Chapter 28 | No More Tears
Grace spotted Felicity the minute she arrived at school, waiting for her on the steps. Grace was beginning to regret arranging to meet her this morning. Felicity seemed really nice, and although Grace had barely known her for a few days she felt really close to her already. Only problem was Felicity had made her promise not to cry about Eli, be sad but don't let him make her cry. And Grace had been all for it, until she had spent most of her weekend locked in her room crying.
"Hey Grace, I was beginning to think you weren't going to show up"
Grace looked at her watch; there was only 5 minutes till the bell.
"Yeah, sorry 'bout that, I didn't mean to be so late, but I-" "It's fine don't worry about it, so what have you got planned for today?" "I dunno, I was planning on just avoiding Eli but now " "Now your having second thoughts" Felicity finished for her, as they walked into the school building. "Well yeah, I mean he called me all weekend and I didn't speak to him once, ya'know and as much as I'm angry and pissed off at him right now-" "You want to try and sort things out" "Well sort of, how do you keep doing that?" "Doing what?" Felicity asked confused. "Finishing my sentences, you always know what I'm about to say" "Oh that" she laughed, "Well actually it's pretty simple, my brothers girlfriend cheated on him just before we moved so I went through the exact same conversations with him. So I know that while I think it's a bad idea for you to talk to Eli you're going to do it anyway because you need to" "How did you get so . . . so" Grace didn't know how to put the next few words. "How do I know so much? I don't really, it's just as I said, I've seen it all before" "Oh"
Just then the bell rang.
"Shit, listen can you tell me where locker 204 is?" Felicity asked turning to Grace. "Actually, that's right near mine!" exclaimed Grace excitedly, temporarily forgetting about Eli. "Come on I'll show you!" _____
Eli looked down the hallway, at his girlfriend who was standing next to some girl he had never seen before.
[Eli- I guess she's moving on already]
He didn't know what to do, all he knew was that he had to speak to Grace, and he just hoped the right words would come out. He knew he couldn't just go up to her, she'd been avoiding his calls all weekend, so instead he took out a pen and paper, scrawled off a quick note and waited for her to leave. Already late he then went and slipped the note into her locker before heading to his first period class.
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"So Mr Dimitri seems pretty cool," Felicity commented as they walked out of English 3rd period. After comparing timetables the girls had discovered they both took the same English, Maths and Biology classes.
"Yeah his okay, I mean compared to our teacher last year his great, but there are some things about him I just don't understand" "Like what?" "I dunno, he just seems a little, different I guess" Grace commented as she opened her locker, a piece of folded paper fell out. Felicity bent down and picked it up. "What's that?" asked Grace. "Dunno, it's for you though, here" Felicity passed it to Grace who opened it.
Grace, I know I'm probably the last person you want to talk to right now and I don't blame you. I'm not even going to try and convince you that what happened isn't my fault because it was, however I do want to give us a chance to talk about why it happened. I want you to know though, I don't love Carla and I don't want to be with Carla. Meet me at lunchtime in the usual place, I'll be waiting. Eli.
"So are you going to go?" Felicity asked raising her eyebrow. Grace looked at the ground and bit her lip "Yeah I am, I have to sort this out" "What are you going to do?" "You mean am I going to dump him?" Grace asked. "Well ah yeah" "I dunno" Grace said shrugging. "I need to hear his side of the story". "Okay," Felicity nodded, pulling Grace to her in a hug. "Just don't let him walk all over you girl, you deserve better than that, okay". _____
Grace walked towards Eli, her eyes on the ground. She had seen him siting there, waiting for her, and she could feel his eyes watching her as she walked towards him.
[Grace- If only I knew what to say. Because there's a small part of me which hopes that E and I can work things out, put there's another part, saying that I'd be stupid, it's not the first time his cheated on someone]
Eli watched Grace as she walked towards him, her eyes on the ground, refusing to look at him. He silently urged her to look at him, but knew it was pointless. [Eli- I don't want to hurt her, but I have already, I just want her to know that - Shakes head- know what? That I'm a liar and cheater? I wish I knew what to say]
And then just as Grace came to stand in front of him, finally looking up he knew exactly what to say.
