Kakistos

I want to write this but am scared to I guess. My hand is

shaking even now.

Rita and I were patrolling. I told her I could totally go

alone on the patrol thing. In honesty I like the company.

We were checking aleeys as the cemetary had been a huge

bust. This vamp was feeding off this chick. I stake him

and he does his dust thing. Thing is when I turn to Rita

she is liek white with fear or maybe shock. I say what to

her and she kind of stammers

'By kakistos we live, by kakistos we die'

Tha vamp had said that so I told her yeah I heard him.

Rita started freaking out saying we have to leave Boston.

I ask what kakistos is but hse she says not is Faith, but

who? Getting annoyed at how she wasnt getting to a point I

say so. Rita is already rushing out teh alley heading for

home. Folling her and waiting for an explanation. Rita

went straight to teh phone to call the council. I could

hear her arguing on the phone. Main thing I heard was

'Faith isnt ready for this.......How shall I tell her to

prepare to die exactly......yes its a slayer role but she

is just a girl Quentin'

I didnt hear anything else. I could die. I knew that was

a possibility but I didnt really accept it. I dont want to

die. Sure life aint all daisys and fun but I dont want to

die..

Rita came into the room but I ignored her. Why couldnt she

tell me about this whole thing. Rita left the tray with

some dinner on it. As she closed my door over she stopped

and said... 'I am so sorry Faith'

I swear I lost it. I started screaming at her why? tell me

about kakistos. Tell me why I have to die. Tell me why you

dont think I can beat this kakistos? Tell me why you doubt

me? Tell what happens after I die? Tell me why? Why do I

have to die?

Rita came over and tried to hold me but I pushed her away.

Rita sat on the bed. I could hear her shaky breathing. I

hugged myself as I leaned against the wall.

'Kakistos is a very old vampire. The vampire is so old his

feet have formed into hooves. This vampire. Kakistos is

very powerful Faith. Maybe too powerful. When he finds

out about you he will come after you. Slayer blood is like

a beacon to these vampire's. I dont doubt you Faith. I

just know he is one of the most powerful Vampires. Faith

your so young, and I dont want you to face this alone.

Slayers tend to die young but together we can change that

right. Quentin said that the SLayer in Sunnydale could

perhaps help us. I could call Mr Giles and ask?'

I can handle him I tell Rita. I am a slayer right what

makes this Buffy more powerful than me. If she can dust

him so can I.

Rita said it wasnt a matter of stronger but together we

could perhaps win. I shake my head and tell her I will dust

this Kakistos he is just a vampire.

Rita looked sad and left my room. I didnt know what to do

so I wrote this. It hurts that she doesnt believe I can

kill this vamp. I know she doesnt want me to die but hell

neither do I. I will face this vamp and I will kill him and

his little followers.