Violet didn't know what to do, she had no idea where she was going, and she
just knew that she couldn't stay there in the house.
How could he? He had left her, he had just walked out one night and left her, she had been what six? And he had left her without even saying good- bye; didn't he know how much he hurt her?
She carried on running down Walnut Close before cutting across Oak wood and then stopping when she got to the kids play park.
She walked over to the swings and sat down on one of them.
She was violently crying now, the tears were coming down in a torrent and she was heaving finding it hard to breathe, She had never talked to any one about her father whenever any one like Willow had asked her if she remembered him she had always say no that she couldn't remember anything about him at all.
But that had all been a lie, she remembered everything about him, the colour of his hair platinum blonde and the black leather duster which he always wore, the silky red shirts and the way he used to pick her up and absorb her into his chest when he carried her upstairs, even the way her used to stand up for her against any one, when she had made a mess or broken something he had used to take her side no matter what and she had always made him laugh, that was something not many people could do, he always looked so serious around her mom.
He had loved her mom so much she could tell from the way he looked at her; even at that age she had known how deeply he loved her and how much her mom had loved him. She had always dreamed that one day she would find someone who would love her that much.
But after her mom had died he lost that look in his eyes his once sparkly shinning eyes then had a dull glint he had even stopped laughing at her jokes and stories, she had hated to see him like that but he had left her. she had never really gotten over the pain which she had felt that morning when she had woken up and run into his room to say good morning and he had been gone, there was nothing of his in the room, when she had run downstairs to see if her was down there she had found willow in the kitchen making blueberry pancakes, and she had realised that he had gone he had really gone.
Spike had tracked her all the way to the park. He hadn't known what to do in the house when he had first sensed her, He had been frozen unable to move until he had heard her running away, he hadn't thought twice he had just followed her.
When she got to the park he hadn't known what to do, she had just sat down on the swing, she was in so much pain it was emanating off her in waves, he was watching her from the shadows now not sure what to do.
She was so Vulnerable out here in the open with all the things that go bump in the night as he liked to call them. So he stood and watched her, her tears were becoming slower and her breathing was getting back to normal, as was her heartbeat, he decided to chance it.
He left the shadowed area and walked towards the swings and sat on the one next to Violet without saying anything.
She hadn't looked up or said anything but he could tell she knew he was there she had stopped knocking the swing back and for with her feet and was just sitting there quite still staring into space with her head bent towards the chain on the side furthest away from him.
They just sat there like that in silence for a while before spike cleared his throat before saying "Hey." nervously with a slight wobble in his voice.
Violet cocked her head slightly so the chain slid across her face and was balanced on her nose she was squinting at him through one of the links of the chain.
"Hey" she said back quietly
"So." spike said exhaling slowly "Um. How are you?"
"How am I? Oh great question dad I'm just peachy keen I'm great marvellous haven't ever been better you know you leave me twelve years ago and then come back as if nothing's wrong at all and just expect me to be ok about it, you haven't tried to contact me since you left and then I come home from a day out and your just there? What am I meant to do, what am I meant to say?"
She was crying again now spikes heart was bleeding he couldn't believe how much pain was emanating off her.
He jumped up off the swing and said, "I'm so sorry I'm sorry. Pet I didn't mean to hurt you I only did it cause I thought that you would be better with out me."
Violet jumped off the swing and said "I needed you thought dad.Every night I cried myself to sleep wondering when you were going to come home praying that when I woke up you would be there waiting at the bottom of my bed to pick me up and tell me that you loved me or sing to me or make me waffles but you weren't.. you were never there."
" I left you cause you deserved better than me pet,"
"I deserved you Dada, I needed you."
"You didn't need me Violet, I'm a monster you didn't need me I didn't deserve you in my life it was my fault your mother died, if I'd have stayed you wouldn't have been able to look at me when you grew up and realised the truth."
"What are you talking about?"
"I'm a Vampire Pet, one of those things that go bump in the night."
