Lily's eyes were bright with joy, her cheeks flushed red by the wind, and clothes wrinkled from being pressed up against Sirius as the touched back down on Hogwarts ground again. They lunged forward slightly as the motorcycle came to a halt. Lily hugged Sirius' back.

"Thanks Sirius," she said quietly. She stepped off delicately.

"Hey, any time Lils."

Lils. Reality slammed into her at full force again. She felt like she had been tackled by a dragon. She didn't know why she suddenly felt guilty. Everybody called her by that name. But the way James said it…

Cocky Son of a Bitch! she thought savagely, forcing herself to hate James.

"You know Lils, if you ever need to talk, I'm always here… or if you ever just feel like going for a ride…" his eyes hid back their hopefulness. He maintained his cool attitude, typical.

Jealously. James would be stark raving jealous. But what about his friendship with James? Why did he risk it taking me out for a ride?

She heard herself saying, "I'd like that," She flashed him a smile, and started to walk away.

"Why'd you do it?" she suddenly turned around, she couldn't help herself.

Sirius gave her a blank stare.

"Why'd you comfort me, take me on a ride?"

"'Cause you're my best friend's girl. He really loves you, you know, he's just too stupid to realize it."

Lily felt a pang of guilt, she wanted him to like her so much. She practically wilted when she found out he did it because she was James' girlfriend, not because he felt something for her. She should have known better. Even though Sirius was cocky and stuck up most of the time, he was as loyal as his name sake, Sirius, the dog star. He was the kind of guy that would never do that to his best friend. That's what attracted Lily to him, his honesty, his loyalty… he was the kind of guy Lily wanted in a boyfriend.

"Oh," she replied softly. She turned, back to the castle. She felt lost, she felt déjà vu. This was just the way she felt when she had run to her Tree for safety.

And her longing for him to notice her turned to anger, he was just like James. No wonder they were best friends.

"Oh," she said more forcefully. "Thanks Sirius. I'll see you later," She didn't bother to hide the spite in her voice. She hurried off, not looking back.

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