Violet and Spike walked into the house, neither of them really knew what to
expect, Oz was walking across the hall from the study to the lounge looking
at an open book in his hand as he walked, he stopped when he saw the two of
them entering the house smiling at Violet and saying,
"Hey Babe, you ok?"
"Yeah Oz I'm fine, I'm going go up to my room for a bit I've got something which I need to do before later. Ok?"
She started to walk up the stairs,
"OK babe, don't be too long though cause Willow and Tara are preparing a meal for us all to eat before................ Just don't be too long ok?"
Violet smiled and nodded at him. She knew what he had wanted to say, "Before the ritual, before you die" she muttered the words as she walked past her bedroom the door was closed and she didn't bother to push the door open to see how Erin was, to be honest she didn't really care any more.
She walked into the room, which she had shared the previous night with Aria, she looked at the bags which contained her purchases from earlier, from her day out with Aria.
She noticed the girls absence to, assuming that she must have already left with Clara, she wished that she could have said good bye properly, she was lying on the bed staring at the ceiling when a though struck her, there was a way which she could say good bye to Aria and that was just what she was going to do, she jumped off the bed and stalked across the room to the desk, shuffling round in the draws until she found what she was looking for, it was in the second draw, she lifted out the black box which contained a stationary set which Anya had bought her a couple of years ago for her birthday.
She opened the box and pulled out a couple of sheets of the black writing paper, which had stars dancing round the margin.
She picked up a white pen from the box and began to write.
Dear Aria, I don't know what to write in this letter, nothing I can say will make things right or the way they were, and there is no way which I can explain to you why I can't be there for you anymore, you'll have to ask your mummy and daddy for that, and they will tell you when they think that the right time has come and that you will be able to deal with what they have to say,
I had a wonderful day with you today it was the most fun that I've had in a long time and I just want you to know that, I don't want you to forget me but I won't blame you or be mad with you if sometimes you do.
Your so little now, I don't know whether you will remember me when you grow older, but I hope that you do, I would like to think that you will always remember the time which we spent together.
I love you aria, more than I can write in this note, more than words can describe you are the little sister, which I always dreamed I would have.
I remember the day that you were born, I stayed up all night for two days I was basically on the point of exhaustion when finally Giles phoned to tell us that you had been born I was so happy.
I whish I coud be there to see you grow up but I know that I can't your what helped me to make my decision, watching you sleep made me realise that the world really can be a good place and deserves to be saved.
I hope that you will experience all the things that life has to offer and remember always to wish upon a star if you need me and I'll find you no matter where you are!
Lots of Love Violet.
Violet finished the letter wiping a tear from her eye, and decided that she needed to write another one before she was finished.
Dear Dad It's typical isn't it? Typical of everything in my life that the minute that I get what I want most in the world. And I finally think that things are going to go my way that things twist and turn and make it all go away again.
There is so much which I want to tell you and want you to know, I thought of you and mom ever since you left, I used to sit out on the roof talking to the stars hoping that somehow you would be able to hear what I was saying to them somehow they would manage to get a message to you.
I want you to have my diary and books, they're not really worth anything but there the things which mean the most to me, my thoughts, songs and poems, hopefully if you read them it will help you to understand me a bit better, even if it is too late to make much of a difference.
I wrote a poem earlier while I was out, it sums up how I feel and I want you to have it,
Do not stand at my grave and weep; I am not there. I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow. I am the diamond glints on snow. I am the sunlight in ripened grain I am the gentle autumn rain. When you awaken in the morning's hush I am the swift uplifting rush Of quiet birds in circled flight. I am the soft stars that shine at night. Do not stand at my grave and cry; I am not there. I did not die.
I love you daddy Love Violet Xxx
Once she had finished the second letter she pulled out two envelopes and folded the letters up neatly, placing them in separate envelopes addressing and sealing them.
She wiped the tears from her eyes and placed them in the centre of the desk.
Once she had done that she went over to the window and climbed out on the roof wanting to see the stars one last time.
She heard her name being called from downstairs and climbed back through the window just as willow appeared in the door way.
"Hey kiddo, dinner's ready now, if you're hungry."
Violet smiled at her she was nervous. "Yeah I'm starving what is it?"
"Chinese food and Cake"
"Yum!"
"You better hurry up of Xander will have eaten it all"
Willow said with a grin watching Violet grabbing a comb off the dresser and pulling it quickly in sharp decisive movements, once she was satisfied she walked out the door and down the stairs quickly followed by Willow.
She got to the kitchen and smiled as she saw her whole family standing around in there eating.
Tara and Spike were sitting at the table laughing about something; Oz, Giles and Xander were standing by the back door looking over a book.
Everyone stopped talking when they saw Violet enter the room. She walked over to the table and picked up one of the Chinese boxes and said "Yay no one's eaten the lemon chicken."
Everyone laughed and they got back to eating a happy meal. They finished the food and everyone was full, they had a cake though it had been Violet's birthday cake but Willow had enchanted the icing so that it said "we love you Violet til the end of the world" instead, everybody ate their cake in a pensive mood, violet sat on spike's lap as she ate and leaned her head into his shoulder listening to his un-beating heart lay dormant as everyone around her talked.
Angel appeared at the kitchen door just as they were finishing their cake And said "It's time." Everyone froze and turned to violet who got up and walked to her room to get ready.
