Author: Here's chapter 3. Hope you enjoy this, coz I'm not sure when I'll update again.
I have just worked out something. The only way to make oneself feel the emotions is for you to feel them too, e.g. If you want to make someone cry reading your story, then you have to make yourself cry writing the fic. If you want to make someone laugh, you have to laugh at your own jokes.
Anyway, on with the fic.
Disclaimer: I don't any of the songs here and I never will! They belong to Babyface, Emilia and Richard Marx and Donna Lewis. Don't sue me; I live in a poor family. Fanfics are the only thing that keeps me sane.
Feelings left Undisturbed
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Chapter 3: I can't do this.
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Keys:
"Speech"
~Thoughts~
(Translations)
A/N
*~*POV, etc*~*
I'm a big, big girlIn a big, big world
It's not a big, big thing
If you leave me…
But I do, do feel
That I do, do will
Miss you much..
"Li-kun"
I can see the first leafs fallingIt's all yellow and nice"I HATE YOU! YOU'RE A NIGHTMARE CARD MISTRESS! I HATE YOU!! I HATE YOU!!"
Why did it have to happen?Why did it all have to end? "I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU!"
Sakura woke up gasping.
That was an awful dream.
As the morning sun shone in, Sakura got dressed and sat at her vanity desk, French- braiding her hair into 2 plaits.
She then spotted the red mark on her left cheek.
That red hand mark..
That exact red hand mark that caused her a lot of pain because she said Sakura Kinomoto was just a girl.
What was wrong with that?
It's better being just a girl then the condition Sakura's in now.
Family dead…
Forced to change hair and eye colour…
Hardly any magic left…
Forgetting her past…
Being slapped…
Sakura looked around for a compact, but she didn't have any and she couldn't even find a gawd damn hat to cover her mark!
She knew exactly well that if she used her magic again, it would disappear…
The cards would disappear…
Kero-chan would disappear…
She would disappear…
But perhaps it's a good thing that she would disappear…
She won't have to care about anything anymore…
As Sakura went out of her room, Syaoran came out at the same time.
They just stared at each other for a sec and Syaoran just walked off with Sakura behind. He didn't even see Sakura's left cheek…
When they got down to breakfast, there was a note there, it read:
Xiao Lang, Xiao Ying:
Your sisters and I have already left. We couldn't wait any longer.
It's also servant holiday today so they won't be around for the next 2 weeks which means you guys will have to walk.
Be nice to Xiao Ying.
Yelan
Sakura was going to sit down for breakfast when Syaoran just left the house.
Without a choice, Sakura followed…
On their way to the farm, they didn't look, speak or even touch each other.
Maybe Sakura stole some glances at Syaoran, but who knows whySeriously, even I don't know why. I never thought of a reason
Li Farm…
As Sakura and Syaoran got to the farm, there was a note on the Willow tree by the river. It read:
Xiao Lang,
Your elders called, so uh.. Be back soon. Don't go anywhere with Sak Xiao Ying ok?
Stay and wait for us here. You may sit closer to the river, but don't fall into it.
Yelan
Syaoran just sat underneath the willow tree, closing his eyes and enjoying the breeze.
Sakura knew, that staying under the Willow tree with Syaoran would be a danger, so she went to sit by the river…
Few minutes later…
"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!"
Syaoran opened his eyes and saw Sakura fall into the river.
Syaoran wanted to see what Sakura got up her sleeve so he just sat there… watching…
*~*Sakura's POV*~*
I screamed as I fell into the water.
How did I fall in?
Li must've used me for entertainment.
I tried to call up my staff, but I couldn't even feel my aura.
Am I disappearing?
I tried to swim, but someone's magic is making me stay.
I lied lifelessly on the water, trying to think…
Maybe I put too much magic into changing my eye colour. I'll take a little bit out.
Got it!
Now all I have to do is raise the water up and push me to safety.
