Chapter Two

AN: I'm sorry that the chapters are short but I don't want to reveal to much at one times so I'm just taking it slow, so if you call review and let me know what you think I would appreciate it!

"Hello Ellie." Doctor James greets a week later as Ellie walks into her office and takes her usual seat.

"Hello." Ellie's greeting is brief and the doctor can tell that she wants to say what she had come to say and get it over with.

"So would you like to continue talking about our topic from last week or do you want to talk about something else?" Doctor James questions.

"The same topic, please." Ellie states and the doctor can't help but notice she seems a lot more calm then she had the week before.

"Then please, continue." Doctor James urges, leaning forward to catch Ellie's always soft voice.

Sean and I actually started Ala-teen on the same night, which is just luck of chance because there are two meetings a night six times a week at the local community center that puts the meetings on. I guess that's basically saying there are either a lot of teens with drunk parents in the area I live in, or they just figured we needed all the help we could get...I guess it doesn't matter either way. But I was beyond scared when I saw Sean there the first night, I almost walked out, but I knew my dad was waiting in the parking lot to make sure I went to my first meeting, so I just tried to avoid him.

Sean and I weren't friends. We were barely even acquaintances, yes we hung out in the same circles, occasionally when he wasn't hanging out with his new friends , a bunch of trouble making older kids that I considered losers. Well I guess my opinion of who they used to be hasn't exactly changed. Anyway it didn't matter how much I didn't want to be in the same meetings with him, I didn't have a choice. I had to go to the last meeting on Saturday nights because nothing else fit into my schedule.

I don't really remember the first meeting, I've been to so many counseling sessions since that one they all just tend to blur together. But what I do remember from that evening was how defensive I was when I bumped into Sean outside of the small classroom where our meetings were being held. It wasn't that he was doing anything wrong, I was just angry at him for having to pick to come to these meetings in particular and how he'd been present to hear how I admitted what my mother died of. Thus making Sean the only one in school, or at least in the student body, to know how she died and that scared the hell out of me. I was a very private person back then, more so than I am right now, and I didn't want anyone to know my business. My best friend didn't even know how she died, so I sure as hell didn't want some near stranger to go around telling people one of my many secrets.

So that night I stopped Sean on our way out and completely tore into him. I told him that if he ever told anyway what I had said in that meeting, or any future meetings we just happened to attend together then I would deny it all. And at the end of that I strung together a whole stream of threats including suspension, nothing I could actually promise but I was scared. Sean took off then, and it wasn't until much later that sleepless night that I actually realized that I had probably offended him with my distrust in him and believing that he would feed the grapevine.

Ellie stops for a long while then, staring at her hands so Doctor James breaks into her thoughts hoping her words would encourage her to talk. "Sean seems like someone you didn't trust from the start."

Ellie shakes her head, "I didn't trust anyone then." She laughs sardonically, "I guess I don't exactly trust anyone now. But for awhile Sean was actually the only person I trusted."

Doctor James nods, "don't get ahead of yourself though. You need to talk out all of the details so you understand them fully."

"You we be finished for today?" Ellie questions.

Doctor James nods, "if that's what you want."

"I have a headache, I don't really want to go on anymore."

"Ellie you only have to say as much or as little in these meetings as you want. You don't need to stress of this in anyway possible. If you are stressing you need to come see me about it."

Ellie nods, "but I'm not stressing. I just have a little headache from not sleeping well last night, I like to think things through before I talk to you about them."

Doctor James nods, "but don't loose to much sleep over this. So we're done?"

Ellie nods, "I'll see you next week."

Doctor James nods again, "all right Ellie, I'll see you next week."