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Chapter 16 Dinner With The Tokunawa's ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Kagome knocked on Sesshoumaru's front door twenty minutes after he called.
When the door opened, the little girl from a week before peered up at her, smiling happily. "You're Kagome!"
Kagome smiled. "And you must be Rin!"
"Come in, come in! Dinner's ready!"
Kagome stepped inside the house. It was large, with wood flooring and white leather furniture. There was a fireplace; and a hallway that lead down into other rooms. Kagome followed Rin from the foyer to the kitchen. There were new appliances made with stainless steel, and natural wood furnishings. Sesshoumaru was at the stove, putting the food on three plates.
"She's here!" Rin exclaimed when they entered the kitchen.
Sesshoumaru looked up and smiled. "Hey."
Kagome smiled back. "Hey."
Rin tugged her arm. "Come sit down, Kagome!"
Kagome obeyed and followed Rin to a seat at the table. "Sit here!" Rin pointed to a chair and sat at the end of the table, so Sesshoumaru would be across from Kagome.
"Rin, do you want to come get the plates?" Sesshoumaru asked from the stove.
"Yes!" the little girl got up and ran over to her father to get a plate from him. It was full, and a little heavy, and she took careful steps to the table so she wouldn't drop it. She reached Kagome and held the plate up in both hands. "This is yours!"
"Thank you," Kagome told her, taking the plate from her.
"You're welcome!"
Sesshoumaru came over with plates for himself and Rin, and Kagome noticed with a smile how Sesshoumaru had already cut Rin's spaghetti into smaller pieces so she wouldn't choke on them.
"Let's eat!" Rin said happily when everyone was seated.
"I hope we didn't catch you off guard," Sesshoumaru said to Kagome as Rin quietly observed them with a mouth full of spaghetti.
"Not at all. Actually I was trying to think of something for dinner when you called. Miroku was out with Sango, so. . ."
"How did the rest of the party go?"
"Smoothly. Hey, this is really good."
"Thank you."
Rin spoke up. "What party?"
"My friends Miroku and Sango are getting married."
"They had a party because they're getting married?"
"Uh-huh."
"Is she gonna wear a big white dress?"
"Uh-huh, and they're gonna say 'I do,' and have a big cake."
"Wow! Have you ever been married?"
Kagome blushed a little. "No, I haven't."
"Do you want to get married?"
"Someday."
"When?"
"Okay, Rin," Sesshoumaru cut in lightly. He looked at Kagome. "I think she makes a point of getting to know everyone she meets thoroughly."
"How old is she?"
"I'm six!" Rin exclaimed proudly.
"Oh, you're all grown up, huh?" Kagome asked her.
"Yes! And I'm in the first grade!"
"Well! Do you like school?"
"I love it!"
"I don't mean to brag on her, but she does very well in school," Sesshoumaru added. "Her teacher says she has the highest grade in her class."
Rin beamed.
Kagome smiled. "That's wonderful, Rin! You must be very smart!"
Rin didn't say anything, but instead blushed a little and smiled happily.
The rest of dinner passed by seemingly quickly, with Rin piping up every few seconds to ask Kagome some random question, and Sesshoumaru adding comments of his own throughout their discussions. When Rin saw that Kagome's plate was empty, she exclaimed, "Would you like to come see my room, Kagome?"
"Yes, I would, very much."
"Come on!" Rin said excitedly as she ran ahead into her room.
Kagome threw a quick glance at Sesshoumaru, who was clearing the table. "Need any help?"
"No, go ahead. She won't let you rest until you've seen her dollhouse."
Kagome smirked and found Rin's room. Her eyes wandered over the walls with delight as she saw a twin-sized bed with a pink bedspread, white furniture, and all kinds of stuffed animals all over the place. There were still boxes from when she moved in, and they contained books of all kinds. There was a table just large enough for a six year old and a teddy bear in the middle of the room, and on it was a tea set for imaginary tea parties. Rin stood beside it. "Come see my dollhouse!"
