Chapter 3: A Full Circle Hatred?
Harry thought about the words that had just come out of his mouth. The absolute atrocity that had just been thrown at one of the best friends he's ever known. Harry sighed and continued to walk towards the Great Hall.
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Ginny Weasley brushed her hair and hummed thoughtfully. She was on top of the world. And as soon as she finished she could go see Harry. Her face broke into a wide grin. Then it dropped. She heard a door slamming outside, so she ran to the entrance to her dorm. Ginny poked her nose out the door just in time to see Harry sweep by Hermione, robe in hand, with a look of absolute contempt on his face.
'Oh no,' she thought, 'he's really mad at her.' She hastily grabbed a hair tie, pulled her hair into a messy ponytail and ran out the door. As soon as she got out of the portrait hole guarding the entrance to Gryffindor tower, she heard Harry screaming. Everything was muffled, but Ginny distinctly heard the words 'love of my life' from Harry's mouth. Than she heard Harry blow up about Hermione and rules.
Ginny gasped silently at the tone coming from her love's mouth. She had never heard him this mad in the seven years she had known him. Truthfully, the tone scared her. There was silence, and she could hear Harry walking quickly away. Ginny crept quietly up to Hermione and placed her arm around her.
"Back off, ok! Your little fling with Harry is causing me to lose my best friend!"
Hermione flung herself away from Ginny and went quickly back to the tower. Ginny just stood there, wondering what to do. Now Harry was mad at Hermione and Hermione was mad at her. And it would all probably result in Ron finding out about them, which would cause Ron to be mad at Harry. Ginny slumped onto the cold floor to think a little.
Suddenly, a large black dog was walking toward Ginny. At first she jumped, but then realized who it was.
"Sirius," she sighed. The dog looked up into Ginny eyes, and was visibly upset. He tugged lightly at her robes towards an open room. Ginny shut the door and put a complex locking charm on the lock. When she turned back around, there stood Harry's godfather, Sirius Black.
"Oh, Sirius, everything is such a mess!" Ginny cried running to him. Sirius jumped a little in surprise at the rush of feeling coming from Ginny. She had never reacted this way towards him, but was mostly a little scared of him. Resigning himself, he hugged her deeply.
"Virginia, what's wrong?" He pulled her back to look at her.
"Everyone is so angry at everyone else. And it all started with last night when Harry told me that he - " she broke off suddenly.
"He what?"
"He loves me, Sirius. He told me he loved me last night. And Hermione is the only one who knows about us besides one of Harry's roommates." Ginny continued the story of the morning, pausing only briefly at the sly look that came across Sirius' face when she told him about Harry in the changing room. It quickly went back to concern, and Ginny finished it all, finally telling him what Mione had said to her.
Sirius shook his head and sighed at the undefeatable nature of his godson, which he remembered so well from his best friend James. That boy was a Potter, no doubt about it, and it plagued Sirius that Harry had taken the weight of all the situations he had been in and was still pressing on. It also worried him that Harry had used the word "love" towards this fragile, naïve girl. Goodness knew if it truly was, or if Harry was just acting on smaller emotions. Or even hormones. The necklace he had given Harry hung loosely from Ginny's neck, shining brilliantly. He so wanted to know what she felt coming from that necklace, but didn't want to ask, as it may prove Harry's love towards her false.
Sirius sighed again, and transformed back into his dog alter ego. He licked Ginny's hand furtively and then scratched at the door. Ginny was disappointed that Sirius had said nothing to her, but casted the locking charm away and opened the door. Sirius ran away towards the Great Hall without so much as a look back.
He finally caught up with his distressed godson down the hallway. Harry didn't notice his presence at all, so Sirius bit into his hand. Harry screamed in pain and whipped out his wand. He turned towards Sirius upset, but finally noticing who had bit him, his face moved into a sort of half smile. Sirius walked haughtily towards an open doorway, peered around inside it and entered it, Harry at his heels. Harry locked the door behind him and slumped into a chair. His godfather appeared in front of him, but looked none too pleased with him.
"You told Ginny Weasley you loved her?!" Sirius demanded.
Harry had never thought that his declaration of love towards Ginny would make Sirius upset. "Yes, I did. Is there something wrong with that?" Harry looked towards Sirius with pleading eyes.
