe i should not.
They both should grow up. Perhaps even settle their differences like he did with me.
I know Heero's been observing Duo recently. Duo knows too. It makes him edgy. Heero's so open about his behaviour sometimes he's stupid. It irks Duo to see his emotions so openly expressed on his face.
That was because Duo has this 'emotions overload' thing or so he claims. He can't stand it if anyone feels bad about anything. Anger or frustration, he can deal with it. If it's sorrow, disappointment, confusion or pain, he just can't take it. I think i can understand that.
However, the more he wants Heero to fight back, the more hurt Heero gets. Serve Duo right for being unjust to Heero.
Or perhaps he's just tired. Tired of it all.
But aren't we all the same?
Presently, we are all drained from the recent mission at the moment. But once we recovered emotionally and physically, things will get better. Duo will apologise to Heero. Heero will clear his confusions. I will be better off without having to pacify Duo. Oz will get their payback. World will be at peace. We will all survive.
Then, i can get more time to talk to you.
I can't help it if i am a closet optimist.
*If* you are listening somewhere...
Meiran.
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"You exploit people's weakness!" shouted Wufei.
"It's a war! Not a game! You look down on women's compassion and used it to your gain! Didn't see you complaining then!" Duo flung his arms about.
"It's different, i didn't kick her ass when she was down."
"Yeah you didn't, then she will come back to kick yours!"
"*Then*, i will fight back. Fair and square."
A pause.
"Not too late?"
"Never. As long as we are still standing."
"We won't lose anything?"
"We have nothing to lose in the place first."
Silence.
"You are right. Damn right you are..." said Duo.
He felt a tiny but true smile spreading onto his face.
Because both of them came to the same revelation. It was hope.
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a/n: fini!
notes:
In chapter 1, Heero thought of Duo's defence mechanism and has his views on it. Doesn't mean Duo is really that way.
In chapter 2, Duo's anaylsing his own behaviour. Analysing his views of the world, his fears, his struggles.
In chapter 3, Duo's on a mission and his thoughts are a little scrambled. If you can't make a tail or head out of it, Don't worry. Duo can't too.
In chapter 4 , Heero tried to analyse his stand and his relationship with Duo and Wufei (mostly Duo, as he cannot accept the fact he cannot deal with Duo like he can deal with Wufei, so he decided to decipher them like a computer program...). Wufei, in this story, is obviously much smarter (yes, than both Heero and Duo) at handling people. Duo is being an *sshole in here because he was seriously pissed at the punch he recieved last chapter (i believe...).
In chapter 5, i was thinking that Wufei's POV will be more neutral when it comes to comparing Heero and Duo. He has his own views but doesn't make it any bias than those two. I think their friendships are weird like that. They have conflicting interests and thoughts. All the more making things pretty interesting. At least i hope Wufei's POV will clear all doubts about the happenings in the whole 3 chapters. First two are just, let's say, fleeting thoughts.
That's why the first two chapters seemed to stand alone from the last 3.
5 boys thrown into a war against a huge group of army (not to mention adults) with only their gundams and themselves. I expect their meetings, relationships with one another to be more unusual then normal friendship. You have that instinct not to trust anyone but if you don't trust one another... you could lose more than a war. Hmm... as usual... i don't think anyone gets my point. Hahaha... i am so weird i scare myself at times. ^_^|||
But i totally disgressed from my first plan. To do 5 takes on all five of the pilots rather than only Heero and Duo(like the first 2 chappies).
warning: refer to chapter 4
disclaimer: nope. they don't (belong to me). sad, isn't it?
----------------
They are a weird pair. If you ever work with them like me, you know what i mean.
I didn't know if it was a good thing to separate them like this. They are friends afterall. They just hate to admit it. (Yes, even in their hearts.)
Damn Duo. Stupid Heero.
Yeah, yeah. I know. Contrary to popular beliefs, i call people by their first names. At least, in my mind, i do.
The latest mission had not been smooth. Duo had no idea the amount of the
MS they were sending to deal with us were *that* large. He miscaculated and paid a price for it. He had his shoulders bruised and leg dislocated. And a damaged gundam. At least he's alive. And flamingly pissed.
At Heero, no less.
Sad for him, cos' Duo's what you call a petty person. He's vengeful and remembers every little thing you did him wrong. Doesn't make he any bad a person. Just... *interesting* to have around. He always says forgetting is different from forgiving. He can forgive, but never forgets.
Which reminds me of that time i had a little disagreement with him. It was about our mission plans, my plan was approved by the rest, instead of his. Feeling betrayed(whatever he thinks is betrayal in his sense), he blatantly spilled coffee over my desk. Thankfully, i had nothing but just my reading glasses on it. He continued his menace, till i apologised and he called it a truce.
Is it *that* funny about me apologising? Well, i could not let him continue disrupting my life. You should have seen what he did! It got worse every next time. (Dignity has nothing to do with it! I was desperate!)
You are right. I hated Duo then. Until he sought me out after that particular mission to apologise for his stupid actions. He admitted my plan was better after all, he was just being a pighead. Okay, so i added the pighead part myself. Point was, his child-like sincerity touched me. (Don't you dare laugh.) He was being stubborn, all right, but just because, he had no else way to... live.
