Chapter Five:

"Ellie, I must apologize for our last meeting there was an emergency that I had to take care of." Doctor James states when Ellie walks into her office a week later.

Ellie shrugs, "it's all right. No big deal really."

"Well, then are you ready to begin?" Doctor James asks.

Ellie nod, "all right, sure."

Sean grabbed my arm and dragged me out of the cafeteria once I told him that I was the one who had started the rumors that we were going out. I must have flinched or something from the pain in my arms, not because of how hard he was holding my arm (it really wasn't that hard) but from the pain off the deep scratches on my arm being griped. Sean apologized right away, he thought he had hurt me, but I brushed him off telling him it was nothing.

Ellie rubs the scars on her bare arms, almost if she could feel the pain inflicted nearly 5 years before.

I started telling him then why I did what I did. About how I couldn't bare for the entire school or even just one person to know my secrets about my family and most of all about how my mother had died. Sean always seemed to understand everything about me, and this was one of those things as I explained all he did was nod along in understanding. I literally almost cried when he said that he would go along with it, and I quickly thanked him a million times over and quickly assured them that it wouldn't have to be for long, only long enough for everyone to stop carrying about us being together.

"Sean went along with all of this without anything else?" Doctor James questions.

Ellie nods, "he suggested it before I could even ask it of him."

"So he made the choice to stage this fake relationship?"

Ellie shrugs, "I sort of backed him into though."

"Maybe. " Doctor James states, "but in the end he made the choice."

"I guess."

Sean tried to cover up his pity, I guess I knew Sean well enough to know that he hated to feel pity for anyone, he had to much respect for anyone to give them the pity he never wanted. Sean and I really had a lot in common. We both had alcoholic parents, both of his parents were alcoholics but most of all we both had lives that we hid from everyone. We both had secrets that even the people closest to us, his ex-girlfriend and my best friends, didn't understand or even know that they didn't know.

Ellie leans back in her chair then, almost exhausted by her recount of a five minutes of her past.

"You seemed to have strong feelings for Sean at this point in time."

"Adoration, I think. I wasn't in love with him then, or maybe I was. I'm not exactly sure when I fell in love with Sean but I couldn't have felt stronger feelings for anyone at that point in time. As lame as this is going to sound but at that point in time he was my hero. Anyway, I think that's all I can do for now. Next week, all right?"

Doctor James nods, "all right Ellie, I will see you next week. You are doing quite well."

Ellie shrugs, "it's taking a long time."

"It's a painful time period for you, it'll take some time."