Hey guys, I'm back, sorry to be so late on the update, I was pretty busy and had got a chance update until today.  Thanks everyone who reviewed (I'm very excited, I have 156) which is 10 more then I asked for… thank you all and keep up the good work. Well, here is my highly anticipated and very shocking chapter.  Item of any of you guessed this judging from your reviews.  I guess my hands were subtler I thought, though it might click after you read this.  I'll probably make most of you upset by this chapter, but I promise it will get better, though I won't spoil it by telling you how… now without further ado, Thank you to all who reviewed:

Lady-Kitty: I know…I just needed a filler between my off action-packed chapters so I put that into useless chapter, sorry... update when you get a chance and I will try to review, in the meantime, if you get a chance, read this chapter and tell me what you think… thanks.

Midnight Moonbeam: Thanks.  Actually, I did know that… she told me her name was something like that once…JK Rowling is very interesting how she uses the Latin roots of stuff, though I couldn't nearly a live up to that…Amanda's just my friend and it was pretty random that I used her name… thanks for viewing and read this chapter and tell me what you think about it… thanks… and I'll see you then…

Milko01: Well, I'm happy that I didn't make any mistakes.  I might have done so in this chapter since it's longer.  Thanks for checking, and read this and tell me what you think when you get a chance.  Thanks, and I'll see you then…

            Princess Alyssa 16: Well, I'm glad you thought it was good, though it really was short.  I'll try to read your fic when I get a chance…e sorry I haven't gotten to yet I just have a lot of homework and I've been busy.  Thanks to know you think about this chapter, I'd really appreciate it... Happy New Year to you too…

            Witchblood13: Well, you caught up with my number of chapters.  So now I guess upset keep updating so you can read them.  There are some people that have me on their author alert list and haven't read my stories I found that did odd, and I'm glad to know that it's common; thanks…did you mean that Amanda was all blood…? Not Daine, Daine has kind of been cut out of the picture… temporarily while thanks for reviewing and tell me what you think about this next chapter.  And the ones after it if you want…I'll se you then…

            Aimee Damita: I meant the hints to the fact that Amanda wants to go home and keeps mentioning it.  She feels like she doesn't belong in that world, but I might not have foreshadowed correctly or I might have been too subtle… you should figure it out this chapter thanks for viewing and tell me what you think about all the rest. 

            Wildmag101: Where was your review? I miss you…we are drifting apart…sad…called you…Justin said you were really busy…see you tom…

            Thanks again to everyone who reviewed…so here is the chapter…prepare yourselves for a shock…

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Loneliness and Return

They rode back to their home later that week, and life finally fell back into the usual pattern. Spring came slowly that year, but when it finally arrived, the flowers were more beautiful than Amanda had ever seen flowers bloom. She spent her free time strolling the coast, of climbing trees, or exploring the forest. She was quieter and more removed then usual, lonely for her home, and family. Amanda knew she could never go back, and that she loved Numair, but she missed her friends. She missed Emily's annoying excitement, and Caroline's way of always making her put things in perspective, and Maeve's sarcastic humor. Numair noticed her unhappiness, and tried to comfort her as best he could, though it did not help much.

One night Amanda lay awake in bed, listening to the soft thunder of an approaching storm, and once again trying to think of a way to go home. She ran her fingers absent-mindedly across the chain around her neck. Then, suddenly, it hit her. Daine had given her this necklace, telling her that she could use it when all else failed... She took it out of her gown and examined it. It shone with the same, blue fire of another magic as it always had. If she could find a way to use it to go home...but how? She had gotten here by wishing, that's how she could go back. Amanda did not know why she was so certain about this, she just knew.

She could go home.

What about Numair? She never wanted to leave him, but there was something else calling her to leave beside pure nostalgia. Amanda belonged back where she came from, not here, no matter what her dream had said, her destiny was to go back where she came from, she had no choice now hat she knew how.

Amanda crept down the stairs to Numair's room, and called his name softly. She saw him sit up in the darkness, and light a candle.

"Are you okay?" he sounded worried. 

She took deep breath. "Numair, I have been thinking, about how I can return home, and I have figured out how. I can't help it, I must. I have never belonged here, and I never will. It is not you, I would rather die than leave you, but I have realized my destiny, and now I must go. I love you, I always have, and I am sorry." She gulped and looked down.

Numair looked sadder then she had ever seen him in her life, but seemed resigned, and did not argue.

"I know you must," he said in a cracking voice, "I have always known that someday you had to go back."  His voice broke, and he swept her up in a tight embrace. They kissed with longing and despair, Numair whispered into her ear as he held her.

"How will I ever go on without you, my sunshine?"

Tears had begun to flow down Amanda's cheeks, and she looked down so he wouldn't notice, but when she felt something damp on her hand, she realized that he was crying too. Finally he let her go and stepped back, his face was red and blotchy.

"Go now" he said roughly, his voice filled with held back tears, "before I change my mind."

Amanda turned and walked to the other side of the room, and took one last look at the man she had thought never to see again, both in this world, and her own.

"Good bye Numair, I'll always love you."

She pulled out her necklace and grasped it in her hand. Before she had lost all resolution, squeezed the gem and wished. Everything begun to spin so fast that it made her dizzy, she dropped her necklace, and as she closed her eyes, and left behind the only place she ever understood, she heard a whisper,

"Good bye, Amanda. I'll never forget you"

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            Well, there it is, I sent her back home…I don't know if anyone has ever done that before in a fic where someone goes into Tortall…did you guys get it when I kept hinting to the fact that she felt she did not belong…and that she was not meant to have changed history…so, after 18 chapters…here it is…the core of my plot, the meaning of the song…and the direction it will end up…so here it is…enjoy it…it took a while…but it will, I promise you, be worth the wait… I'll try to update before next Monday…but if I can't it means I have Exam review…and I will soon…let's go for 162…only 5 more…you know the deal, see you then…and keep it up, and I might update sooner…

-Thanks

-Queen of Connaught