************** This song is 'Understanding' by Evanescence. I don't own the song, and I don't own any of the Kenshin characters… Thank you and enjoy. *****************
You hold the answers deep within your own mind
Consciously you've forgotten it.
That's the way the human mind works
Whenever something is too unpleasant
too shameful for us to entertain, we reject it.
We erase it from our memories
But the imprint is always there
He had to do this, for her, for her love, for his new life, and for his love for her. This man had to die. He raised his sword high, closing his eyes as he swung hard.
Can't wash it all away
Can't wish it all away
Can't hope it all away
Can't cry it all away
He felt a stinging pain across his cheek, and opened his eyes, his voice choked in his throat as he dropped his blood soaked sword, the pain on his cheek no longer mattered. The man he had struck at lay dead, staining the virgin snow red, but his blood had not been the one to stain his sword.
The pain that grips you
The fear that binds you
Releases life in me
In our mutual
Shame hides our eyes
To blind them from the truth
That finds a way from who we are
"Tomoe... dear gods... what have I done?" he rushed to her side, blood soaking through her kimono already. His hands shook as her blood stained them.
She turned to him, and smiled weakly.
Please don't be afraid
When the darkness fades away
The dark will break the silence
Screaming in our hearts
My love for you still grows
Before I try to fight the truth my final time
"Tomoe...." he choked out, holding her closely, a million questions raced through his head, but he could only manage to once again whisper out, "Dear gods..."
We're supposed to try to be real
And I feel alone, and we're not together
And that is real
"...Tomoe...why?" he asked, tears filling his eyes, yes he, the assassin, the Battousai, could cry, that realization made him remember his humanity, something she had been trying to bring out in him.
Can't wash it all away
Can't wish it all away
Can't hope it all away
Can't cry it all away
"...Don't cry..." she said softly, the same small smile on her face.
Lying beside you
Listening to you breathe
The life that flows inside of you
Burns inside of me
Hold and speak to me
Of love without a sound
"...Please, Tomoe... don't leave me..." he whispered as he cradled her close.
Tell me you will live through this
And I will die for you
Cast me not away
Say you'll be with me
For I know I cannot
Bear it all alone
"...I'm sorry..." she spoke softer than a whisper but he heard her words still.
"I need you Tomoe! You can't leave me alone like this!"
You're not alone are you?
Never...Never...
"...I'm sorry..." she managed to say again, she reached for his hand, but her strength was failing quickly, and her grasp found only air.
He took hold of her hand, and held it tightly; trying to hold onto her, hold onto her life.
Can't fight it all
Can't hope it all away
Can't scream it all away
It just won't fade away, no
He saw the blood staining her white kimono and he knew that she was going to leave him soon. "Tomoe... I love you..." he whispered.
Can't wash it all
Can't wish it all away
Can't scream it all away
Can't fight it all
Can't hope it all away
Can't scream it all away
It just won't fade away, no
Ooh, it all away
Ooh, it all away
She smiled, "...I...love.......you....too..." she coughed up some blood, and Kenshin wiped it from her lips.
He hesitated, before leaning in and lightly kissing her lips, as their lips parted he felt her go limp in his arms, her eyes shutting.
But the imprint is always there
Nothing is ever really forgotten
Because I'm tired of it too
Because I'm tired of it too
Because I'm tired of it too
Because I'm tired of it too
"...Tomoe..." he whispered out, hoping against hope that she would open her eyes, and return to him, but that never happened, and he stayed there, cradling her lifeless body close.
A tear fell from his eye, rolling down his cheek, mingling with the blood from the cut on his cheek, before falling onto her pale cheek, "Never again will my sword spill blood..." he vowed, his voice choked with grief. He stroked the bloody tear from her cheek, "Tomoe...Your blood has killed him... The Battousai is dead..."
Because I'm tired of it too