Kagome followed Rin to a corner of the room beside the closet, and Rin pointed to a large dollhouse that came up to her waist. She opened it up, and on the inside was a kitchen, the master bedroom, the guest bedroom, the living room, bathroom, and there was even a back yard attached. "Impressive," Kagome said, raising her eyebrows. She crouched down beside Rin.
"Daddy got it for me for my birthday."
Touched, Kagome smiled. "You must like it a lot."
Rin nodded. Then she whispered. "Can I tell you a secret?"
Kagome nodded seriously.
Rin cupped a hand around her mouth and leaned forward. "Daddy says, he thinks you're very nice, and very pretty."
Kagome couldn't help herself. She threw her head back, and laughed. "Did he say that?"
Rin beamed. "Uh-huh."
Kagome hugged Rin to her, laughing. "You're wonderful, Rin!"
Rin hugged her back. "Thank you. I like you, too."
Sesshoumaru appeared in the doorway. "Rin, bedtime."
Rin made a face. "Awwwwww. . . but Kagome's here."
"That doesn't matter. Get ready for bed." He was smiling a little, and his tone was light.
Rin looked at Kagome and rolled her eyes.
"Hey!" Sesshoumaru said sharply, with a joking tone.
Rin giggled and ran to him, hugging him around his knees. Kagome stood from her crouched position on the floor and looked at Rin. "Thank you for showing me your room. It's very nice."
Kagome followed Sesshoumaru out the door to let Rin get changed into her pajamas. "So what did you think of the grand tour?" he asked her.
Kagome smiled. "It was very educational."
Sesshoumaru shot her a curious look, but it disappeared quickly.
Rin appeared a minute later, dressed in light blue pajamas. "Good night, Kagome!"
"Good night Rin. Sweet dreams." Kagome said pleasantly. Rin ran up to her and hugged her knees.
Rin ran into her room without a backward glance, expecting Sesshoumaru to follow.
"Wait here." he told Kagome.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Rin climbed into bed, and Sesshoumaru turned her light out, and went over to tuck her in.
As he was pulling the sheets up to her chin, he heard her tiny voice. "Daddy?"
"Yes, Rin?"
"Can Kagome come over again?"
"We'll see."
Quietly. "I like her."
"Good night, Rin."
"Night."
He kissed her on the forehead and quietly left the room.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Kagome looked up from her seat on the couch as Sesshoumaru reentered the living room. "Everything go okay?" she asked him "No monsters in the closet?"
He smirked. "Monsters? No. . . " he joined her, putting an arm up on the back of the couch behind her. "If there was a monster in her closet, she'd make friends with it."
Kagome laughed. "She's brave. I used to get so scared. Only, it was my mom that was chasing the monsters away."
Carefully. "Your father. . . "
"He died. Before I was born." she said it with a little sadness, but she was used to being asked about him.
"I'm sorry. I know how you feel. I lost my mother, a few years ago."
"Your moth - InuYasha never said anything about -- "
"That's because he doesn't know. . . He never knew her, I. . . doubt he'd care."
"Tell me about her."
The surprise from her request was apparent on his features. Kagome figured no one ever wanted to know about her. "Well. . . " he began, "she raised me. She was very beautiful. . . she worked very hard to support me. I was always grateful for her. She would come in so late at night, but she would always come see me before she went to bed. She thought I was asleep, but I knew she was there. I've always hated my father for leaving her. . . I never understood what was wrong with her. She was a good mother."
Kagome was silent for a moment. "So your mother raised you, too."
He gave a small, sad smile.
"My mother is such a simple woman," Kagome told him. "She raised me, and my brother (with the help of my Granpa). She knew every little thing about me and my brother, and without her, I don't think any of us would've been happy. I hope one day I'm at least half the mother she was."
"I think you will be."
She looked up at him with surprise. "Thanks. . . "
"I can tell, just by the way you were with Rin tonight. She just told me herself that she likes you. "
"Really? She's such a sweet girl. It looks like you've been a good father to her."
