Ok, before I forget, I'm going to do something I meant to a while ago. I want to thank Taproot, because the song Poem (by Taproot) is what inspired this fic and what keeps it going. So if you want to, download it, and you won't be disappointed because it's a really great song. Now, back to the story, if I can remember where I stopped.
I spent days void of all feelings except anger. A dull, constant anger ebbed through my veins, always there.
Every day was the same. I "told" the maid that I didn't like dresses, but I'd wear skirts, and the next day my closet was full of skirts, shirts, and a few vests. Every morning I'd wake up, bathe, get dressed, then go down to breakfast. I'd sit in a table in the corner, and some elf would usually join me, most of the time Elladan or Elrohir. They'd ask me a few questions and I'd answer back the bast I could, seeing as how I could mostly just nod or shake my head. But then I noticed a few things about the Elves. See, when you don't talk, you tend to pay more attention to everyone else, and for me, I looked at everyone's eyes. It's weird how you can tell so much about a person just from their eyes. And that lead me to the second thing I discovered. Somehow, the Elves could always figure out what I was trying to tell them, it was like they could read my mind.
After breakfast I'd slip away and get lost in Rivendell and try to find my way back before dinner. I'd almost always be able to make it back, well, except for the time I got so lost Elladan had to come and find me. But when I got to dinner, it was no different than breakfast. I'd pick at my food, in my corner, but after dinner I'd sneak away into the gardens.
On my sixth night in Rivendell I flopped into bed and sighed. I was afraid that I'd go insane soon, doing the same thing every day, surrounded by my anger. With nothing to help me escape from it, I'd surely go insane soon. But there wasn't anything I could do about it, I'd just have to hope something would happen.
The next day I woke up, feeling worse than any day I'd spent in Rivendell so far. I didn't feel anything as I bathed and got dressed. It was like I was completely void of feeling. I wandered slowly down to breakfast, and found Elladan already sitting at the table in the corner.
"Good morning Melina." He said smiling as I slid into my seat. It took me a moment to register his words, but then my head snapped up and my feeling came back. I looked at him with a look somewhere between incredible surprise and confusion. How did he know my name?!?! I'd never spoken it in Rivendell, so there was no way he could've heard.
He chuckled. "So you want to know how I figured out?" I nodded, the same surprised look still on my face. "Well, it was the maid really. When she washed the shirt you came here in, on a tag in its neck she found the word MELINA written, and told me about it." I mouthed 'oh', I realized it must've been a shirt I'd brought to camp once, and my mom had written my name in it so it wouldn't get lost.
"But if you were wondering why she told me, it is because, I admit, I've become rather curious about your coming here. I mean, it's not everyday that someone who doesn't talk, and knows nothing about Middle Earth just appears, you know?" he said. I understood, and just nodded, smiling for the first time this morning. I started to eat breakfast, which wasn't very much, and Elladan kept speaking.
"So, why do you just wander around all day, getting yourself lost?" he asked. I shrugged, meaning that I had nothing else to do, so I just wandered around.
"Hmm. . ." he said leaning back. There was just the sound of other Elves eating and talking for a few minutes, but then Elladan spoke again. "Have you ever used a bow and arrows before?" he asked looking me in the eyes. His question surprised me a little, but eventually I nodded. I had a little experience when it came to archery. I'd actually been pretty good at it because of the strength I had in my shoulders and forearms.
"So then, would you like to come to the archery range tomorrow? It would be a good alternative to just wandering around all day, and I could help you out with your shooting." He said. I thought about it for a little while, and then nodded. It would be better than just wandering around, and it would be somewhat of a distraction from my anger.
"Great, we could start right after breakfast tomorrow!" Elladan said smiling.
'No, not early in the morning, no.' I thought, my face starting to burn. Mornings to me were a living hell. For some reason, in the mornings my body hurt like hell, and I could not be around people then. I'd always suspected it was from the beatings, during the mornings after my dad beat me I'd always hurt, and I guess it happened so frequently that my body just hurt unconsciously every morning.
I shook my head hard, I couldn't do it right after breakfast. Elladan raised an eyebrow and looked questioningly at me. "No? Well, how about late morning then?" I nodded. Usually by 10:30 or 11:00 I would be back to normal, so I could handle going later in the morning.
"Ok then," Elladan said smiling "Late tomorrow morning it is, you can meet me here and I'll show you where the archery range is." I smiled back and nodded. We both got up then and I walked off towards the gardens.
And just then, my last shred of hope peeked out over the edge of the void inside me.
