Why Do I Love You?

***Hope you like this chapter sorry I took so long to get it up; I'm going to give myself two week deadlines.

Disclaimer- I don't own them!! It's not fair!! *____*:-P I wish I owned Heath Ledger:-P

*~*~For Sarah~*~*

bCHAPTER THREEb

Our Secret

The night breeze felt cool on her face as they speed up to the 4th floor, it was only five minutes till 1.30!

Sirius and Lily had lay there for a long time but Sirius was overcome with guilt- he had kissed Lily, the one girl his best friend wanted, the one girl his best friend liked, the one girl that made his stomach do flip- flops, the one girl HE liked. He had kissed her- kissed Lily Evans, and he liked it. He really liked her- like really. This wasn't just a crush, he REALLY liked her. He wondered if she felt the same way. "Well," he reasoned "She must have some sort of feelings for me because she kissed me and didn't push away."

Sirius and Lily got back into the room and while Sirius banished his broom Lily stopped the cloths cleaning and grabbed the last two trophies that weren't done and started to clean one. And when Professor McGonagall came back a couple of minute later all she saw was Sirius and Lily sitting on the floor just finishing polishing their last trophies. She nodded to them and they sat the cups back and got up and left for their common room. They got in the common room and before Lily could go up to her bedroom Sirius kissed her lightly on the mouth. She went to bed joyfully happy but decided to keep that night secret between her and Sirius, at least for a while.

***At Breakfast***

Sirius sat down next to Lily and although his stomach was turning over and over he remained cool on the outside.

"Hey baby, what's for breakfast?" he asked, as Lily bit into a muffin.

She swallowed, "Muffins, bacon, eggs, hash browns, cereal, toast, yogurt?" she suggested.

"All of the above babe." Sirius said, heaping food onto his plate.

After they were both chewing thoughtfully Sirius swallowed. "Um, babe?" he asked.

"Mmmm." Lily said.

"Um, I was just wondering, ah do you mind if we kept last night a secret for a while? 'Cause James is one of my best friends and I know it would really upset him."

Lily nodded and got up to leave.

"Sure," she said, "Our secret's safe with me."

She walked off as James and Remus appeared and took their seats next to Sirius- Peter was with Christie.

"What were you talking to Lily for?" James asked, "And what did she say last night? Anything about me?"

"I was trying to bring her round," Sirius said uneasily, not liking to have to lie to his best friends. "But every time I try to talk to her about you she doesn't talk at all."

"Come on Prongs," Remus said, "You knew it'd take a while, give it another month."

"Speaking of months," Sirius said "Tonight's the full moon,"

***Defence Against the Dark Arts***

"Moony, what's up?" James asked,

"The sky," Sirius replied but Remus just sat there looking ill.

"Oh, it's just 'cause of, you know."

"Do you have to go to the hospital wing?" James asked,

"Should you?" Sirius said, "I mean you look pretty sick,"

"What's wrong boys?" their defence against the dark arts teacher Professor Qindof enquired.

"It's just Remus sir, he's feeling a bit sick," Sirius said.

"Well maybe you two boys should escort him to the hospital wing," Professor Qindof said.

They grabbed their books and got up and left the class with Remus, heading for the 7th floor where the hospital wing was.

"So, moony, what about tonight?" James asked, "Same time?"

"Yea," Remus said, "Whatever."

"Ok," James said as they left him at the hospital wing with Madam Pomfrey.

James and Sirius headed towards the common room and James started questioning Sirius about the detention with Lily.

"So, what did you have to do?" he asked.

"Clean trophies." Sirius said.

"Did you really clean trophies?" James asked, "Why didn't you just go? Out the window or something?"

Sirius felt uncomfortable, "Umm, well Lily wouldn't come, and I wanted to talk to her about you, you know?" he said.

"Yea," James said but he could tell his friend was keeping something from him. "Anyway have you seen Wormtail lately? He's been off with Christie all the time now."

"We have Charms with him." Sirius said shortly.

"Tell him about tonight,"

"I will."

"Ok then."

"Why?"

"I don't feel like Charms today." James said, walking up to their bedroom and laying on his bed.

"Lily'll be there."

"I know."

"What? You don't want to be near Lily? Are you feeling alright?" Sirius asked.

"She hates me," James said bitterly. "She truly and utterly hates me and I can't do a thing about it."

"She'll come round."

"No she won't."

The bell rang, "Well I'm going, Flitwick'll kill me if I miss Charms again. See you at lunch."

Sirius walked out, still feeling terribly guilty because of his best friend- they had been best friends since first day of first year and he didn't want to wreak that friendship because of a girl. But then- Sirius knew that Lily was not just a girl. Lily was a wonderful, beautiful, smart, funny, amazingly different girl- Sirius felt he could spend so long with Lily, after Hogwarts even. Lily was someone who Sirius seriously liked, and she liked him too. He knew that James would have to find out sooner or later but he couldn't tell him yet- not quite yet. Sirius knew that Lily had been dazed by the balcony and the spot in Hogsmead he had taken her- and he knew where he wanted to take her next, if she agreed to go with him.

Sirius walked into Charms and sat down next to Peter.

"Full moon tonight." He said.

Peter jumped in the air.

"You scared me," he said.

"Full moon." Sirius said again.

"Oh, ok." He said as Professor Flitwick stood in front of the class and wrapped his wand on the board to get their attention.

***At Lunch***

Sirius sat down next to Lily again,

"Babe," he said.

"Hello."

"Babe, um do you want to, I mean did you want to um meet me in the common room tomorrow night?"

"um."

"I mean only if you want to babe."

"Sure."

Sirius started eating but Lily wanted to speak.

"Sirius?"

"Mmmm." Sirius said, his mouth still stuffed with food.

"Do you still want me not to tell anyone?"

Sirius swallowed.

"Lily, babe."

"Yea."

"James really likes you baby."

"I know."

"And he's my best friend babe."

"I know that too."

"Well I can't tell him yet."

"Why not?"

"It would really hurt him babe."

"So?"

"Well I care about James and I care about you too baby. I really like you."

The bell rang again. Sirius got up and left leaving Lily to sit there alone.

***Hope you liked it sorry I've taken so long but I've been really sick for like 3 weeks now- I was almost admitted to hospitable.

Here are some thank yous:

Dee()- Thanks! I'm glad you liked it.

U no!()- I know Sirius is hot! I love him actually! I don't know who you are- is this Sarah or Nat? or someone else? I think its nat

Lady Matsu- Thanks!

I NEED MORE REVIEWS!

Thanks also to elmo (sorry I have forgotten you full nick) You made my day!