After some more explaining and plan making, Buffy left the Magic Box to look for Xander. She slipped in her green contact lenses to make him fell more comfortable. None of the other scoobies except for Faith had felt comfortable with the pure silver orbs looking at them. Buffy entered Willy's bar and smiled as she saw Xander sitting at the counter with a beer in hand.
She knew this was the only place Xander cam to when he felt really low. He joked he was able to fit in with the other low lifes. Buffy walked over and took the stool next to him. Xander didn't even look up, he knew it was her. Buffy was always the one who could find him anywhere.
"If someone had told me back in my sophomore year of high school that my best friend, and my future best friend would turn out to be killers I would have laughed in their faces."
"Xander." Buffy sighed. "Willow and I aren't killers. We've been through a lot, dealt with a lot. You know that, you've been there through it all with us."
"Then why am I not up there with you guys?"
"Up where Xander? Killing someone doesn't make your life better, after I killed my first, I was a wreck. I've never gotten over any of the people I've killed. I still see their faces at night, I have nightmares that are like surround sound replays of what I did. It only gets a little easier now that I am home with you guys."
"What?"
"Xander with out you, I would be dead a hundred times over, Willow would've destroyed the world, and we both would be broken down over what we did. The only reason I was able to get up last year, was knowing that I would see you, and Willow. You guys are my base, but you Xander, are my heart."
"Buff, I'm sorry." Xander turned to his friend and hugged her tightly. "I can be a jackass sometimes."
"Sometimes?" Buffy's voice came muffled from underneath Xander's hug.
"Hey! Heart warming moment going on right now."
"Sorfey." Buffy laughed a little.
"But I love you guys. You and Willow. I mean without you two, I would be a fat potbellied man lying in his own filth. And not a word from you." Xander grinned as he released Buffy.
"Friends?" Buffy held out her hand.
"Best." Xander took her hand and shook it. "You know you're never gonna get rid of me."
"Thank god for that." The two laughed, and Xander turned back to his beer, then back to Buffy again.
"Hey, what happened to the silver eyes?"
"Contacts. The scoobs were getting a little freaked out."
"I liked them. Kinda like superhero thing, suits you."
"Really?"
"Yeah. Super Buffy. Vanisher of all thing evil and expert shopper." Xander jumped as Buffy lightly hit him on the shoulder.
"It's good to be back Xand." Buffy leaned her head on his shoulder and he put his arm around hers.
"Good to have you back Buff."