Sesshoumaru didn't say anything, but instead looked at Kagome, suddenly appearing closer to Kagome than he seemed to have been when they were talking. . . The moment became still, very still and very quiet. But this scared Kagome. Her mind began to work rapidly. What if it wouldn't work with Sesshoumaru, either? What if she just ended up screwing it up like she did with Kouga and InuYasha? She couldn't do that to Sesshoumaru and Rin. . . she just seemed to be bad for any boyfriend. She turned away from him suddenly, and couldn't stop a blush from reaching her cheeks. Friends. . . she just wanted to be friends with Sesshoumaru. . . no getting Rin's hopes up, or his. If they could just be friends, then things wouldn't get messy.
Sesshoumaru snapped her out of her thoughts. "Would you like some wine?"
"Uh, sure," Kagome said, sounding to herself like an idiot. Insecurity returned, and she again was wondering how a man like Sesshoumaru could ever be interested in the likes of her. What did they have in common, anyway? Kagome made a mental list, expecting it to be short. 'We both like literature. . . we both like kids. . . we both like wine. . . the beach. . . we were both brought up by are mothers. . . we both have a brother. . . we both have fun when we're together. . . ' the list of things in common started to turn into some other list. 'He knows my taste in dresses. . . he listens to me when I'm talking. . . he treats me like an adult. . . he respects me. . . my god. . . he's too perfect. . . '
" -- agome? Kagome?"
She looked up and realized that Sesshoumaru was standing in front of her, handing her a glass of wine. "Oh! Thank you! I'm sorry, I spaced out a little. . ."
He just gave her a bemused look and sat back down beside her.
She couldn't look at him. She was afraid that if she did, he would be able to see everything that was going on inside her head. . . what if he didn't feel the same way? 'Rin said he thinks you're pretty. . . ' Kagome scoffed mentally. 'Pretty. . . No, he definitely just thinks of me as a friend.'
"Is something wrong, Kagome?"
Kagome looked up at him, and he was close. His beautiful golden eyes were looking into hers, searching for any trouble. Kagome was aware that she was wearing a frightened expression. She *was* frightened.
She turned away and took something of a swig of her wine, chocked on it, and coughed lightly.
Sesshoumaru was smirking at her, and he put a hand on her back. "You okay?"
Kagome nodded, wiping her mouth with the back of her hand, blushing terribly with embarrassment. Why was she so flustered? He was just sitting by her. He just had his hand on her back. It's not like the physical contact was driving her crazy, or anything. . . But damn it, she admitted to herself. . . it was.
She looked back up at him, her eyes a little too wide. The moment stretched out again, and this time, Sesshoumaru moved forward, his lips anxious to meet hers. . .
But she pulled away. He looked at her curiously. "I'm sorry." she apologized. She set the glass of wine down on the coffee table with a *clunk* and got up, grabbed her purse, and fumbled around with the tangled strap for a minute. Sesshoumaru was right at her side. "I should go. . . It's getting late, and there's work tomorrow. . . "
"I'm sorry." his voice was sorrowful and soft.
She looked up at him. "Don't be." she whispered, then left, cursing herself all the way to the car.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~
**You go to my head**
Kagome drove and drove, until she reached the park. These new feelings too much for her.
**And you linger like a haunting refrain**
She got out and ran to a bench. She tried, but she couldn't get the shaking of her hands to stop, or her cheeks to stop blushing. His golden eyes where burned into the back of her eyelids.
**And I find you spinning round in my brain like the bubbles in a glass of champagne**
She sat down, her head in her hands. Had it been a stupid idea to pull away? What would've happened if they would've kissed? She noted grimly that she was just now starting to feel a buzz from the wine. . . or maybe it was from him. . .
**You go to my head like a sip of sparkling Burgundy brew**
She would not cry, she thought drunkenly.
**And I find the very mention of you like the kicker in a julep or two**
'Is he thinking about me? Is he regretting trying to kiss me? Did he really want to?'
