*Okay so I know that a lot of people are disappointed that I didn't
continued with the Grace/Eli story line, so your probably going to hate me
for what will happen in the coming chapters but it is a big part of the
storyline and I haven't ruled out the chance of Eli and Grace getting back
together sometime in the future*
Chapter 36 | I wish I knew
Judy sat on the couch in Lily's lounge room watching TV. She knew that she had told Lily she would meet her at the restaurant so that they could all have dinner together but somehow she just couldn't make herself get up for the safety of the couch. Judy had made the decision that it was time to start moving on with her life, she couldn't lock herself away forever, laying in bed crying and not eating. But once Lily had left that morning, with Judy settled comfortably on the couch, Judy had turned on the TV and had spent the whole day watching old movies, forgetting everything that had happened recently. That was until she saw a baby commercial for nappies.
When she had broken up with Sam it was like her whole world was being torn apart and now Sam had gotten his wish, Judy had lost the baby, something she had always dreamt of having. And now that had been taken away from her, and Judy just wasn't sure what to do.
And now she had let Lily down also, she had been so happy when Judy had agreed to go to dinner with them, Judy felt a tear roll down the side of her face.
[Judy- (crying softly) I just wish I knew how to stop this feeling.]
[Outside Lily's House]
"I can't believe you did that Grace"
"Did what?"
"Didn't you even consider Eli's feelings"?
"Eli's feelings, he dumped me mum remember? He cheated on me, or did you forget"
"I'm not saying that he didn't, you just could have been a bit more considerate," Lily said.
Grace laughed, "Weren't you the one who say that I should feel comfortable introducing you to any of my friends?"
"And you should be"
"Well you made it damn obvious tonight that you thought Matt shouldn't be there, didn't you see how uncomfortable he was"
Lily fished around in her bag for her keys as Grace paced up and down their walkway.
"Your right, he shouldn't have been there, it was supposed to be a family dinner Grace. And with everything that had already gone wrong you had to invite your boyfriend as well"
"I already told you his not my boyfriend" Grace yelled at her mother. She couldn't believe how rude she'd been to Matt, at first giving him the total 3rd degree, and then ignoring him for the rest of the night.
Lily finally found the keys and unlocked the front door. "Grace, I don't really want to talk about this right now okay" Lily muttered walking in the house.
Judy, who'd overheard the two of them fighting outside the door, got up from where she sat on the couch.
Lily looked at Judy with surprise, having totally forgot that her sister was supposed to be there tonight. But instead of being pissed off she gave a sigh of relief, thinking how lucky she was that her sister had missed such a disaster of a night.
"Lily, I am so sorry" Judy started to say, not looking at her sister.
Grace took this as an opportunity to sneak upstairs to her room.
"Judy, it's okay really," Lily said, putting her bag down on the couch.
"I promised I'd be there, its just-"
Lily slumped down on the couch, gesturing for Judy to sit next to her.
"I understand" Lily said with a sad smile on her face.
[Lily - I understand how she feels and that me so much more glad that she wasn't there tonight]
Judy remained silent and stared at the muted TV.
"And anyway, I'm glad you weren't there tonight" Lily admitted hesitantly.
"Do you want to talk about it?" Judy offered, having had the same offer from Lily over a thousand times the last few weeks.
"I dunno, it's just Grace and Eli and Rick and everything you know?" Lily sighed, not knowing where to start.
From what little Judy had picked up the past few weeks she knew that Eli and Grace were once dating but things hadn't worked out. "I don't want to sound rude but you had to expect that this could happen letting Grace and Eli date in the first place" Judy said tentatively.
"I know, I know, that's what Rick said. But everything seemed fine between them two. Sure it was a little weird at first but it was getting better until Grace meet this new guy"
"What do you mean Grace met a new guy?" Judy asked surprised.
"This Guy called Matt. He's Felicity's brother. He turned up at the restaurant tonight and couldn't have had worse timing"
"What do you mean?"
"Eli was telling me how his band hasn't been doing so well lately so I offered to get them an interview with the magazine but Rick didn't think it was such a great idea" Lily said rolling her eyes. "And as usual it ending up with them two fighting and Eli stormed out"
"What do you mean as usual"
"Eli and Rick don't have the best relationship," Lily admitted. "Eli's never been great at school and his father and Karen just don't seem to understand that. All Eli wants to do is make music, which he is great at you know? I feel really sorry for the kid sometimes"
"And I'm guessing Rick isn't to happy about you agreeing with Eli"
"You could say that. And its not like I'm trying to take sides I can just understand what its like for Eli you know. And I know it was his fault that he and Grace broke up, he did cheat on her after all but it's as if Grace is purposely trying to make things hard on him by flaunting this new guy in front of him"
"Is that what she's really trying to do?" Judy asked confused, "maybe she's just trying to move on with her life".
"Your right, I know that but I just wish that things could go back to how they were," she said with a sad sigh. "They all used to get along so well and now it's so uncomfortable"
"I know I shouldn't have yelled at Grace. I know its hard for her, he hurt her I can understand that but I can also see that Eli himself is going through a hard time, I see the way he still looks at her, its obvious he isn't over her and I dunno.."
