The Seventh Month

Journals & the D.C.
Part C

Journal: Seifer Almasy Entry: Most Recent

I arrived back at the glorious garden nearly two weeks ago. Damn I missed the place. Ok, I didn't miss the rules, and the six in the morning wake up calls but I still missed it. Even though it's a place to train killers and mercenaries it's a home to me. And many others here. Why else would they have fought so hard for it during the ..... Never mind. Anyway I get back to the garden and Cid makes me wait in the commander's office. Oh Joy. I was bored out of my mind and fiddling with this stupid thing when Leonhart comes busting into the room like it's on fire. It was sort of funny though to see him all upset He's sorta cute when he's trying to yell, push my legs off his desk, and keep collected all at the same time. The rest of the meeting was the same old junk me picking on him and him responding. I was a bit surprised when he jumped and paled when I was standing behind him. Guess some memories don't fade as easily as others. He has a point when he says I may not be accepted, but I'll prove to him and everyone that Seifer Almasy may be arrogant, but he has a right to because he is the best!

I make my way to my new room. The halls are pretty empty as most people are in class so I don't have any trouble. I change the pass code of my door and crash on the bed. All the traveling made me exhausted. I wasn't too surprised to be woken up by knocking on my door later that evening. What I didn't expect to see was the welcoming committee in the form of all the people I was fighting directly against in the war. I seriously thought that Squall made them come to baby sit me and set the example. I was not impressed. Somehow they convinced me they were here on their own free will and no matter how crazy I got they could never abandon a member of their so called 'Orphanage Gang'. I betcha Leonhart just loves that. But you know what it felt kinda nice to have a family even if I was pretty sure I was without a doubt the black sheep of the clan. We actually talked about the good ol' days and laughed. Well to be more specific we laughed at Zell, alot. He's such a hyper ball of idiocy when he's not on duty. At first the meeting was awkward but by the end of it I felt, not quite liked I belonged, but as if I didn't have to watch my back with them around, 'cause they'd do it for me.

I was shocked when the left that Irvine Kinneas actually asked me to tutor him. He had his exam coming up in a couple of weeks and since it's standard protocol to have two weeks debrief and vacation after a mission I had nothing better to do. Apparently word of my excellent exam scores got out, and I also took it about three times so I'm quite the expert on it. I was too taken aback at the moment to make fun of him or even decline so I agreed. My reputation as an asshole is going down the drains. I was again shocked by his determination to pass the exam but his extreme lack of studying skills. I could understand he already passed the field exam and it was just this three hour long piece of exam paper that stood between him and a twenty thousand gil paycheck, so I'd be determined too. He still insists it is so that he can work with his Selphie and get the respect he deserves. I still think it's the money. Anyway he's not an idiot or anything but he gets easily distracted. It didn't take long for me to drag him away from the library and to the quiet of my bare, empty, boring room. With no distractions he got a lot learned. I would give him little tests too. I was positive he would ace the exam. A few days ago Selphie actually came to thank me for tutoring Irvine and that she can finally breath easy that he will pass with a decent mark. The gratitude she felt made me smile, well on the inside anyway. I probably grinned a bit on the outside.

I only helped out Irvine a couple hours a day so most of the time I was bored to death. I had my mandatory appointments with Kadowaki. Yippeee I passed, no diseases or phsych problems... who would have guessed. I always hated all those stupid evaluations. I swear they think that every time you leave the bloody Balamb Garden they think you've contracted some weird disease or have gone insane. I just don't get it. What a waste of time...although it's not like I was in a short supply of it. Also the Doc has quite a bit of sense of humour, you can also get some good gossip from her. Nothing medical or privileged but the usual stuff that circulates. Although she did tell me about this one SeeD that had to be brought in to get his stomach pumped because he ate about fifty too many hotdogs. gee, I wonder who that could've been.

Since I had some free time I decided I should visit my old group. The Disciplinary Committee. They were a mess. They knew none of the regulations, they dressed as if they'd slept in their clothes, and had no respect in the garden. So I gave them a little tongue lashing mixed in with some motivational speech stuff. I think it actually worked. Although I was severely disturbed when a couple said they wanted to scare all the students to be good like I did. I hated that. The days of Seifer terrorizing the student population was over. I wanted to inspire have people want to be as good as me and be in awe of me and respect me, maybe so much that they were scared to be in my presence but never in fear of me. I've been there and I learned the hard way that it is definitely not worth it. It's much better to be in a position like someone like Leonhart, who by the doesn't even appreciate a damn thing he's got. He might not be as bad as he used to be, but he still walks around oblivious to all the people who look up to him. He also doesn't have a clue why anyone would want to follow him. Is he a complete idiot? He saved the world for one thing, but he just has this quality that make people believe that he will lead them to hell, but he can also lead them back. I still think I'm a pretty good leader though. I tend to make more of an initiative then Puberty boy ever did. Come on just look at the Dollet radio tower. Whose brilliant idea was that?

During the meeting I felt myself being watched and spotted someone spying on us. The other DC members never even saw her. The only thing I was thinking is how are these guys supposed to pass their tests if they don't even sense themselves being watched. It's not like she was even doing that good a job with it. I didn't rat her out though. The DC would've written her up for loitering in the halls, and she looked like she just needed to talk to someone. So after I ushered the members out the other door I motioned for her to enter. It was a trepie. I guess she told her class, like all the other instructors, to welcome me back and respect me. She was all nervous it was funny. I decided to be nice to her. Later that night in the caf. I was eating with the 'Gang' (although I still felt a bit weird about it.) and I told Quistis one of her Trepies talked to me. She laughed and said thanks for telling her. I also told her please not to sick anymore Trepies on me, because they are weird and they should be stalking you instead. The table started laughing at me. What? Trust me those Trepies are creepy....