[Eli- She deserves better than me- I'm sorry Grace -Tear creeping out of one eye- but I have to do this]
"I didn't know whether you'd come or not" "I had to" Grace mumbled looking down at her feet.
Eli sat there silently, unsure of what he had to say next, he knew what he had to say, but didn't want to say it.
"Grace," Eli started taking her hand. "I'm really sorry about what you saw Friday night but-" "I don't want any excuses Eli" Grace snapped her head up, but avoided his eyes. "I know what I saw". "I know" Eli said quietly. "And I'm really sorry, I am. I meant it when I said I care about you, not Carla, we just got-" "Caught up in the moment, save the lines Eli" "I'm just trying to be honest" "Honest? You call lying to me about the party honest?" Eli sat silent, not knowing what to say.
[Eli- You have to tell her, I know she'll be hurt but she's better off without you, and it'll be easier that way]
"Grace I think we should take a break" Eli blurted out. "What?" that had been the last thing Grace expected.
[Grace- Looks at camera in shock- He wants to take a break! That's supposed to be my line]
"I just " Eli hesitated, "I just think with you being so young that you shouldn't be getting into anything to serious at the moment" "So now it's my fault is it?" Grace asked accusingly.
// Now it's official You're out of my life Too many tears I've cried I'm leaving the moments Behind on the shelf Believing in you was hard for myself //
"No I'm not saying that. It's just that . . ." Grace tuned out at that point.
[Grace- So that's it, me and Eli, we're over]
"So that's it is it? We're over just like that?" Grace cut in on Eli, looking into his eyes for the first time. "Grace, I don't want to lose you completely, but don't tell me you haven't felt it, things are different now" Eli spoke quietly, staring back into Graces eyes. Grace, still staring into Eli's eyes. "I guess your right, I don't know whether I'd be able to trust you anyway" "I am really sorry Grace, I didn't want things to end this way"
// All your apologies are outside the door I can't waste my time on you anymore I've fallen much deeper than this before //
"So where do we go from here?" Grace asked quietly, sitting down next to Eli. "I don't know", he admitted. "I wish I could say lets just be friends but I don't know if I can be" "If we can be" "Well yeah, I don't know Eli, I just, I wasn't ready for this, for things to be over no matter how much I told myself they were, but I know that we have to try for our parents sake because we will still see each other all the time"
// There's no tears on my pillow No room for crying No tears on my pillow I left them behind And I've found me a better place Somewhere inside, and I know I won't cry these tears anymore //
Grace reached up and wiped away a tear that was beginning to form n the corner of her eye.
[Grace- Crying softly- I can't let him see how upset I am-Wipes away tears- I'm not going to cry over him, I'm better off without him]
"Listen Eli, I have to go" Grace said jumping up. "Okay" Eli nodded watching her as she started walking away.
[Eli- I hate that I'm the one who had to make her cry- but breaking up with her is the only way- she's better off without me]
// The whole world is waiting for Me to explore I can't waste my time on you anymore I've fallen much deeper than this before //
"Grace, wait!" Eli called, jogging after her. Grace stopped still but didn't turn around. "What are we going to tell everyone?" "Say what you want Eli" Grace spoke harshly, trying not to show how close she was to crying.
// There's no tears on my pillow No room for crying No tears on my pillow I left them behind And I've found me a better place Somewhere inside, and I know I won't cry these tears anymore
No regrets, no sadness You're not the first man, and you're not the last man Somehow you had me trapped in your web But it won't be rainin' when I lay my head down No //
[Grace- No more tears, its over, deal with it]
// And I've found me a better place Somewhere inside, and I know I won't cry these tears anymore Tears on my pillow, no more tears on my pillow, no more tears on my pillow //
Grace spotted Felicity the minute she arrived at school, waiting for her on the steps. Grace was beginning to regret arranging to meet her this morning. Felicity seemed really nice, and although Grace had barely known her for a few days she felt really close to her already. Only problem was Felicity had made her promise not to cry about Eli, be sad but don't let him make her cry. And Grace had been all for it, until she had spent most of her weekend locked in her room crying.