That day, we talked a lot. About our past, about our present, about our future.
I told him about my colony, i told him about my dreams. Hell, i even told about my marriage.
In return, he told me about his past life on streets, his colony and his dreams.
We both lost a lot in our lives. Only we had different ways of expressing it.
That was when i understood his fears, his fierce notion to get back at anyone for anything. How his life make him that way. If he gets something good, he will have to pay badly for it. If he doesn't fight back when he's bullied, he will lose. He will die.
We became good friends soon after. Even Trowa nearly choked on his coffee when we went on a decent chat during dinner.
Heero, however, is on an entirly different level.
I don't claim to understand him that well. We had a few missions together and all i know was, they all went well. We are a little similar in character so we work well together, i supposed. Just that, he, let's say, has no clue when it comes to interacting with people. I claim not to be decent at socializing. Leave Quatre for that. But i do know about a thing or two when it comes to communicating with people i *want* to.
Let's say... If Duo is an innocent child, Heero would be an idoit.
On another note, if Duo is a vengeful child, Heero would be the innocent child. (Yes, both of them look like children to me since they act like one.)
He could be living in his own world for all i know.
He takes thing literally, and hardly knows how to react to new situations. He never think twice before saying anything and don't even realise any action of his will actually affect any other person on an emotional level. Futhermore, he has this guilty complex thing in him. It makes him emotionally vulnerable. Even more so than Quatre.
I am suspecting Duo knows these.
Thus, the more he won't be excused from his wilful behaviour to Heero. No matter how much that punch hurted him. Maybe i should have told him how guilty Heero's face had been when he looked at me after Duo fell into my arms. Or maybe i should not.
They both should grow up. Perhaps even settle their differences like he did with me.
I know Heero's been observing Duo recently. Duo knows too. It makes him edgy. Heero's so open about his behaviour sometimes he's stupid. It irks Duo to see his emotions so openly expressed on his face.
That was because Duo has this 'emotions overload' thing or so he claims. He can't stand it if anyone feels bad about anything. Anger or frustration, he can deal with it. If it's sorrow, disappointment, confusion or pain, he just can't take it. I think i can understand that.
However, the more he wants Heero to fight back, the more hurt Heero gets. Serve Duo right for being unjust to Heero.
Or perhaps he's just tired. Tired of it all.
But aren't we all the same?
Presently, we are all drained from the recent mission at the moment. But once we recovered emotionally and physically, things will get better. Duo will apologise to Heero. Heero will clear his confusions. I will be better off without having to pacify Duo. Oz will get their payback. World will be at peace. We will all survive.
Then, i can get more time to talk to you.
I can't help it if i am a closet optimist.
*If* you are listening somewhere...
Meiran.
---
"You exploit people's weakness!" shouted Wufei.
"It's a war! Not a game! You look down on women's compassion and used it to your gain! Didn't see you complaining then!" Duo flung his arms about.
"It's different, i didn't kick her ass when she was down."
"Yeah you didn't, then she will come back to kick yours!"
"*Then*, i will fight back. Fair and square."
A pause.
"Not too late?"
"Never. As long as we are still standing."
"We won't lose anything?"
"We have nothing to lose in the place first."
Silence.
"You are right. Damn right you are..." said Duo.
He felt a tiny but true smile spreading onto his face.
Because both of them came to the same revelation. It was hope.
---
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a/n: fini!
notes:
In chapter 1, Heero thought of Duo's defence mechanism and has his views on it. Doesn't mean Duo is really that way.
In chapter 2, Duo's anaylsing his own behaviour. Analysing his views of the world, his fears, his struggles.
In chapter 3, Duo's on a mission and his thoughts are a little scrambled. If you can't make a tail or head out of it, Don't worry. Duo can't too.
In chapter 4 , Heero tried to analyse his stand and his relationship with Duo and Wufei (mostly Duo, as he cannot accept the fact he cannot deal with Duo like he can deal with Wufei, so he decided to decipher them like a computer program...). Wufei, in this story, is obviously much smarter (yes, than both Heero and Duo) at handling people. Duo is being an *sshole in here because he was seriously pissed at the punch he recieved last chapter (i believe...).
In chapter 5, i was thinking that Wufei's POV will be more neutral when it comes to comparing Heero and Duo. He has his own views but doesn't make it any bias than those two. I think their friendships are weird like that. They have conflicting interests and thoughts. All the more making things pretty interesting. At least i hope Wufei's POV will clear all doubts about the happenings in the whole 3 chapters. First two are just, let's say, fleeting thoughts.
That's why the first two chapters seemed to stand alone from the last 3.
5 boys thrown into a war against a huge group of army (not to mention adults) with only their gundams and themselves. I expect their meetings, relationships with one another to be more unusual then normal friendship. You have that instinct not to trust anyone but if you don't trust one another... you could lose more than a war. Hmm... as usual... i don't think anyone gets my point. Hahaha... i am so weird i scare myself at times. ^_^|||
But i totally disgressed from my first plan. To do 5 takes on all five of the pilots rather than only Heero and Duo(like the first 2 chappies).