So, How's the Weather?
Should I call? *69 comes in handy sometimes. Do I really want to talk to him? This is my graduation, I'm supposed to be happy and whatnot. But I can't leave things like that. Why can't I just drop things? He probably called from a payphone anyways. Jerk. Woah, what am I doing? Why are my fingers dialing? Hang up!
"Hello?" No! It's him!
"Um.Jess? Wait no don't hang up. Just.please. Talk to me." I can't believe he's making me cry.
"Fine." Awkward silence. Of course.
"So, um how's the weather?" Ugh, what was that?
"Good. Sun. California." Partial sentences, always a good sign.
"Oh yeah, California. Sounds.nice." Sounds far away, that's how it sounds.
"Yeah. Nice. Too sunny. Everyone's so freakin' optimistic, it's disgusting."
"Oh, yes, happiness. Always a real downer." Ugh, now he's making me smile, I hate him! But I can't.
"Well, you know me."
"No, actually, I don't"
"What the..Ror, look, I'm sorry ok?"
"Then why aren't you here?"
"I can't. I just can't."
"That's not an excuse. Do you have any idea what you're doing? To Luke, to yourself. To me?"
"Why should you care? Ruining your perfect little world, am I? Well, get over it Rory! 'Cause you know what? Things aren't perfect! Stop trying to pretend they are!"
He's yelling at me. What have I done? I always have to go and screw things up! I can't believe I'm doing this, why am I doing this?
"Because I love you, Jess, ok? Happy now? I have a reason, now where's yours?" Oh, woah, where did that come from? Why isn't he saying any thing? Say something!
"Rory, I."
"Shhh. don't."
"I love you too" WHAT? Is he drunk?
"Are you drunk?" Laughter. I hate him.
"No, are you?"
"Jess."
"Mmmhmm?"
"What now? I mean, are you coming back?"
"I.can't. Not now, Too painful, too everything. Eventually, I don't know. Time will tell."
"So, What about us?"
"Ahh, right to the point."
"Jess, come on."
"I don't know."
"So, nothing?"
"I think that's best." Why do I agree with him?
"Yeah." More awkward silence. Who could have guessed?
"So, this is it? For now?" I had to add it, I don't think I could take forever.
"For now, yes."
"Jess?"
"Yeah?"
"Don't leave without goodbye this time, okay?"
"Goodbye, Rory." Wow, it sounds so final.
"Goodbye Jess."
So it's over. For now. Who knows how long "now" could be. But I hang up. And as I do, only a single tear runs down my cheek. Because, who knows? The weather isn't always that predictable.
THE END
Should I call? *69 comes in handy sometimes. Do I really want to talk to him? This is my graduation, I'm supposed to be happy and whatnot. But I can't leave things like that. Why can't I just drop things? He probably called from a payphone anyways. Jerk. Woah, what am I doing? Why are my fingers dialing? Hang up!
"Hello?" No! It's him!
"Um.Jess? Wait no don't hang up. Just.please. Talk to me." I can't believe he's making me cry.
"Fine." Awkward silence. Of course.
"So, um how's the weather?" Ugh, what was that?
"Good. Sun. California." Partial sentences, always a good sign.
"Oh yeah, California. Sounds.nice." Sounds far away, that's how it sounds.
"Yeah. Nice. Too sunny. Everyone's so freakin' optimistic, it's disgusting."
"Oh, yes, happiness. Always a real downer." Ugh, now he's making me smile, I hate him! But I can't.
"Well, you know me."
"No, actually, I don't"
"What the..Ror, look, I'm sorry ok?"
"Then why aren't you here?"
"I can't. I just can't."
"That's not an excuse. Do you have any idea what you're doing? To Luke, to yourself. To me?"
"Why should you care? Ruining your perfect little world, am I? Well, get over it Rory! 'Cause you know what? Things aren't perfect! Stop trying to pretend they are!"
He's yelling at me. What have I done? I always have to go and screw things up! I can't believe I'm doing this, why am I doing this?
"Because I love you, Jess, ok? Happy now? I have a reason, now where's yours?" Oh, woah, where did that come from? Why isn't he saying any thing? Say something!
"Rory, I."
"Shhh. don't."
"I love you too" WHAT? Is he drunk?
"Are you drunk?" Laughter. I hate him.
"No, are you?"
"Jess."
"Mmmhmm?"
"What now? I mean, are you coming back?"
"I.can't. Not now, Too painful, too everything. Eventually, I don't know. Time will tell."
"So, What about us?"
"Ahh, right to the point."
"Jess, come on."
"I don't know."
"So, nothing?"
"I think that's best." Why do I agree with him?
"Yeah." More awkward silence. Who could have guessed?
"So, this is it? For now?" I had to add it, I don't think I could take forever.
"For now, yes."
"Jess?"
"Yeah?"
"Don't leave without goodbye this time, okay?"
"Goodbye, Rory." Wow, it sounds so final.
"Goodbye Jess."
So it's over. For now. Who knows how long "now" could be. But I hang up. And as I do, only a single tear runs down my cheek. Because, who knows? The weather isn't always that predictable.
THE END