Sebastian lay in his bed that night brooding. Harvard was a good college, he was happy to have it as a choice but .....Kathryn was going to Yale. He wanted to be near her. He just didn't know if she wanted to be near him.

Also he couldn't help but wonder how his dad would react. This was the only thing in Sebastians life that he was really passionate about. Since he'd been born his had gone on about how he was going to Harvard, just like his father.

Sebastian rubbed his forehead. He was so tired and so torn. Kathryn was important to him in ways nobody knew, he wasn't sure if even she knew. How long could they go on like this?

He saw his door being quietly opened and for a second he was afraid it would be Kathryn's mother, but as he saw the familiar petite brunette he relaxed.

Kathryn closed the door behind her and locked it before she leaned against it looking at him in the dim light.

"I waited for you."

Sebastian couldn't help but smile. She was his.

"Sorry, I was thinking."

Kathryn moved closer. Sebastian watched her body slide towards him slowly.

"About me?" She asked with a small smile.

Sebastian shrugged trying to be casual and cool. "There might have been parts about you."

Kathryn looked pleased as she got on his bed and crawled up on him on all fours.

"Was I naked?" She licked his lips with the tip of her tongue and Sebastian grinned. He could almost never resist this girl.

Kathryn started to kiss his chest and it pained him when he forced himself to stop her.

"What?" She seemed cranky and he couldn't blame her.

"Parental unit home you know. Don't think we can be that quiet." He gestured at the door and Kathryn giggled and kissed his nipple running her hand down towards his crotch.

"I can be quiet." She promised pressing her body towards his and he gasped.

"I can't." He got out. His heart started racing whenever she was around, and it was almost painful to refuse her what she wanted but he had a feeling that if his father found out about them, he'd been sent to some military bootcamp or something like it.

And then Kathryn would be stuck with that old geezer. Not that he didn't think Kathryn could defend herself, he just didn't like the thought of it.

"Kat." He said seriously and Kathryn sighed and lay down next to him. She put her arm around him and snuggled closer.

"Aren't they leaving soon? I wanna fuck!" She sounded grumpy, pouting her lips like a little girl and Sebastian grinned at her. He started to caress her body gently.

Kathryn moaned. "I'll kill you if you're teasing me." She closed her eyes enjoying his every move.

Sebastian kissed her lightly, but craving. "I'd like to see you try." He mumbled kissing his way down to her stomach. He separated her legs with gentle hands and loved feeling her scent coming at him.

If she could be quiet he wasn't the one to deny her, her needs.

**

The next morning Sebastian woke up with Kathryn in his arms. She looked so peaceful and sweet, he felt like he had to take a picture. He tried to move away without waking her up but he had trouble reaching his camera.

"Don't you dare take a picture of me, queer boy."

Sebastian looked surprised at Kathryn. "You're awake?"

Her eyes fluttered open. "Yes." She yawned a little and then lay on her side to face him. "Now, the whole picture deal." She smiled persuasive. "When am I going to get to read that journal of yours?"

Sebastian raised his eyebrows. "Oh, and I thought never was clear enough."

Kathryn pouted her lips, playfully marching her fingers across his chest.

"You let Annette read it."

"Technically I didn't *let* her do anything." Sebastian started to defend himself but he got interrupted when Kathryn straddled him.

"Does it have our sex-capades in it?" She asked tempting pushing her crotch against his.

Sebastian laughed. "Aren't we eager to know."

A knock on the door made them both jerk their heads around. Both surprised over the unwelcome interruption.

"Sebastian? Are you awake?" A voice said and Kathryn went pale.

"Shit it's my mom." She got of Sebastian and off the bed quicker then ever and looked around in panick. She didn't want to be found in here by her mother, specially since she was only wearing a tiny little transparent nightgown on.

Sebastian saw her fear and looked around. "Hide." He suggested with a whispering voice. He noticed a place to fit her. "There." He said pointing at his closet. She had no trouble fitting in their and right before closing the doors Sebastian kissed her. It was kind of sexy in a way, hiding secrets.

Then he pulled on a robe and to open the door for his stepmother.

"God morning Tiffany." He said with a yawn and could see her old eyes glancing over his body. He couldn't blame her, after all she was married to his dad.

"God morning Sebastian. Didn't mean to bother you this early. I just wondered if you knew where Kathryn is? She wasn't in her room." She spoke while trying to peak into his room over his shoulder. But it was hard since Sebastian didn't open the door completly.

He shrugged, eager to get her out. "Dunno, maybe she's with Celia. She might've spend the night."

Tiffany Valmont looked appalled by the thought. Her greatest fear was for Kathryn to be gay or unmarried by the age of 25.

"Oh. Well, if you see her make sure she comes to see me. We have lots to discuss."

Sebastian nodded. "Will do." He promised dutifull and she pinched his cheel.

"Oh you're such a good boy. Edward and I are both so proud of you."

Sebastian plastered a smile to his face. "I do my best." He said forced and the older woman nodded.

