"Uh, hi!" said the girl. She let go of James and stepped forward. She was
starting to turn a bit red in the cheeks. "Your Lily right? I'm really
sorry about earlier. If I did an-"
Lily realized that she was still holding on to Remus and Sirius so she decided to let go.
"It's okay. It wasn't your fault. I'm sorry for being bitter though." Smiled Lily. She didn't want to hurt this girl she looked so scared and she seemed quite nice actually.
The girl looked so relieved. She smiled and it was quite pretty if Lily had to say so herself.
Lily turned her attention to James. "I was wondering if I could apologize. I didn't know how much it had hurt you when I told you that you shouldn't care about who I like and that I was none of your business. I was just so angry that you were both picking on Serveus. And I'm sorry for being so bitter to anyone else in the process." That last part was directed to Kaitlyn but Lily still didn't know her name and this was not the right time to find out.
Lily kept her eyes on James. She didn't want to lose him.
James looked at her. "It's okay Lily and I should be sorry as well. I was too bitter in the common room that night. But I really don't think that," he could see that Lily's eyes suddenly became quite red around the corners "we should be together. We are still young. We should cool off first. Its not the right time." He looked over at Kaitlyn and said, "I'm sorry. I thought that maybe if you could make me forget about Lily it was going to be okay but the truth is, I've loved Lily the moment I saw her but," he looked at Lily again, "there's time. And things like this take time. And when time comes, we'll both know." He looked at Lily and he stretched out a hand to her. She had tears trickling down her face but she was smiling and she walked to him and he hugged her with so much might that if she wasn't hugging him back and feeling so happy about it she would have pushed him away.
Kaitlyn stood there beside them. Looking at them and she started walking away from them. Well, her date had found the one he truly loved. There was no reason for her to hang around anymore. She smiled at them and started making her way to the Hall once again. She couldn't help but let a tear down her cheek. It wasn't a tear because she was sad but because she was happy. She was happy for them. But she couldn't help thinking deep down inside that the first guy she had ever went on a date with turned out to be with some other girl by the end of the night. She felt so ugly.
She forgot that in order to get back to the Hall she was going to have to pass by Remus and Sirius. Sirius saw the tear fall down her cheek. He wanted more than anything to run to her. To hold her and tell her that it was going to be okay. That he was going to protect her and make everything all better but could he. He had no right to do that. But he had to. He had to tell her. If he didn't tell her now he wasn't ever going to be able to look himself in the mirror again.
He followed her, "Kait!" she kept walking. She didn't hear him. "Kaitlyn!" he said louder.
She turned around and looked up at him with teary eyes. Her lips were trembling as she tried to smile at him.
He ran to her and took her hand in his. There it was again. He felt it. It was stronger now. It was so strong. He was sure it was real now. "Do you feel that?" he looked into her eyes.
She managed to choke out a "What? Do I feel what?" between her tearing.
"The beating, the humming" he now had both their hands in front of their faces. Like there was a piece of glass between them and that they were trying to reach each other.
She sniffed, "No, I don't feel anything. What are you talking about?" trying to make sense of everything but it wasn't working. She was sad and happy at the same moment. She didn't love James but he was the first boy she had ever gone out with and that meant a great deal to her, to someone who had never even gotten a second look from and boy before. The girl who none of the other boys wanted to date because she was a mess. She was smart but she was a mess. She didn't care about how she looked and James had gone out with her without complaint anyway. Even if he did it as a friend he was a very nice friend that she didn't know if she would still be able to have that anymore after all that just happened.
Sirius saw fresh tears forming at the rims of her eyes. Sirius took her in his arms. She was crying now. She was crying so hard. Had she really fallen in love with James? Is she hurt? Is she hurt that it was Sirius and not James here holding her? It didn't matter though. For the first time Sirius felt real love. He knew because the one thought that went through his head was that he wanted her to be happy. None of the other girl's feelings truly deeply mattered to him before. He would just be nice because that was the right thing to do. For the first time a girl was crying not because he himself had hurt her but because of someone else. His own happiness didn't matter because he, for the very first time, understood. He understood that as long as she was happy, he was going to be okay. It would be great if she was with him but if that was not what she wanted then he wasn't going to force her into anything. He wanted her to be happy. He knew this because when he saw the fresh tears running down her face, he felt his heart breaking.