**The thrill of the thought that you might give a thought to my plea casts a spell over me**
'It'll never work. He's too perfect for you. He deserves so much more than someone like you. Someone beautiful, and sophisticated. . .'
**Still I say to myself "Get a hold of yourself. Can't you see that it never can be?"**
His face was still there in her drunken mind. 'God. . . am I in love? Would I be able to say I love him?' He was so handsome. . .
**You go to my head With a smile that makes my temperature rise**
'Everything is so wonderful with him. . .'
**Like a summer with a thousand Julys**
'But I've got no place in his future when it comes to love. . . look a me. . . young, post-highschool. . . immature. . .' Kagome groaned loudly. 'I'm taking this too seriously. . .'
**Though I'm certain that this heart of mine Hasn't a ghost of a chance In this crazy romance**
'Damn you, Sesshoumaru. Why did you have to give me wine? Why did you make me fall in love with you?'
**You go to my head. . . You go to my head. . . **
She glanced up and realized that she was at the same place where she broke up with Kouga. She broke his heart. . . then she went to InuYasha. . . then she broke his heart. . . she couldn't do it to him. . . Sesshoumaru meant too much to her. . . She would not break his heart, too.
But what Kagome didn't realize was, she was breaking his heart. And she was breaking her own even more.
**You go to my head. . .**
**Version of "You Go To My Head" by Rod Stewart, from his new album "It Had To Be You: The Great American Songbook" **
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Hi. I was going to run and hide, because I know you guys REALLY REALLY hate me right now. . . But hey, isn't it alway better when they get together after some angst? You all need your share, now. I haven't been angsty enough, lately. I know I'm evil. But really, writing this chapter hurt me as much as it hurt you. *sniffle* I apologize. But really, it was necessary. -_-
Hope you liked the song. It fits so well! Sorry if it was confusing to read. . . FFN hates me, for some reason, and it won't let me italicize my words. Or put them in bold. Or underline them. *grumbles angrily*
Chapter 16 Dinner With The Tokunawa's ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Kagome knocked on Sesshoumaru's front door twenty minutes after he called.
When the door opened, the little girl from a week before peered up at her, smiling happily. "You're Kagome!"
Kagome smiled. "And you must be Rin!"
"Come in, come in! Dinner's ready!"
Kagome stepped inside the house. It was large, with wood flooring and white leather furniture. There was a fireplace; and a hallway that lead down into other rooms. Kagome followed Rin from the foyer to the kitchen. There were new appliances made with stainless steel, and natural wood furnishings. Sesshoumaru was at the stove, putting the food on three plates.
"She's here!" Rin exclaimed when they entered the kitchen.
Sesshoumaru looked up and smiled. "Hey."
Kagome smiled back. "Hey."
Rin tugged her arm. "Come sit down, Kagome!"
Kagome obeyed and followed Rin to a seat at the table. "Sit here!" Rin pointed to a chair and sat at the end of the table, so Sesshoumaru would be across from Kagome.
"Rin, do you want to come get the plates?" Sesshoumaru asked from the stove.
"Yes!" the little girl got up and ran over to her father to get a plate from him. It was full, and a little heavy, and she took careful steps to the table so she wouldn't drop it. She reached Kagome and held the plate up in both hands. "This is yours!"
"Thank you," Kagome told her, taking the plate from her.
"You're welcome!"
Sesshoumaru came over with plates for himself and Rin, and Kagome noticed with a smile how Sesshoumaru had already cut Rin's spaghetti into smaller pieces so she wouldn't choke on them.
"Let's eat!" Rin said happily when everyone was seated.
"I hope we didn't catch you off guard," Sesshoumaru said to Kagome as Rin quietly observed them with a mouth full of spaghetti.
"Not at all. Actually I was trying to think of something for dinner when you called. Miroku was out with Sango, so. . ."
"How did the rest of the party go?"
"Smoothly. Hey, this is really good."
"Thank you."