"Yes well, suppose I should leave you alone now. To shower and all." She laughed jokingly. "I wouldn't like to see you in the buff." She kept laughing walking away as Sebastian closed the door.

He shuddered as the doors to the closet were opened and Kathryn came out looking sour.

"Wouldn't like to see you in the buff, he he he." She imitated her mother in a silly voice. Then she looked bitter. "Please, she undresses you with her eyes whenever you're in a room!" She muttered and Sebastian did a face of dislike.

"Well that's what my dad does to you. That doesn't bother you?" He crinkled his eyebrows slightly. "It bothers me." He mumbled but Kathryn didn't hear it.

"Not in the same way. She's my mom and you're my.....it's gross okay?" She interrupted herself and pulled on a cold shield right before him. Sebastian could tell. He laughed and walked up to her.

"Mm.....I'm undressing you in my mind right now." He got a smile out of her and leaned closer. "I bet they can't hear us if we're in the shower." He whispered in her ear and Kathryn's eyes sparkled. He knew she was horny.

"What are we waiting for, good boy?" She took his hand and pulled him in the direction of his bathroom.

Sebastian gladly but once more wondered how long they could go on like this. Keeping it a secret.

**

A while later Kathryn was satisfied in her room getting dressed. Since it was Saturday her mom was out having brunch and shopping with her friends, so once more she'd managed to dodge the bullet of a one on one with mother dearest.

She sighed. She hated her mom, she wished she could make her pay. But she was too smart to bite the hand that fed her.

She put on her favourite ruby bracelet and smiled. Sebastian had given it to her for her birthday. Not much had changed in her life since Annette but a lot had changed between her and Sebastian.

She was becoming more fond of him the expected, he made her happy. The thought scared her, she didn't want to become dependant on him.

She glanced at her desk. College. She'd never really given much thought to leaving Manchester prep. It was boring to think about the fact that she'd have to re-establish her rep as a good girl. She wasn't sure she could do it again.

She sighed and rubbed her forehead. At least she still had her Valiums. She went over to her desk and took one from her purse that stood there. She swallowed it without water.

Life had become so complicated. Most days she felt like she was about to burst and wanted to scream. She was so sick and tired of keeping up apperances. She could only be real with Sebastian but that confused her too.

She wasn't sure how to act around him anymore. She loved having sex with him but sometimes it felt like there was stuff he wanted to tell her but he didn't. She couldn't read him like she could before. And lately he hadn't even wanted her in the sexual way.

It made her more worried then she liked it to. She felt like she was loosing him and it was painful.

"I won't let it bother me" She mumbled looking at herself in the mirror. She was wearing a black skirt with a sheer top to it. She lifted her top slightly and looked at her flat stomach.

Was her mother right? Had she gained weight? Was that why Sebastian was pushing her away?

"I love that stomach."

Kathryn turned around not too surprised to see Sebasitan leaning at a wall, staring at her.

"God! What's with the watching style?" She asked cranky and let go off her top. She didn't appriciate being caught.

Sebastian grinned and shrugged as she made her way to her vanity table to put on earrings.

"I like my view." He said casually and thought he saw a small smile appear on her lips but it disappeared as she turned around to face him.

"Then why don't you go stare at one of your creepy pictures. I have things to do and I don't have time for you. Now was there something special you wanted to know since you barged in here without knocking?" She asked coldly putting her hands on her hips.

Sebastian strolled up to her. "What I want to know is why all of a sudden you became the bitch monster from hell." He said smiling stopping right in front of her.

Kathryn looked fiercly into his eyes. "Well that's me! You'll just have to deal with it."

He smiled and brushed her hair of her shoulder. "Oh I don't mind." He kissed it. "I just want to know if there something I can do." He started to kneel down kissing her chest and stomach, focusing mostly on her stomach to prove he loved it.

"Anything I can assist with?" He continued as Kathryn closed her eyes melting for his touch. He rubbed her ass glancing up at her.

"It's been a while since we had a *real* good game going." He started to roll up her skirt.

Kathryn nodded. "It has." She moaned as she felt Sebastian's fingers on her panites.

"So.....what do you have in mind?" He asked caressing her inner thighs. But Kathryn didn't have time to answer, they were once again interrupted by a loud bellowing voice.

"Sebastian!" It was Mr Valmont.

Sebastian stood up to Kathryn's disappointment.

"This is starting to become a real issue." Sebastian muttered annoyed. He looked at Kathryn. "Want me to give you a ride somewhere? I need to get out of here."

She nodded. "I'm supposed to be at Celia's in half an hour."

"Fun." Sebastian said sacastic and Kathryn sighed.

"Super. But she absolutley wants me to come there and chat about her boyfriend Craig fingering Cecile Caldwell."

Sebastian frowned at the name. It was so familiar.

"Oh shit.....you don't mean.....?" He asked.

"None other." Kathryn looked pleased as Sebastian took her hand and led her out of the house quickly to get to the car before his dad saw them.