Disclaimer: Okay this has finally pissed me off so this will go for the rest of my story; I own nothing besides the story line and the characters not on Lizzie McGuire.

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A/N: Once again like I said in the last chap I have no beta reader, so if this suck I'm sorry.

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Wow, this is defiantly one of the most eventful weeks ever. Okay so maybe it's just the past two days.

First I'm with Beth and I run out on her after saying I love 'Miranda' right when we were going to sleep together, then I go home the same night and find Miranda crying on my doorstep. I take her in and at a loss for any other options I 'sing' to her (I 'don't' sing), once she's calm I find her father has passed away. Not only has her father passed away but she wants me to accompany her to Mexico for the funeral, after landing in Mexico we visit her grandmother's house, and I meet some of her family. Her grandmother seems nice and everything but, well...every one speaks Spanish. I know this is Mexico and what ells should they speak. But well I just figured they'd know a bit more English. Now we're in the hotel sweet that was arranged for us to spend the week in.

All that happened yesterday and the day before, now it's seven in the morning and my first full day in Mexico; I just wish I knew more Spanish. Miranda hasn't woken up yet, God she looks good when she sleeps.

Man! She just lost her dad, I shouldn't be thinking like this! But I can't stop thinking about that night, the night I heard about her dad. I mean I was with Beth, and we were going to go 'all' the way, but when it came down to it, I said 'I love you Miranda' I said 'Miranda' not Beth.

I do love Miranda, I always have...well not 'always' I cared about her back when we were 'the three amigos', but 'that' day in the park I felt something more for her, I wanted to protect her, I couldn't stand what was being done to her, that's the day I started to love her.

But now, it's more, now... I'm attracted to her, well okay why lie to myself, I've always been attracted to her. For a while now though, I thought I was over it, I guess I've just been able to hide it.

When I was a kid Lizzie was my best friend, we'd grown up together. Once we got a bit older Lizzie got another best friend, Miranda. And Lizzie insisted that if I was to stay her friend we all would hang out together, so we did. After a while it was routine for me to hang out with Lizzie, Kate, and Miranda. Kate was in and out of the group even back then, she was the popular one. Most of the time it was down to just us three, Lizzie, Miranda and me. Most people found it odd that I chose to hang out with girls, but my parents being shrinks figured that I hung out with all three girls because I had a crush on one of them...Lizzie. They were right but only to a certain point.

When I was in about forth grade I developed a crush on Miranda, back then I didn't know her too well and I never told her. Well I couldn't tell Lizzie she was Miranda's best friend, and well I just wasn't to close to Kate. Miranda and I were like strangers who just happened to know a lot about each other, we had one connection, Lizzie.

Every thing always went back to her, she was the reason I knew her, she was my best friend, and she was the girl my parents figured I'd end up with. Every one seemed to want me to be with her, her parents, my parents, our friends; even people I hardly knew figured we'd be cute together. So finally I figured why not? She was pretty, and she was my best friend the best of both worlds right?

At first I had to force my self into trying to like her, I think I did it in part to make Miranda jealous, then after a while, once I realized that she wasn't going to get jealous over me, and that I had no chance with her, I started to let my self fall for Lizzie. I was never as attracted to her as I'd been to Miranda, but I liked her on a deeper level we had always been best friends, so our bond was that much stronger.

When the whole Rome thing happened and Lizzie went with Ethan I was crushed, not just because by then I'd grown too really like her, but because I knew that our friendship would inevitably change, and maybe not for the better, I didn't want to lose a best friend. But when I saw Miranda in the park crying... I knew, had to protect her, I couldn't stand to see her cry, just seeing her pain, made me cry. That day I did something I'd wanted to do for so long, went up to her and just held her, we hugged for a while then when explaining my tears I told her about what Lizzie had done. It wasn't a lie, because I really was heart broken over it, I just never told her that seeing her in pain added to mine.

That day I got to 'really' know Miranda, and that's when I started loving her. For a long time I ignored the attraction I still felt, telling my self that it was just my imagination. Even when I realized how much footage of her I have, claimed it was just because she was naturally photogenic. I completely set aside the fact that I'd occasionally leave the camera running while it was pointed at her when we hung out even when I liked Lizzie. I did every thing in my power to convince my self that I didn't 'like' Miranda.

And now after who knows how long of debating this I can honestly say, I don't like Miranda, because I'm totally and completely so obviously in love with her.

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A/N: so that's that chapter I know I should try to finish faster, but I can't help but lag, I just don't want any lose ends once I'm done, I guess it's not likely that I'll rush, but if I do you can tell me and I'll slow down. So it may take a bit for the story to end but it'll be good once it's over, I'll really be proud of this one.

Hockeylover: Thanks for the concern, as for French in Mexico, I think your right about how little good it would do you, but it would be see you try to use it there=D any ways, I don't know French only a few words, so we're pretty much in the same boat. LOL thanks for reviewing! And I'm looking forward to going back to Texas! That's what I call home(even though I've lived in LA for 7 months) thanks again for every thing, Take care and Update soon! ;)