Rin spoke up. "What party?"
"My friends Miroku and Sango are getting married."
"They had a party because they're getting married?"
"Uh-huh."
"Is she gonna wear a big white dress?"
"Uh-huh, and they're gonna say 'I do,' and have a big cake."
"Wow! Have you ever been married?"
Kagome blushed a little. "No, I haven't."
"Do you want to get married?"
"Someday."
"When?"
"Okay, Rin," Sesshoumaru cut in lightly. He looked at Kagome. "I think she makes a point of getting to know everyone she meets thoroughly."
"How old is she?"
"I'm six!" Rin exclaimed proudly.
"Oh, you're all grown up, huh?" Kagome asked her.
"Yes! And I'm in the first grade!"
"Well! Do you like school?"
"I love it!"
"I don't mean to brag on her, but she does very well in school," Sesshoumaru added. "Her teacher says she has the highest grade in her class."
Rin beamed.
Kagome smiled. "That's wonderful, Rin! You must be very smart!"
Rin didn't say anything, but instead blushed a little and smiled happily.
The rest of dinner passed by seemingly quickly, with Rin piping up every few seconds to ask Kagome some random question, and Sesshoumaru adding comments of his own throughout their discussions. When Rin saw that Kagome's plate was empty, she exclaimed, "Would you like to come see my room, Kagome?"
"Yes, I would, very much."
"Come on!" Rin said excitedly as she ran ahead into her room.
Kagome threw a quick glance at Sesshoumaru, who was clearing the table. "Need any help?"
"No, go ahead. She won't let you rest until you've seen her dollhouse."
Kagome smirked and found Rin's room. Her eyes wandered over the walls with delight as she saw a twin-sized bed with a pink bedspread, white furniture, and all kinds of stuffed animals all over the place. There were still boxes from when she moved in, and they contained books of all kinds. There was a table just large enough for a six year old and a teddy bear in the middle of the room, and on it was a tea set for imaginary tea parties. Rin stood beside it. "Come see my dollhouse!"
Kagome followed Rin to a corner of the room beside the closet, and Rin pointed to a large dollhouse that came up to her waist. She opened it up, and on the inside was a kitchen, the master bedroom, the guest bedroom, the living room, bathroom, and there was even a back yard attached. "Impressive," Kagome said, raising her eyebrows. She crouched down beside Rin.
"Daddy got it for me for my birthday."
Touched, Kagome smiled. "You must like it a lot."
Rin nodded. Then she whispered. "Can I tell you a secret?"
Kagome nodded seriously.
Rin cupped a hand around her mouth and leaned forward. "Daddy says, he thinks you're very nice, and very pretty."
Kagome couldn't help herself. She threw her head back, and laughed. "Did he say that?"
Rin beamed. "Uh-huh."
Kagome hugged Rin to her, laughing. "You're wonderful, Rin!"
Rin hugged her back. "Thank you. I like you, too."
Sesshoumaru appeared in the doorway. "Rin, bedtime."
Rin made a face. "Awwwwww. . . but Kagome's here."
"That doesn't matter. Get ready for bed." He was smiling a little, and his tone was light.
Rin looked at Kagome and rolled her eyes.
"Hey!" Sesshoumaru said sharply, with a joking tone.
Rin giggled and ran to him, hugging him around his knees. Kagome stood from her crouched position on the floor and looked at Rin. "Thank you for showing me your room. It's very nice."
Kagome followed Sesshoumaru out the door to let Rin get changed into her pajamas. "So what did you think of the grand tour?" he asked her.
Kagome smiled. "It was very educational."
Sesshoumaru shot her a curious look, but it disappeared quickly.
Rin appeared a minute later, dressed in light blue pajamas. "Good night, Kagome!"
"Good night Rin. Sweet dreams." Kagome said pleasantly. Rin ran up to her and hugged her knees.
Rin ran into her room without a backward glance, expecting Sesshoumaru to follow.