"Your letting yourself get attached" Judy said knowingly with a sad smile.
Realisation dawned on Lily's, "Oh Judy I'm really sorry" she said, how stupid can she be? Not only had Judy lost her boyfriend but she'd also lost her child.
"Don't be, it's okay really. I'm just missing James more than I expected"
"James?" Lily asked confused.
"Sam's son"
"Oh" Lily was unaware that Judy and James had both become close.
"I didn't tell you did I? Sam and his ex wife weren't getting along to well so James had moved in with us permanently. He was such a cute little kid" Judy smiled wistfully.
"It was hard on Sam you know, he wasn't used to looking after a kid full time and I guess that's why he reacted so badly when I told him about." Judy trailed off.
"You don't have to talk about it if you don't want to"
Judy bit her lip, "I think its time I did, you know I can understand Sam not being ready for another child yet but to break up with me just like that" Judy said struggling to hold back tears.
[Judy - What sort of man would do that?]
"It's like he never really loved me," Judy said, the tears flowing freely now down her face.
"Oh Judy" Lily reached over to wrap her arms around her sister. "Of course Sam loved you"
"Then why?"
"I wish I knew"
* * * * *
[Grace - It's almost like she'd taking his side, she's my mother, his the one who cheated and it's not like I haven't tried. Because I have]
Grace lay on her bed and stared up at her ceiling. She'd had the intention of sorting things out with Eli, sitting down and really talking about what was going on, what had happened. But talking to him sometimes made her so angry. She wanted things to be normal between the two of them, she really did. She wanted Eli, her friend back. But she didn't know how to make that happen or if he even wanted that. He'd seemed so hurt when he'd seen Matt that night, but it had been his choice, and she knew it was time for her to move on.
She just wished she knew if Matt was the right guy, because even though she couldn't stop thinking about him, about the way she felt when he had kissed her, she knew he was looking for something serious and she wasn't. And it was time she stopped leading him on and let him know.
[Grace- I wish I knew if it was the right thing to do or not]
* * * * *
"Eli we need to talk about this?" Rick yelled at his son who was storming up the stairs to his room.
"Talk about what? The same thing as usual, you trying to run my life? I don't think so dad, I'm going to do this thing and you shouldn't try to stop me"
"I already told you that you're not doing it" Rick yelled.
"And what, your going to tell Lily what she can and can't do, I may be your son, but she'd just your girlfriend, I don't think she'd appreciate that much do you?"
Eli stormed up the stairs and Rick winced as he felt the door slam shut.
Chapter 36 | I wish I knew
Judy sat on the couch in Lily's lounge room watching TV. She knew that she had told Lily she would meet her at the restaurant so that they could all have dinner together but somehow she just couldn't make herself get up for the safety of the couch. Judy had made the decision that it was time to start moving on with her life, she couldn't lock herself away forever, laying in bed crying and not eating. But once Lily had left that morning, with Judy settled comfortably on the couch, Judy had turned on the TV and had spent the whole day watching old movies, forgetting everything that had happened recently. That was until she saw a baby commercial for nappies.
When she had broken up with Sam it was like her whole world was being torn apart and now Sam had gotten his wish, Judy had lost the baby, something she had always dreamt of having. And now that had been taken away from her, and Judy just wasn't sure what to do.
And now she had let Lily down also, she had been so happy when Judy had agreed to go to dinner with them, Judy felt a tear roll down the side of her face.
[Judy- (crying softly) I just wish I knew how to stop this feeling.]
[Outside Lily's House]
"I can't believe you did that Grace"
"Did what?"
"Didn't you even consider Eli's feelings"?
"Eli's feelings, he dumped me mum remember? He cheated on me, or did you forget"
"I'm not saying that he didn't, you just could have been a bit more considerate," Lily said.
Grace laughed, "Weren't you the one who say that I should feel comfortable introducing you to any of my friends?"
"And you should be"
"Well you made it damn obvious tonight that you thought Matt shouldn't be there, didn't you see how uncomfortable he was"
Lily fished around in her bag for her keys as Grace paced up and down their walkway.
"Your right, he shouldn't have been there, it was supposed to be a family dinner Grace. And with everything that had already gone wrong you had to invite your boyfriend as well"
"I already told you his not my boyfriend" Grace yelled at her mother. She couldn't believe how rude she'd been to Matt, at first giving him the total 3rd degree, and then ignoring him for the rest of the night.
Lily finally found the keys and unlocked the front door. "Grace, I don't really want to talk about this right now okay" Lily muttered walking in the house.
Judy, who'd overheard the two of them fighting outside the door, got up from where she sat on the couch.
Lily looked at Judy with surprise, having totally forgot that her sister was supposed to be there tonight. But instead of being pissed off she gave a sigh of relief, thinking how lucky she was that her sister had missed such a disaster of a night.
"Lily, I am so sorry" Judy started to say, not looking at her sister.