"Hey Grace, I was beginning to think you weren't going to show up"
Grace looked at her watch; there was only 5 minutes till the bell.
"Yeah, sorry 'bout that, I didn't mean to be so late, but I-" "It's fine don't worry about it, so what have you got planned for today?" "I dunno, I was planning on just avoiding Eli but now " "Now your having second thoughts" Felicity finished for her, as they walked into the school building. "Well yeah, I mean he called me all weekend and I didn't speak to him once, ya'know and as much as I'm angry and pissed off at him right now-" "You want to try and sort things out" "Well sort of, how do you keep doing that?" "Doing what?" Felicity asked confused. "Finishing my sentences, you always know what I'm about to say" "Oh that" she laughed, "Well actually it's pretty simple, my brothers girlfriend cheated on him just before we moved so I went through the exact same conversations with him. So I know that while I think it's a bad idea for you to talk to Eli you're going to do it anyway because you need to" "How did you get so . . . so" Grace didn't know how to put the next few words. "How do I know so much? I don't really, it's just as I said, I've seen it all before" "Oh"
Just then the bell rang.
"Shit, listen can you tell me where locker 204 is?" Felicity asked turning to Grace. "Actually, that's right near mine!" exclaimed Grace excitedly, temporarily forgetting about Eli. "Come on I'll show you!" _____
Eli looked down the hallway, at his girlfriend who was standing next to some girl he had never seen before.
[Eli- I guess she's moving on already]
He didn't know what to do, all he knew was that he had to speak to Grace, and he just hoped the right words would come out. He knew he couldn't just go up to her, she'd been avoiding his calls all weekend, so instead he took out a pen and paper, scrawled off a quick note and waited for her to leave. Already late he then went and slipped the note into her locker before heading to his first period class.
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"So Mr Dimitri seems pretty cool," Felicity commented as they walked out of English 3rd period. After comparing timetables the girls had discovered they both took the same English, Maths and Biology classes.
"Yeah his okay, I mean compared to our teacher last year his great, but there are some things about him I just don't understand" "Like what?" "I dunno, he just seems a little, different I guess" Grace commented as she opened her locker, a piece of folded paper fell out. Felicity bent down and picked it up. "What's that?" asked Grace. "Dunno, it's for you though, here" Felicity passed it to Grace who opened it.
Grace, I know I'm probably the last person you want to talk to right now and I don't blame you. I'm not even going to try and convince you that what happened isn't my fault because it was, however I do want to give us a chance to talk about why it happened. I want you to know though, I don't love Carla and I don't want to be with Carla. Meet me at lunchtime in the usual place, I'll be waiting. Eli.
"So are you going to go?" Felicity asked raising her eyebrow. Grace looked at the ground and bit her lip "Yeah I am, I have to sort this out" "What are you going to do?" "You mean am I going to dump him?" Grace asked. "Well ah yeah" "I dunno" Grace said shrugging. "I need to hear his side of the story". "Okay," Felicity nodded, pulling Grace to her in a hug. "Just don't let him walk all over you girl, you deserve better than that, okay". _____
Grace walked towards Eli, her eyes on the ground. She had seen him siting there, waiting for her, and she could feel his eyes watching her as she walked towards him.
[Grace- If only I knew what to say. Because there's a small part of me which hopes that E and I can work things out, put there's another part, saying that I'd be stupid, it's not the first time his cheated on someone]
Eli watched Grace as she walked towards him, her eyes on the ground, refusing to look at him. He silently urged her to look at him, but knew it was pointless. [Eli- I don't want to hurt her, but I have already, I just want her to know that - Shakes head- know what? That I'm a liar and cheater? I wish I knew what to say]
And then just as Grace came to stand in front of him, finally looking up he knew exactly what to say.
