A/N: Hey! This is my very first Fan Fiction...EVER!! But don't let this
scare you because I need someone to give me a chance. =). I have been
working on this story for quite sometime now and I have been working very
hard. I re-edit about a hundred times before I'm happy with things. I try
to really work on the witty dialogue that is Gilmore Girls. I welcome
reviews good or bad, I'm not perfect so I love to have advice on what you
guys think. So on with this story!!!
Chapter 1: Contradicting Thoughts
Disclaimer: I do not own any of these characters or this first scene which I took out of the episode "Keg Max". That's where my story leads off of. All belong to Amy Sherman Palladino and everyone else that partakes in the making of this amazing show.
"There you are!" Rory said, relieved at the fact that Jess hadn't just left the party without her.
"Hey"
"I've been looking all over for you." Rory had been irritated that Jess left her alone. She didn't want to say anything though, he seemed distant and upset the whole night
"Just got tired of everything down there." Jess was happy that Rory finally noticed he was gone. He just wanted her to be next to him, to have her comfort. He had too many stressful things on his mind to deal with anybody else.
Rory shut the door and locked it as she saw Jess stand up, thinking that maybe he would talk to her about what had been troubling him all day. They would need privacy for that. "Are we allowed to be up here, I mean, Kyle was kinda discouraging it."
"When you have a party, you get what you get." He saw her smile, which eased his mind a little. She always could do that with such a small a thing as smiling.
"Yeah I guess." Rory knew something was on his mind. She reached up and cupped is face. "Sad boy, what's wrong?" He shook his head figuring Rory would let it go, but Rory knew him better than that. Something was wrong. "You were looking forward to this party, what happened?"
"Nothing."
"Something did." She knew he didn't want to talk about it, he never wanted to talk about his problems, but Rory couldn't stand seeing him like this. "Come on, tell me."
He leaned in and gave her a light kiss. He just didn't want to talk about it, not now.
She bit her lips savoring the taste of his. "You're not tired of me are you?" She said teasingly.
He replied with a kiss that had more passion than the one before to reassure her that wasn't it.
"That's a pretty good answer." She smiled satisfied that she wasn't part of his troubles. But she still worried about him. As she opened her mouth to say something, Jess caught her words with his lips. He just didn't want to talk, and he hoped that Rory got his message.
He rested his forehead on hers to look in her eyes, 'I think she got the message' he thought to himself. They both moved in, closing the space between them. Jess' hands moved along her back and pulled her in closer. She felt his masculine hands holding her, loving her and her delicate legs could no longer hold up. Her arms, all the while, around his neck to support herself. She ran her hands through his hair and felt his supple lips envelop hers. They inched towards the bed and Jess gently lowered her down on her back. He slowly lifted her shirt off and took in her beauty. Sometimes it blew his mind away how beautiful she was. He left soft kisses down her neck, down her chest, and he finally came to her stomach and rested his head on her. He looked up at her and scanned down her body as he started unbuckling her belt and before removing her jeans, he lovingly kissed her plump lips.
Rory never felt this kind of happiness. She let him know this by unclasping her bra and giving him a smirk. She started unbuttoning his shirt and feeling his chiseled chest and abs. She loved that about him, he was a lot more fit than Dean .
"What?" she had to know why he wouldn't stop looking into her eyes.
"Did I ever tell you how amazing you are?" She gave him a smile and watched
as Jess proceeded. Unconsciously, Rory's mind went elsewhere...
Rory knew that right now she should be doing a pro-con list in her head of what was about to happen or even thinking about how she promised her mom she would tell her when she was going to have sex, but that wasn't happening. She felt so guilty. Then she realized who's lips were on her stomach, who's body was on top of hers, who's hand was exploring her body, Jess. All her previous thoughts disappeared and now a feeling of ecstacy [take the actual meaning of this word into thought, not the drug. I'm not promoting drug use here...lol] replaced her guilt. She quickly stopped thinking about things and just did what felt right. She trusted Jess. She watched as he removed his pants and she forced herself not to think, just act. Because she wanted this, she had already thought about it. She had been thinking about it for the last week. There was no doubt in her mind that she loved Jess. Rory was pulled out of her thoughts the second she felt Jess in her, with her, loving her. She knew at that moment that there was no one else that was going to feel this good to her. He could always satisfy her emotionally and now she can honestly say that he can do the same physically. She never felt so loved before.
Rory wrapped her arms around Jess and pulled him in, she never wanted him to leave her side. "Jess?"
"What is it baby? Did I do something?" Jess questioned, nervously pulling away.
"NO! Not at all. Don't stop Jess. Don't ever leave me."
Jess held back tears as he kissed her closed eyes. He knew he had to tell her about the prom tickets, about all his lies, about not graduating, about his thoughts of leaving Stars Hollow. He didn't want to deal with telling Luke the bad news of not graduating. He would be devastated and would lecture for hours. Jess just wanted to run, run away from the hell he put himself in. He was distracted by his thoughts...
"JESS! Promise me you'll never leave me." She searched his eyes for that promise. Why wouldn't he say anything?
"Baby, that'll never happen." Rory reached up with a big smile on her face and kissed him passionately.
He was lying through his teeth. How could he bring the pain that was forthcoming? He had to leave and he knew Rory would never go with him. She had too many things going for her here.
They both feel asleep with thoughts jumping around in their heads. Rory slept peacefully knowing that everything was ok with Jess, knowing that he would never love anyone else, and knowing that he would never leave her. Jess, however, laid there all night thinking about how the hell he was ever going to leave the girl that slept beside him, but he had no choice. He had to leave to straighten out his life, to start fresh. He had to tell her as soon as possible, no exceptions. Jess already had to break the promise he just made so he couldn't let his thoughts go unheard any longer.
