Story: Once and Again.

Chapter title: You stayed.

Authors: JamiesAngel2008 & Isabelle8888

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" What is it dad?" Jamie asked.

" I just wanted to tell you both that having you with me has helped a lot, and I love you both from the bottom of my heart. Landon, I know we haven't always since eye to eye but I love you like my son, I watched you grow up, and I'm proud of the man you have become." Bert explained as eyes surfaced his eyes, but he needed to let the most important people in his life know what they mean to him.

" Thank you for being there for my mom and me." Landon said.

Bert grabbed Landon into a emotional hug, Jamie smiled.

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Two weeks later.

Bert told Landon he can stay with him and Jaime for the rest of the summer, and any other summer he wants to. Cynthia's death had brought Bert and Landon closer together, Bert sees Landon as one of his.

Landon has been taking one day at a time. He sometimes forgets that his mother is gone. When he wakes up and sees the pain in every ones eyes, or when he needs to ask for advice, it hits him like a ton of bricks, " My mom is gone, I'll never see her again." he tells him self, then he feels the emptiness in his heart, that same empty ness that will never let him forget.

Jamie has been reliving the pain she felt when her mother was killed in a car crash. She considered Cynthia to be a aunt, they were very close. She's not getting much sleep, every time she closes her eyes, she sees her mother's car go up in flames.

Bert, stays at the church as much as he can, its his way of coping. Every inch of the house and their room, reminds him of her. He sometimes believes he sees her shadow walking past him, he try's to shake the thought but there's a part of him the believes she's all ways with him.

It's mid-afternoon, Bert is at work. Jamie and Landon are home.

Jamie, is sitting at her desk, writing down her thoughts, the emotions she can't seem to get rid of as much as she try's.

I try not to think of the crash but as much as I try, I see the car. I wish I could have had one more minute with her, to tell her how much I love her.

Cynthia dying has made these feelings come to the surface. I never forgot the crash or even really put it behind me. I did learn to live my life one day at a time. Now I want to go back in to the shell I lived in for so long. It was easier to live in that shell, I never let anyone in and I never felt, anything. Its no way to live but it was better than having this aching pain inside and you cant do anything about it.

I miss Cynthia and I always will. I miss my mom and I always will, but I want one day to feel like it want my fault. I always ask" What if she hadn't gone to pick me up? What if she was later than she was?"

I ask myself these question but I never get an answer.

I feel so bad for Landon, I want to help but I know he feels like no one can help, that he needs to be alone. that's just going to eat him up inside.

Jamie closed her journal and decided to go talk to Landon, to let him know she's here for him and always will be.

Landon, is sitting on the sofa, flipping through the channels on the TV.

He didn't really care what was on, but he didn't know what else to do.

Jamie walked down the stairs and looked at Landon on the sofa for a minute.

~he drowns in his dreams.
An exquisite extreme I know.
He's a damned as he seems.
And more heaven than a heart could hold.
And if I try to save him.
My whole world could cave in~

" Hey." Jamie said as she sat next to Land0n on the sofa.

" Hey." Landon said as he continued to flip through the channels.

" Let's go do some thing." Jamie suggested.

" Jamie, I don't feel like doing any thing." Landon said.

~Oh when I don't know.
I don't know what he's after.
But he's so beautiful.
Such a beautiful disaster.
And if I could hold on.
Through the tears and laughter.
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster~

" I know you don't feel like doing any thing but you have too. You need to get out of this house. Now you and me are going go take a walk, it's a beautiful day and you need to see it. Now get up and come on. I'm not taking no for an answer, I'll drag you by your feet if I have to." Jamie said as she stood from the sofa and crossed her arms.

" I guess I won't win this fight, lets go." Landon said as he stood from the sofa.

" It's good to know when you won win." Jamie said as she and Landon left the house.

Jamie and Landon walked down the street. The sun was shining, birds were singing. The air smelled sweet, the day was perfect.

" Today is so beautiful." Jamie said as she took the atmosphere in.

" I guess." Landon said as he waked beside Jamie.

~His magical myth.
As strong as with I believe.
A tragedy with.
More damage than a soul should see.
And do I try to change him.
So hard not to blame him.
Hold on tight.
Hold on tight~

" Landon, there will be no bad moods on this walk, cheer up." Jamie said as she and Landon walked.

" Jamie I told you I didn't want to do this." Landon said as he stopped walking, Jamie stopped after him.

"To bad, your walking with me. I have an idea, Come on." Jamie said as she grabbed his arm, and pulled him along as she walked down the street.

" Jamie where are you dragging me?" Landon asked as the path they were taking became deserted.

" You'll see in a minute. Every time I feel down or angry or if I want to be alone I come here. I want to share this with you because I understand what your feeling, so I know what you need and you don't need to be alone or mopping on the sofa." Jamie said as she and Landon continued to walk.

Landon didn't say any thing, he just followed Jamie. He didn't say anything because she was right, a part of him wanted her to stay by him. He didn't want to be alone, but he doesn't know how to cope with his mothers death and he doesn't know how to ask Jamie for help.

He's grateful to her, more then he could ever say.

" Here. This is what I wanted to share with you." Jamie said as she and Landon stopped walking.

Jamie took Landon to her and her mothers special spot ' Their lake'.

" This is peaceful." Landon said as he looked around. " It looks like something you would love. Why are you sharing it with me?" Landon asked as he looked in to Jamie' eyes.

" It help me and now I want it to help you." Jamie explained.

" That means a lot. I've pushed every one away and they stayed away because I asked them to. As much as I pushed you away, you stayed, Thank you." Landon said as he grabbed her hand.

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He's soft to the touch.
But afraid at the end he breaks.
He's never enough.
And still leaves more then I can take.
Oh cuz I don't know.
I don't know what he's after.
But he's so beautiful.
Such a beautiful disaster.
And if I could hold on.
Through the tears and the laughter.
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster~

" Your welcome." Jamie said as she felt her eyes tear up.

As they looked in to each others eyes, something came over Landon. He let go of her hand and brought it up to her cheek.

~He's beautiful.
Such a beautiful disaster.~

Landon slowly leaned in and placed his lips over Jamie's. She just welcomed him, there was no objections. They stood in front of the water, as they kissed the sun slowly started going down. The light became perfect, not to bright, not to dark. The evening seemed perfect.

Song:// Kelly Clarkson -- Beautiful disaster.

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Thanks,

JamiesAngel2008

&

Isabelle8888