[Eli- She deserves better than me- I'm sorry Grace -Tear creeping out of one eye- but I have to do this]
"I didn't know whether you'd come or not" "I had to" Grace mumbled looking down at her feet.
Eli sat there silently, unsure of what he had to say next, he knew what he had to say, but didn't want to say it.
"Grace," Eli started taking her hand. "I'm really sorry about what you saw Friday night but-" "I don't want any excuses Eli" Grace snapped her head up, but avoided his eyes. "I know what I saw". "I know" Eli said quietly. "And I'm really sorry, I am. I meant it when I said I care about you, not Carla, we just got-" "Caught up in the moment, save the lines Eli" "I'm just trying to be honest" "Honest? You call lying to me about the party honest?" Eli sat silent, not knowing what to say.
[Eli- You have to tell her, I know she'll be hurt but she's better off without you, and it'll be easier that way]
"Grace I think we should take a break" Eli blurted out. "What?" that had been the last thing Grace expected.
[Grace- Looks at camera in shock- He wants to take a break! That's supposed to be my line]
"I just " Eli hesitated, "I just think with you being so young that you shouldn't be getting into anything to serious at the moment" "So now it's my fault is it?" Grace asked accusingly.
// Now it's official You're out of my life Too many tears I've cried I'm leaving the moments Behind on the shelf Believing in you was hard for myself //
"No I'm not saying that. It's just that . . ." Grace tuned out at that point.
[Grace- So that's it, me and Eli, we're over]
"So that's it is it? We're over just like that?" Grace cut in on Eli, looking into his eyes for the first time. "Grace, I don't want to lose you completely, but don't tell me you haven't felt it, things are different now" Eli spoke quietly, staring back into Graces eyes. Grace, still staring into Eli's eyes. "I guess your right, I don't know whether I'd be able to trust you anyway" "I am really sorry Grace, I didn't want things to end this way"
// All your apologies are outside the door I can't waste my time on you anymore I've fallen much deeper than this before //
"So where do we go from here?" Grace asked quietly, sitting down next to Eli. "I don't know", he admitted. "I wish I could say lets just be friends but I don't know if I can be" "If we can be" "Well yeah, I don't know Eli, I just, I wasn't ready for this, for things to be over no matter how much I told myself they were, but I know that we have to try for our parents sake because we will still see each other all the time"
// There's no tears on my pillow No room for crying No tears on my pillow I left them behind And I've found me a better place Somewhere inside, and I know I won't cry these tears anymore //
Grace reached up and wiped away a tear that was beginning to form n the corner of her eye.
[Grace- Crying softly- I can't let him see how upset I am-Wipes away tears- I'm not going to cry over him, I'm better off without him]
"Listen Eli, I have to go" Grace said jumping up. "Okay" Eli nodded watching her as she started walking away.
[Eli- I hate that I'm the one who had to make her cry- but breaking up with her is the only way- she's better off without me]
// The whole world is waiting for Me to explore I can't waste my time on you anymore I've fallen much deeper than this before //
"Grace, wait!" Eli called, jogging after her. Grace stopped still but didn't turn around. "What are we going to tell everyone?" "Say what you want Eli" Grace spoke harshly, trying not to show how close she was to crying.
// There's no tears on my pillow No room for crying No tears on my pillow I left them behind And I've found me a better place Somewhere inside, and I know I won't cry these tears anymore
No regrets, no sadness You're not the first man, and you're not the last man Somehow you had me trapped in your web But it won't be rainin' when I lay my head down No //
[Grace- No more tears, its over, deal with it]
// And I've found me a better place Somewhere inside, and I know I won't cry these tears anymore Tears on my pillow, no more tears on my pillow, no more tears on my pillow //