"Wait here." he told Kagome.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Rin climbed into bed, and Sesshoumaru turned her light out, and went over to tuck her in.
As he was pulling the sheets up to her chin, he heard her tiny voice. "Daddy?"
"Yes, Rin?"
"Can Kagome come over again?"
"We'll see."
Quietly. "I like her."
"Good night, Rin."
"Night."
He kissed her on the forehead and quietly left the room.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Kagome looked up from her seat on the couch as Sesshoumaru reentered the living room. "Everything go okay?" she asked him "No monsters in the closet?"
He smirked. "Monsters? No. . . " he joined her, putting an arm up on the back of the couch behind her. "If there was a monster in her closet, she'd make friends with it."
Kagome laughed. "She's brave. I used to get so scared. Only, it was my mom that was chasing the monsters away."
Carefully. "Your father. . . "
"He died. Before I was born." she said it with a little sadness, but she was used to being asked about him.
"I'm sorry. I know how you feel. I lost my mother, a few years ago."
"Your moth - InuYasha never said anything about -- "
"That's because he doesn't know. . . He never knew her, I. . . doubt he'd care."
"Tell me about her."
The surprise from her request was apparent on his features. Kagome figured no one ever wanted to know about her. "Well. . . " he began, "she raised me. She was very beautiful. . . she worked very hard to support me. I was always grateful for her. She would come in so late at night, but she would always come see me before she went to bed. She thought I was asleep, but I knew she was there. I've always hated my father for leaving her. . . I never understood what was wrong with her. She was a good mother."
Kagome was silent for a moment. "So your mother raised you, too."
He gave a small, sad smile.
"My mother is such a simple woman," Kagome told him. "She raised me, and my brother (with the help of my Granpa). She knew every little thing about me and my brother, and without her, I don't think any of us would've been happy. I hope one day I'm at least half the mother she was."
"I think you will be."
She looked up at him with surprise. "Thanks. . . "
"I can tell, just by the way you were with Rin tonight. She just told me herself that she likes you. "
"Really? She's such a sweet girl. It looks like you've been a good father to her."
Sesshoumaru didn't say anything, but instead looked at Kagome, suddenly appearing closer to Kagome than he seemed to have been when they were talking. . . The moment became still, very still and very quiet. But this scared Kagome. Her mind began to work rapidly. What if it wouldn't work with Sesshoumaru, either? What if she just ended up screwing it up like she did with Kouga and InuYasha? She couldn't do that to Sesshoumaru and Rin. . . she just seemed to be bad for any boyfriend. She turned away from him suddenly, and couldn't stop a blush from reaching her cheeks. Friends. . . she just wanted to be friends with Sesshoumaru. . . no getting Rin's hopes up, or his. If they could just be friends, then things wouldn't get messy.
Sesshoumaru snapped her out of her thoughts. "Would you like some wine?"
"Uh, sure," Kagome said, sounding to herself like an idiot. Insecurity returned, and she again was wondering how a man like Sesshoumaru could ever be interested in the likes of her. What did they have in common, anyway? Kagome made a mental list, expecting it to be short. 'We both like literature. . . we both like kids. . . we both like wine. . . the beach. . . we were both brought up by are mothers. . . we both have a brother. . . we both have fun when we're together. . . ' the list of things in common started to turn into some other list. 'He knows my taste in dresses. . . he listens to me when I'm talking. . . he treats me like an adult. . . he respects me. . . my god. . . he's too perfect. . . '
" -- agome? Kagome?"
She looked up and realized that Sesshoumaru was standing in front of her, handing her a glass of wine. "Oh! Thank you! I'm sorry, I spaced out a little. . ."
He just gave her a bemused look and sat back down beside her.
She couldn't look at him. She was afraid that if she did, he would be able to see everything that was going on inside her head. . . what if he didn't feel the same way? 'Rin said he thinks you're pretty. . . ' Kagome scoffed mentally. 'Pretty. . . No, he definitely just thinks of me as a friend.'
"Is something wrong, Kagome?"