A/N the poem in the letter which Violet writes to spike is by an unknown poem but thought to be the work of a soldier during world war one.
"Hey Babe, you ok?"
"Yeah Oz I'm fine, I'm going go up to my room for a bit I've got something which I need to do before later. Ok?"
She started to walk up the stairs,
"OK babe, don't be too long though cause Willow and Tara are preparing a meal for us all to eat before................ Just don't be too long ok?"
Violet smiled and nodded at him. She knew what he had wanted to say, "Before the ritual, before you die" she muttered the words as she walked past her bedroom the door was closed and she didn't bother to push the door open to see how Erin was, to be honest she didn't really care any more.
She walked into the room, which she had shared the previous night with Aria, she looked at the bags which contained her purchases from earlier, from her day out with Aria.
She noticed the girls absence to, assuming that she must have already left with Clara, she wished that she could have said good bye properly, she was lying on the bed staring at the ceiling when a though struck her, there was a way which she could say good bye to Aria and that was just what she was going to do, she jumped off the bed and stalked across the room to the desk, shuffling round in the draws until she found what she was looking for, it was in the second draw, she lifted out the black box which contained a stationary set which Anya had bought her a couple of years ago for her birthday.
She opened the box and pulled out a couple of sheets of the black writing paper, which had stars dancing round the margin.
She picked up a white pen from the box and began to write.
Dear Aria, I don't know what to write in this letter, nothing I can say will make things right or the way they were, and there is no way which I can explain to you why I can't be there for you anymore, you'll have to ask your mummy and daddy for that, and they will tell you when they think that the right time has come and that you will be able to deal with what they have to say,
I had a wonderful day with you today it was the most fun that I've had in a long time and I just want you to know that, I don't want you to forget me but I won't blame you or be mad with you if sometimes you do.
Your so little now, I don't know whether you will remember me when you grow older, but I hope that you do, I would like to think that you will always remember the time which we spent together.
I love you aria, more than I can write in this note, more than words can describe you are the little sister, which I always dreamed I would have.
I remember the day that you were born, I stayed up all night for two days I was basically on the point of exhaustion when finally Giles phoned to tell us that you had been born I was so happy.
I whish I coud be there to see you grow up but I know that I can't your what helped me to make my decision, watching you sleep made me realise that the world really can be a good place and deserves to be saved.
I hope that you will experience all the things that life has to offer and remember always to wish upon a star if you need me and I'll find you no matter where you are!
Lots of Love Violet.
Violet finished the letter wiping a tear from her eye, and decided that she needed to write another one before she was finished.
Dear Dad It's typical isn't it? Typical of everything in my life that the minute that I get what I want most in the world. And I finally think that things are going to go my way that things twist and turn and make it all go away again.
There is so much which I want to tell you and want you to know, I thought of you and mom ever since you left, I used to sit out on the roof talking to the stars hoping that somehow you would be able to hear what I was saying to them somehow they would manage to get a message to you.
I want you to have my diary and books, they're not really worth anything but there the things which mean the most to me, my thoughts, songs and poems, hopefully if you read them it will help you to understand me a bit better, even if it is too late to make much of a difference.
I wrote a poem earlier while I was out, it sums up how I feel and I want you to have it,
Do not stand at my grave and weep; I am not there. I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow. I am the diamond glints on snow. I am the sunlight in ripened grain I am the gentle autumn rain. When you awaken in the morning's hush I am the swift uplifting rush Of quiet birds in circled flight. I am the soft stars that shine at night. Do not stand at my grave and cry; I am not there. I did not die.
I love you daddy Love Violet Xxx
Once she had finished the second letter she pulled out two envelopes and folded the letters up neatly, placing them in separate envelopes addressing and sealing them.
She wiped the tears from her eyes and placed them in the centre of the desk.
Once she had done that she went over to the window and climbed out on the roof wanting to see the stars one last time.
She heard her name being called from downstairs and climbed back through the window just as willow appeared in the door way.
"Hey kiddo, dinner's ready now, if you're hungry."
Violet smiled at her she was nervous. "Yeah I'm starving what is it?"
"Chinese food and Cake"
"Yum!"
"You better hurry up of Xander will have eaten it all"
Willow said with a grin watching Violet grabbing a comb off the dresser and pulling it quickly in sharp decisive movements, once she was satisfied she walked out the door and down the stairs quickly followed by Willow.
She got to the kitchen and smiled as she saw her whole family standing around in there eating.
Tara and Spike were sitting at the table laughing about something; Oz, Giles and Xander were standing by the back door looking over a book.
Everyone stopped talking when they saw Violet enter the room. She walked over to the table and picked up one of the Chinese boxes and said "Yay no one's eaten the lemon chicken."
Everyone laughed and they got back to eating a happy meal. They finished the food and everyone was full, they had a cake though it had been Violet's birthday cake but Willow had enchanted the icing so that it said "we love you Violet til the end of the world" instead, everybody ate their cake in a pensive mood, violet sat on spike's lap as she ate and leaned her head into his shoulder listening to his un-beating heart lay dormant as everyone around her talked.
Angel appeared at the kitchen door just as they were finishing their cake And said "It's time." Everyone froze and turned to violet who got up and walked to her room to get ready.
A/N the poem in the letter which Violet writes to spike is by an unknown poem but thought to be the work of a soldier during world war one.