Sirius was taken aback by the whole scene. The words that had just exited Harry's mouth were the same as the words that had come from James, many years ago. The echoes filled his head -
"You told Lily Evans you loved her?"
"Yes, I did. Is there something wrong with that?" James' furtive glance met his.
"No, it's just that, are you sure?"
"I've never been more sure about anything my life, Padfoot. I would give up everything in my life for this woman. Everything, even Quidditch."
"Prongs, I just want to make sure that you're getting into the right thing here. I mean, Lils is my friend too, but a Potter, with a muggle-born?"
He pulled himself back into the present. He had never said anything in his life that he regretted more than calling Lily that, insinuating she wasn't good enough for a pure wizarding family. Never would he forget the one time in his life that James had hated him for his words, his thoughts. Never had he received a beat down so hard as that day. He shook his head.
"Sirius, what's the matter?" Harry eyes peered thoughtfully at him.
"Nothing, you just remind me of your father. A lot, and it hurts a little. I had this same talk with your dad back in school about your mom. Said some things I never should have said about her. The only consolation was your father's undying loyalty after he kicked the shit out of me."
Sirius smiled as he thought of James forgiveness a few months later. After he saw James with her, around her, even just thinking about her, he knew he had been more wrong than anyone could have ever been about James and Lily.
"Oh, Harry, I just want to make sure you know what you're doing. I'm worried about you, and I'm worried about Ginny. I don't want you just throwing those words around like you can use them for whatever you want." Sirius saw Harry's eyes narrow in anger.
"How dare you say I don't love her!"
"Harry, stop! I didn't say that. I can see that you do. Please just stop getting so angry with people about her. Especially Hermione! That girl has done more for you than you'll ever know, and don't you forget it. You know what she said to Ginny this morning after you yelled at her? She told her to get away from her because she was screwing up her's and your's friendship." Sirius looked hard at Harry.
"You don't understand at all!" Harry got up to storm out.
"I don't huh? Who lost their best friends to Voldemort? Who also lost his parents to him? I can't see you either Harry, and it pains me so much."
Harry just looked at his godfather, now understanding just how much Sirius did understand.
Harry thought about the words that had just come out of his mouth. The absolute atrocity that had just been thrown at one of the best friends he's ever known. Harry sighed and continued to walk towards the Great Hall.
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Ginny Weasley brushed her hair and hummed thoughtfully. She was on top of the world. And as soon as she finished she could go see Harry. Her face broke into a wide grin. Then it dropped. She heard a door slamming outside, so she ran to the entrance to her dorm. Ginny poked her nose out the door just in time to see Harry sweep by Hermione, robe in hand, with a look of absolute contempt on his face.
'Oh no,' she thought, 'he's really mad at her.' She hastily grabbed a hair tie, pulled her hair into a messy ponytail and ran out the door. As soon as she got out of the portrait hole guarding the entrance to Gryffindor tower, she heard Harry screaming. Everything was muffled, but Ginny distinctly heard the words 'love of my life' from Harry's mouth. Than she heard Harry blow up about Hermione and rules.
Ginny gasped silently at the tone coming from her love's mouth. She had never heard him this mad in the seven years she had known him. Truthfully, the tone scared her. There was silence, and she could hear Harry walking quickly away. Ginny crept quietly up to Hermione and placed her arm around her.
"Back off, ok! Your little fling with Harry is causing me to lose my best friend!"
Hermione flung herself away from Ginny and went quickly back to the tower. Ginny just stood there, wondering what to do. Now Harry was mad at Hermione and Hermione was mad at her. And it would all probably result in Ron finding out about them, which would cause Ron to be mad at Harry. Ginny slumped onto the cold floor to think a little.
Suddenly, a large black dog was walking toward Ginny. At first she jumped, but then realized who it was.
"Sirius," she sighed. The dog looked up into Ginny eyes, and was visibly upset. He tugged lightly at her robes towards an open room. Ginny shut the door and put a complex locking charm on the lock. When she turned back around, there stood Harry's godfather, Sirius Black.
"Oh, Sirius, everything is such a mess!" Ginny cried running to him. Sirius jumped a little in surprise at the rush of feeling coming from Ginny. She had never reacted this way towards him, but was mostly a little scared of him. Resigning himself, he hugged her deeply.