Anyway during my evenings I usually find myself in the training center. That's normally when most SeeDs avoid it because all the cadets are running around. But I find it the best time because they usually end up making all the monsters mad by disturbing them and then running away. Nothings more fun then beating up on an aggravated T-rexaur. Since Leonhart saved the world the gunblade had become a bit more popular at the garden, although so far no one is really mastering it as well as him or me. So ever so often I saw a gunblader running around the training center. I originally just wanted to show off that I was much better then they could ever be but I ended up helping them out. I couldn't believe these kids didn't care who was teaching them, just that they were getting better with my help. I'm not an expert in other weapons, but every SeeD is expected to be familiar with them. Also some things don't change no matter what weapon you use. Like magic junctions and small party tatics. I actually found myself enjoying the sessions where I could help out a cadet. The next day I'd go back and I'd see them following my advice and getting better results. The way they would smile as they thanked me or showed me hoe much better they've gotten made me smile too. You know this must be the reason why Quistis was so upset when she lost her instructor license. The kids grow on you.

Too bad all these good deeds are wrecking my bad boy reputation. On the bright side I haven't pissed anybody off, and nobody has wanted to beat me up. In the Last couple days even the evil looks I've been getting are gone. Sometimes even swapped with looks of appreciation and admiration. It was a creepy feeling, but something I could get used to. Who knew making SeeD could be so fulfilling.

For the first few days the 'gang' had been staying close to me wanting to share stories but also keep a look out for anyone not happy about my return. I literally bumped into Rinoa in the library. I was surprised to see her here, because I had heard that she broke up with Squall. And I don't know about most people but I wouldn't want to say in the same place as my ex. She didn't look to pleased to see me. Understandable considering What I did. And I wasn't to thrilled to see her. Shudl be understandable since I'm supposedly dead for about three seconds before she goes after the guy I told her was my rival. Anyway since then we've managed to avoid each other. We don't hate each other it's just an understanding that we need more time to forget and forgive before we can have a civil conversation. The only member of the gang I haven't really had a chance to talk with or have a spar with is Leonhart. He's been doing a good job about avoiding me. Which I don't get since he seemed to have the least problem about welcoming back then anybody else here. I guess it could just be all of his headmaster work keeping him busy. But I don't think so. So I start wondering why he could be avoiding me.

This gets me thinking, and most often then not it gets me thinking about the war and what it was like to be under Ultimecia's control like a demented puppet. It also brings my mind back to the hellish two months after the war before Cid found me and convinced me to go make peace with the woman who raised me as one of her own. But that's as much information as I'm putting un here. So Leonhart if you want to be nosey and know all the messy details you better just get the balls to ask me yourself. I'd appreciate the courtesy. Either that or give me your damn journal to repay the favour.

Yeah Yeah Leonhart...don't be so shocked if you taught SeeD's with brains I'm sure they'd figure it out as well. Come on.. 'Here take this journal and write down all your thoughts of the days events and memories that way even if the GF's do take something you have a handy reference...Oh the online network we want you to hook it up to every night don't worry about that. It's just a precautionary. In case your journal gets wiped out..... Don't worry only the Headmaster and the Doc have master passwords... Why?... In case of emergencies..." Who ever bought that bull shit is an idiot. Come on any green cadet should be able to see that this is just a cheap way for the all mighty headmaster and doc to keep tabs on us. See if we're all sane and not plotting against Balamb-G or anything. Well I hope you enjoyed the little glimpse into my life. Cause trust me all my other entries are fluff....useless childhood memories.

I have to go to my last checkup with Kadowaki but I'm sure I'll be hearing from you soon. Truly looking forward to it. How about a little training session in the Training Center tomorrow after curfew? I'll be waiting at the doors for you. See ya then Leonhart....That is if you still know how to use that Gunblade after all those months of paperwork. Oh and Please spare me 'the keep this journal thing quiet speech.' I'm not an idiot loud mouth like some blondes I know.

~~~ Author's Notes ~~~

WhooHoo Go Seifer. Come on who didn't see Seifer knowing that his journal can be read by Squall and the Doc. Also I thought it would be a fun way for Seifer to invite Squall to a fight. It will be fun to have Squall tell Seifer that he's banned from the center. "What? The mighty headmaster can't even step foot into his own training center?" Umm I hope this chapter gave everyone their Seifer's POV fix cause I probably won't do another of his for a while, if ever. I just found it hard to picture Seifer sitting down and writing in a journal about what happened during the last couple weeks. I felt I kept him in character though. OR at least I hope. He has changed a bit with the whole war and spending five months with Edea.
Please be patient for the next chapter I have to work out all the things I want to happen and not make them seem too out of character or anything.

On a side note I've started writing out a plot outline for another story. I know my idea has been done before to an extent, but I hope to take it further. It will follow Seifer failing the SeeD exam and being asked to go undercover as Edea's knight. The whole war is manipulated because when Squall went into the past to see matron and himself he actually stayed longer and told her all about SeeD and such. It will most likely end up many chapters long. The only thing I can't decide on is if I should let it stay a Squinoa or make it a Squiefer, and maybe explain why Squall thought he liked Rinoa.... I don't know but the plot just keeps coming so I keep jotting stuff down. Don't worry I plan to finish this fic if it kills me. Every chapter I write for it though I think of a million more things to add. It just keeps growing....