AN: Here's the next chapter, please review. This chapter is very different, please let us know what you think.
Story: Once and Again
Chapter title: Love or pity?
Authors: JamiesAngel2008 & Isabelle8888
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" I'm falling in love with you damn it!" Jamie yelled.
Landon turned around and smiled. " Jamie, your not falling in love with me." Landon explained.
" Excuse me?" Jamie asked as she began to feel angry. " how would you know how I feel?" Jamie asked.
" Jamie, you feel sorry for me, my mom died, you were there for me, you care, it's not love." Landon explained.
~It's it true?
Do I love you?
Or is it pity?
This heaviness in my heart says different.
Is it pity? Or is it love?~
" That doesn't make sense. Everything I've been feeling, why do I dislike Megan so much?" Jamie asked, she began to believe Landon, maybe she does just feel bad for him.
" I don't think you dislike Megan, I think you've been confused and you didn't know what else to do." Landon explained as he sat next to Jamie.
" How do you know so much about this?" Jamie asked. Everything he said made sense to her.
" Let's just say, I went through the same thing." Landon said.
~ Death surrounds, you have no where to true.
You begin to feel.
You have no control.
Is it pity? Or is it love?~
" Everything you've said makes so much sense, thank you." Jamie said as she stood up. " I guess now I have to go say I'm sorry." Jamie said, then walked to the house.
Megan and Bert were sitting at the dinner table. Megan cleaned her self up as much as she could.
" Megan, I own you an apology. I've been very confused and I took it out on you and I'm sorry. Dad, I'm sorry for acting like a child." Jamie said to both Bert and Megan.
" I understand." Megan said. " I'm gonna go say goodbye to Landon." Megan said as she left.
~ If I feel sorry for you.
Why does it hurt to see you with her.
If it's pity, shouldn't I be happy for you?
Why can't I understand?
Why can't I think?
My head aches from trying to understand.
I wish it would go away.
Please go away.~
" Sweetie it's late. I'm going to bed, but we have to talk tomorrow." Bert said, he kissed Jamie goodnight then went to bed.
Jamie began to clean up. As she washed the dishes, she could see Megan kiss Landon through the kitchen window.
~ Does her lips feel like mine?
Do you want her?
Does she make you weak?
Will she be there when you need someone?
Can she take my place ?
Why do these questions, run my mind?
Why can't I understand?~
Jamie finished the dishes and went to bed, never seeing Landon again that night.
~ The next morning~
Bert was at the hospital consoling a family in need.
Jamie didn't get much sleep. She sat at the dinner table and flipped through the newspaper but didn't feel like reading.
~ I sit here, lost inside myself.
I try to close you out.
Everywhere I look, there you are.
Why can't I understand?
Why can't we go back to how we use to be?
Is it love or pity?~
" hey, what are you reading?" Landon asked as he walked in to the kitchen.
" Just the paper. Where are you going?" Jamie asked as she saw that he was fully dressed.
" I'm meeting Megan for breakfast." Landon answered.
" Oh, have fun." Jamie said as she pretended to read the paper.
" Jamie, with time, you will forget all about this and go back to treating me like dirt. Give it time, you'll forget all about these mixed feeling's you have." Landon said as he rested his hands on her shoulders, then he left.
" I hope your right." Jamie said as she put her head down on the table.
~ You tell me, it'll fade, that it's not real.
If it's not real, why does it hurt so much?
Someone please give me the answers.
Please make me understand.~
Jamie couldn't handle being home anymore. She got dressed and went to talk to her mother at their lake.
~ The lake~
" Hi mom." Jamie said as she sat against a tree close to the water.
" I need your help. I'm so confused. Things have changed between me and Landon. Last time I was here, he was with me and we kissed. It changed everything. Since that moment, I've been felling something. I don't know what it is.
Landon told me, I just felt sorry for him, nothing more. In the beginning when Cynthia died, I did feel bad for Landon, to have to go through that. But then it changed, to I don't know what. Help me understand, do I love Landon?" Jamie asked as she hugged her knees as the wind blew.
~ You sit there, asking questions.
You want to understand, the truth is, you know.
Your going back and forth, between love and pity.
Maybe it's none, maybe it's both.
The glare of his eyes makes you feel like you can't breathe.~
" I leave next week, back to school. Landon still has another week after that. I guess that gives Landon and Dad time to bond. Now when I leave, I can go back to my life, my life without Landon. A part of me hates this, not seeing him everyday, but I have to go, for a lot of reasons. I can't take this any more." Jamie said as she began to cry. Then she smiled when she began to remember.
" Remember when me and Landon were small and you use to say we'd end up together, we were made for each other. We use to hate when you said stuff like that." Jamie said with a big smile, those memories are all she has left.
~ It's over, you know.
You've always known.
You let him make you believe it's pity because your scared.
Stop. Live life.
It's okay to be happy.
It's not your fault.
It's love.
It's always been love.~
" What am I going to do? How do I tell him? I know there's no chance he feels the same way. He sees me as a friend, nothing more. I have to tell him. If nothing else, I told him the truth." Jamie said as she began to think of ways to tell Landon.
**** Okay every thing underlined in bold and Italic. Is by Isabelle It's something I wrote for this chapter, what did you think? What did you think of the whole chapter? Please review! It means a lot to use!****
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JamiesAngel2008
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Isabelle8888 AKA Ms. Paul Walker AKA Ms. Josh Duhamel
