Chapter Twelve
When Ellie walked into Doctor James' office she looked almost worse than she had when she had come to the hospital nearly a year before. Almost reading Doctor James' thoughts she held out her arms stating, "see, I am getting better. No cutting for 6 months, I was able to resist this entire week, that's not to see that this week hasn't been hard."
"Why do you think this week has been so hard?" Doctor James asks.
Ellie takes a deep calming breath, "because I am starting to relive every detail."
"You've put most of these memories away so that's understandable. Why don't you tell me why you are facing all of these now?"
Ellie shakes her head, "I have to live in the past before I can live in the future right?"
"I don't know about that, but if that's what you think you must do then I want you to do whatever will make this as easy as possible."
I don't actually know how long we kissed for but my father came in interrupting by clearing his throat. This freaked Sean out, I guess with the relationship he has with his father having my father walk in on our first kiss..probably not the best thing. So he did what I did earlier that night, he bolted. Before I could go after him my father stated that we had to talk so we sat down on my bed and my father explained how he didn't have a problem with my having a boyfriend, or even with him coming over. All he wanted to make sure was that there were no lies between us, and he stressed the fact that there were no lies between us and he also said that he would like to get to know Sean also. So I agreed not only because I had to but because after what I had been through with my mom a stable relationship with my dad was exactly what I wanted and what I needed. And then I asked if I could go after Sean and my father agreed and apologized for scaring him off. I caught up with him quickly, he hadn't really gotten far just down the road, I quickly told him that it was all right and that my dad wasn't mad. I told him he could come back with me and meet my dad but before he could even say anything....
Ellie takes a deep shaking breath before continuing.
Before Sean could say anything Jay showed up and he was saying things, mostly to get a rise out of Sean, about how he had converted to be a goody goody and he would never amount to anything and they continued to mock Sean...
"I'm done." Ellie states suddenly.
Doctor James stares at Ellie, she's not surprised in almost a year Ellie had probably only said Jay's name two or three times. "All right Ellie."
"I'm leaving now." Ellie states on her feet all right, "I'll see you next week."
When Ellie walked into Doctor James' office she looked almost worse than she had when she had come to the hospital nearly a year before. Almost reading Doctor James' thoughts she held out her arms stating, "see, I am getting better. No cutting for 6 months, I was able to resist this entire week, that's not to see that this week hasn't been hard."
"Why do you think this week has been so hard?" Doctor James asks.
Ellie takes a deep calming breath, "because I am starting to relive every detail."
"You've put most of these memories away so that's understandable. Why don't you tell me why you are facing all of these now?"
Ellie shakes her head, "I have to live in the past before I can live in the future right?"
"I don't know about that, but if that's what you think you must do then I want you to do whatever will make this as easy as possible."
I don't actually know how long we kissed for but my father came in interrupting by clearing his throat. This freaked Sean out, I guess with the relationship he has with his father having my father walk in on our first kiss..probably not the best thing. So he did what I did earlier that night, he bolted. Before I could go after him my father stated that we had to talk so we sat down on my bed and my father explained how he didn't have a problem with my having a boyfriend, or even with him coming over. All he wanted to make sure was that there were no lies between us, and he stressed the fact that there were no lies between us and he also said that he would like to get to know Sean also. So I agreed not only because I had to but because after what I had been through with my mom a stable relationship with my dad was exactly what I wanted and what I needed. And then I asked if I could go after Sean and my father agreed and apologized for scaring him off. I caught up with him quickly, he hadn't really gotten far just down the road, I quickly told him that it was all right and that my dad wasn't mad. I told him he could come back with me and meet my dad but before he could even say anything....
Ellie takes a deep shaking breath before continuing.
Before Sean could say anything Jay showed up and he was saying things, mostly to get a rise out of Sean, about how he had converted to be a goody goody and he would never amount to anything and they continued to mock Sean...
"I'm done." Ellie states suddenly.
Doctor James stares at Ellie, she's not surprised in almost a year Ellie had probably only said Jay's name two or three times. "All right Ellie."
"I'm leaving now." Ellie states on her feet all right, "I'll see you next week."