"Vampires aren't real dada"
"Yes Pet they are, as real as I'm standing here"
"And what was mom was mom a vampire to dad?"
"No your mother was special your mother was the chosen one"
"Uh huh the Chosen one, Chosen for what exactly?"
"She was a slayer, from every generation a slayer is born she alone will battle the forces of darkness protecting mankind from evil, and your mom was the best one I've ever seen she was amazing pet."
"What do you mean" violet asked in a small voice sitting on the swing again spike walked over to her swing and crouched down on the floor in front of her."
"You mom was a warrior she was beautiful to watch, she thought with a passion and was driven by a force so pure that nothing evil was ever able to understand it"
"What was it?"
"It was love pet, the love she felt for you when you were born it was the most powerful thing you can imagine, it encircled her, you made her more powerful then any slayer I have ever seen."
Spike was smile at her softly
"When someone loves someone as much as your mom loved you it shows in everything that they do and Buffy was filled to the brim with love she loved Dawn she loved me but nothing could compare to how much she loved you. You were her power source her energy you were her soul, the only thing which kept her going when things were down it was you who cheered up."
Violet looked into spike deep blue eyes, which were shining at her.
"What about you, were you good or were you evil. I mean vampires always equals bad in the cinema's."
"I'm bad, or rather I was bad. I was turned when I was 22 I lived in England and hated my life. I was a poet I had no friends really and lived with only my mother. Then after I had been to a function one night a woman her name was Cecily had upset me so much that I wasn't watching where I was going when I was walking home and I bumped into a group of people, they were to become my family Drusilla, Angelus and Darla. It was Dru who changed me. And I loved her for it; she was the love of my life for about 150 years a lot of things changed in that time Angelus became peaches."
He broke off, and violet looked up suddenly and said "Angel? He's a vampire too?"
"Yes pet, Angel is a vampire too although he is good he has a soul."
"One day me and Dru decided to have a stop over here in Sunnydale for a bit of mayhem and the works. That's when I met your mom she was only a kid then. Barely your age and I was obsessed at first sight, she was the ultimate fight I had ever had, and I had never met any one who fought like her it was with a passion. I never understood it then like I do now."
"What happened?" Violet asked enthralled by the story.
"I left with Dru not after breaking your mom though. She was in love with Angel then, she loved him despite everything and he loved her and he lost his soul because of it some sort of stupid snag or something well dru had decided that she wanted to end the world as she did a lot back then she was a psycho was dru. She had found this demon that would open a portal to hell and suck the whole earth into it. I only helped her out of love I mean I had been to hell I didn't really want to go back there but she and Angelus had it all worked out and they opened the portal but buffy came in and beat them back, but there was one way which she could stop the demon and that was Angelus blood. He had hurt her so much when he had lost his soul terrified her friends and family Giles especially, he murdered someone who Giles really loved a descendant of the gypsy who put the original curse on him. Willow found the curse on one of her files and worked her witchy mojo. And brought his soul back only snag was it came back to late and so your mom had to kill the man she loved."
Violet looked at him speechlessly and said, "What happened?"
"Your mom took left here for a while she never actually told me where she'd gone but I knew that something happened out there to change her for the better she grew up a lot and when she came back was more able to deal with everything especially when Angel came back."
Spike looked at his baby she was so tired he could tell, "Pet I think that's enough for now you can hardly keep your eyes open lets go home and you need to rest."
Violet looked up at him for a moment and said "Will you still be here in the morning, in the house I mean, your not going to leave me again are you?"
spike looked at her for a couple of minutes before saying, "I'm never going to leave you again luv I promise you that I will never leave you again."
"Ok dada lets go home" she said as she stood up and collapsed emotionally exhausted into his arms.
He pulled her into him tightly pushing her head up slightly so that it balanced softly in the curve of he shoulder. He looked at her for a moment and thought to himself, how could I ever have left her she's my baby I should have known that she would need me, just like Buffy needed me and I swear by the stars above that I will never leave her again as long as I live. And then he started back across the road on the short walk home.