There is only one way; I can do this without opening my staff, Mind magic…
Watery card, come forth…
Oh no! My cards are back at the mansion…
*~*Normal POV*~*
*Splash*
Syaoran's eyes shot opened as he saw water flying up. He didn't see Sakura anywhere and he knew that if she drowned, he would get the blame.
He dived into the river and spotted Sakura.
He picked her up and took her out of the river.
Underneath the Willow tree…
Syaoran just laid Sakura on the grass as he took a rest.
Sakura started to cough out water.
Sakura finally woke up.
"Am I dead yet?" Sakura said getting up.
But the first thing she saw was a wet Syaoran puffing.
She couldn't help noticing how Kawaii Syaoran looked when his hair was wet.
But unfortunately for Sakura, Syaoran looked up at her.
Though she wasn't the only one shocked. He was too.
Syaoran just stared at Sakura, while Sakura just stared back.
Finally, Sakura realized that something was going on, so she went to the river to look at her reflection only to find something shocking…
Her eyes weren't black anymore. They were green.
She had taken too much magic and now Syaoran knows about it too.
She silently mumbled something under her breath and Syaoran fell asleep.
Sakura then changed back her eye colour. For some reason, she feels stronger in magic, but she is really weak now in strength as in like, she's tired.
She walked over and sat beside Syaoran. She also noticed that he looks Kawaii when sleeping in wet hair Syaoran looks Kawaii in anything with wet hair.
Sakura slightly blushing, kissed Syaoran on the nose and he smiled while muttering "Sakura".
Sakura could feel her eyelids dropping as she rested her right cheek on Syaoran's chest…
On top of the Willow tree…
"Well I guess we have certainly done a good job. Don't you think?"
"Yes certainly"…
Back to the couple…
Syaoran woke up, only to find Sakura resting on his chest.
He finally noticed that red mark on her left cheek.
The one he left on her face yesterday.
Syaoran gently caressed Sakura's left cheek and slightly kissed it.
Sakura then groaned and woke up, which almost gave Syaoran a heart attack.
"Syaoran-kun, where are we?" Sakura said rubbing her eyes sheepishly.
Sakura then felt an angry green aura. Then one that caused her pain.
She immediately jumped up full of fright that he would hurt her again.
She was right, he was. But a note fell out of a tree so he didn't touch her, which made Sakura sigh in complete relief.
The note read:
Xiao Lang:
We came back and saw you and Xiao Ying sleeping. You guys looked really sweet together. You should get married to her…
Please don't kill me, I forgot. Anyway, we went home since it got kinda dark and we didn't dare to interrupt the 'great-leader-of-the-almighty-Li-clan' so we went home.
Come back soon.
Siefa
"Dammit!" Syaoran yelled in anger.
It made Sakura jump.
Syaoran ignored Sakura's fright since she should've been afraid of him since the start for taking his seat in class.
Syaoran got up and left the farm, with Sakura trailing behind.
It was getting colder in the night and Sakura's stomach grumbled since she didn't eat anything for the whole time.
This kinda made Syaoran frustrated coz of the noises, so Sakura had to use her magic to make her stomach stop.
Li Mansion…
Sakura was thankful to get back to the mansion. She had been freezing.
Sakura and Syaoran went into the dining hall to greet the others.
"Ah Xiao Ying. Xiao Lang. You're back. Come and have some nice soup," Yelan said.
Xiao Lang bowed and sat down to eat but Sakura declined the offer because she knew that Syaoran wouldn't want to see her for sure.
"No thank Miss Yelan. I want to work on my music assignment" Sakura kindly replied.
"I understand." Yelan nodded.
Sakura slowly made her way back to her room…
11.00 pm…
Sakura quietly sneaked down into the kitchen to get something to eat.
She had a glass of water and some leftovers then quietly tiptoed up the stairs.
But what happened was that she went into the wrong room…even though Syaoran's door was locked, Sakura just used magic to open it because she locked her own door too.
