AN- all those of u who know me and are reading this will laugh. There is a line in here that contradicts what I actually believe.
Those of u who wanted to see Jaina and Roald romance develop, here is your chapter!!!
It felt like almost no time before they reached the summer palace because they were having so much fun. "Roald, why don't you show Jaina around the summer palace." Thayet said after they had given the hostlers their horses to saddle, and the servants their bags.
"Sure." Roald said, looking at Jaina.
"Let's go." Jaina said, and she and Roald set off.
Thayet and Alanna were staring, amused, at the two. "What are you staring at?" Jonathan asked.
"Kids, why don't you all get something to eat in the mess hall." Thayet said, sending the rest of the kids off.
"Don't you see it, Oh blind one." Alanna said once the kids were out of earshot.
"See what?"
Alanna was exasperated. "You tell him, Thayet."
"They like each other." Thayet said.
"They should, they are friends."
"I give up." Thayet said, throwing her hands in the air.
"What?" Jon asked, confused.
"They like, like each other." Alanna said.
"Oh, that way. No way. They are just friends." Jon said.
The ladies shook their head. "Trust us."
"How do you know?"
"Have you seen the looks they throw at each other?" Alanna said. "I have been with them for 4 days and I saw it."
"Let's wait and see." Jon said. "I still don't believe you, but let's wait and see."
"Sure." Alanna said. "But Thayet and I are right."
Jonathan just shook his head in disbelief.
Weeks passed quickly for Jaina, she saw herself being drawn more and more to Roald. He was so kind, so cute, and so…so... Just perfect. But she kept reminding herself of the talk they had had. They couldn't fall in love, they just couldn't!
The weeks passed quickly for Roald too. He found HIMSELF being drawn more and more to Jaina. She was all he had wanted in a girl, the understanding, caring type, someone who wasn't all wrapped up in looks and being royal, who could fight, and she was beautiful, and so perfect. But he also kept reminding himself that they couldn't fall in love, there were too many restraints on both of them.
Matters came to head one night, in the courtyard of the summer palace. It was a full moon. (the full moon usually has an effect of calling out the feelings of the heart.) They were sitting in the courtyard, facing one another. They had been talking comfortably, about the prank Liam had played on Lianne. "It was so cute." Roald said, laughing. As he laughed, Jaina noticed how his eyes twinkled when he laughed. It brought a slow smile to her face.
"What was that for."
Jaina mumbled something, she knew not what.
"What was that?"
Jaina mumbled something again.
Roald leaned in closer to hear her, Jaina's heart began to pound faster, and each pounding seemed to hurt.
Roald looked up just then and noticed how close he was. Oh how he wanted to kiss that smile.
She leaned in a bit closer, he leaned in closer. And their lips met in a kiss.
Unknown to them Alanna, George, Jon, and Thayet were watching from the tower window. "Not in love, huh?" Alanna asked.
"Wow." Jon said, amazed.
"Never doubt a woman's intuition about these things." Thayet said.
Roald looked up into Jaina's brown eyes, oh how he wanted to drown in them. Then he realized what he was doing, his duty to his people… He couldn't do this.
He broke off the kiss. Jaina looked into his anguished eyes, and remembered, she couldn't do this either. She couldn't stand the look in his eyes.
Roald looked into her eyes, he saw a deep anguish, longing, and reservation. He couldn't stand the look in her eyes.
Jaina and Roald both ran away in different directions. Jaina ended up looking out at the ocean, crying. Roald ended up in the gardens, he didn't cry, his response mirrored what his fathers' would've been. He sat looking stonily at the garden.
Up in the tower room everyone was shocked at what had just happened. They had thought they were watching a perfect romance unfold, but in a second they saw it all shattered.
"What just happened?" Thayet asked.
Jonathan and Alanna shared a look. They had an idea of what had happened, it seemed to almost mirror what had happened to them, the title of Crown Prince messing up a perfect love story and two people afraid to get hurt in what they thought would be a short love story.
"Looks like our son is a lot like his father. I think I know what he is going through." Jon commented. "I am going to have a long overdue father-son chat with him."
"Let's go talk to Jaina." Alanna said.
"Or at least be with her, she is probably feeling VERY home-sick right about now." Thayet said. "Poor girl, I think this is her first dealing with love, and so far away from home in such weird circumstances too."
"I will set a scrying spell up looking for her." Alanna said. "It should only take a second, I have a focus."
Alanna had started keeping a focus for everyone, so that she could reach him or her at a moment's notice. But she couldn't get to this girl. After a few minutes Alanna did something uncharacteristic, she gave up. "This girl is WAY too well shielded, or something. I can't get to her."
"So lets do it the non-gifted way, we will look around and ask servants." Thayet said.
But it didn't take long to find her, the ocean wasn't far. Jaina felt Thayet and Alanna coming and wiped her tears. What she didn't realize though, was that her eyes were red.
"There there." Thayet said, Alanna let Thayet take charge, she wasn't very good at talking to people. "Love hurts."
"I am NOT in love." Jaina said.
Alanna laughed. "Honey, we all say that. And we all fall into that mad abyss."
"This is different. We are from two different galaxies, with two different lives!" Jaina said, ranting.
"That's what it is always like. You have one idea of what your life is going to be like, no guy in the picture, but you fall in love, and everything gets changed." Thayet said.