How could he? He had left her, he had just walked out one night and left her, she had been what six? And he had left her without even saying good- bye; didn't he know how much he hurt her?
She carried on running down Walnut Close before cutting across Oak wood and then stopping when she got to the kids play park.
She walked over to the swings and sat down on one of them.
She was violently crying now, the tears were coming down in a torrent and she was heaving finding it hard to breathe, She had never talked to any one about her father whenever any one like Willow had asked her if she remembered him she had always say no that she couldn't remember anything about him at all.
But that had all been a lie, she remembered everything about him, the colour of his hair platinum blonde and the black leather duster which he always wore, the silky red shirts and the way he used to pick her up and absorb her into his chest when he carried her upstairs, even the way her used to stand up for her against any one, when she had made a mess or broken something he had used to take her side no matter what and she had always made him laugh, that was something not many people could do, he always looked so serious around her mom.
He had loved her mom so much she could tell from the way he looked at her; even at that age she had known how deeply he loved her and how much her mom had loved him. She had always dreamed that one day she would find someone who would love her that much.
But after her mom had died he lost that look in his eyes his once sparkly shinning eyes then had a dull glint he had even stopped laughing at her jokes and stories, she had hated to see him like that but he had left her. she had never really gotten over the pain which she had felt that morning when she had woken up and run into his room to say good morning and he had been gone, there was nothing of his in the room, when she had run downstairs to see if her was down there she had found willow in the kitchen making blueberry pancakes, and she had realised that he had gone he had really gone.
Spike had tracked her all the way to the park. He hadn't known what to do in the house when he had first sensed her, He had been frozen unable to move until he had heard her running away, he hadn't thought twice he had just followed her.
When she got to the park he hadn't known what to do, she had just sat down on the swing, she was in so much pain it was emanating off her in waves, he was watching her from the shadows now not sure what to do.
She was so Vulnerable out here in the open with all the things that go bump in the night as he liked to call them. So he stood and watched her, her tears were becoming slower and her breathing was getting back to normal, as was her heartbeat, he decided to chance it.
He left the shadowed area and walked towards the swings and sat on the one next to Violet without saying anything.
She hadn't looked up or said anything but he could tell she knew he was there she had stopped knocking the swing back and for with her feet and was just sitting there quite still staring into space with her head bent towards the chain on the side furthest away from him.
They just sat there like that in silence for a while before spike cleared his throat before saying "Hey." nervously with a slight wobble in his voice.
Violet cocked her head slightly so the chain slid across her face and was balanced on her nose she was squinting at him through one of the links of the chain.
"Hey" she said back quietly
"So." spike said exhaling slowly "Um. How are you?"
"How am I? Oh great question dad I'm just peachy keen I'm great marvellous haven't ever been better you know you leave me twelve years ago and then come back as if nothing's wrong at all and just expect me to be ok about it, you haven't tried to contact me since you left and then I come home from a day out and your just there? What am I meant to do, what am I meant to say?"
She was crying again now spikes heart was bleeding he couldn't believe how much pain was emanating off her.
He jumped up off the swing and said, "I'm so sorry I'm sorry. Pet I didn't mean to hurt you I only did it cause I thought that you would be better with out me."
Violet jumped off the swing and said "I needed you thought dad.Every night I cried myself to sleep wondering when you were going to come home praying that when I woke up you would be there waiting at the bottom of my bed to pick me up and tell me that you loved me or sing to me or make me waffles but you weren't.. you were never there."
" I left you cause you deserved better than me pet,"
"I deserved you Dada, I needed you."
"You didn't need me Violet, I'm a monster you didn't need me I didn't deserve you in my life it was my fault your mother died, if I'd have stayed you wouldn't have been able to look at me when you grew up and realised the truth."
"What are you talking about?"
"I'm a Vampire Pet, one of those things that go bump in the night."
"Vampires aren't real dada"
"Yes Pet they are, as real as I'm standing here"
"And what was mom was mom a vampire to dad?"