"Virginia, what's wrong?" He pulled her back to look at her.
"Everyone is so angry at everyone else. And it all started with last night when Harry told me that he - " she broke off suddenly.
"He what?"
"He loves me, Sirius. He told me he loved me last night. And Hermione is the only one who knows about us besides one of Harry's roommates." Ginny continued the story of the morning, pausing only briefly at the sly look that came across Sirius' face when she told him about Harry in the changing room. It quickly went back to concern, and Ginny finished it all, finally telling him what Mione had said to her.
Sirius shook his head and sighed at the undefeatable nature of his godson, which he remembered so well from his best friend James. That boy was a Potter, no doubt about it, and it plagued Sirius that Harry had taken the weight of all the situations he had been in and was still pressing on. It also worried him that Harry had used the word "love" towards this fragile, naïve girl. Goodness knew if it truly was, or if Harry was just acting on smaller emotions. Or even hormones. The necklace he had given Harry hung loosely from Ginny's neck, shining brilliantly. He so wanted to know what she felt coming from that necklace, but didn't want to ask, as it may prove Harry's love towards her false.
Sirius sighed again, and transformed back into his dog alter ego. He licked Ginny's hand furtively and then scratched at the door. Ginny was disappointed that Sirius had said nothing to her, but casted the locking charm away and opened the door. Sirius ran away towards the Great Hall without so much as a look back.
He finally caught up with his distressed godson down the hallway. Harry didn't notice his presence at all, so Sirius bit into his hand. Harry screamed in pain and whipped out his wand. He turned towards Sirius upset, but finally noticing who had bit him, his face moved into a sort of half smile. Sirius walked haughtily towards an open doorway, peered around inside it and entered it, Harry at his heels. Harry locked the door behind him and slumped into a chair. His godfather appeared in front of him, but looked none too pleased with him.
"You told Ginny Weasley you loved her?!" Sirius demanded.
Harry had never thought that his declaration of love towards Ginny would make Sirius upset. "Yes, I did. Is there something wrong with that?" Harry looked towards Sirius with pleading eyes.
Sirius was taken aback by the whole scene. The words that had just exited Harry's mouth were the same as the words that had come from James, many years ago. The echoes filled his head -
"You told Lily Evans you loved her?"
"Yes, I did. Is there something wrong with that?" James' furtive glance met his.
"No, it's just that, are you sure?"
"I've never been more sure about anything my life, Padfoot. I would give up everything in my life for this woman. Everything, even Quidditch."
"Prongs, I just want to make sure that you're getting into the right thing here. I mean, Lils is my friend too, but a Potter, with a muggle-born?"
He pulled himself back into the present. He had never said anything in his life that he regretted more than calling Lily that, insinuating she wasn't good enough for a pure wizarding family. Never would he forget the one time in his life that James had hated him for his words, his thoughts. Never had he received a beat down so hard as that day. He shook his head.
"Sirius, what's the matter?" Harry eyes peered thoughtfully at him.
"Nothing, you just remind me of your father. A lot, and it hurts a little. I had this same talk with your dad back in school about your mom. Said some things I never should have said about her. The only consolation was your father's undying loyalty after he kicked the shit out of me."
Sirius smiled as he thought of James forgiveness a few months later. After he saw James with her, around her, even just thinking about her, he knew he had been more wrong than anyone could have ever been about James and Lily.
"Oh, Harry, I just want to make sure you know what you're doing. I'm worried about you, and I'm worried about Ginny. I don't want you just throwing those words around like you can use them for whatever you want." Sirius saw Harry's eyes narrow in anger.
"How dare you say I don't love her!"
"Harry, stop! I didn't say that. I can see that you do. Please just stop getting so angry with people about her. Especially Hermione! That girl has done more for you than you'll ever know, and don't you forget it. You know what she said to Ginny this morning after you yelled at her? She told her to get away from her because she was screwing up her's and your's friendship." Sirius looked hard at Harry.
"You don't understand at all!" Harry got up to storm out.
"I don't huh? Who lost their best friends to Voldemort? Who also lost his parents to him? I can't see you either Harry, and it pains me so much."
Harry just looked at his godfather, now understanding just how much Sirius did understand.
