Reflected Moonlight
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Chapter Four: How Can I Go On?
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Slowly the rain increased to a steady downfall. Kaoru picked herself up and staggered her way out of the alley her sobs growing louder and louder. She began to run faster and faster down the streets till she reached the lake. The fireflies glowed steadily even in the rain. She ran down to the banks of the river and stopped, gasping for breath.
This was the place where Kenshin had said goodbye to her before, when he left for Kyoto. This is where he had hugged her.
"Kenshin! Kenshin! Come back! Kenshin!" She screamed in a sob. She began running again, but her feet slipped and she slid to the ground.
She lay on the muddy ground crying and sobbing as though she was dying. And she was. She was dying inside. She could feel part of her die. There was a whole in her heart now that could never be filled.
Kenshin ran away down the rainy streets trying to get as far away from her as he could before he changed his mind. He knew that he couldn't live without her, that his life was nothing without her, but there was no way else to protect her. There was no way that he could be with her. He was a danger to her and she shouldn't even want to be near him. But she loved him. She loved him even though he had tried to take her life with his own hands. It wasn't right, it wasn't fair. She shouldn't have to suffer like this, being in love with a monster. For that was what he was, a monster to be hated and feared.
Sano raced out through the darkened streets. He had seen Kenshin change into the battousai and chase Kaoru out into the streets. He had run after them, but they had lost him easily. He had to find them. He had to stop Kenshin, no the battousai from hurting Kaoru. He knew that Kenshin would give his own life for Kaoru's, but there are just some things in this world that you can't control.
After about ten minutes of searching in the rain, he saw a figure racing down the streets. It had to be Kenshin.
Kenshin stopped in his tracks when he saw Sano.
"What are you doing here Sano! Get away! I have to leave. I have no choice." Kenshin screamed as he began to run again.
"Coward!" Sano yelled after him. Kenshin froze. "You're a coward Kenshin! You're running away from it all! You're leaving us all behind! You're too scared to face the truth so you're running away from it. You're too scared to lose her that you are running away from her and losing her in the process!"
Kenshin turned to face him, the tears and rain both pouring down his face.
"You don't know what you are talking about, you fool! I have to leave! I have to leave so that Kaoru can be safe! So that she can be happy!"
Sano started to get angry. "You're the fool Kenshin! You're the stupid one. You're running away from what you need in life, you're running away from her! She can't be happy without you, and you......you can't be happy without her....I know this....I've watched you two for a long time now. I know you are meant to be together!"
Kenshin's face screwed up in pain. "It doesn't matter if I need her to survive. She can't be safe when I'm with her. There's always that risk that I'll become the battousai again!"
"You're just scared to try, that's all Kenshin! You're a coward. It seems that she was able to change you back to Kenshin this time. Who says that next time she can't do it again? Who says there will be a next time? Life is full of risks and some of them you just got to take." Sano screamed through the downpour.
Kenshin's heart beat painfully. "Yes. I am scared. I'm scared to death that she will get hurt. I'm scared that she won't be able to find happiness. I know that there is a better chance of her achieving both if she wasn't with me."
Sano smashed his fist against the nearby building. "Kenshin! She isn't happy is she? Where is she right now? How does she feel now? I bet she isn't happy. Damn it Kenshin, you're a fool!"
Kenshin's eyes widened. "Maybe you're right. Maybe I am wrong...." A doubt grew in his mind.
"Of course I am right! Go find her Kenshin! Go find her before she does something stupid! Go find her before it's too late!" Sano screamed at him.
Kenshin heart squeezed tightly in his chest as he raced down the streets again and back to where he had left her. She was no where to be found. Where could she have gone?
~Thank you, jouchan-racoon-grl , Lady Shishi-san, ShilviGrl/Amyjenc1 for reviewing. Reviews really help me to write more..It means a lot..~
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Chapter Four: How Can I Go On?
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Slowly the rain increased to a steady downfall. Kaoru picked herself up and staggered her way out of the alley her sobs growing louder and louder. She began to run faster and faster down the streets till she reached the lake. The fireflies glowed steadily even in the rain. She ran down to the banks of the river and stopped, gasping for breath.
This was the place where Kenshin had said goodbye to her before, when he left for Kyoto. This is where he had hugged her.
"Kenshin! Kenshin! Come back! Kenshin!" She screamed in a sob. She began running again, but her feet slipped and she slid to the ground.
She lay on the muddy ground crying and sobbing as though she was dying. And she was. She was dying inside. She could feel part of her die. There was a whole in her heart now that could never be filled.
Kenshin ran away down the rainy streets trying to get as far away from her as he could before he changed his mind. He knew that he couldn't live without her, that his life was nothing without her, but there was no way else to protect her. There was no way that he could be with her. He was a danger to her and she shouldn't even want to be near him. But she loved him. She loved him even though he had tried to take her life with his own hands. It wasn't right, it wasn't fair. She shouldn't have to suffer like this, being in love with a monster. For that was what he was, a monster to be hated and feared.
Sano raced out through the darkened streets. He had seen Kenshin change into the battousai and chase Kaoru out into the streets. He had run after them, but they had lost him easily. He had to find them. He had to stop Kenshin, no the battousai from hurting Kaoru. He knew that Kenshin would give his own life for Kaoru's, but there are just some things in this world that you can't control.
After about ten minutes of searching in the rain, he saw a figure racing down the streets. It had to be Kenshin.
Kenshin stopped in his tracks when he saw Sano.
"What are you doing here Sano! Get away! I have to leave. I have no choice." Kenshin screamed as he began to run again.
"Coward!" Sano yelled after him. Kenshin froze. "You're a coward Kenshin! You're running away from it all! You're leaving us all behind! You're too scared to face the truth so you're running away from it. You're too scared to lose her that you are running away from her and losing her in the process!"
Kenshin turned to face him, the tears and rain both pouring down his face.
"You don't know what you are talking about, you fool! I have to leave! I have to leave so that Kaoru can be safe! So that she can be happy!"
Sano started to get angry. "You're the fool Kenshin! You're the stupid one. You're running away from what you need in life, you're running away from her! She can't be happy without you, and you......you can't be happy without her....I know this....I've watched you two for a long time now. I know you are meant to be together!"
Kenshin's face screwed up in pain. "It doesn't matter if I need her to survive. She can't be safe when I'm with her. There's always that risk that I'll become the battousai again!"
"You're just scared to try, that's all Kenshin! You're a coward. It seems that she was able to change you back to Kenshin this time. Who says that next time she can't do it again? Who says there will be a next time? Life is full of risks and some of them you just got to take." Sano screamed through the downpour.
Kenshin's heart beat painfully. "Yes. I am scared. I'm scared to death that she will get hurt. I'm scared that she won't be able to find happiness. I know that there is a better chance of her achieving both if she wasn't with me."
Sano smashed his fist against the nearby building. "Kenshin! She isn't happy is she? Where is she right now? How does she feel now? I bet she isn't happy. Damn it Kenshin, you're a fool!"
Kenshin's eyes widened. "Maybe you're right. Maybe I am wrong...." A doubt grew in his mind.
"Of course I am right! Go find her Kenshin! Go find her before she does something stupid! Go find her before it's too late!" Sano screamed at him.
Kenshin heart squeezed tightly in his chest as he raced down the streets again and back to where he had left her. She was no where to be found. Where could she have gone?
~Thank you, jouchan-racoon-grl , Lady Shishi-san, ShilviGrl/Amyjenc1 for reviewing. Reviews really help me to write more..It means a lot..~