Grace took this as an opportunity to sneak upstairs to her room.
"Judy, it's okay really," Lily said, putting her bag down on the couch.
"I promised I'd be there, its just-"
Lily slumped down on the couch, gesturing for Judy to sit next to her.
"I understand" Lily said with a sad smile on her face.
[Lily - I understand how she feels and that me so much more glad that she wasn't there tonight]
Judy remained silent and stared at the muted TV.
"And anyway, I'm glad you weren't there tonight" Lily admitted hesitantly.
"Do you want to talk about it?" Judy offered, having had the same offer from Lily over a thousand times the last few weeks.
"I dunno, it's just Grace and Eli and Rick and everything you know?" Lily sighed, not knowing where to start.
From what little Judy had picked up the past few weeks she knew that Eli and Grace were once dating but things hadn't worked out. "I don't want to sound rude but you had to expect that this could happen letting Grace and Eli date in the first place" Judy said tentatively.
"I know, I know, that's what Rick said. But everything seemed fine between them two. Sure it was a little weird at first but it was getting better until Grace meet this new guy"
"What do you mean Grace met a new guy?" Judy asked surprised.
"This Guy called Matt. He's Felicity's brother. He turned up at the restaurant tonight and couldn't have had worse timing"
"What do you mean?"
"Eli was telling me how his band hasn't been doing so well lately so I offered to get them an interview with the magazine but Rick didn't think it was such a great idea" Lily said rolling her eyes. "And as usual it ending up with them two fighting and Eli stormed out"
"What do you mean as usual"
"Eli and Rick don't have the best relationship," Lily admitted. "Eli's never been great at school and his father and Karen just don't seem to understand that. All Eli wants to do is make music, which he is great at you know? I feel really sorry for the kid sometimes"
"And I'm guessing Rick isn't to happy about you agreeing with Eli"
"You could say that. And its not like I'm trying to take sides I can just understand what its like for Eli you know. And I know it was his fault that he and Grace broke up, he did cheat on her after all but it's as if Grace is purposely trying to make things hard on him by flaunting this new guy in front of him"
"Is that what she's really trying to do?" Judy asked confused, "maybe she's just trying to move on with her life".
"Your right, I know that but I just wish that things could go back to how they were," she said with a sad sigh. "They all used to get along so well and now it's so uncomfortable"
"I know I shouldn't have yelled at Grace. I know its hard for her, he hurt her I can understand that but I can also see that Eli himself is going through a hard time, I see the way he still looks at her, its obvious he isn't over her and I dunno.."
"Your letting yourself get attached" Judy said knowingly with a sad smile.
Realisation dawned on Lily's, "Oh Judy I'm really sorry" she said, how stupid can she be? Not only had Judy lost her boyfriend but she'd also lost her child.
"Don't be, it's okay really. I'm just missing James more than I expected"
"James?" Lily asked confused.
"Sam's son"
"Oh" Lily was unaware that Judy and James had both become close.
"I didn't tell you did I? Sam and his ex wife weren't getting along to well so James had moved in with us permanently. He was such a cute little kid" Judy smiled wistfully.
"It was hard on Sam you know, he wasn't used to looking after a kid full time and I guess that's why he reacted so badly when I told him about." Judy trailed off.
"You don't have to talk about it if you don't want to"
Judy bit her lip, "I think its time I did, you know I can understand Sam not being ready for another child yet but to break up with me just like that" Judy said struggling to hold back tears.
[Judy - What sort of man would do that?]
"It's like he never really loved me," Judy said, the tears flowing freely now down her face.
"Oh Judy" Lily reached over to wrap her arms around her sister. "Of course Sam loved you"
"Then why?"
"I wish I knew"
* * * * *
[Grace - It's almost like she'd taking his side, she's my mother, his the one who cheated and it's not like I haven't tried. Because I have]
Grace lay on her bed and stared up at her ceiling. She'd had the intention of sorting things out with Eli, sitting down and really talking about what was going on, what had happened. But talking to him sometimes made her so angry. She wanted things to be normal between the two of them, she really did. She wanted Eli, her friend back. But she didn't know how to make that happen or if he even wanted that. He'd seemed so hurt when he'd seen Matt that night, but it had been his choice, and she knew it was time for her to move on.
She just wished she knew if Matt was the right guy, because even though she couldn't stop thinking about him, about the way she felt when he had kissed her, she knew he was looking for something serious and she wasn't. And it was time she stopped leading him on and let him know.
[Grace- I wish I knew if it was the right thing to do or not]
* * * * *
"Eli we need to talk about this?" Rick yelled at his son who was storming up the stairs to his room.
"Talk about what? The same thing as usual, you trying to run my life? I don't think so dad, I'm going to do this thing and you shouldn't try to stop me"
"I already told you that you're not doing it" Rick yelled.
"And what, your going to tell Lily what she can and can't do, I may be your son, but she'd just your girlfriend, I don't think she'd appreciate that much do you?"
Eli stormed up the stairs and Rick winced as he felt the door slam shut.