Yes, I know it's a short and not a very good chapter, but next chapter will be a long one. So until next time, keep watching the pies. Wait, did I say that last chapter? Woah, I don't think I can hear very well anymore, I've been blasting The Sickness at full volume for this whole chapter and my ears are ringing. . .
I spent days void of all feelings except anger. A dull, constant anger ebbed through my veins, always there.
Every day was the same. I "told" the maid that I didn't like dresses, but I'd wear skirts, and the next day my closet was full of skirts, shirts, and a few vests. Every morning I'd wake up, bathe, get dressed, then go down to breakfast. I'd sit in a table in the corner, and some elf would usually join me, most of the time Elladan or Elrohir. They'd ask me a few questions and I'd answer back the bast I could, seeing as how I could mostly just nod or shake my head. But then I noticed a few things about the Elves. See, when you don't talk, you tend to pay more attention to everyone else, and for me, I looked at everyone's eyes. It's weird how you can tell so much about a person just from their eyes. And that lead me to the second thing I discovered. Somehow, the Elves could always figure out what I was trying to tell them, it was like they could read my mind.
After breakfast I'd slip away and get lost in Rivendell and try to find my way back before dinner. I'd almost always be able to make it back, well, except for the time I got so lost Elladan had to come and find me. But when I got to dinner, it was no different than breakfast. I'd pick at my food, in my corner, but after dinner I'd sneak away into the gardens.
On my sixth night in Rivendell I flopped into bed and sighed. I was afraid that I'd go insane soon, doing the same thing every day, surrounded by my anger. With nothing to help me escape from it, I'd surely go insane soon. But there wasn't anything I could do about it, I'd just have to hope something would happen.
The next day I woke up, feeling worse than any day I'd spent in Rivendell so far. I didn't feel anything as I bathed and got dressed. It was like I was completely void of feeling. I wandered slowly down to breakfast, and found Elladan already sitting at the table in the corner.
"Good morning Melina." He said smiling as I slid into my seat. It took me a moment to register his words, but then my head snapped up and my feeling came back. I looked at him with a look somewhere between incredible surprise and confusion. How did he know my name?!?! I'd never spoken it in Rivendell, so there was no way he could've heard.
He chuckled. "So you want to know how I figured out?" I nodded, the same surprised look still on my face. "Well, it was the maid really. When she washed the shirt you came here in, on a tag in its neck she found the word MELINA written, and told me about it." I mouthed 'oh', I realized it must've been a shirt I'd brought to camp once, and my mom had written my name in it so it wouldn't get lost.
"But if you were wondering why she told me, it is because, I admit, I've become rather curious about your coming here. I mean, it's not everyday that someone who doesn't talk, and knows nothing about Middle Earth just appears, you know?" he said. I understood, and just nodded, smiling for the first time this morning. I started to eat breakfast, which wasn't very much, and Elladan kept speaking.
"So, why do you just wander around all day, getting yourself lost?" he asked. I shrugged, meaning that I had nothing else to do, so I just wandered around.
"Hmm. . ." he said leaning back. There was just the sound of other Elves eating and talking for a few minutes, but then Elladan spoke again. "Have you ever used a bow and arrows before?" he asked looking me in the eyes. His question surprised me a little, but eventually I nodded. I had a little experience when it came to archery. I'd actually been pretty good at it because of the strength I had in my shoulders and forearms.
"So then, would you like to come to the archery range tomorrow? It would be a good alternative to just wandering around all day, and I could help you out with your shooting." He said. I thought about it for a little while, and then nodded. It would be better than just wandering around, and it would be somewhat of a distraction from my anger.
"Great, we could start right after breakfast tomorrow!" Elladan said smiling.
'No, not early in the morning, no.' I thought, my face starting to burn. Mornings to me were a living hell. For some reason, in the mornings my body hurt like hell, and I could not be around people then. I'd always suspected it was from the beatings, during the mornings after my dad beat me I'd always hurt, and I guess it happened so frequently that my body just hurt unconsciously every morning.
I shook my head hard, I couldn't do it right after breakfast. Elladan raised an eyebrow and looked questioningly at me. "No? Well, how about late morning then?" I nodded. Usually by 10:30 or 11:00 I would be back to normal, so I could handle going later in the morning.
"Ok then," Elladan said smiling "Late tomorrow morning it is, you can meet me here and I'll show you where the archery range is." I smiled back and nodded. We both got up then and I walked off towards the gardens.
And just then, my last shred of hope peeked out over the edge of the void inside me.
Yes, I know it's a short and not a very good chapter, but next chapter will be a long one. So until next time, keep watching the pies. Wait, did I say that last chapter? Woah, I don't think I can hear very well anymore, I've been blasting The Sickness at full volume for this whole chapter and my ears are ringing. . .