Kagome looked up at him, and he was close. His beautiful golden eyes were looking into hers, searching for any trouble. Kagome was aware that she was wearing a frightened expression. She *was* frightened.
She turned away and took something of a swig of her wine, chocked on it, and coughed lightly.
Sesshoumaru was smirking at her, and he put a hand on her back. "You okay?"
Kagome nodded, wiping her mouth with the back of her hand, blushing terribly with embarrassment. Why was she so flustered? He was just sitting by her. He just had his hand on her back. It's not like the physical contact was driving her crazy, or anything. . . But damn it, she admitted to herself. . . it was.
She looked back up at him, her eyes a little too wide. The moment stretched out again, and this time, Sesshoumaru moved forward, his lips anxious to meet hers. . .
But she pulled away. He looked at her curiously. "I'm sorry." she apologized. She set the glass of wine down on the coffee table with a *clunk* and got up, grabbed her purse, and fumbled around with the tangled strap for a minute. Sesshoumaru was right at her side. "I should go. . . It's getting late, and there's work tomorrow. . . "
"I'm sorry." his voice was sorrowful and soft.
She looked up at him. "Don't be." she whispered, then left, cursing herself all the way to the car.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~
**You go to my head**
Kagome drove and drove, until she reached the park. These new feelings too much for her.
**And you linger like a haunting refrain**
She got out and ran to a bench. She tried, but she couldn't get the shaking of her hands to stop, or her cheeks to stop blushing. His golden eyes where burned into the back of her eyelids.
**And I find you spinning round in my brain like the bubbles in a glass of champagne**
She sat down, her head in her hands. Had it been a stupid idea to pull away? What would've happened if they would've kissed? She noted grimly that she was just now starting to feel a buzz from the wine. . . or maybe it was from him. . .
**You go to my head like a sip of sparkling Burgundy brew**
She would not cry, she thought drunkenly.
**And I find the very mention of you like the kicker in a julep or two**
'Is he thinking about me? Is he regretting trying to kiss me? Did he really want to?'
**The thrill of the thought that you might give a thought to my plea casts a spell over me**
'It'll never work. He's too perfect for you. He deserves so much more than someone like you. Someone beautiful, and sophisticated. . .'
**Still I say to myself "Get a hold of yourself. Can't you see that it never can be?"**
His face was still there in her drunken mind. 'God. . . am I in love? Would I be able to say I love him?' He was so handsome. . .
**You go to my head With a smile that makes my temperature rise**
'Everything is so wonderful with him. . .'
**Like a summer with a thousand Julys**
'But I've got no place in his future when it comes to love. . . look a me. . . young, post-highschool. . . immature. . .' Kagome groaned loudly. 'I'm taking this too seriously. . .'
**Though I'm certain that this heart of mine Hasn't a ghost of a chance In this crazy romance**
'Damn you, Sesshoumaru. Why did you have to give me wine? Why did you make me fall in love with you?'
**You go to my head. . . You go to my head. . . **
She glanced up and realized that she was at the same place where she broke up with Kouga. She broke his heart. . . then she went to InuYasha. . . then she broke his heart. . . she couldn't do it to him. . . Sesshoumaru meant too much to her. . . She would not break his heart, too.
But what Kagome didn't realize was, she was breaking his heart. And she was breaking her own even more.
**You go to my head. . .**
**Version of "You Go To My Head" by Rod Stewart, from his new album "It Had To Be You: The Great American Songbook" **
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Hi. I was going to run and hide, because I know you guys REALLY REALLY hate me right now. . . But hey, isn't it alway better when they get together after some angst? You all need your share, now. I haven't been angsty enough, lately. I know I'm evil. But really, writing this chapter hurt me as much as it hurt you. *sniffle* I apologize. But really, it was necessary. -_-
Hope you liked the song. It fits so well! Sorry if it was confusing to read. . . FFN hates me, for some reason, and it won't let me italicize my words. Or put them in bold. Or underline them. *grumbles angrily*