Alanna could tell Thayet was helping, but there was other stuff that Jaina wouldn't mention in front of Roald's mother, and Queen of Tortal. "Thayet, will you check on the kids for a second."
Thayet realized what Alanna was hinting, she was a bit hurt but said. "Sure, talk to you guys later."
Alanna sat down next to Jaina. "I am not good at talking,
but I have a feeling there is another part of the problem that Thayet couldn't
address. Roald is a crown prince, so falling in love with him brings an entire
plateful of stuff, right?"
Jaina sighed, she couldn't believe
she was being this open, but it felt good to talk. "Yes! I told myself when I
was younger being a Jedi Knight was the farthest into public eye I wanted to
go. I am no good at diplomacy even though my mother is a genius at it, and now
if I fall in love with Roald I will have to practice it. And I have no idea
when I am going to go back into my galaxy and if I have to… that would break
both of our hearts."
Alanna nodded sympathetically. "I was in love with Jon, we almost got married, but it was some of this decision that kept me from doing it. And I am glad; I am happy where I am right now. I could never have been a good queen, nor could I have been fair to Jon. But your case is different. I have watched you, with a bit of training you could be an AWESOME politician, and you are already used to being in the public eye. And most importantly, Jon and Roald aren't the same people. Roald can and does love you for you. Finally, you can't control your heart. I think you have been trying to. Let your heart rule you Jaina. Trust me."
"But I will get hurt."
"You are hurting now, and maybe you won't get hurt. Take a chance." Alanna said.
Jaina laughed, she couldn't stop. Alanna knew that was a bad sign, but she knew she couldn't do anything.
Jaina got up and ran to her quarters, soon her laugh became a cry. She was thinking of what the coruscant media would've said. They would've said Jaina strikes where Leia missed. And made a parallel between Isolder-Leia, v. Roald-Jaina. Jaina was also thinking of the conversation she and her mother would've had and she and Jacen would've had, and She and Han would've had, and she and Luke would've had. No matter how dysfunctional the Solo-Skywalker family looked, this would be an example of the time they would pull together. Jaina knew she could always count on them, but they weren't there for her to count on know.
Jaina's mind called out to her family…….
Back on Coruscant, ever since Jaina disappeared, the Solo-Skywalker family had been meeting more. They were making time in their schedules to get together. They were eating dinner together on Coruscant when all the force-capable family members heard Jaina's mental cry. Leia gripped Jacen and Luke. Jacen grabbed Anakin and Han. Anakin grabbed Luke and Jacen. "What happened?" Han asked.
"Jaina." Luke gasped. "Jaina needs us."
Han looked skyward. Chewie grabbed hold of his entire honor-family.
The link with Jaina faded too quickly for anyone to tell where she was, Jaina's force powers were too weak.
"Don't worry." Luke assured them. "Jaina's physically ok. It was an emotional problem, and she has someone where she is to talk to."
"I should be there." Leia whimpered. "She probably needs and wants her mother."
Luke knew not to tell her that Jaina HAD wanted Leia, instead he held his sister tightly, and Han grabbed Jacen, who because of his twin-link with Jaina had felt her pain very strongly.
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An hour later Jaina calmed herself down. She knew she had to apologize to Alanna. She went and found Alanna in her quarters going over some papers. When Alanna saw Jaina, she nudged George, and he left the two alone. "I am sorry for how I behaved." She said. "It was just, I thought of how my family and the public back home would've reacted."
She realized that even after all this time, she called Coruscant her home, even thought the Jedi academy was on Yavin and that was where she had been for a long time.
"Sure.." Alanna said, giving Jaina a smile. "I understand, by the way. Love is one of those things that you really can't rein in, and the problems it causes…."
"Lets talk about other things." Jaina said.
"Sure." Alanna said, after a minute. She knew she had given Jaina all the advice she could, now it was about to Jaina, and Roald.
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In the meantime Jonathan was talking to Roald. He had not even tried scrying, just looking around for him. Jonathan sat down next to Roald. "Name the woman you love."
Without thinking Roald answered immediately. "Jaina."
But right as he said it, he realized what he had said. He looked horrified. "I didn't mean that, she is only a friend."
A slow smile crossed Jon's face. "You admitted it, you love her."
Roald looked down. "Son, there is nothing wrong in loving her. She is a great woman, and she will keep you happy."
"But my duty to the crown…"
Jonathan put his hands on Roald's shoulders. "Don't marry for the crown, if you do that you will ruin 3 lives, Jaina's, the girl you marry's, and yours. I will support you if you marry her."
"You will?" Roald asked, shocked.
"I believe in marrying for love." Jon said. "I am sorry I haven't made that clear. I would actually love it if you married someone you loved. But this hasn't gone as far as marriage yet, you still have to get her to accept your love after this entire hoopla."
"But won't people think she didn't earn her shield if she is with me?" Roald asked.
"People will make excuses anyways, they will say because we pushed her to be able to get trained, we pushed Wyldon into letting her off easy, etc. So regardless there WILL be rumors." Jon said.
They talked for awhile longer. "Thanks, Father." Roald said.
"Have you made your decision?"
"I will let her see and feel my love, and I will try to woo her."
"Good choice." Jonathan said. "All the gods bless."
