Goodbye by confusedDIRTangel aka Mari

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A/N: Thanks to: Laura Petri, Ginger Lane, TigerStorm, TheWolf, and Daphne Lane for reviewing. Also they managed to save Jean at Alkali Lake.

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Chapter 2- Logan's P.O.V.

I woke up from my nightmare-ridden sleep when I felt somebody moving around in the room above me. I thought that it was just 'Ro tossin' around in her sleep…again. 'Ro has been havin' trouble sleepin' lately, so silly me thought nothing' of it. Almost immediately after I drifted to sleep, I had another nightmare about what Stryker did to me.

I woke up at about 4:30 am to go see if I could find any beer in the pantry. I yanked on a pair of sweatpants and strode out of the room with no shirt on. I crept quietly down the stairs and started rummaging' around for a beer, preferably Molson's. I didn't even find any so I just grabbed a root beer out of the fridge. All of a sudden the Wolverine in me told me to go take a walk. I opened the door to reveal the huge backyard behind the mansion. There was also an Olympic sized swimming pool and a huge lake. After I stepped outside I started shivering incessantly. I ignored it and just kept walkin' on.

I leisurely walked to the edge of the lake. I took several large gulps of my root beer when I reached the edge of the lake. Out of nowhere I faltered in mid-stride. I quickly dropped the root beer and sniffed the air again, just to make sure. I smelt, besides the usual, depression, tears, blood, death, and sandalwood. I knew that 'Ro was out here somewhere. She always smelled of sandalwood.

I started following the scents till I ended up circling one of the larger Wheeping Willow trees surrounding the lake. I hesitated slightly as I started to part the branches. I almost got sick at the sight that I saw right in front of me.

There was 'Ro, covered from her chest to her feet with her warm blood. I saw twelve long, deep cuts on her arms and legs. Three on each arm and leg. She lay with a dagger in her left hand… also covered in blood; her blood. I rushed forward to gently cradle her in my arms. I could feel her breathing against my chest. I could hear her heartbeat…so frail and slow. If I had come any later she would probably be gone.

I rose to my feet and sprinted back to the mansion, sending a telepathic message to Chuck, telling him to meet me in the med-lab in two minutes.

"Shit, 'Ro. What the hell were you thinking?" I muttered harshly to the beautiful woman covered in blood in my arms. When I reached the door that went into the kitchen I slowed down enough to let me kick the door down without dropping 'Ro. I wasn't expecting to kick the door hard enough to knock it off its hinges, but I did. I moved around the furniture with the stealth that only a cat could match. I didn't have the patience to wait for the elevator.

I leapt down the two flights of stairs three at a time. And I stopped quickly when I reached the doors to the med-lab doors. I turned around and pushed open the door with my back. I placed 'Ro down on one of the three examination tables and began to wipe off the blood on her skin with a wash cloth with warm water on it. When I was almost done, One-Eye, Jean, Marie, and Hank burst in trom the other end to the room, all prepared to help her.

" I was out for a drink and I found her under one of the trees by the lake with a dagger in her hand," I reported as they all set to work.

About an hour later, all of her wounds were bandaged and stitched up. I found myself wonderin' to 'that' tree to clean up the mess. I found something. A diary. I couldn't resist. I flipped to the last entry. Only to find myself staring at the elegant writing that I knew so well…not knowing it was her suicide letter.

"Oh, my love. Please don't cry. I'll wash my bloody hands and we'll start a new life. I took off my disguise, just in time to hear you cry when you, you mourn the death of your bloody valentine. The night he died. You mourn the death of your bloody valentine, one last time. Sayin'…oh my love. Please don't cry. I'll wash my bloody hands and we'll start a new life. I don't know that much at all and I don't know wrong from right. All I know is that I love you tonight."

I know that you are wondering why on earth I am doing this, but if anyone would have just spent five minutes listening to me I wouldn't do this. The pain in my heart is unbearable form all the love I have that nobody is willing to return. Logan, I love you. I have loved you ever since Scott and I saved you and Marie in Canada all those years ago. All I wanted was for someone to love me, and I wanted that person to be Logan. I really do love him. I love him with my whole heart.

"Sorry, I never told you, all I wanted to say. And now it's too late to hold you. 'Cause you've flown away, so far away. Never, had I imagined living without your smile. And now it's too late to tell you. 'Cause you've flown away, so far away. And I know your shining down on me form heaven. Like so many friends we've lost along the way. And I know eventually we'll be together, one sweet day. And I'll wait, patiently to see you in heaven."

"I don't believe this. This can't be true. It can't be…" I kept whispering as I continued to reread her letter…again and again. "I have loved her for years, thinking that she would never want me," I whispered to myself as I felt a pang of guilt. "And it turns out that she loved me. Ironic, huh?" there I go again. Having conversations with yourself is not a good thing. I tried to convince myself that 'Ro does not love me, but it was not possible. Why else would she have tried to kill herself? Not only that, on her thighs and arms were three parallel cuts…She meant that I had done that to her. In some ways I did, by not telling her how I felt, no, feel.

I carefully closed her diary and took it and started walking gravely back to the mansion. I was surprised to find tears filling up my eyes, clouding my vision. I was not going to show this to anyone else. She knew that I would find it. Damn, I knew that woman, no, Goddess, was smart.

A/N: Please review and tell me what you think. I am also welcoming any suggestions you might have. I am trying to post a new chapter every other day. Keep reviewing. I love you all. Oh, and the next chapter will be Logan's pov. I didn't want this chapter to be too long.