Next morning…
Sakura and Syaoran woke up at the same time.
Both their eyes were locked for the first 20 seconds as they were both scared because their faces were just inches apart…
"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" They both screamed at the same time and jumped up.
Syaoran raised his arm ready to slap Sakura again, but he stopped…
Tears fell down Sakura's eyes as she whimpered lifelessly, waiting to be slapped again…
"How did you get into my room?" Syaoran asked.
Sakura kept silent because she thought that Syaoran was testing her…
"How did you get into my room when my door was locked? Answer me!" Syaoran said as he grabbed Sakura's collar on her nightgown.
"ANSWER ME!" Syaoran yelled in rage as he shook her back and forth.
Sakura fell on the floor with a 'thump'.
Sakura got up and silently walked out of the room.
Tears over flooded Sakura's eyes as she walked out. She couldn't see where she was going, so she smashed herself onto her bedroom door.
Things got really dizzy as she passed out…
A/N: alright that's it. Bye!
Ok. I'm joking. I wouldn't leave you with a cliffy would I?
Syaoran came out of his room outraged and just walked down the stairs.
He opened the fridge and realized that the leftovers were gone.
Maybe that can answer his questions.
After Syaoran finished breakfast, he decided to go up to his room to get his swimmers.
As Syaoran went up the stairs, his aura pulled his attention to a weak yet familiar pink aura.
He gasped as he saw Sakura lying on the floor unconscious even though tears were still falling down her eyes.
He took Sakura to his room and laid her on his bed, and then he went to get his swimmers and went out to the gardens.
A while later…
Sakura groaned as she woke up.
She found herself back in Syaoran's room.
Sakura immediately left incase Syaoran came back in and found her in his room…
The Gardens…
Sakura took a walk along the pool for some air and to get away from Syaoran.
She sat down next to the steps and looked deeply into the swimming pool.
It reminded her of the trick Syaoran played on her at the farmwhen she fell in the river. But Syaoran didn't play it...
Suddenly a figure popped out of the pool, which made Sakura scream.
Syaoran got out of the pool and stood up, still wet all over.
"Get up!" He ordered.
Sakura, slowly stood up, now very scared of him.
"I thought of something. Yesterday your eyes changed colour. They turned from black to green. How did you do that? And why did you?" He asked.
Sakura kept silent.
"Answer me or else…" Syaoran made the 'or else' especially threatening.
Sakura had no other choice.
"You told me not to speak to you again," she muttered.
Syaoran was terribly outraged, but for some reason, he grabbed Sakura by the waist and started to kiss her passionately.
Sakura was so shocked at his action that she didn't no what to do.
As Sakura was just going to return his kiss, Syaoran broke it and threw her onto the ground. He bent down and started to cry.
*~*Sakura's POV*~*
This kiss is so irresisting.
Ouch!
I winced as Li threw me onto the ground as in like he was just toying with me.
"Shao-kun what's wrong?" I said. I never seen him cry before.
He is staring at me with anger now. I'm scared.
"Don't you dare call me that! Only Sakura can call me that and I would like you to know that no one can ever replace her. Ever!" I winced at those words.
"And never, I repeat NEVER talk to me again. This time I mean it!" He continued to cry.
That other Sakura Kinomoto is sure lucky.
She has someone like Li to care for her.
We are definitely not related.
She has anything she wants and I don't.
There isn't anyone for me to care for or love…
They're all dead…
Everyone hates me…
I stood up and looked at the pool.
Maybe this can end if I just killed myself.
Then I would be born into a new life and I won't remember a thing…
I looked into the pool again. My magic has faded.
"Syaoran-kun" I fell into the pool…
I struggled not to float. Soon, everything got blurry…
I remember now…
I love you. Syaoran-kun…
Tbc…
Author: Hope this chapter is good. I really want to write another chappy. I'll upload this and then write another chappy if I have time.
Oh yea, and please review.