"No your mother was special your mother was the chosen one"
"Uh huh the Chosen one, Chosen for what exactly?"
"She was a slayer, from every generation a slayer is born she alone will battle the forces of darkness protecting mankind from evil, and your mom was the best one I've ever seen she was amazing pet."
"What do you mean" violet asked in a small voice sitting on the swing again spike walked over to her swing and crouched down on the floor in front of her."
"You mom was a warrior she was beautiful to watch, she thought with a passion and was driven by a force so pure that nothing evil was ever able to understand it"
"What was it?"
"It was love pet, the love she felt for you when you were born it was the most powerful thing you can imagine, it encircled her, you made her more powerful then any slayer I have ever seen."
Spike was smile at her softly
"When someone loves someone as much as your mom loved you it shows in everything that they do and Buffy was filled to the brim with love she loved Dawn she loved me but nothing could compare to how much she loved you. You were her power source her energy you were her soul, the only thing which kept her going when things were down it was you who cheered up."
Violet looked into spike deep blue eyes, which were shining at her.
"What about you, were you good or were you evil. I mean vampires always equals bad in the cinema's."
"I'm bad, or rather I was bad. I was turned when I was 22 I lived in England and hated my life. I was a poet I had no friends really and lived with only my mother. Then after I had been to a function one night a woman her name was Cecily had upset me so much that I wasn't watching where I was going when I was walking home and I bumped into a group of people, they were to become my family Drusilla, Angelus and Darla. It was Dru who changed me. And I loved her for it; she was the love of my life for about 150 years a lot of things changed in that time Angelus became peaches."
He broke off, and violet looked up suddenly and said "Angel? He's a vampire too?"
"Yes pet, Angel is a vampire too although he is good he has a soul."
"One day me and Dru decided to have a stop over here in Sunnydale for a bit of mayhem and the works. That's when I met your mom she was only a kid then. Barely your age and I was obsessed at first sight, she was the ultimate fight I had ever had, and I had never met any one who fought like her it was with a passion. I never understood it then like I do now."
"What happened?" Violet asked enthralled by the story.
"I left with Dru not after breaking your mom though. She was in love with Angel then, she loved him despite everything and he loved her and he lost his soul because of it some sort of stupid snag or something well dru had decided that she wanted to end the world as she did a lot back then she was a psycho was dru. She had found this demon that would open a portal to hell and suck the whole earth into it. I only helped her out of love I mean I had been to hell I didn't really want to go back there but she and Angelus had it all worked out and they opened the portal but buffy came in and beat them back, but there was one way which she could stop the demon and that was Angelus blood. He had hurt her so much when he had lost his soul terrified her friends and family Giles especially, he murdered someone who Giles really loved a descendant of the gypsy who put the original curse on him. Willow found the curse on one of her files and worked her witchy mojo. And brought his soul back only snag was it came back to late and so your mom had to kill the man she loved."
Violet looked at him speechlessly and said, "What happened?"
"Your mom took left here for a while she never actually told me where she'd gone but I knew that something happened out there to change her for the better she grew up a lot and when she came back was more able to deal with everything especially when Angel came back."
Spike looked at his baby she was so tired he could tell, "Pet I think that's enough for now you can hardly keep your eyes open lets go home and you need to rest."
Violet looked up at him for a moment and said "Will you still be here in the morning, in the house I mean, your not going to leave me again are you?"
spike looked at her for a couple of minutes before saying, "I'm never going to leave you again luv I promise you that I will never leave you again."
"Ok dada lets go home" she said as she stood up and collapsed emotionally exhausted into his arms.
He pulled her into him tightly pushing her head up slightly so that it balanced softly in the curve of he shoulder. He looked at her for a moment and thought to himself, how could I ever have left her she's my baby I should have known that she would need me, just like Buffy needed me and I swear by the stars above that I will never leave her again as long as I live. And then he started back across the road on the short walk home.