Lily realized that she was still holding on to Remus and Sirius so she decided to let go.
"It's okay. It wasn't your fault. I'm sorry for being bitter though." Smiled Lily. She didn't want to hurt this girl she looked so scared and she seemed quite nice actually.
The girl looked so relieved. She smiled and it was quite pretty if Lily had to say so herself.
Lily turned her attention to James. "I was wondering if I could apologize. I didn't know how much it had hurt you when I told you that you shouldn't care about who I like and that I was none of your business. I was just so angry that you were both picking on Serveus. And I'm sorry for being so bitter to anyone else in the process." That last part was directed to Kaitlyn but Lily still didn't know her name and this was not the right time to find out.
Lily kept her eyes on James. She didn't want to lose him.
James looked at her. "It's okay Lily and I should be sorry as well. I was too bitter in the common room that night. But I really don't think that," he could see that Lily's eyes suddenly became quite red around the corners "we should be together. We are still young. We should cool off first. Its not the right time." He looked over at Kaitlyn and said, "I'm sorry. I thought that maybe if you could make me forget about Lily it was going to be okay but the truth is, I've loved Lily the moment I saw her but," he looked at Lily again, "there's time. And things like this take time. And when time comes, we'll both know." He looked at Lily and he stretched out a hand to her. She had tears trickling down her face but she was smiling and she walked to him and he hugged her with so much might that if she wasn't hugging him back and feeling so happy about it she would have pushed him away.
Kaitlyn stood there beside them. Looking at them and she started walking away from them. Well, her date had found the one he truly loved. There was no reason for her to hang around anymore. She smiled at them and started making her way to the Hall once again. She couldn't help but let a tear down her cheek. It wasn't a tear because she was sad but because she was happy. She was happy for them. But she couldn't help thinking deep down inside that the first guy she had ever went on a date with turned out to be with some other girl by the end of the night. She felt so ugly.
She forgot that in order to get back to the Hall she was going to have to pass by Remus and Sirius. Sirius saw the tear fall down her cheek. He wanted more than anything to run to her. To hold her and tell her that it was going to be okay. That he was going to protect her and make everything all better but could he. He had no right to do that. But he had to. He had to tell her. If he didn't tell her now he wasn't ever going to be able to look himself in the mirror again.
He followed her, "Kait!" she kept walking. She didn't hear him. "Kaitlyn!" he said louder.
She turned around and looked up at him with teary eyes. Her lips were trembling as she tried to smile at him.
He ran to her and took her hand in his. There it was again. He felt it. It was stronger now. It was so strong. He was sure it was real now. "Do you feel that?" he looked into her eyes.
She managed to choke out a "What? Do I feel what?" between her tearing.
"The beating, the humming" he now had both their hands in front of their faces. Like there was a piece of glass between them and that they were trying to reach each other.
She sniffed, "No, I don't feel anything. What are you talking about?" trying to make sense of everything but it wasn't working. She was sad and happy at the same moment. She didn't love James but he was the first boy she had ever gone out with and that meant a great deal to her, to someone who had never even gotten a second look from and boy before. The girl who none of the other boys wanted to date because she was a mess. She was smart but she was a mess. She didn't care about how she looked and James had gone out with her without complaint anyway. Even if he did it as a friend he was a very nice friend that she didn't know if she would still be able to have that anymore after all that just happened.
Sirius saw fresh tears forming at the rims of her eyes. Sirius took her in his arms. She was crying now. She was crying so hard. Had she really fallen in love with James? Is she hurt? Is she hurt that it was Sirius and not James here holding her? It didn't matter though. For the first time Sirius felt real love. He knew because the one thought that went through his head was that he wanted her to be happy. None of the other girl's feelings truly deeply mattered to him before. He would just be nice because that was the right thing to do. For the first time a girl was crying not because he himself had hurt her but because of someone else. His own happiness didn't matter because he, for the very first time, understood. He understood that as long as she was happy, he was going to be okay. It would be great if she was with him but if that was not what she wanted then he wasn't going to force her into anything. He wanted her to be happy. He knew this because when he saw the fresh tears running down her face, he felt his heart breaking.