A/N; Sooooooo......what do ya think?? Please review. I really need to know if you guys like it so if you do I can keep writing. I was a little hesitant on whether this would turn out good or not. So just let me know your thoughts on this first chapter. Review!!!!!! =)
Chapter 1: Contradicting Thoughts
Disclaimer: I do not own any of these characters or this first scene which I took out of the episode "Keg Max". That's where my story leads off of. All belong to Amy Sherman Palladino and everyone else that partakes in the making of this amazing show.
"There you are!" Rory said, relieved at the fact that Jess hadn't just left the party without her.
"Hey"
"I've been looking all over for you." Rory had been irritated that Jess left her alone. She didn't want to say anything though, he seemed distant and upset the whole night
"Just got tired of everything down there." Jess was happy that Rory finally noticed he was gone. He just wanted her to be next to him, to have her comfort. He had too many stressful things on his mind to deal with anybody else.
Rory shut the door and locked it as she saw Jess stand up, thinking that maybe he would talk to her about what had been troubling him all day. They would need privacy for that. "Are we allowed to be up here, I mean, Kyle was kinda discouraging it."
"When you have a party, you get what you get." He saw her smile, which eased his mind a little. She always could do that with such a small a thing as smiling.
"Yeah I guess." Rory knew something was on his mind. She reached up and cupped is face. "Sad boy, what's wrong?" He shook his head figuring Rory would let it go, but Rory knew him better than that. Something was wrong. "You were looking forward to this party, what happened?"
"Nothing."
"Something did." She knew he didn't want to talk about it, he never wanted to talk about his problems, but Rory couldn't stand seeing him like this. "Come on, tell me."
He leaned in and gave her a light kiss. He just didn't want to talk about it, not now.
She bit her lips savoring the taste of his. "You're not tired of me are you?" She said teasingly.
He replied with a kiss that had more passion than the one before to reassure her that wasn't it.
"That's a pretty good answer." She smiled satisfied that she wasn't part of his troubles. But she still worried about him. As she opened her mouth to say something, Jess caught her words with his lips. He just didn't want to talk, and he hoped that Rory got his message.
He rested his forehead on hers to look in her eyes, 'I think she got the message' he thought to himself. They both moved in, closing the space between them. Jess' hands moved along her back and pulled her in closer. She felt his masculine hands holding her, loving her and her delicate legs could no longer hold up. Her arms, all the while, around his neck to support herself. She ran her hands through his hair and felt his supple lips envelop hers. They inched towards the bed and Jess gently lowered her down on her back. He slowly lifted her shirt off and took in her beauty. Sometimes it blew his mind away how beautiful she was. He left soft kisses down her neck, down her chest, and he finally came to her stomach and rested his head on her. He looked up at her and scanned down her body as he started unbuckling her belt and before removing her jeans, he lovingly kissed her plump lips.
Rory never felt this kind of happiness. She let him know this by unclasping her bra and giving him a smirk. She started unbuttoning his shirt and feeling his chiseled chest and abs. She loved that about him, he was a lot more fit than Dean .
"What?" she had to know why he wouldn't stop looking into her eyes.
"Did I ever tell you how amazing you are?" She gave him a smile and watched
as Jess proceeded. Unconsciously, Rory's mind went elsewhere...
Rory knew that right now she should be doing a pro-con list in her head of what was about to happen or even thinking about how she promised her mom she would tell her when she was going to have sex, but that wasn't happening. She felt so guilty. Then she realized who's lips were on her stomach, who's body was on top of hers, who's hand was exploring her body, Jess. All her previous thoughts disappeared and now a feeling of ecstacy [take the actual meaning of this word into thought, not the drug. I'm not promoting drug use here...lol] replaced her guilt. She quickly stopped thinking about things and just did what felt right. She trusted Jess. She watched as he removed his pants and she forced herself not to think, just act. Because she wanted this, she had already thought about it. She had been thinking about it for the last week. There was no doubt in her mind that she loved Jess. Rory was pulled out of her thoughts the second she felt Jess in her, with her, loving her. She knew at that moment that there was no one else that was going to feel this good to her. He could always satisfy her emotionally and now she can honestly say that he can do the same physically. She never felt so loved before.
Rory wrapped her arms around Jess and pulled him in, she never wanted him to leave her side. "Jess?"
"What is it baby? Did I do something?" Jess questioned, nervously pulling away.
"NO! Not at all. Don't stop Jess. Don't ever leave me."
Jess held back tears as he kissed her closed eyes. He knew he had to tell her about the prom tickets, about all his lies, about not graduating, about his thoughts of leaving Stars Hollow. He didn't want to deal with telling Luke the bad news of not graduating. He would be devastated and would lecture for hours. Jess just wanted to run, run away from the hell he put himself in. He was distracted by his thoughts...
"JESS! Promise me you'll never leave me." She searched his eyes for that promise. Why wouldn't he say anything?
"Baby, that'll never happen." Rory reached up with a big smile on her face and kissed him passionately.
He was lying through his teeth. How could he bring the pain that was forthcoming? He had to leave and he knew Rory would never go with him. She had too many things going for her here.
They both feel asleep with thoughts jumping around in their heads. Rory slept peacefully knowing that everything was ok with Jess, knowing that he would never love anyone else, and knowing that he would never leave her. Jess, however, laid there all night thinking about how the hell he was ever going to leave the girl that slept beside him, but he had no choice. He had to leave to straighten out his life, to start fresh. He had to tell her as soon as possible, no exceptions. Jess already had to break the promise he just made so he couldn't let his thoughts go unheard any longer.
A/N; Sooooooo......what do ya think?? Please review. I really need to know if you guys like it so if you do I can keep writing. I was a little hesitant on whether this would turn out good or not. So just let me know your thoughts on this first chapter. Review!!!!!! =)
